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Sunday 5 July 2009
The Valentine romance
Sunday 14th February 1993, Debra Evans woke up with a hang over after a heavy night out with her brother John and his friends. Debra's head was spinning round and round like a top. Debra had a glass of water by her bedside as she heard her Mother Jean shout. Debra took a spit of her water.
" Debra Sunday dinner is ready, it's 12.00p!"
" Don't shout Mother." Debra morned as she was half asleep.
" Why do you have to shout Mother, my heard is hurting."
" Don't be silly, it's dinner time, missed breakfast hours ago."
Debra looked at the clock, as Jean walked into the bedroom, she gave Debra a card that someone put through the door. Debra opened the card.
" It's valentine card with a pink teddy bear on, I wonder who that's off."
" I don't normally get Valentine cards, I have never had a boyfriend."
Jean never said a word as Debra got out of bed.
Debra passed John by the stairs as she walked down to go for her Sunday dinner.
" Morning John, do you know anything about this card."
John laughed.
" Morning Debra, not a clue. "
" Apart from anyone of your mates John, I don't know who could be."
" Who knows Debra?"
Jean brought Debra's Sunday dinner over with a cup of coffee, she sat at the table by John.
" Don't look so confused Debra, it could be anyone."
" Would you look confused if you did not know who the card was off."
" The whole idea is to be surprised Debra."
"That's true."
Suddenly the door knocked, there was a lady delivering a Milk Tray and a brunch of red rose. Debra answered the door. Debra's Father Tim answered the door.
" Miss Debra Evans, that's my daughter."
Tim brought the dozen red roses and Milk tray to the table and two pink teddy bears with red love hearts onto the tablet with a big smile on her face but still very surprised and puzzled who it could have been from.
" Let's look at the writing Debra!" said John
Debra gave John the Valentine's card and the card to the flowers.
" Well there's no post on Sunday so someone has just put through our letter box." said Mum
" Does the writing ring any bells to you John?"
" No Mum."
" How strange." said Debra
" Well it is your lucky day Debra." said Mum with a big smile."
To my valentine
Love from
Your valentine
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
" This person may have seen me before Mum but also knows where I live."
" He may be walking down our road right now Debra." said Mum
" It could be someone who may have seen you walk into this house many times.
All day long Debra had been trying to work out who it could be. John who guessed who the person who it could have been in his mind, he knew the writing but he did not tell anyone.
It was 7.00pm, there was a knock on the door. Debra's Father Tim answered the door again. There was a young man in Nary uniform standing outside the door, he had jet black hair and dark brown eyes.
" Is a Blondie and blue eyed lady there?
" Of cause she is, you must be the mystery man." said Tim
" Oh yes I am, my name is Mark."
" Debra. " called Tim
Debra walked up to the door as they both smiled into one anther's' eyes, the rest is a mystery.
This story was first written 14th February 1996.
" Debra Sunday dinner is ready, it's 12.00p!"
" Don't shout Mother." Debra morned as she was half asleep.
" Why do you have to shout Mother, my heard is hurting."
" Don't be silly, it's dinner time, missed breakfast hours ago."
Debra looked at the clock, as Jean walked into the bedroom, she gave Debra a card that someone put through the door. Debra opened the card.
" It's valentine card with a pink teddy bear on, I wonder who that's off."
" I don't normally get Valentine cards, I have never had a boyfriend."
Jean never said a word as Debra got out of bed.
Debra passed John by the stairs as she walked down to go for her Sunday dinner.
" Morning John, do you know anything about this card."
John laughed.
" Morning Debra, not a clue. "
" Apart from anyone of your mates John, I don't know who could be."
" Who knows Debra?"
Jean brought Debra's Sunday dinner over with a cup of coffee, she sat at the table by John.
" Don't look so confused Debra, it could be anyone."
" Would you look confused if you did not know who the card was off."
" The whole idea is to be surprised Debra."
"That's true."
Suddenly the door knocked, there was a lady delivering a Milk Tray and a brunch of red rose. Debra answered the door. Debra's Father Tim answered the door.
" Miss Debra Evans, that's my daughter."
Tim brought the dozen red roses and Milk tray to the table and two pink teddy bears with red love hearts onto the tablet with a big smile on her face but still very surprised and puzzled who it could have been from.
" Let's look at the writing Debra!" said John
Debra gave John the Valentine's card and the card to the flowers.
" Well there's no post on Sunday so someone has just put through our letter box." said Mum
" Does the writing ring any bells to you John?"
" No Mum."
" How strange." said Debra
" Well it is your lucky day Debra." said Mum with a big smile."
To my valentine
Love from
Your valentine
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
" This person may have seen me before Mum but also knows where I live."
" He may be walking down our road right now Debra." said Mum
" It could be someone who may have seen you walk into this house many times.
All day long Debra had been trying to work out who it could be. John who guessed who the person who it could have been in his mind, he knew the writing but he did not tell anyone.
It was 7.00pm, there was a knock on the door. Debra's Father Tim answered the door again. There was a young man in Nary uniform standing outside the door, he had jet black hair and dark brown eyes.
" Is a Blondie and blue eyed lady there?
" Of cause she is, you must be the mystery man." said Tim
" Oh yes I am, my name is Mark."
" Debra. " called Tim
Debra walked up to the door as they both smiled into one anther's' eyes, the rest is a mystery.
This story was first written 14th February 1996.
Dulcuet et Decorrum EST.
INTRODUCTION The first world war was 1914 - 1918, the great war, it was a fit for heroes war. A war poet Wilfred Owen was a soldier in that war. In this poem, he wrote about the experience he and his friend had. This is Wilfred had to say.
Men found money and food hard to get. They walked with sacks on their backs, want help. Sometimes they managed. They were so tried, they were near enough sleep walking. They sank in the mud, as they lost their boots.
WOUNDS The bombs explosions, dirt, dust, smoke, bullets and poisonous mustard caused deafness, blindness breathing problems, coughing, choking, smoking through stress and injuries to the bodies. Either they died or were disabled for life. They were if they came home fit and well.
Conclusion We have no idea what it was like to be in their shoe or should I say boots? Wilfred wrote the poem Dulcet et Decorum EST to make people understand these men suffered. I think he had the right idea to warn us. We'll if only we knew if it happened to us. Wilfred hoped it won't.
Men found money and food hard to get. They walked with sacks on their backs, want help. Sometimes they managed. They were so tried, they were near enough sleep walking. They sank in the mud, as they lost their boots.
WOUNDS The bombs explosions, dirt, dust, smoke, bullets and poisonous mustard caused deafness, blindness breathing problems, coughing, choking, smoking through stress and injuries to the bodies. Either they died or were disabled for life. They were if they came home fit and well.
Conclusion We have no idea what it was like to be in their shoe or should I say boots? Wilfred wrote the poem Dulcet et Decorum EST to make people understand these men suffered. I think he had the right idea to warn us. We'll if only we knew if it happened to us. Wilfred hoped it won't.
The story Bob Marley
I think Clive must have researched out of books or the internet, may even both.
Bob's biography was written by Clive Jackson about twenty years after Bob's death.
I enjoyed reading Bob's story because he led a very complex life where he was born in Jamaica. I enjoy reading about people from other counties and difference back grounds. ( Difference .) The kind of life I have and never experience.
I think I have been a fan of Bob and his band as long as I have been a fan of Queen. My Mother used to listen to Bob's music when I was a child so Bob was one of many stars that I was brought up with.
I found the information easy to read but hard to understand. I can't put my finger on the reason why, may be it's because I know so little about Bob Marley. If I get his main biography, I may understand more, I'd like to read that.
You never know what's true and what is not in what you read about famous people. One piece of information can tell you difference to the other.
Clive had introduced Bob's Reggie music to his readers well and very little about his private life, famous people Bob knew, Bob's hobbies and life before he became famous. I find that even more interesting.
Bob's biography was written by Clive Jackson about twenty years after Bob's death.
I enjoyed reading Bob's story because he led a very complex life where he was born in Jamaica. I enjoy reading about people from other counties and difference back grounds. ( Difference .) The kind of life I have and never experience.
I think I have been a fan of Bob and his band as long as I have been a fan of Queen. My Mother used to listen to Bob's music when I was a child so Bob was one of many stars that I was brought up with.
I found the information easy to read but hard to understand. I can't put my finger on the reason why, may be it's because I know so little about Bob Marley. If I get his main biography, I may understand more, I'd like to read that.
You never know what's true and what is not in what you read about famous people. One piece of information can tell you difference to the other.
Clive had introduced Bob's Reggie music to his readers well and very little about his private life, famous people Bob knew, Bob's hobbies and life before he became famous. I find that even more interesting.
Thursday 2 July 2009
Granny
My Granny used to sit and talk to her friends and family in her chair.
Like all Grannies she she'd fall a sleep in her rocking chair like a baby sleeps in their cot.
Now Granny's chair is empty and bare.
My Granny has think sliver gray naturally curly hair.
She used to talk looking at you through those lovely kinds eyes as she would stair.
I'd even feel lost without seeing Granny mostly when I go to her house where my Father lives.
I'd even saw my Grandfather, Father and Uncle after she died.
Like Granny's funerals we went to say good bye,
I did not cry because she would not wanted us to cry, she lived a grand old age of eighty - three. 1997 - 2000
Fiction stories.
When I saw any fields of woods as a child I thought of Red riding hood walking through.
When the light was turned off at night I thought of a frightened little girl, which I was frightened too.
When the teachers read me the story of LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD when I was in boarding school. I was looking for Little Red Riding Hood in the dark.
I would also be looking to see if the big bad woof was coming out of the wardrobe every time the wardrobe opened more and more.
The woof and wardrobe were inside my mind after LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD was read out to me as a very small child.
The wardrobes in my bedroom at the time would slide from side to side I where was at the time. There weren't any woods outside but later on in my childhood but family lived in a house in the woods.
At bed time I cried because I was frightened of the big bad woof in the dark.
I thought the story of RED RIDING HOOD was a true story for years.
What is true, I am still unsure whether to I believe in ghosts or not.
Have MOST HAUNTED really shown ghosts?
People thought I was very silly in the days I believed in Farly tales.
Society is very unsure what the truth is.
When it comes to television it all used to seem to like things were going on for real but no people acting the stories.
It took me a long time to believe that most stories are fiction which is imagination. 1997 - 2000
The big tiger.The big tiger will bit if he needs to bit.
You will wake up in the night with a fright.
The big tiger seems to have evil eyes.
The big tiger also have very bright orange stripes.1997 - 2012
Why does it happen?
Wouldn't be nice to be a sleep in peace without losing the people you love.
Everyone feels empty without love.
I think the mail thing that causes war is religion, nationality and colour of skin.
It would be nice to wake up to the world to have less people attacking one another?
Please stop this war!
Save us all!
No hurt, no pain, no death and no war.
The chance would be a fine thing.
Freedom at last.
Looking to the future.
Children and young people with their whole lives a head of them.
Children grow into adults like us, we were once children like them.
We hope there's no war any more.
It's hard to say, many people in many generations of war must have hoped war would stop, which is wishful thinking.
All the same we are all human beings even though we might difference kind of people.
The world would be a boring place if we were all the same.
We just need to accept the kind of people one another are whether we have a choice to be how we are or not.
There are all difference kind of people in the world, why can't we accept that?
The world would be boring if we were all the same, then may be we would still attack one another. 31.1.2001 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012
War verse for any war.
Gray planes flying in the sky.
Bleeding wounds and died bodies what a bloody mess the world is in.
Love and home is where the heart is.
Ships sailing in the water from place to place.
Some soldiers live and others died. 31.1.2001
First world war.
The first world war was what you called the Great war.
How bad is that because no war is great?
This must have been Kaiser Williams' idea to called the Great war.
Still, what does one except Kaiser was the person who made the First World war possible? Wilfred Owen, Siegfried Sassoon, Rupert Brooke and many more First World war poets who were First World war soldiers.
It was Hitler who made the Second World war possible having been a soldier in the First World war.
Hitlers reason for the Second World War is because he want the Germans to win because they did not win the First World war, it did not get him anywhere because the Germans did not win either wars.
In the mean time Hitler destroyed Jews, Disabled people, Gays and lives of all kinds of people with difference race.
What a dangerous man Hitler was!
Now the Gulf war is here the Germans are keeping out, they haven't got the money anymore.
The German's are not really to blame for both wars the blame is Kaiser Williams and Hitler for creating those two world wars, the Germans just took their orders.
The British and the Americans beat the Germans but some people say it would have been better if the Germans would have won, they think Britain and the States would have been a better place if we would have lost the Germans.
It does not mean that I have been told the right information about counties been better off if they would have lost Two World wars, it does not mean I understood clearly what people said to me.
A lot of men suffered Mustard gas in the First World war my Grandfather's Father was one of them.
People wore Gas masks to protect themselves from bombs, smoke and etc in the air.
A lot of soldiers sank in their boots in the muddy bogs.
Sore wounded soldiers had been hibernated from place to place.
Bodies of dead soldiers anywhere and everywhere.
Sleep in peace not war.
What a horror of war!
The world is full of emptiness without love.
What does it matter about peoples' religion, nationality and colour of skin, they are what and who they just like we are?
What we tend to forget is that these men that died so young in this messy war died to give us our lives but lost their own.
We have a lot to thank these young men but these men were old than us but yet younger than us, they did not even have chance to experience life like we have, we must thank our lucky stars. 31.1.2001 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012
The Second World.
Tears from woman when their lovers have had to go to war.
There was rain of sadness for them all.
Now knowing whether or not they are going to see their lovers again.
Death and life can be so cruel, if the world is that cruel why was it made?
Blood and burns anywhere and everywhere.
It was not all sad times that people sing, dance be happy but they were trying trying to make out what was this bloody war was about.
There's no prefect world, things can't be good all the time but the world gets crueler. 31.1.2001
War poem.
It's time to kiss and say bye.
Good hearts miss one another.
There are are memories of tears, sadness and happiness.
It becomes a mystery what the future is, not knowing whether your love one is going to live or not.
It's very hard to have a war that you do not wonder about being wounded or the loss of life. 31.1.2001
John Lennon.
John Lennon was a young hippie in the 1960s.
He believed in peace not war.
He would not be happy with the world been any other way than peace not war.
Today he'd be rolling in his grave if he saw knew what a mess the world is today.
John always rewarded brave people.
He wrote great song and poetry.
He drew and painted lovely pictures.
He was a very clever man.
The sad thing was that he did not died in people but with a bang bang.
Everyone guessed that John Lennon wanted to died at a peaceful grand old age with no pain but just in his sleep. 31.1.2001
Freedom at last.Looking forward to the future is very hard to do.
There are young children and adults with their whole lives ahead of them.
Young men and woman risking their lives to save others.
Wouldn't it be nice to say freedom at last?
It gets too much when everyone rightly wants peace so why have war then we will always have peace?31.1.2001
You've lived a good long life.
The Germans made your life hell one way or the other in the second world war.
Now everyone likes all their own people in their own country let alone other counties.
There's no point of being raciest : there's no point of war.
Life is hard enough without war.
Sometimes you can lose friendships when your country is given a bad name.
We are all human beings.
If everyone liked everyone in the world it would be a perfect and a boring world.
People full out enough without fights.
You have a had good long life.
You told the family things about the Second World war.
Times have changed so much like they do, we have not done and saw what you have done and saw.
We are not like you, we have not lived.
We do not know we are born.
If it had not have been for you we would not have been here today.
You clever brave soldier who lived through the Germans giving you such a hard time.
We thank our lucky stars we have not been through what you have been through.
Not many of us will risk our lives for others, what is wrong with us, we are not as brave as you were Granddad?
You enjoyed the good times and copied with the bad times.
That's more than I can say for us in the world today.
We must not make a fuss about our bad times which were not as bad as what you bad times were.
Thank you for giving us day by day in the best way you can.
When there's a will there's a way of coping with the hardest things in life.
If you got through hard times surly we can.
However big or small the problem we will get through the days and nights of of our lives.
More problems mended in the end but sometimes you can't mend what has been broken.
You lived to be eighty - six and came home to my Gran at the end of the Second World War.
We are all glad that you lived a grand old age but we miss you more and more.
You were tried and had enough of the bad in life but you miss the good.
We remember you with happiness.
Rest in peace Granddad.
Thank you from us all.
However, never mind and never worry. 31.1.2001 - 22.4.2003 - 18.8.2012
Love and War.
Husbands and boyfriends go to fight at war.
Wives and girlfriends waiting at the door.
What if he falls in love with someone else?
What if he dies and does not pull through.
Oh god I will cry, oh my oh my.
The baby cries, no milk and why?
No money to buy milk.
Now I need my true love even more and more.
Is that him knocking at the door?
My word darling I need you more.
Five years at war is a long time.
Please darling can I nurse you wounds.
Cheer up darling you have won the war, there is not a war anymore.
I will nurse you darling more and more until you are well, I would not dream of letting you dwell.
Loving arms from the man you love who served his country.
No more weeping tears.
It's just look if he's still alive.
Peace at last.
The future is now what you think about.1997 - 2001 - 19.8.2012
The first world war soldier's mind.
It's November to December time, my world is a fall of sinking in a muddy bog.
Bombs, shooting and frighting going on, my best mates dieing in mud.
My mates have all gone, I have girl or family to stay with at Christmas time. 31.1.2001
People left behind.It's very sad for families, lovers and friends when someone dies from war.
My heart bleeds for people who have lost their loved ones through all wars at all times.
Some people feel hopeless when they are here and the people are over there.
If I were not disabled I'd go to risk my life to save others.
I hope as many people as possible will put through this war now, even if we have had to learn to accept lost lives. 31.1.2001
Farly Tale verse.
I used to dream about what love would be about when I was growing up.
I used to dream about meeting my handsome prince.
Now it feels as if there's no such thing as Farly Tale land which there is not.
I must accept that there's no such man as Mr Right.
I used to think he must be my king and I must be his queen.
We would have had plenty of princes and princesses but now I am glad it did not happen in this day and age.
One day I woke up knowing that I had a Farly Tale dream, which turned out to be sad but may be in a way is a good thing. 1997 - 2000
11th September 2001.
It's hard to forget the two towers falling down in New York.
The 11th September 2001 is on your mind all the time.
It's hard to sleep, you feel so weak.
It's such a shock when you lose the people you love, I guess this has given so much danger to buildings and homes.
Remembering the people you knew for the people they were.
Heaven should be a peaceful place for them.
No one else will be the same to you but sadly life goes on.
They are in their own worlds sleeping and dreaming in peace.
They want you to live day by day.
They want to feel better by your lives and for you to live better lives than what they did.
You can't be sad all the time.
Every 11th September will sadly be a reminder for you that you don't need to be reminded of but a chance to remember the happy times you had together. 31.10.2002 - 1.11.2002
Fright and fear.
Does anyone know whether or not, if Brush and Brair have done the right thing by this war?
I don't think they have done the right thing, this war could kill the world with crime on top.
The world wants peace and love not greed and war.
We want to keep away from people who hate us.
Don't kill!
The devil will get you in the end, if there is life after death.
We will live in heaven to give peace and love.
You will live in hell with the devil if there is such a thing to believe in.
This is a message to people who want to give war to people, you will live and dwell in hell. 3-9.3.2003
I don't believe what I hear.Many a times I have woke up hoping that the war was just a nightmare.
We are still trying to find out who was to blame for September 11th 2001.
Proof or not, why jump the gun, it could be anybody or anyone it may even bo more than one.
These things need to be looked into a bit more slowly and carefully.
The British government is giving the British people a bad name, when not every British person is to blame for this war.
Did Sardam caused the war? Who knows!
Why let more and more people get killed?
Too many good heroes out there risking their lives to save others.
With war most people sadly get killed in the end.
We had been told that Sardam had killed a lot of his own people in Iraqi.
People say Sardam is a very cure and hurtful man.
People in Iraqi don't have water, food and clothes because of Sardam. 10-13.3.2003
What's going to happen?What a nightmare that's so true.
What is this world coming to, I think this is world war three, this could be killing we.
My question is!
Are we going to be having more than thousands of lives lost round the world?
How much is this war going to cost, more lives lost extra cost on tax?
Will it get to the stage that we could be all dead with no world?
I hope there are some people around to read this poem.
There's no question or answer, no right, no wrong.
No one can see the future to what it's going to give us.
Tomorrow is just another day and tonight is unknown.
Tomorrow is yet to come. 13-16.3.2003
Peace.
We want this war to be over.
We want our lives to be lived to the full, knowing that we will still be here tomorrow.
Be happy to live your life how you want and the best way you can.
No one knows how you and me are going to end up to be. 17.3.2003
Love.
Give the world as much love as you can.
It takes all kinds of people to make a war but it take all kinds of people to give love.
We are all in the same boat in ways fearing for people's lives and our own.
We should all get through this war together by loving and supporting another.
Know one will know where it will be one day to the next, most countries may be safe not but in the future who knows!
We must as much peace and love as much as we can but no war.
Be brave enough to take it day by day. 12-13.5.2003
War and peace.
What a life.
Make sure you have good times.
Try to get through the bad times.
You start off young.
You end up old but then you learn a lot more than you know now.
Everyone wonders about what life all is all about whether it's a waste or not.
Life is what you make it, if you make it good, it's no waste at all.There are too many people risking their lives for others.
They are risking their lives for you and me.
We are risking our lives in our country in order to live our lives.
There are too many dangerous people about on this earth sadly.
Heaven could be the most peaceful place to be if there is a place called heaven.14-15.5.2003 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012
Mothers and children.
Mothers and children stuffing from war.
Babies been born during the war.
Life can get shorter by war but we can be strong enough to pull through war.
Lives can be put at risk everywhere with bombs going off in schools and children wearing gas masks.
Never knowing how many people live and how many die. 15-16.5.2003
Hurt.
Sleeping and hanging around the streets feeling weak.
No one knows what the future holds.
Many children are in care without families of their own.
There's so much terror out there, they are in need of peace and love.
It's very sad that so many young people lose their live so soon.
How can we see them stuffer with so much pain?
They are so brave to stand the pain.
How can we heel the wounds from been scared for life or death.
Having had to cope with hurt through war, what about the children who get beaten up by adults.
It's such a cruel world out there. 16-19.5.2003
Who is!
Who is or who are the person or people who caused the 11th 2001 war?
That person or even those people could be alive or even dead.
He or she could be anywhere to be.
Nobody knows the answers.
President Brush should not jump the gun.
He's giving America a bad name Saying it's Saddam Hussein.
No one can just blame anyone 23.5.2003
Death.
We all suffer lose of love.
This brings pain to everyone.
These things happen through war, illnesses, car crashes and etc.
All we have left is memories.
One life lost another one starts. 26.5.2003
Coping.
No one to talk to.
No children, no Grandchildren.
No one cares.
Far too cold, I want to be warm.
No where to cool down, it's too easy to pass out.
Not knowing whether or not tomorrow is going to be a good or bad day.
Are there going to be homes for the homeless, many have lived like this since the 2nd world war.At night I look at the stars.
I make my private wish.
I accept death that people are looking and thinking what they would think and say to what I do, don't, say and don't say.
They could be watching every little step and sound I make laughing crying.
Watch what you say and think how people who you have would response to how you live your life now. 28.5.2003 - 29.5.2002 -18.8.2012
Why why not?
Why not have peace, love and freedom?
Why have bad people breaking this world?
Why stuffer so much pain?
Why feel as if someone or something is missing out your life?
The bad people may die but it does not bring back the good people who they killed.
Really only the good die young.
29.5.2003
What next?
Why is the tunnel so dark?
Why can't we see the light at the end of the tunnel?
Where are we going to end up?
Will we ever get peace and love?
Will we ever be happy enough to put behind fear, fright and pain?
Will we be forever brave?
Will we ever feel human again? 3.5.2003
People.
People who are unlucky don't show their true feelings.
They don't show their sadness, they still smile and laugh even thought they feel as if the world is coming down on them.
Most lucky people show unhappiness all the time and they become greedy.
Us lucky people should show smiles and happiness.
We must be happy with what we have got.
We must help the unlucky people become lucky.
Most rich people are greedy, they want more once they get it all.
Most poor people are as happy as if they have got the world.
Most people who have just enough money to live on help the poor out but most of the rich are out for their selves.
The poor have no choice neither do the people who are just about lucky enough to have enough to live on.
More poor people seem to be kinder than most rich.
Some people who are well off are just alright.
One saying that has always stood the rich are getting richer : the poor are getting poorer.
The well off can go either one way or the other.
( What is life all about?)
Even though we live life everyday, it's still hard to understand.
( Does anyone even understand the human brain?) 2-6.62004
What a life
.Iraqi has had enough of Saddam Hussan.
They say he has took away their food, water and clothes.
Britain has had enough muggings, murders and goodness knows what.
America has the same problem as Britain.
Bair and Brush think they can attack Saddam Hussan without Iraqi.
That's very hard without feeling guilty that thousands of poor people may be killed in Iraqi.
This is world war 3.
I can understand why the Iraq civilians hate Saddam so much for what he put them through.
Saddam started off wanting to fight Britain and American as well as his own people.
The last Gulf war was in 1991.
On and off for 20 years this war has seemed to have carried on to other counties.
There was talk about the war been over back 2003 when it had yet again begun.
We all hate wars!
While the soldiers were in Iraqi, Saddam went off else where.
No one knew whether Saddam was dead or alive.
Everyone was all on edge in case he came back to harm his own people.
This would have caused them more pain.
The soldiers wanted to go home.
The soldiers wanted to know that the civilians were living peaceful lives.
We thought the Saddam war would have carried on, it's seemed to have lasted forever until Britain and America killed him. 23.4.2003 - 6.6.2003 - 19.8.2012
Humanity.
I am not against humanity, I am human myself.
There should be no one against humanity because we are all human.
Why is there war, stop the war!
Feel free to go to church if or and when you want!
Don't do what you don't want to do!
Be the person you want to be.
You are still human if your black and your still human if your white.
You should be welcome where you want to be but counties must not be over crowded with people because we all should have human rights.
Feel free to walk away if your not happy with but society should notgive you anything to fright you should feel free.
Life is too short to waste without making it any worse than it is.
There should be something to be happy about, smile about and laugh about.
For far too long now we have had too much to cry about so let's stop upsetting one another!
I know the world seems to be falling to pieces but we can live in hope.
Take everything as it comes.
Do whatever makes you happy.
Crying and thinking about it all the while is not going to end.
Losing a friend or a member of the family is very sad.
Get support off people that will will help you get on with your life.
You are strong one way or the other.
We all know it's not possible to live a perfect life, we can't get good news all the while but there's far too much bad news today.
Winter cold, snow, rain, hale, sleet and wind.
Autumn, cold winds blowing the leaves on the trees that change from green to golden brown bit by bit.
Hot sunny days sun baying.
Most green leaves create a lovely green leaves on the trees for a garden life. 6-12.62003 -
Thoughts.They lose their lives to save others.
The hurt, pain and upset for family and friends.
We should love one another over the loss of our loved ones.
We will never know how long it's going to last.
We wonder if any of us are going to be here at all.
No matter what views we have got, we want peace and love. 6-12.6.2003
Will it ever end?
Why is there war, will it ever end?
Be careful people!
There's nothing we can do about this war unless it ends.
It will take as long as it takes, which make seem like forever or never.
Make the most of life, you will never know what's round the dark condor.
There's no point falling out over war no point at all.
Whatever we all think we are all suffering in our own way.
Life becomes wasted if you let it so make the most of it
Why can't the earth be quiet?
Why is not life worth living?
We all know or should know that the world is not black and white, it look at it in the right light.
If you wait long enough there's a bright light at the end of that tunnel, just don't stop until you get there, it's a long way to see it but it's there.
There's far too much crime without causing more in this country with causing more and without causing war.
The only thing that could be causing that there are far too many people in the world but we also have rights to live where we live.
There does not seem to be enough money around to keep far many people in one country so government should think more carefully and about the people who were born and still live in their country.
So many lives have been lost through war and crime, it's cruelty to humanity.
Stop it all now!
Stop harming the lives of children as well as teenagers and adults!
We don't know how bigger mountain we have to climb.
We don't know how much life is left but cherish every moment at your best.
We are all together drinking and talking.
Finding out how one another got here in the first place.
How are we going to get out of here to start to lead a normal life whatever that is?
No one should have to stuffer at all.
Sadly this is part of everyone's lives.
Why is there war, there should be peace.
It's too dark to climb that mountain yet. 16-19.6.2003 - 18. 8 .2012
Children.Children having nightmares and waking up crying.
There's fear when you look into their eyes.
Living with fear, when going to school, scared of been bullied, scared of abused, scared of rape and scar of bombs going off.
Screaming, shouting in fear of death.
There's enough violence in the world without causing more.
Why don't we call it one word for it all dangerous things we go through, that could be war!
There's enough fear out there for everyone.
Aircraft, shooting bombs flying through the sky.
Every fright, fear and pain.
Famlies worrying about children.
Thank god if the children are safe enough.
Give as much love and care as possible.
Be brave and strong as you can.
Fight through the pain and fear.
Never walk alone in this world.
We have to look forward in time not back.
Live in hope that the war will be over soon.
Look forward to peace.
Young lives may begun then end.
Some lucky people may just come through. 22.4. 2003 - 18.8.2012
The strength to carrying on.
I can taste, sense, feel, see and hear fear.
Shooting from guns, bombs and planes.
Unhappy news events of death.
Give love, care and support.
If the world on earth is dangerous, just may be the world in heaven is safe.
Not that I am a believer or disbeliever in earth and heaven because no one can say for sure, it's very unknown what is true or not.
My fear is it's world war starting from 2003 that really started in 2001 when New York towels fell.
Let's face it the whole world could be coming down on you and me.
Be brave in hope we will get but then if the worse comes to the worst no one is alone it will will all come to us altogether.
Let's hope we walk from darkness to lightness.
Thank goodness if we see any light at all.
We have been lucky enough to miss two world wars.
Our Grannies and Granddads went through all this for us.
We don't know how lucky we are to have been born.
Everyday ups and down is a war as it is.
Through out history, we're lucky the world is still standing. 22.4.2003 - 23-25.6.2003 - 18.8.2012
Nature human life.
What a state of the human race.
Why is this the case?
The fightings, the killings and wounded soldiers who are far too young to lose their lives.
Why are we so cruel to one another?
Why can't the world create peace not war?
We all have different views about just like all topics.
So much disagreements can turn into war.
I hate people fulling out they are making war for themselves.
War is boring mainly when it goes on far too long but the truth is there should be no war.
War just brings history to us all.
What it teaches us is the generation before us had it worse than us. War takes human lives away, that's not nature at all.
Young lives gone through the fault of other human beings who are not either animals or humans they are just killers.
I also hurts famlies and friends, leaves children without a parent or two.
These people may well risk their lives to save others but they still die.
Life is cruel to us.
We are given fear of being hated.
There's no answer to any question of war being cruel to life.
The thing is to think strong, give time and you will find happiness with something, someone somewhere some day.
Give us peace and love on earth not war.
Wishful thinking is to stop war.
Give us a future to look forward to.
Give us freedom to live happy lives the best way we can. 26.6.2003 -18.8.2012
What's it all about?
What's the point of being born when there's war?
You go to school, college, work, may be marry have children or and etc..
Your parents Grandparents and great Grandparents and etc have been there before us.
All this happens then it's time to die.
What's the point of been born when there's too much pain to stuffer?
Jumping the gun, when disliking other counties, to me that is racism.
People must understand we don't like everyone in our own country who is the same as us so why dislike every person difference to us?
What is the same we are all human beings.
If we all liked one another it would be a perfect boring world but let's not be racism to one another.
We should keep away from another if we can't get on with one another. 27.6.2003 - 18.8.2012
Like all Grannies she she'd fall a sleep in her rocking chair like a baby sleeps in their cot.
Now Granny's chair is empty and bare.
My Granny has think sliver gray naturally curly hair.
She used to talk looking at you through those lovely kinds eyes as she would stair.
I'd even feel lost without seeing Granny mostly when I go to her house where my Father lives.
I'd even saw my Grandfather, Father and Uncle after she died.
Like Granny's funerals we went to say good bye,
I did not cry because she would not wanted us to cry, she lived a grand old age of eighty - three. 1997 - 2000
Fiction stories.
When I saw any fields of woods as a child I thought of Red riding hood walking through.
When the light was turned off at night I thought of a frightened little girl, which I was frightened too.
When the teachers read me the story of LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD when I was in boarding school. I was looking for Little Red Riding Hood in the dark.
I would also be looking to see if the big bad woof was coming out of the wardrobe every time the wardrobe opened more and more.
The woof and wardrobe were inside my mind after LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD was read out to me as a very small child.
The wardrobes in my bedroom at the time would slide from side to side I where was at the time. There weren't any woods outside but later on in my childhood but family lived in a house in the woods.
At bed time I cried because I was frightened of the big bad woof in the dark.
I thought the story of RED RIDING HOOD was a true story for years.
What is true, I am still unsure whether to I believe in ghosts or not.
Have MOST HAUNTED really shown ghosts?
People thought I was very silly in the days I believed in Farly tales.
Society is very unsure what the truth is.
When it comes to television it all used to seem to like things were going on for real but no people acting the stories.
It took me a long time to believe that most stories are fiction which is imagination. 1997 - 2000
The big tiger.The big tiger will bit if he needs to bit.
You will wake up in the night with a fright.
The big tiger seems to have evil eyes.
The big tiger also have very bright orange stripes.1997 - 2012
Why does it happen?
Wouldn't be nice to be a sleep in peace without losing the people you love.
Everyone feels empty without love.
I think the mail thing that causes war is religion, nationality and colour of skin.
It would be nice to wake up to the world to have less people attacking one another?
Please stop this war!
Save us all!
No hurt, no pain, no death and no war.
The chance would be a fine thing.
Freedom at last.
Looking to the future.
Children and young people with their whole lives a head of them.
Children grow into adults like us, we were once children like them.
We hope there's no war any more.
It's hard to say, many people in many generations of war must have hoped war would stop, which is wishful thinking.
All the same we are all human beings even though we might difference kind of people.
The world would be a boring place if we were all the same.
We just need to accept the kind of people one another are whether we have a choice to be how we are or not.
There are all difference kind of people in the world, why can't we accept that?
The world would be boring if we were all the same, then may be we would still attack one another. 31.1.2001 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012
War verse for any war.
Gray planes flying in the sky.
Bleeding wounds and died bodies what a bloody mess the world is in.
Love and home is where the heart is.
Ships sailing in the water from place to place.
Some soldiers live and others died. 31.1.2001
First world war.
The first world war was what you called the Great war.
How bad is that because no war is great?
This must have been Kaiser Williams' idea to called the Great war.
Still, what does one except Kaiser was the person who made the First World war possible? Wilfred Owen, Siegfried Sassoon, Rupert Brooke and many more First World war poets who were First World war soldiers.
It was Hitler who made the Second World war possible having been a soldier in the First World war.
Hitlers reason for the Second World War is because he want the Germans to win because they did not win the First World war, it did not get him anywhere because the Germans did not win either wars.
In the mean time Hitler destroyed Jews, Disabled people, Gays and lives of all kinds of people with difference race.
What a dangerous man Hitler was!
Now the Gulf war is here the Germans are keeping out, they haven't got the money anymore.
The German's are not really to blame for both wars the blame is Kaiser Williams and Hitler for creating those two world wars, the Germans just took their orders.
The British and the Americans beat the Germans but some people say it would have been better if the Germans would have won, they think Britain and the States would have been a better place if we would have lost the Germans.
It does not mean that I have been told the right information about counties been better off if they would have lost Two World wars, it does not mean I understood clearly what people said to me.
A lot of men suffered Mustard gas in the First World war my Grandfather's Father was one of them.
People wore Gas masks to protect themselves from bombs, smoke and etc in the air.
A lot of soldiers sank in their boots in the muddy bogs.
Sore wounded soldiers had been hibernated from place to place.
Bodies of dead soldiers anywhere and everywhere.
Sleep in peace not war.
What a horror of war!
The world is full of emptiness without love.
What does it matter about peoples' religion, nationality and colour of skin, they are what and who they just like we are?
What we tend to forget is that these men that died so young in this messy war died to give us our lives but lost their own.
We have a lot to thank these young men but these men were old than us but yet younger than us, they did not even have chance to experience life like we have, we must thank our lucky stars. 31.1.2001 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012
The Second World.
Tears from woman when their lovers have had to go to war.
There was rain of sadness for them all.
Now knowing whether or not they are going to see their lovers again.
Death and life can be so cruel, if the world is that cruel why was it made?
Blood and burns anywhere and everywhere.
It was not all sad times that people sing, dance be happy but they were trying trying to make out what was this bloody war was about.
There's no prefect world, things can't be good all the time but the world gets crueler. 31.1.2001
War poem.
It's time to kiss and say bye.
Good hearts miss one another.
There are are memories of tears, sadness and happiness.
It becomes a mystery what the future is, not knowing whether your love one is going to live or not.
It's very hard to have a war that you do not wonder about being wounded or the loss of life. 31.1.2001
John Lennon.
John Lennon was a young hippie in the 1960s.
He believed in peace not war.
He would not be happy with the world been any other way than peace not war.
Today he'd be rolling in his grave if he saw knew what a mess the world is today.
John always rewarded brave people.
He wrote great song and poetry.
He drew and painted lovely pictures.
He was a very clever man.
The sad thing was that he did not died in people but with a bang bang.
Everyone guessed that John Lennon wanted to died at a peaceful grand old age with no pain but just in his sleep. 31.1.2001
Freedom at last.Looking forward to the future is very hard to do.
There are young children and adults with their whole lives ahead of them.
Young men and woman risking their lives to save others.
Wouldn't it be nice to say freedom at last?
It gets too much when everyone rightly wants peace so why have war then we will always have peace?31.1.2001
You've lived a good long life.
The Germans made your life hell one way or the other in the second world war.
Now everyone likes all their own people in their own country let alone other counties.
There's no point of being raciest : there's no point of war.
Life is hard enough without war.
Sometimes you can lose friendships when your country is given a bad name.
We are all human beings.
If everyone liked everyone in the world it would be a perfect and a boring world.
People full out enough without fights.
You have a had good long life.
You told the family things about the Second World war.
Times have changed so much like they do, we have not done and saw what you have done and saw.
We are not like you, we have not lived.
We do not know we are born.
If it had not have been for you we would not have been here today.
You clever brave soldier who lived through the Germans giving you such a hard time.
We thank our lucky stars we have not been through what you have been through.
Not many of us will risk our lives for others, what is wrong with us, we are not as brave as you were Granddad?
You enjoyed the good times and copied with the bad times.
That's more than I can say for us in the world today.
We must not make a fuss about our bad times which were not as bad as what you bad times were.
Thank you for giving us day by day in the best way you can.
When there's a will there's a way of coping with the hardest things in life.
If you got through hard times surly we can.
However big or small the problem we will get through the days and nights of of our lives.
More problems mended in the end but sometimes you can't mend what has been broken.
You lived to be eighty - six and came home to my Gran at the end of the Second World War.
We are all glad that you lived a grand old age but we miss you more and more.
You were tried and had enough of the bad in life but you miss the good.
We remember you with happiness.
Rest in peace Granddad.
Thank you from us all.
However, never mind and never worry. 31.1.2001 - 22.4.2003 - 18.8.2012
Love and War.
Husbands and boyfriends go to fight at war.
Wives and girlfriends waiting at the door.
What if he falls in love with someone else?
What if he dies and does not pull through.
Oh god I will cry, oh my oh my.
The baby cries, no milk and why?
No money to buy milk.
Now I need my true love even more and more.
Is that him knocking at the door?
My word darling I need you more.
Five years at war is a long time.
Please darling can I nurse you wounds.
Cheer up darling you have won the war, there is not a war anymore.
I will nurse you darling more and more until you are well, I would not dream of letting you dwell.
Loving arms from the man you love who served his country.
No more weeping tears.
It's just look if he's still alive.
Peace at last.
The future is now what you think about.1997 - 2001 - 19.8.2012
The first world war soldier's mind.
It's November to December time, my world is a fall of sinking in a muddy bog.
Bombs, shooting and frighting going on, my best mates dieing in mud.
My mates have all gone, I have girl or family to stay with at Christmas time. 31.1.2001
People left behind.It's very sad for families, lovers and friends when someone dies from war.
My heart bleeds for people who have lost their loved ones through all wars at all times.
Some people feel hopeless when they are here and the people are over there.
If I were not disabled I'd go to risk my life to save others.
I hope as many people as possible will put through this war now, even if we have had to learn to accept lost lives. 31.1.2001
Farly Tale verse.
I used to dream about what love would be about when I was growing up.
I used to dream about meeting my handsome prince.
Now it feels as if there's no such thing as Farly Tale land which there is not.
I must accept that there's no such man as Mr Right.
I used to think he must be my king and I must be his queen.
We would have had plenty of princes and princesses but now I am glad it did not happen in this day and age.
One day I woke up knowing that I had a Farly Tale dream, which turned out to be sad but may be in a way is a good thing. 1997 - 2000
11th September 2001.
It's hard to forget the two towers falling down in New York.
The 11th September 2001 is on your mind all the time.
It's hard to sleep, you feel so weak.
It's such a shock when you lose the people you love, I guess this has given so much danger to buildings and homes.
Remembering the people you knew for the people they were.
Heaven should be a peaceful place for them.
No one else will be the same to you but sadly life goes on.
They are in their own worlds sleeping and dreaming in peace.
They want you to live day by day.
They want to feel better by your lives and for you to live better lives than what they did.
You can't be sad all the time.
Every 11th September will sadly be a reminder for you that you don't need to be reminded of but a chance to remember the happy times you had together. 31.10.2002 - 1.11.2002
Fright and fear.
Does anyone know whether or not, if Brush and Brair have done the right thing by this war?
I don't think they have done the right thing, this war could kill the world with crime on top.
The world wants peace and love not greed and war.
We want to keep away from people who hate us.
Don't kill!
The devil will get you in the end, if there is life after death.
We will live in heaven to give peace and love.
You will live in hell with the devil if there is such a thing to believe in.
This is a message to people who want to give war to people, you will live and dwell in hell. 3-9.3.2003
I don't believe what I hear.Many a times I have woke up hoping that the war was just a nightmare.
We are still trying to find out who was to blame for September 11th 2001.
Proof or not, why jump the gun, it could be anybody or anyone it may even bo more than one.
These things need to be looked into a bit more slowly and carefully.
The British government is giving the British people a bad name, when not every British person is to blame for this war.
Did Sardam caused the war? Who knows!
Why let more and more people get killed?
Too many good heroes out there risking their lives to save others.
With war most people sadly get killed in the end.
We had been told that Sardam had killed a lot of his own people in Iraqi.
People say Sardam is a very cure and hurtful man.
People in Iraqi don't have water, food and clothes because of Sardam. 10-13.3.2003
What's going to happen?What a nightmare that's so true.
What is this world coming to, I think this is world war three, this could be killing we.
My question is!
Are we going to be having more than thousands of lives lost round the world?
How much is this war going to cost, more lives lost extra cost on tax?
Will it get to the stage that we could be all dead with no world?
I hope there are some people around to read this poem.
There's no question or answer, no right, no wrong.
No one can see the future to what it's going to give us.
Tomorrow is just another day and tonight is unknown.
Tomorrow is yet to come. 13-16.3.2003
Peace.
We want this war to be over.
We want our lives to be lived to the full, knowing that we will still be here tomorrow.
Be happy to live your life how you want and the best way you can.
No one knows how you and me are going to end up to be. 17.3.2003
Love.
Give the world as much love as you can.
It takes all kinds of people to make a war but it take all kinds of people to give love.
We are all in the same boat in ways fearing for people's lives and our own.
We should all get through this war together by loving and supporting another.
Know one will know where it will be one day to the next, most countries may be safe not but in the future who knows!
We must as much peace and love as much as we can but no war.
Be brave enough to take it day by day. 12-13.5.2003
War and peace.
What a life.
Make sure you have good times.
Try to get through the bad times.
You start off young.
You end up old but then you learn a lot more than you know now.
Everyone wonders about what life all is all about whether it's a waste or not.
Life is what you make it, if you make it good, it's no waste at all.There are too many people risking their lives for others.
They are risking their lives for you and me.
We are risking our lives in our country in order to live our lives.
There are too many dangerous people about on this earth sadly.
Heaven could be the most peaceful place to be if there is a place called heaven.14-15.5.2003 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012
Mothers and children.
Mothers and children stuffing from war.
Babies been born during the war.
Life can get shorter by war but we can be strong enough to pull through war.
Lives can be put at risk everywhere with bombs going off in schools and children wearing gas masks.
Never knowing how many people live and how many die. 15-16.5.2003
Hurt.
Sleeping and hanging around the streets feeling weak.
No one knows what the future holds.
Many children are in care without families of their own.
There's so much terror out there, they are in need of peace and love.
It's very sad that so many young people lose their live so soon.
How can we see them stuffer with so much pain?
They are so brave to stand the pain.
How can we heel the wounds from been scared for life or death.
Having had to cope with hurt through war, what about the children who get beaten up by adults.
It's such a cruel world out there. 16-19.5.2003
Who is!
Who is or who are the person or people who caused the 11th 2001 war?
That person or even those people could be alive or even dead.
He or she could be anywhere to be.
Nobody knows the answers.
President Brush should not jump the gun.
He's giving America a bad name Saying it's Saddam Hussein.
No one can just blame anyone 23.5.2003
Death.
We all suffer lose of love.
This brings pain to everyone.
These things happen through war, illnesses, car crashes and etc.
All we have left is memories.
One life lost another one starts. 26.5.2003
Coping.
No one to talk to.
No children, no Grandchildren.
No one cares.
Far too cold, I want to be warm.
No where to cool down, it's too easy to pass out.
Not knowing whether or not tomorrow is going to be a good or bad day.
Are there going to be homes for the homeless, many have lived like this since the 2nd world war.At night I look at the stars.
I make my private wish.
I accept death that people are looking and thinking what they would think and say to what I do, don't, say and don't say.
They could be watching every little step and sound I make laughing crying.
Watch what you say and think how people who you have would response to how you live your life now. 28.5.2003 - 29.5.2002 -18.8.2012
Why why not?
Why not have peace, love and freedom?
Why have bad people breaking this world?
Why stuffer so much pain?
Why feel as if someone or something is missing out your life?
The bad people may die but it does not bring back the good people who they killed.
Really only the good die young.
29.5.2003
What next?
Why is the tunnel so dark?
Why can't we see the light at the end of the tunnel?
Where are we going to end up?
Will we ever get peace and love?
Will we ever be happy enough to put behind fear, fright and pain?
Will we be forever brave?
Will we ever feel human again? 3.5.2003
People.
People who are unlucky don't show their true feelings.
They don't show their sadness, they still smile and laugh even thought they feel as if the world is coming down on them.
Most lucky people show unhappiness all the time and they become greedy.
Us lucky people should show smiles and happiness.
We must be happy with what we have got.
We must help the unlucky people become lucky.
Most rich people are greedy, they want more once they get it all.
Most poor people are as happy as if they have got the world.
Most people who have just enough money to live on help the poor out but most of the rich are out for their selves.
The poor have no choice neither do the people who are just about lucky enough to have enough to live on.
More poor people seem to be kinder than most rich.
Some people who are well off are just alright.
One saying that has always stood the rich are getting richer : the poor are getting poorer.
The well off can go either one way or the other.
( What is life all about?)
Even though we live life everyday, it's still hard to understand.
( Does anyone even understand the human brain?) 2-6.62004
What a life
.Iraqi has had enough of Saddam Hussan.
They say he has took away their food, water and clothes.
Britain has had enough muggings, murders and goodness knows what.
America has the same problem as Britain.
Bair and Brush think they can attack Saddam Hussan without Iraqi.
That's very hard without feeling guilty that thousands of poor people may be killed in Iraqi.
This is world war 3.
I can understand why the Iraq civilians hate Saddam so much for what he put them through.
Saddam started off wanting to fight Britain and American as well as his own people.
The last Gulf war was in 1991.
On and off for 20 years this war has seemed to have carried on to other counties.
There was talk about the war been over back 2003 when it had yet again begun.
We all hate wars!
While the soldiers were in Iraqi, Saddam went off else where.
No one knew whether Saddam was dead or alive.
Everyone was all on edge in case he came back to harm his own people.
This would have caused them more pain.
The soldiers wanted to go home.
The soldiers wanted to know that the civilians were living peaceful lives.
We thought the Saddam war would have carried on, it's seemed to have lasted forever until Britain and America killed him. 23.4.2003 - 6.6.2003 - 19.8.2012
Humanity.
I am not against humanity, I am human myself.
There should be no one against humanity because we are all human.
Why is there war, stop the war!
Feel free to go to church if or and when you want!
Don't do what you don't want to do!
Be the person you want to be.
You are still human if your black and your still human if your white.
You should be welcome where you want to be but counties must not be over crowded with people because we all should have human rights.
Feel free to walk away if your not happy with but society should notgive you anything to fright you should feel free.
Life is too short to waste without making it any worse than it is.
There should be something to be happy about, smile about and laugh about.
For far too long now we have had too much to cry about so let's stop upsetting one another!
I know the world seems to be falling to pieces but we can live in hope.
Take everything as it comes.
Do whatever makes you happy.
Crying and thinking about it all the while is not going to end.
Losing a friend or a member of the family is very sad.
Get support off people that will will help you get on with your life.
You are strong one way or the other.
We all know it's not possible to live a perfect life, we can't get good news all the while but there's far too much bad news today.
Winter cold, snow, rain, hale, sleet and wind.
Autumn, cold winds blowing the leaves on the trees that change from green to golden brown bit by bit.
Hot sunny days sun baying.
Most green leaves create a lovely green leaves on the trees for a garden life. 6-12.62003 -
Thoughts.They lose their lives to save others.
The hurt, pain and upset for family and friends.
We should love one another over the loss of our loved ones.
We will never know how long it's going to last.
We wonder if any of us are going to be here at all.
No matter what views we have got, we want peace and love. 6-12.6.2003
Will it ever end?
Why is there war, will it ever end?
Be careful people!
There's nothing we can do about this war unless it ends.
It will take as long as it takes, which make seem like forever or never.
Make the most of life, you will never know what's round the dark condor.
There's no point falling out over war no point at all.
Whatever we all think we are all suffering in our own way.
Life becomes wasted if you let it so make the most of it
Why can't the earth be quiet?
Why is not life worth living?
We all know or should know that the world is not black and white, it look at it in the right light.
If you wait long enough there's a bright light at the end of that tunnel, just don't stop until you get there, it's a long way to see it but it's there.
There's far too much crime without causing more in this country with causing more and without causing war.
The only thing that could be causing that there are far too many people in the world but we also have rights to live where we live.
There does not seem to be enough money around to keep far many people in one country so government should think more carefully and about the people who were born and still live in their country.
So many lives have been lost through war and crime, it's cruelty to humanity.
Stop it all now!
Stop harming the lives of children as well as teenagers and adults!
We don't know how bigger mountain we have to climb.
We don't know how much life is left but cherish every moment at your best.
We are all together drinking and talking.
Finding out how one another got here in the first place.
How are we going to get out of here to start to lead a normal life whatever that is?
No one should have to stuffer at all.
Sadly this is part of everyone's lives.
Why is there war, there should be peace.
It's too dark to climb that mountain yet. 16-19.6.2003 - 18. 8 .2012
Children.Children having nightmares and waking up crying.
There's fear when you look into their eyes.
Living with fear, when going to school, scared of been bullied, scared of abused, scared of rape and scar of bombs going off.
Screaming, shouting in fear of death.
There's enough violence in the world without causing more.
Why don't we call it one word for it all dangerous things we go through, that could be war!
There's enough fear out there for everyone.
Aircraft, shooting bombs flying through the sky.
Every fright, fear and pain.
Famlies worrying about children.
Thank god if the children are safe enough.
Give as much love and care as possible.
Be brave and strong as you can.
Fight through the pain and fear.
Never walk alone in this world.
We have to look forward in time not back.
Live in hope that the war will be over soon.
Look forward to peace.
Young lives may begun then end.
Some lucky people may just come through. 22.4. 2003 - 18.8.2012
The strength to carrying on.
I can taste, sense, feel, see and hear fear.
Shooting from guns, bombs and planes.
Unhappy news events of death.
Give love, care and support.
If the world on earth is dangerous, just may be the world in heaven is safe.
Not that I am a believer or disbeliever in earth and heaven because no one can say for sure, it's very unknown what is true or not.
My fear is it's world war starting from 2003 that really started in 2001 when New York towels fell.
Let's face it the whole world could be coming down on you and me.
Be brave in hope we will get but then if the worse comes to the worst no one is alone it will will all come to us altogether.
Let's hope we walk from darkness to lightness.
Thank goodness if we see any light at all.
We have been lucky enough to miss two world wars.
Our Grannies and Granddads went through all this for us.
We don't know how lucky we are to have been born.
Everyday ups and down is a war as it is.
Through out history, we're lucky the world is still standing. 22.4.2003 - 23-25.6.2003 - 18.8.2012
Nature human life.
What a state of the human race.
Why is this the case?
The fightings, the killings and wounded soldiers who are far too young to lose their lives.
Why are we so cruel to one another?
Why can't the world create peace not war?
We all have different views about just like all topics.
So much disagreements can turn into war.
I hate people fulling out they are making war for themselves.
War is boring mainly when it goes on far too long but the truth is there should be no war.
War just brings history to us all.
What it teaches us is the generation before us had it worse than us. War takes human lives away, that's not nature at all.
Young lives gone through the fault of other human beings who are not either animals or humans they are just killers.
I also hurts famlies and friends, leaves children without a parent or two.
These people may well risk their lives to save others but they still die.
Life is cruel to us.
We are given fear of being hated.
There's no answer to any question of war being cruel to life.
The thing is to think strong, give time and you will find happiness with something, someone somewhere some day.
Give us peace and love on earth not war.
Wishful thinking is to stop war.
Give us a future to look forward to.
Give us freedom to live happy lives the best way we can. 26.6.2003 -18.8.2012
What's it all about?
What's the point of being born when there's war?
You go to school, college, work, may be marry have children or and etc..
Your parents Grandparents and great Grandparents and etc have been there before us.
All this happens then it's time to die.
What's the point of been born when there's too much pain to stuffer?
Jumping the gun, when disliking other counties, to me that is racism.
People must understand we don't like everyone in our own country who is the same as us so why dislike every person difference to us?
What is the same we are all human beings.
If we all liked one another it would be a perfect boring world but let's not be racism to one another.
We should keep away from another if we can't get on with one another. 27.6.2003 - 18.8.2012
Wednesday 1 July 2009
Cats and mice.
Cats live in out of doors with their muddy paws.
Cats claws on their paws can be so sharp.
Cats sleep on the beds, chairs and on the floors.
Cats, eat anything and everything.
One thing is that cats that they chase mice.
Most cats give people a present of mice which most people do not find it's very nice.
Most people may agree that mice look sweet but not when they are after their feet.
Most people think mice are not nice when they are after food, they are little mites.
Mice go in the kitchen, in the food, under and over the tables. 1997 - 2000
Frogs
Frogs look rather bright and green.
For me to see green frogs look rather nice.
You never see a frog through the fog on a dark cold night.
A frog is not there through the fog he is a sleep keeping himself nice and warm.
You will see frog night or day when it's pouring down with rain. 19997 - 2000
The weather.
Everyday the weather changes from better to worse and worse to better.
When you wear a rain coat and umbrella the sun will shine.
When you wear shorts and t shirts the rain will come down with shame.
If the weather stayed the same, it would be a boring game.
All the same you can never win the weather game.
If it rains all the time you could never cut the grass.
If the sun shined all the time there would not be any water, the garden would never grow.
What's the point complaining because we always complain about the weather?
It's either too hot or too cold, it's never just right, there's nothing in between in Britain, it's never just right. 1997 -2007
On a winter's morning.
A winter's morning can look like night not morning.
The cold can put people off going to school, work, college and etc but life goes on.
Early winter's cold mornings always make it hard for most people to get out of bed.
Later on in the morning the sky goes dull gray then turns to black late afternoon.
What nasty winters' mornings we can get. 1997 - 2007
Winter weather.
It's far too cold to be without you.
If I have to manage I will but I could do with you here to keep me warm.
I hate the long nights without you being here to hold me tight.
In the year 2000 I got fed up of the very cold floods of rain.
Now it's summer 2007 the floods are back again but the warm but wet weather.
In many counties there were lots of floods, the ground is still dry.
When the summer comes, no matter how much rain the ground is still muddy and wet. July 2007
We are disabled, we are happy.
If you are in a wheel chair, you want to be able to walk.
If can walk you want to be a faster learner.
If you are middle aged or old you want to be young.
When you feel sad you want someone or and thing in the world to make you feel happy.
If you are happy you want to make yourself happier.
Like us all I can be happy sometimes but other times I am sad I need something or someone to cheer me up. 1997 -2007
Please give me a good night.
Shall be stay at your place or mine?
Shall we make passionate love on the living room floor?
Shall we read a book to learn the lesson of love?
We think or we thought we knew it all but no one knows anything at all.
There's always someone who knows about love better than us.
We do not know about other things either because life is a learning map.
We may get most things right but no one is perfect, there's no such things as not making mistakes. 2000
Love verse.
When I'm with you, I have no problem been in the mood for love.
Eating food makes my lover stronger for you.
As long as it's love doesn't matter how strong.
I could never go veggie otherwise I could not love.
I need meat and fish to love you more.
If I lose your love, I will eat more, less or not at all. 2000
January.
In January the cold wind is sharp you feel as if your neck has been cut in half.
The cold air causes so many sore noses and plenty of nasty colds.
I miss the coal fires to keep us warm. 1997 -2007
I hate going to the dentist.
I hate going to the dentist, I hate the hooks bet ween my teeth.
It's a good job the dentist is every six mouths, I don't think I could stand it everyday.
I do not think I could take it very much. 1997 - 2000
My Mother tells me.
My Mother tells me I look just like my Father.
There's only one way I don't look like my Father, I have not got his big nose.
If I had a bread and moustache I'd look even more like my Father which would be very strange with me being female.
Why don't females have breads and moustaches?
The reason why women don't have breads is because various glands and hormones in woman's bodies deliberately act to prevent growth.
Men glands and hormones act to promote growth of breads, only history of man can tell you that. 1997 -2000
What animal am I?
My ears are long and flat.
My coat is fury and fluffy.
I wag my tail when I am happy.
You feed me food and water in my bowl.
You take me out for walks.
What animal am I?
My ears prick up forward when I am happy and back when I am sad.
You feed me with hay and water.
You muck out my stable.
You clean my tack.
You groom me.
You ride on my back.
What animal am I?
I have two legs not four.
I build a net to lay my eggs and I babies in the spring time.
I wake you up four o,clock every spring morning.
I also wake you up on summer mornings.
I'm asleep in the winter time because of the cold.
I may come out at Christmas time in the cold, I am red and I think white.
I may even sing all day long before I lay in my nest to sleep at night.
I could be any animal that flies.
What animal am I?
I am black all over and it's known that I should bring you good luck.
I still wait outside your door to come inside your house.
What animal am I? 1997 -2000
Moving on, moving life.
When a bird moves from standing he or she flies the nest.
When a dog awakes from his or her bed it's time to eat and drink.
Never give up on life because one way or the other you will get through.
At first you may feel as if you are going out of your heard.
Break downs hit some people worse than others.
Be strong, give it time.
You never stand still forever your feelings will change sooner or later because standing still is not the skill.
Life changes like a chapter of a book, there's never going to be one page or one chapter of your life.
If life stood still forever, it would never be filled. 1997 - 2000
When I get old and Gray.
Stress of broken down relationships will turn hair from brown to gray to white.
When I get old and gray, my days will pass away.
I hope my beauty never goes away.
I will still read and write stories, poetry, plays and novels.
I will still study psychology, biology and sociology.
I will sit in my rocking chair knitting the rest of life away.
I will be wish that I could turn the clock back, by wishing and had not of done most things in life.
Will we be happy, smiling, laughing , joking and loving?
I hope so I love you far strong to throw it away.
I hope you really love me. Written 1997 - the 21th century.
Animal Maths.
Horses have four legs.
Dogs have four legs.
Cats have four legs.
Cows have four legs.
Sheep have four legs.
Hens have two legs.
Ducks have two leg.
All together twenty - seven leg which includes a centipede, which is one hundred and twenty - six legs. My be not because I am not very good with maths. Written 1997 - 1998.
Spring.
Spring is a wonder thing when the birds sing.
The sheep have their young lambs that jump everywhere.
The ducks lay their eggs fresh.
The birds and ducks lay their eggs in a bed of nest. Written 1997 - 1998.
I love spring.
I love the sounds of the birds that sing in the spring.
Many lovers have started their time to court in but my time is over now.
The lambs are born as the they jump off the spring board. spring 1998.
Birds.
The birds wake up very early at 4.00am every single spring morning, singing at the top of their voices.
The whole world knows that it's a sound spring when the birds sing.
The whole world is a wake with the look of the light mornings, as the flashing lights have turned themselves on. spring 1998.
I am a human being.
I am a human being, I was born in this world to be with all of you just like you all were to be born in this world to be with me.
I was once a baby like you all.
I smile, laugh, cry, feel happy and sad like human beings should do.
I walk and talk a lot just like a lot of you.
I went to school just like a lot of you because of been special needs teachers didn't have a great deal of time to teach me.
I know I am not the only one who is a bit slow, there are a lot of people in my shoes.
There many people who have disabilities apart from myself.
Having a disability is the only way I am difference to many of you otherwise I am a human being just like many of you.
Can't you see that people with disabilities should have equal lives to others?
When I left school I had to cope with this big wide world and I got there in the end.
I have learned a lot more since I left school than when I was there.
Like yourselves I have been through a mixer of good and bad over the years.
I have made mistakes just like everyone in this life.
I just like to put these mistakes right in life before it's too late.
No matter what is right or wrong, like yourselves I still live in this mixed up world. 1997 - 2000
My childhood.
On my fifth birthday party, I lived in a flat with a table made of out of pine which has always stuck in my mind.
I remember having the dolls Tiny tears and Baby alive.
Baby as alive seemed like a real baby when you fed her food as she moved her month when she was eating.
When I put the spoon in her month she made a funny nose. Written 1997 - 1998.
My love to human kind.
We all have a our talent in our family, even me with a disability.
My step sister Holly Wood is a great artist.
I like writing and art work, I am not anything really I just like writing and drawing what's going on in my mind.
My God daughter and co son Stevie Bea she is a good artist too.
The men I have loved and lost go into my poetry book. Written 1997 - 1998
Trees, I am a tree.
Outside my house I have old trees.
I wonder how the old trees are.
My house is rather old , it was built in 1929.
When the sun is out there love me.
There are a lot of people around to be happy and enough the sun like me.
I either feel too hot or nice and warm.
I think many human beings, animals and objects feel the same way.
When the wind and the cold is here my leaves sadly full off the trees, change color and die.
That's when many trees feel sad and lonely.
Once all my leaves are off me on to the grounds, my branches are cold and bare through the long winter.
It's like waiting to wear my pretty dress in the summer mouths.
Winter is full of messy cold and ice.
I love, care and attenstion just like all nature. Written 1997 - 11.8.2005
What is life like for you?
What do you do up in heaven?
Where do you go?
Who do you meet?
What does it feel like to be in Heaven?
Where do you the most happiness, is it heaven?
I know it's not earth, it's mostly stress.
It's so hard to know what to believe some believe there's life after death others don't.
Is heaven any difference to here, if so how?
Are you working the same there as here?
Are you going out with friends and lovers as the same as did on earth.
Has heaven changed you as a person, if you for better or worse? Written 2004
What makes us Happy?
Are we happy in what we do?
Sometimes we are happy to be free.
Other times we are happy to love.
We all chose our own things that make us happy.
Life is what you make and even how you make.
When you look for love you can't find it but it's right there if you don't look for it.
If you lose love you full to pieces but there's plenty more fish in the sea.
It takes a long time to be happy.
Most people are happy been lone.
Most of us can't life with or without love. Written 2004
You would not believe the world today.
You may well be at peace but you may see from heaven what's happening on earth.
Well the truth is that today there's no right and wrong on this earth.
We are not allowed to bring up children how we were brought up as children.
The British law is wrong letting British children be out of control.
A lot of children today grow up on drugs and harming people's lives one way or the other.
The cost of living has gone up through the sky.
Today's music is no good.
No entertainment without you Freddie Mercury.
There's also no love without you.
Why did you have to leave the world this way?
The world was a better place with you.
There's no happiness without you.
We all miss you.
You brought us a happy world but there's no world for our children.
I like many people my age don't have children because there is not anything there for them and the world is dangerous.
You gave us our lives.
Without you so many things have changed for the worse. Written 2004
Men and love.
What has been missing out of my life?
May be I don't need it, may be I can do without love of a man.
Not just in a partner but in my own Father.
Where were you when I needed you?
That was a silly question, was it?
All my life, I have felt anger asking myself why I did not see you as child.
All my Mother's family managed very well with me.
I don't feel like your daughter at all.
For whatever reason you could not see me for you could of seen me for a little while.
You are my Father it seems wrong that you were not around when I was a child. Written 5.7.2000
It's far too late.
My Mother told me about you when I was five.
Why did you confuse my mind?
I know I did not know any difference at the age of five but you made me feel unhappy when find out at the age five.
The reason for that was because I knew Ray as my Father then I was suddenly told that you are my real Father Max.
Now we can't turn back the clock.
Sorry I can't be a child again.
Now I am grown up, it's your lose. Written 5.7.2000
You have had your chance to be my Father.
My Mother and her family gave you a chance to be my Father during my childhood.
For some reason you were not there but for whatever reason it was what you can't change the facts that I am your daughter.
You have not changed now, have you?
I thought I could forgive and forget until you told me you have two other children me and may be my half brother Jay has not seen.
This must be worse for them than it was for me as they are in care, they must be wondering who their real family really are.
Now I am an adult you don't feel like my Father, I just feel like me. Written 5.7.2000
I thought it would of been easy for us to be Father and Daughter.
There are many people in this world in the same boat as us if not worse.
When I first met and knew you at twenty - one I could see the future and everything seemed alright to me until many years later when you told me about the younger children.
Now I know it's hard to build a Father and Daughter relationship with you through adulthood.
So the end is unhappy how this all turned out. Written 5.7.2000
What does it feel like?
I wanted to give you a chance to be my Father, it does not seem to be like that.
The reason for that is what your family told me or should I say my Mum about you.
It's hard to forget a family past like that.
Sometimes can put it behind me other times I cannot.
Knowing that I did not see you as a child is still hard to take in.
It hurt more as a child and that you are not seeing these children now.
I will still find a way of getting on with my life without you the same as I had no choice as a child.
Don't think I am afraid that if I managed as a child I can manage now to live without seeing you.
Written 5.7.2000
What has it done to me?
Things could have been worse I know.
All the same it's not good enough!
There's only so much I can take, I have accepted it long enough.
Thank god things can't get that much bad or worse.
I am sorry, I wish I knew how to carry on as if nothing has happened but I afraid I am very disappointed in you Dad, I thought you may have chanced to what you were like in the past but for what you told me it does not sound like it.
Never mind me I am grown up my childhood was past, they are your young child you should think about their future, can't you see that?
You are the only one who has lost out whether you see that or not I don't know.
Do you know that!
What has it done to my life, more important what will it do to Henry and Louise's life? More to the point what has it done to Jay's life?
When I go into relationships I fall in love too easy, when I get hurt I find it hard to let go.
I know I dream of a far away future still the same as when I was a younger person.
Now I must tell myself to take things day by day.
Whatever the future is and how we end up does not bother me as long as he's mine and I am his. Written 4.7.2000
This is what you have put me through.
When relationships end, I have always cracked into pieces.
Depression hits me really bad, it's always hurtful and upsetting and take it takes me ages to get through.
I am so glad I write poetry otherwise I'd never get through.
Even if I have people around me I feel as if the whole world is coming down on me.
I just seem to really crack up, I bet that does that to a lot of people too.
I feel so guilty and selfish because everyone has relationship break ups, not just me.
It's hard to put it into words, what I do to go to pieces like this.
You would have to see me in this state but then again I don't like anyone seeing me like this, I feel ashamed of myself.
I am very sorry if I have upset people when I have been upset like this. Written 4.7.2000
You have made me feel empty.
Sometimes I have felt as if something has been missing in my life.
I have never known really what it is.
What do you know Father, it's partly caused by me and mainly caused by you because I find it hard to let go of love.
I hope this young gentleman will fill in the missing gap.
Looking back now, no other man who has been my lover has been there like you.Written 4.7.2000
I think I forgive you Dad.
I forgive Dad, sorry I got angry with you.
I can't help but feel disappointed that you missed my childhood.
I am happy to put the past behind me, well I will try the best I can.
I don't think my young half brother and sister will ever forgive me for this though knowing that they may not have seen either of us you, me or Jay.
Please don't forget I have not forgotten though, I may live with it but it will never come out my head.
I agree that it must have been a shock for you with me on the way because Mum and you were so young.
I know now that these things could have happened for the best, all good things come to an end.
In whatever way the past may have affected me I am willing to cope the best I can.
I know I call you Dad sometimes I think life is too not to talk again but other times with not seeing Henry and Louise I feel as if I am a jigsaw with two pieces missing out of me.
Forgiving me what I said but I am confused Dad.
Ray had been always the person called Dad.
Ray looked after me as a child, he was there for me when I was ill.
All Dads should do for their kids what Ray has done.
Please don't feel guilty because you can't change the past but you can be difference in the future though.
I was angry because I wanted to try to put the past behind me.
I must make a new start put the past behind and look to the future.
May be I could think of you as a friend rather than a Father but that's hard when you are my Father.
I still feel as two human beings are missing from my life mine half brother and sister, I bet Jay feels the same way too.
Whatever me and Jay say we may not say how we really feel because we have had choice but to live with the situation you have created Dad.
I don't know whether or not Jay knows about Henry and Louise.
I am sorry if I am confusing you because I am confused myself but seeing as my Dad and you is confusing too. Written 25.7.2000
Mothers.
No matter what you do in life Mothers seem to be always right.
Mothers tell you but you think you are right.
Never feel ashamed because your Mother was your Grandmother's child, had to be told by her Mum too.
Trying to find the right boyfriend or girlfriend to please your parents is hard work. Written 1997 -2000
Who is always there for you?
You may think you can live without your Mother but can you?
Parents can be like your partners you can't live with them and you can't live without them.
If you have a problem Mother s are always there to care and share with you, well some things anyway.
I felt leaving home was the best thing I did even though it was with my Mother's support but spend too much time together you do each others' head in.
Life is how it suits you.
Mother always knows when you have made a mistake.
Sometimes parents and children can do one anothers' heads in, mainly Fathers and son, Mothers and daughters.
My Grandmother my Mother's Mother told me that she and my great Grandmother used to fall out over my Grandfather.
My Grandmother said to me I was wrong going with your Grandfather, you great Gran was right saying I should not have gone with him or married him but my Gran divorced my Granddad in the end.
My Gran said the only thing I have to thank your Grandfather is your Mother, your Uncle Tony Aunity Vicki and my Grandchildren.
Only you can sought your own mess out, only you can find out for yourself.
Let's hope the next stage of life is right for you.
What is right the end of the day? who knows! Written 1997 - 2000
Who does everything for you?
Who has cooked for you all your life near enough until you met you husband or wife?
When I am with my Mother she always there to care about my problems.
As long as my Mother is alive she will know when I need her there.
I am an adult with a disability some things I need help with some things but not others.
It's a fact my Mother has known me since I was a child I am only human just like her and everyone.
No child can live with their family but an adult need their family just as much mainly when they have a disability. Written 1997 - 2000
Mother's day.
I am an adult but deep down I am a teenager, I am a child and baby just like all human beings.
I can't live with and without my family and Mother.
The loves me just like my Mother does and love them too.
I may worry my Mother and family but no human being is perfect neither is life.
A Mother is a child in herself she is her Mother's child. Written 1997 - 2000
Mother and child.
Mother never fear I am well and I here.
You have been here to get me over fears over the years.
You were an older child Mother but you were too young to had me, you were seventeen.
My life started with the child who is the Mother of me. Written 1997 - 2002
Rats.
Rats are fury and black.
Rat can be very fat across their backs.
Down the rat holes the rats go hiding from been eaten the witches. Written 1997 - 2000
Fairly Tale land.
When I was a little I used to dream of been a princess meeting my handsome prince when I grew up.
How untrue can the fairly tales be after living one's childhood believing in them. Written 1999
August.
The start of the middle of the August holiday season still goes on.
August is third summer month but the eighth month of the year.
August is the last summer then cold in September may kick in.
Kids' holidays may start and finish at the seaside before they go back to school. Written 21.7.1999
September.
September be warm or cold.
September can even warm enough and less money to go aboard.
On the 21st September it can start to cold as the light nights go short to draw in for autumn.
The leaves are blowing off the trees to change from green to brown as the wind gets stronger. Written 21.7.1999
Why are some people homeless?
Some people are homeless through family rows.
Other people are homeless through broken down relationships.
Some people may have child who have to become homeless with them which can be eve harder.
Some people don't have any family and friends to help them out.
Some people are homeless from babyhood even from birth.
Some families don't care about their children.
Some children are lucky enough to get a second family home.
Some first families are found out others are not.
No one knows where the children were born, they can only guess where they were found.
Very few children are found today.
Years ago homeless children were found all the while.
Very often children became orphans and slaves which writers wrote stories about.
Stories like Oliver Twist, Jane Eyre and Wuthering Heights written the Bronte sisters and Charles Dickens.
These day there is not as many of these problems but there's still a lot to get better.
It's not as half as bad as it used to be. 15.9.1999
Young people today.
We live in a dangerous world today, even walking down your own street is a risk of death.
Not all children are bad but a lot of children are not tough right from wrong like children used to learn, the government has gone out of control letting the children go out of control.
Children and teenagers are not the only ones out of control adults can be too.
It's hard to come terms with today's way of life but whether you are a child, teenage, adult or old person your life is in risk.
Your a loving caring parent and they can still do the opposite to what you want, as soon as they become teenagers they start to be their own people who could be anybody. Spring 1997 - 2000
What happens tomorrow?
Today the world is full of hurt, killing and pain.
Yesterday the world was full of happiness, laughter and love, where has that all gone.
What will be tomorrow would be like if today's world is bad?
Will the world get better or worse?
You want children to enjoy themselves the way they want and be safe.
If today is bad, tomorrow could be worse but then let's have a positive mind to say it's got to get better after it's get's worse.
Life is for living and it goes on however it wants to but it's how we make it too.
When your child is an adult, you will be worrying about their safety even more.
Sometimes we have no choice but to treat them like children anyway because of how unsafe the world is today, even though we want to let them go completely free. Spring 1997 - 2000
We all have something to live for.
Just tell yourself that you have a life out there.
If you think about that you will get there, where ever is there.
Do what you want that is good for you, show everyone that you are better than them.
Show everyone you can pull through bad times better than them.
How your life and future is is up to you and it's down to you.
Life is what you make it. 6.8.2000
Not all dreams come true.
Follow your heart and your head you should get what you want in life.
Let your life and future happen how it's going to.
Do not tense up when the bad things happen the best is to come to you.
Happiness will come to those who wait.
Something or someone will make you happy, put behind you what you have already gone through. 6.8.2000
Every picture tells a story.
Your mind is full of many pictures that tell many stories.
Even though you may be sitting down someone is walking in your mind.
Now there is a street in your mind.
When you go to talk about what's going through your mind it can be hard to talk about and put pen to paper.
Once you become full of ideas you are writing so fast, your writing is untidy then it's hard to read if your work makes sense.
If you are a person with a disability you may not be writing with your hand you may be writing with your feet and mouth.
If you find it hard to write your idea you may draw you could use your hands, mouth or and feet for that.
You could be painting with a brush as well as drawing with a pencil.
One way or the other your mind is full of ideas or blank. 13.2.2009
27 1997.
At the age of 27 1997, it was a bad year.
You broke my heart, you torn me apart.
At the age of 27 in 1997 I just wanted to go to heaven.
Life did not seem worth living, it all seemed like a dark tunnel.
The winter was dull and cold without you.
I discovered Shelly and Keats in the summer.
Without planning to I wrote poetry but when I did I knew life was worth living after all.
Once I started writing poetry it helped me clear my mixed up mind which helped me to get stronger in my mind.
That's when I learned to understand that life goes on, without writing poetry I would have broke down or and even ended my own life.
Jim Hendricks, Kurt Cobain and Jim Morrison all suffered depression one way or the other over difference very bad times in life, they were all 27 when they died.
They were very creative people in their music but I pulled through my breakdown when I was nearly twenty - eight by discovering poetry. 13.2.2009
Disabled world.
I have been living in this disabled world since the day I was born.
I have the word disabled world on my forehead according to society.
I am not only disabled but I live in a disabled world with all the others with disabilities.
We are a danger to society when society should support us to be safe and live our lives equal to everyone.
We don't have to have disabilities to make mistakes, we are human like all people.
We all have good and bad points everyday of our live whether we have disabilities or not.
Never feel like the odd one out because we are all together one way or another.
Never let society put us down.
We are all human beings whether we have disabilities or not. 24.8.2007
When I write.
When I write I worry about my spelling.
I know there are times I miss words out because I may write too fast if I have an idea to write.
I also worry about punctuation and grammar.
Out of all I try not make my readers board with what I write about I try to change the subject when I can.
I know I am a romantic poet that can go on too long about love and pain but sometimes I get carried away with my feelings, I feel very guilty about that.
When I feel I am saying too much about the same subject then understand that's time to tap my pen and think about to write about next. 2007 - 2008
It's hard to believe.
It's hard to believe I will never see your face again other than by family pictures.
Your birthday without you is not the same.
I used to love buying you a card, a box of sweets and may be some flowers Grandma for years.
This is something the family has to get used to now being without you, which is hard when you had looked after us all our lives.
We love and miss you Nan. 21.8.2007
Happy birthday Nan.
If only I knew whether you could hear me or not.
Happy birthday to you Nan.
I love and miss you but I know you are in peace.
It's nice to know that you are out of your pain but not the same without you.
You are at peace now no one can hurt and harm you.
You are out of war with Granddad but you are at peace with your baby son Tony ( Uncle Tony.) 21.8.2007
How unkind life can be.
You should not be laying in your coffee at such a young age.
You should be in a romantic wood.
We should be eating out in the sunshine and drinking wine together on a hot summer's day.
We should not be dead if your dead I am too.
There's handy any happiness in the world today.
I don't feel the joys of spring something is missing in my life mostly in winter weather. 20.11.2005
This poem is based on a ghost story I have been trying to write for years ' called TALKING TO THE GRAVES'.
I dream about Queen.
I dream about Queen, Freddie Mercury dressing like a cream angel in wings with his long hair.
Freddie had a kind and lovely dark black hair and brown eyes that you could not miss.
He was a lovely devil and angel at the same time with love.
Freddie's world rolled into one as a man and woman.
If he was a parent he would have been a Mother and Father in one.
I loved his ways because he was difference i a lot of ways. 20.11.2005
How I remember, how can I forget.
Are you just laying down looking at the lid of your coffin?
Is it hot, cold or don't you feel a thing, may be you are just right.
How can I forget seeing your face in the newspaper but I can't remember you face to face?
I did not meet you as far as I was aware, if I did you have a better memory than me.
If I say I did meet you when I did not that is fiction.
The truth is that I have heard about you from friends I know.
You were taken from the world before I had chance to met you and be aware of you. 20.4.05
This poem is also based around the ghost story too.
All change.
It does not seem as if a lot is happening at the moment.
Money does not seem to go very far.
Five pound kept a family during the first and second world war.
Children never got a lot but they were happy.
Now it is a very selfish, people want it all and no one is willing to share.
The only sadness people had in the old wars was losing the people they loved which mostly came into family matters.
Today toys cost too much and children still want more.
What happened to hide and seek kick the can?
Today we get a lot more but we are not happy.
Why can't we be happy now because we were years ago yet we had less but it had to go a long way?
We still had change in our pockets after a long night now we end up with less.
The town, pubs and clubs are like ghost towns when years ago it used to be buzzing with life.
When you we have not seen changes we don't know we are born before then we understand the same is not going to last forever.
Yet it would be a boring world if it was all the same but this day and age there's too much going on for the worse today. 20.11.2005
What do girls and woman like?
Make up
Jewelry
Clothes and silky underwear of their men.
Just pick a color that's all.
Even though I am a woman I don't ask for the world, as long as I have got what I need that's the main thing.
I don't except anything off anybody only if I need help due to my disability. 18.4.2000
I don't want to get old.
I don't want to get old.
I don't want to get gray.
I don't want to have cracks in my face.
I don't want my hair to go away.
I want to still carry on looking alright.
However old I am I still want to be me.
I will always want to be full of life in my own way which is in my mind as a writer.
I hope it's a long time until I am an old girl yet.
When I die I don't want pain but peace.
I just want a quiet life as well as peace.
While I am going I don't want nose and fuss. 18.4.2000
Sometimes it's not fare but we have to live with it.
Sometimes life is not fare but we have to live with it.
Sometimes we don't have a choice in life but this is the future whether we like it or not.
What is the world coming to?
No leaving doors open otherwise strange or not so strange people may come in to mess up your home.
Everything is too much money but we don't have enough money to pay for anything.
It's not a safe world to go alone anywhere but life goes, we can't live scared there's a risk everywhere.
Too many young people wasting their lives on drugs which spoils their career and
education.
Smashing people's windows.
Breaking into people's homes.
Robbing people.
Attacking people.
Too many shootings and killings.
We have war everyday in our home towns again one another than world wars.
Why should that be when we are the same in many ways, only that Britain is a mixed race I guess that's why.
That's no reason we are all human beings with feelings that get hurt.
Matters and respect has gone.
The world has changed for the worse, at one time you had no choose but to learn right from wrong.
Adults should not be scared of children but they are.
Some adults get into trouble but why are more children behaving how you except an adult to behave? Violence should not happen at all.
Too many people now who don't want to work or educate themselves, they just want to hurt people.
What do nice and the trying people do to get by in life when the world is in danger from people who just want to make lives unhappy because they have no interest in soughing their own lives out? 22.8.99
Teenage girls are a big worry.
With most teenage girls, they look at pictures in magazines, worry that they are too fatter or thinner than the women in the picture.
What do young girls say?
" I wish I was like her!"
None of us in the world are happy with what we have got.
It can be too easy to put ourselves down when people put us down.
I think with somethings we need to think about the good thins in ourselves.
I have notice a lot of us females tend to worry about our bad points the most, in fact we may well run ourselves down the most mostly when we are teenager.
Nine out of ten males tend to get on with life without running themselves down, how do they do that?
We females are always wishing we had something better than another female but that can work in some males too.
If it's not someone it's something.
We seem to want to fill our lives.
We are not always happy with what we got.
We must learn whatever you do life is not full filled.
We always want more but we must remember some people have nothing at all.
Why don't we think about the things we do have that are good and be happy with what makes us happy?
It's not possible to not have anything that make us happy.
Live for what you got, you'd have every reason to be unhappy if you had nothing at all.
Don't except things to go your way all the time. 13.4.2000
This poem is written about a silly idea I had in my head for a story but believe it or not I can't remember whether I wrote it into a story. It's about some hard times in 1700s - 1800s.
Jack and John were close.
There were two little welsh boys John and Jack.
They lived in a big farm house in Newtown Mid Wales in the late 1700s to early early 1800s.
Mr and Mrs Jones did not have a lot of money to keep the family and the house but no one wanted to leave.
The Father of the boys Edward Jones sent the boys to work as times were so hard.
Every night of the week the boys would come home from work as black as coal from the mines.
They hated doing the same everyday but it meant that they kept the house they loved. 23.1.2000
Why are some people homeless?
Some people are homeless from babyhood and birth.
Some people are homeless with their children.
Children are in care for whatever reason.
Some children are lucky enough to get a family and home.
You come across some cases that no one knows their birth family history.
In the old days homeless children were just left to walk the street and work.
Why are some people homeless?
Where are the people who can help those kind of people?
We all know that life is full of good and bad but things should get better.15.9.99
Living.
Washing up and washing.
Hovering, tidying up and dusting.
Cooking, eating, cleaning and shopping.
Paying bills.
Education, career, work and social life that seems to be the way of life 12.4.2000
Beauty in woman.
Things women have to do to look lovely.
Shave legs and under arms.
Put on under arm spay, body spy and perfume.
Spends age doing their hair, cream face and make up after a shower.
Put on clothes and jewelry.
Many other things to do, is it all worth it? 12.4.2000
Spring is on it's way.
It should not be long until the daffodils are in the garden.
Pancake day in March instead of February.
It's not just a new year but a new century.
Easter eggs, lambs and bunny rabbits coming out to play.
All things come to life jumping all day. 26.2000
The year 2000.
What can change in the 21st century?
Life is what you make it.
You can only change your life not the century.
We only live once so we may as well think of what we want to do.
How many of us believe in life after death?
Is heaven a difference world to earth?
The answer is we will never know, some of us believe it others don't.
Once we pass we can't really come back and tell people on earth what it's like or can we?
Most people believe if you do bad things you go to hell and see the devil.
Some people believe in ghosts and many people believe they have seen ghosts.
Some people believe that we come back to life as an animal, another person or even an object.
No one knows but you don't need to be a believer to be a writer of fairly tales.
Why talk about the year 2000 as if it's new way of life, the 21st century will change some things for the worse other things for the better just like life always has done? 24.2.2000
I work in the library.
Every Monday and Friday morning I work in the library 9.00am - 1.00pm.
I enjoy working in the library it interests me so much.
Being a writer is part of the reason why I work in a library.
In the library there are so many subjects of books to read.
Love, Crime, Gardening, Famous people, Writing, Knitting, Westerns and many more.
My job is to sought the books out the Crime and Large print.
Clean and label the books.
Read and review the books.
Check to see if we have any new books on the computer.
Discharge the books.
I love it at the library but who knows what the future brings. 24.2.2000
School bullies.
When I was a school, I hated school through bullying.
A lot of adult told me that school day are the best of your life.
That is not true when children are been bullied by other children.
Teachers tend to say that they will see the parents but that is not always the case.
I used to be frightened to death of going to school, on my mind in bed at nighttime not been able to sleep and could not cope with my school work.
I just could not cope with the stress of been bullied and called names in the class room and playground. 21.4.2000
Summer mouths.
June is the mouth that the colleges break for the long summer holidays.
July is the mouth for holidays by the sea side, children play in the sand and sea.
Time to make the most of the summer, the summer holidays are over and autumn is coming in September to October time.
November here comes winter time. 11.8.2000
Part of an idea for a story years ago that I can't remember whether I got it into a story or not.
The fog and the frost.
This little boy named Jack got lost in the fog and the frost.
No one could find the little boy at all.
His Mother and Father called and called.
" Please everyone people called for our son." cried his Mother to people in the area.
There he was on top of a frosty hill.
The only way the police could see him was by a shining torch, it was so foggy and frosty that night.24.6.2000
It's a dog's life.
My dog's name is Eddie.
He is always ready to sleep, drink, walk and eat is a dog's life.
When you talk to him, he answers back with a woof.26.6.2000
Unlucky child.
If you were a child in the 19th century, your school day will end at twelve.
What would you do next?
In the poor dull days they gave you a lot of work to do.
Working down the coal mines, sweeping the chimneys,working in the warehouses and cooking in the kitchen.
They would home from work as black as coal and dust.
They would bath the bath tub.
These children had a childhood, hardy any time to play.
Nothing to eat but bread, potatoes, fat dripping and water to drink.
A bowl of porridge for breakfast if they were lucky.
Sleeping on hard floors or living in cardboard boxes, not getting enough sleep.
Sleeping on hard floors. 28.6.2000
Lives.
It's a dog's life.
Cats have nine lives.
A fish swims until it's down.
A horse works hard of course.
A bird lays eggs in a nest.
Rabbits live in their hutches or they run wild. 21.7.2000
Health.
In the 19th century health was very unknown.
Human beings even died of a cold.
Hearing about those things now seems very silly in today's world.
Children very sadly died of epidemic diseases, cholera, typhus, small poxs and many other things that we can pull out of today. 26.7.2000
Weather two.
I am not looking forward to the winter.
I hate the dark winter nights.
I hate the dull and gray days.
The summer this year has not been good, this be what the 21st century brings.
First rain then shine in Britain all in one day. 12.8.2000
Human face and body.
Your eyes are here to see what is going on around you.
Your ears are to hear what is going on around you.
Your month is the say what is going on around you.
Your hands are to help you do what you want to do and touch what you want to touch.
Your nose is to smell what is around you.
Your hair is to keep you warm and make you look good.
Your head is on top of you.
Your brain is to help you think what you want to.
Your arms are to help you reach out to love someone.
Your chest is part of your body.
Your tummy is where the food goes down.
Your legs and feet are to walk with.
You have every part of your body a part of you.
Not everybody had all parts of the body. 24.2.2001 - 25.2.2001
Elephant.
He's a big elephant with a big trunk.
He has very long feet.
He's big enough for you to ride on his back.
When he lays down, he sleeps in the hot sun. 26.2.2001
Lion.
He's a big lion with hair down his front and back.
His ears are so flat but he hears everything around him.
His eyes are like cats but his eyes are green not black.
His nose is big enough to smell his meat.
He month is big enough to have a lot to eat. 4.3.2001
Squirrel
A squirrel has very big stick up ears.
His eyes shine out bright.
His tummy is very very fury.
His craws are very very sharp.
His tail sticks up like a brushy handful of fur.
He stands up on the tree eating nuts. 2.3.2001
Giraffe.
A giraffe has a very thin face.
He has very large feet.
He's has a long pointed ears and thin neck.
He has very brown patches on his his body and a long tail.
He has long narrow legs and feet. 26.2.2001
Hippopotamus.
A hippopotamus has a very long face.
His eyes long very cross.
He has a very chunky nose.
He has a very bis back and very short legs.
He has very long toes. 27.2.2001
Polar bears.
I really truly love the look of polar bears.
They are so white and fury like teddy bears.
They seem such loving and caring bears.
They come from the North Pole and they roll about. 28.2.2001
Dogs.
Dogs can bark so loud when they are alone and have nothing to do.
Dogs talk and shout.
" Hurry up!"
" Feed and water me!"
" Take me out for a walk, then I will go to sleep." 20.3.2001
Autumn.
Autumn leaves falling of the trees onto the floor.
The wind blows the leaves are everywhere you walk.
Leaves are by footpaths and the doors.
Leaves change colors from green from the summer to autumn golden browns. 30.4.2001
My disability.
Thank goodness I am not in a wheelchair.
Thank goodness I can walk with both legs.
Thank goodness I can write with both hands.
Thank goodness I can move my arms.
Thank goodness I can read and write.
Thank goodness I can feed myself, wash myself and go to the toilet myself.
Thank goodness I can catch a bus on my own.
Thank goodness my disability is only mild.
I am just thankful for what I have got but I will do everything I can to help people with all disabilities. 2.5.2001
The wind and the storm.
When I hear the wind and the storm at night, I am so frightened of things getting damaged outside.
I hearing the wind whistling through the night.
I wish you were here to hold me tight.
In the summer I hear the bird talking and singing to one another.
In the autumn storms the leaves are shaking off the tree as they turn golen but soaking wet if it's raining. 21.5.2001
My Father.
My Father can be very good to me.
On the whole we are Father and daughter who get on very well.
We talk, laugh, eat and listen to music together.
We get on very well together. 22.5.2001
Time goes by fast.
I remember playing on the beach making sand castles as a child with my bucket and spade.
My Father never saw me use my bucket and spade in the sand with my pals.
I didn't have chance to should him my bucket of shells.
When my Father looked at me after twenty - one years I was grown up, those days childhood days were gone.
Now I am a young woman of thirty - one, I wonder where time has gone.
When your a child you were grown up, when you are grown up you wish you were a child again.25.5.2001
Now I am grown up.
It's a shame I am grown up because my youth has gone.
The good thing about getting older is that you should get wiser.
Me and my Father have more in common than we would have when I was a child.
Listening to Bod Dylan instead of playing dolls.
The great thing about been grown up I can join in with what my Father does instead of been board with one another doing difference things. 29.5.2001
Camnant.
Long cold winter days and nights when the weather bits.
Short lovely hot summer like no other.
Carry the bucket through the house for water for the animals because the outside is frozen.
Mix the animals' feed.
Give the animals water and hay.
Time for breakfast.
Time to much out the stables.
Time to groom, tack up the ponies and horses then ride.
Time for coffee at last.
Time to put beds down then give more hay and water.
Cups of tea after afternoon ride, not forgetting lunch.
Time to give the animals their tea.
Time for baths.
Time for dinner.
7.30pm last minute hay and water for the horses.
Warm drinks and sleep to start again the next day. 8.6.2001
21st century.
It is so lucky to be born to a new century.
It is so lucky to live to see a new century.
Some thing will change for the better others will change for the worse like it always has done.
If you wait your wish may come to you.
Whatever life is, it will go on. 19.6.2001
Sorry I am here.
Sorry, I am here in this world.
I am so sorry I was born.
I must have caused hard work for all.
Do I have any good in me at all?
I am a human being I make mistakes like you all without knowing it.
The way society looks at people with disabilities as if we should not be on this earth at all.
If that's the case why are we here at all?
I once.
I once believed in fairly tales.
I once believed the big woof was inside the wardrobe.
I once believed the troll was under my bed.
I once believed that snowmen walked through the snow. 27.6.2001
Getting old.
Aches and pains.
Feeling unwell and fit.
Gray hair, wrinkled and old skin.
Too fat or too thin.
Feeling more tried than you used to feel.
The good thing is that you get more wiser.
Most of us can teach the young generation a thing or two. 12.7.2001
My memory of George Harrison.
Like a lot of us I never knew George as a person.
I know as ex Beatle he play the guitar.
What was so sad was that he was not here to be sixty - four.
The happiest thing is that he did not lose his hair.
He would have got his valentine card and bottle of wine.
The sad thing was that I was not here to enjoy the sixty.
I was born at the wrong time.
By the time I understood about Beatles they slit up.
The news was that they were all singing alone in my life time.
Sadly John Lennon died December 8th, I was only eleven years old.
Twenty - one years later, he has still left great music for us.
We all miss him, we all kiss him.
Have nice rest George. 3.12.2001 - 4.12.2001
The weather poem 2001.
I can hear the wind and rain in December.
This was the weather on the 3rd December in 2001.
I will never forget the very heavy storm that kept me awake that night.
I would like to put the sun in the sky and make the early mornings light.
The trees in the ground cover them with green leaves.
At the moment the mornings and afternoons are dull and gray.
Dark early evenings you can't see your way.
Seven o, clock in the morning is as dark as seven o, clock in the even.
The clock back or forward as the seasons change.
Every night and day is short, no time to work and play. 4.12.2001
Time to sleep.
When it's time sleep, I dream of a quiet life.
Enough money to be able to live my life, that's all I want.
Drink and talk with fiends and the man I love. 12.3.2002
Queen Mother.
Queen Mother, Mum, Granny, great Granny and the people's friend.
A special lady who worked hard to keep people alive all through the second world war.
Without her there would not have been a world, we would not have won the war without her support.
Now she has the right to rest in peace at the age of 101 to 102.
She never had a lot of rest, peace and sleep on earth.
My word she'll be missed by all. 13 .14.3.2002
Children of today.
It's such a shame we can't bring up children like we were.
If we do what most of today's children do, we'll be locked up for life.
There's no respect for anyone today in this mixed up world.
We try to teach them right from wrong but it's even the law doing that.
While the cat is away the mice will play.
There has been a big change since yesterday's children, what will tomorrow's children bring? 14.15.3.2002
What do you do with them?
Whatever we do, children talk and treat adults how they want to.
As adults we have no control over children.
Children are a worry over their own lives and ours.
Some people have to bring children up to this outside world alone.
If people stopped having children because of Government rules on bringing children the world would not go round.
Most of us like myself don't have any children.
Not all children are out of control, it's hard to know their good and bad points.
There's too much bad in the world today.
It costs too much money to look after them.
It's hard to bring children up in today's society.
Children are lovely but hard work.
Work the good and bad points of what you see in this society. 18.19.32002
Today's society.
Never be too kind to people otherwise they will want off you all the time.
Never stop been kind but learn and know how to draw the line.
Every time you turn and move your head you never know who and what is behind you.
Be careful : you can never be too careful.
Enjoy yourself, you only have one life. 11.4.2002
I must read.
I must read information out and remember it.
I must get ideas to help me write my stories and poems.
I must learn what life is about. 22.4.2002
My mind.
My mind is blank.
My eyes are tired.
I don't know what to write.
I think it's time to say good night.
The winter is here, it should be spring.
I feel lazy I need to keep warm. 24.4.2002
Nothing stops me.
I feel tired, I don't feel well.
Now my fits have come back, I must accept it and get on with life.
It still does not stop me living my life how I want to. 16.4.2002
Short verse.
I love studying, seeing my boyfriend and drinking in the Dutchman pub, that's how I live my life. 17.4.2002
Writing.
I put pen to paper when I know what to write.
I just write words that go through my mind as I type them on the computer.
There are times that my mind goes blank, when I don't know what to write.
I try to think of interesting things to write, which is not easy to write.
I research information that helps me to get ideas of what to write.
Sometimes I get an idea on my own what to write. 15.19.4.2002
Cats claws on their paws can be so sharp.
Cats sleep on the beds, chairs and on the floors.
Cats, eat anything and everything.
One thing is that cats that they chase mice.
Most cats give people a present of mice which most people do not find it's very nice.
Most people may agree that mice look sweet but not when they are after their feet.
Most people think mice are not nice when they are after food, they are little mites.
Mice go in the kitchen, in the food, under and over the tables. 1997 - 2000
Frogs
Frogs look rather bright and green.
For me to see green frogs look rather nice.
You never see a frog through the fog on a dark cold night.
A frog is not there through the fog he is a sleep keeping himself nice and warm.
You will see frog night or day when it's pouring down with rain. 19997 - 2000
The weather.
Everyday the weather changes from better to worse and worse to better.
When you wear a rain coat and umbrella the sun will shine.
When you wear shorts and t shirts the rain will come down with shame.
If the weather stayed the same, it would be a boring game.
All the same you can never win the weather game.
If it rains all the time you could never cut the grass.
If the sun shined all the time there would not be any water, the garden would never grow.
What's the point complaining because we always complain about the weather?
It's either too hot or too cold, it's never just right, there's nothing in between in Britain, it's never just right. 1997 -2007
On a winter's morning.
A winter's morning can look like night not morning.
The cold can put people off going to school, work, college and etc but life goes on.
Early winter's cold mornings always make it hard for most people to get out of bed.
Later on in the morning the sky goes dull gray then turns to black late afternoon.
What nasty winters' mornings we can get. 1997 - 2007
Winter weather.
It's far too cold to be without you.
If I have to manage I will but I could do with you here to keep me warm.
I hate the long nights without you being here to hold me tight.
In the year 2000 I got fed up of the very cold floods of rain.
Now it's summer 2007 the floods are back again but the warm but wet weather.
In many counties there were lots of floods, the ground is still dry.
When the summer comes, no matter how much rain the ground is still muddy and wet. July 2007
We are disabled, we are happy.
If you are in a wheel chair, you want to be able to walk.
If can walk you want to be a faster learner.
If you are middle aged or old you want to be young.
When you feel sad you want someone or and thing in the world to make you feel happy.
If you are happy you want to make yourself happier.
Like us all I can be happy sometimes but other times I am sad I need something or someone to cheer me up. 1997 -2007
Please give me a good night.
Shall be stay at your place or mine?
Shall we make passionate love on the living room floor?
Shall we read a book to learn the lesson of love?
We think or we thought we knew it all but no one knows anything at all.
There's always someone who knows about love better than us.
We do not know about other things either because life is a learning map.
We may get most things right but no one is perfect, there's no such things as not making mistakes. 2000
Love verse.
When I'm with you, I have no problem been in the mood for love.
Eating food makes my lover stronger for you.
As long as it's love doesn't matter how strong.
I could never go veggie otherwise I could not love.
I need meat and fish to love you more.
If I lose your love, I will eat more, less or not at all. 2000
January.
In January the cold wind is sharp you feel as if your neck has been cut in half.
The cold air causes so many sore noses and plenty of nasty colds.
I miss the coal fires to keep us warm. 1997 -2007
I hate going to the dentist.
I hate going to the dentist, I hate the hooks bet ween my teeth.
It's a good job the dentist is every six mouths, I don't think I could stand it everyday.
I do not think I could take it very much. 1997 - 2000
My Mother tells me.
My Mother tells me I look just like my Father.
There's only one way I don't look like my Father, I have not got his big nose.
If I had a bread and moustache I'd look even more like my Father which would be very strange with me being female.
Why don't females have breads and moustaches?
The reason why women don't have breads is because various glands and hormones in woman's bodies deliberately act to prevent growth.
Men glands and hormones act to promote growth of breads, only history of man can tell you that. 1997 -2000
What animal am I?
My ears are long and flat.
My coat is fury and fluffy.
I wag my tail when I am happy.
You feed me food and water in my bowl.
You take me out for walks.
What animal am I?
My ears prick up forward when I am happy and back when I am sad.
You feed me with hay and water.
You muck out my stable.
You clean my tack.
You groom me.
You ride on my back.
What animal am I?
I have two legs not four.
I build a net to lay my eggs and I babies in the spring time.
I wake you up four o,clock every spring morning.
I also wake you up on summer mornings.
I'm asleep in the winter time because of the cold.
I may come out at Christmas time in the cold, I am red and I think white.
I may even sing all day long before I lay in my nest to sleep at night.
I could be any animal that flies.
What animal am I?
I am black all over and it's known that I should bring you good luck.
I still wait outside your door to come inside your house.
What animal am I? 1997 -2000
Moving on, moving life.
When a bird moves from standing he or she flies the nest.
When a dog awakes from his or her bed it's time to eat and drink.
Never give up on life because one way or the other you will get through.
At first you may feel as if you are going out of your heard.
Break downs hit some people worse than others.
Be strong, give it time.
You never stand still forever your feelings will change sooner or later because standing still is not the skill.
Life changes like a chapter of a book, there's never going to be one page or one chapter of your life.
If life stood still forever, it would never be filled. 1997 - 2000
When I get old and Gray.
Stress of broken down relationships will turn hair from brown to gray to white.
When I get old and gray, my days will pass away.
I hope my beauty never goes away.
I will still read and write stories, poetry, plays and novels.
I will still study psychology, biology and sociology.
I will sit in my rocking chair knitting the rest of life away.
I will be wish that I could turn the clock back, by wishing and had not of done most things in life.
Will we be happy, smiling, laughing , joking and loving?
I hope so I love you far strong to throw it away.
I hope you really love me. Written 1997 - the 21th century.
Animal Maths.
Horses have four legs.
Dogs have four legs.
Cats have four legs.
Cows have four legs.
Sheep have four legs.
Hens have two legs.
Ducks have two leg.
All together twenty - seven leg which includes a centipede, which is one hundred and twenty - six legs. My be not because I am not very good with maths. Written 1997 - 1998.
Spring.
Spring is a wonder thing when the birds sing.
The sheep have their young lambs that jump everywhere.
The ducks lay their eggs fresh.
The birds and ducks lay their eggs in a bed of nest. Written 1997 - 1998.
I love spring.
I love the sounds of the birds that sing in the spring.
Many lovers have started their time to court in but my time is over now.
The lambs are born as the they jump off the spring board. spring 1998.
Birds.
The birds wake up very early at 4.00am every single spring morning, singing at the top of their voices.
The whole world knows that it's a sound spring when the birds sing.
The whole world is a wake with the look of the light mornings, as the flashing lights have turned themselves on. spring 1998.
I am a human being.
I am a human being, I was born in this world to be with all of you just like you all were to be born in this world to be with me.
I was once a baby like you all.
I smile, laugh, cry, feel happy and sad like human beings should do.
I walk and talk a lot just like a lot of you.
I went to school just like a lot of you because of been special needs teachers didn't have a great deal of time to teach me.
I know I am not the only one who is a bit slow, there are a lot of people in my shoes.
There many people who have disabilities apart from myself.
Having a disability is the only way I am difference to many of you otherwise I am a human being just like many of you.
Can't you see that people with disabilities should have equal lives to others?
When I left school I had to cope with this big wide world and I got there in the end.
I have learned a lot more since I left school than when I was there.
Like yourselves I have been through a mixer of good and bad over the years.
I have made mistakes just like everyone in this life.
I just like to put these mistakes right in life before it's too late.
No matter what is right or wrong, like yourselves I still live in this mixed up world. 1997 - 2000
My childhood.
On my fifth birthday party, I lived in a flat with a table made of out of pine which has always stuck in my mind.
I remember having the dolls Tiny tears and Baby alive.
Baby as alive seemed like a real baby when you fed her food as she moved her month when she was eating.
When I put the spoon in her month she made a funny nose. Written 1997 - 1998.
My love to human kind.
We all have a our talent in our family, even me with a disability.
My step sister Holly Wood is a great artist.
I like writing and art work, I am not anything really I just like writing and drawing what's going on in my mind.
My God daughter and co son Stevie Bea she is a good artist too.
The men I have loved and lost go into my poetry book. Written 1997 - 1998
Trees, I am a tree.
Outside my house I have old trees.
I wonder how the old trees are.
My house is rather old , it was built in 1929.
When the sun is out there love me.
There are a lot of people around to be happy and enough the sun like me.
I either feel too hot or nice and warm.
I think many human beings, animals and objects feel the same way.
When the wind and the cold is here my leaves sadly full off the trees, change color and die.
That's when many trees feel sad and lonely.
Once all my leaves are off me on to the grounds, my branches are cold and bare through the long winter.
It's like waiting to wear my pretty dress in the summer mouths.
Winter is full of messy cold and ice.
I love, care and attenstion just like all nature. Written 1997 - 11.8.2005
What is life like for you?
What do you do up in heaven?
Where do you go?
Who do you meet?
What does it feel like to be in Heaven?
Where do you the most happiness, is it heaven?
I know it's not earth, it's mostly stress.
It's so hard to know what to believe some believe there's life after death others don't.
Is heaven any difference to here, if so how?
Are you working the same there as here?
Are you going out with friends and lovers as the same as did on earth.
Has heaven changed you as a person, if you for better or worse? Written 2004
What makes us Happy?
Are we happy in what we do?
Sometimes we are happy to be free.
Other times we are happy to love.
We all chose our own things that make us happy.
Life is what you make and even how you make.
When you look for love you can't find it but it's right there if you don't look for it.
If you lose love you full to pieces but there's plenty more fish in the sea.
It takes a long time to be happy.
Most people are happy been lone.
Most of us can't life with or without love. Written 2004
You would not believe the world today.
You may well be at peace but you may see from heaven what's happening on earth.
Well the truth is that today there's no right and wrong on this earth.
We are not allowed to bring up children how we were brought up as children.
The British law is wrong letting British children be out of control.
A lot of children today grow up on drugs and harming people's lives one way or the other.
The cost of living has gone up through the sky.
Today's music is no good.
No entertainment without you Freddie Mercury.
There's also no love without you.
Why did you have to leave the world this way?
The world was a better place with you.
There's no happiness without you.
We all miss you.
You brought us a happy world but there's no world for our children.
I like many people my age don't have children because there is not anything there for them and the world is dangerous.
You gave us our lives.
Without you so many things have changed for the worse. Written 2004
Men and love.
What has been missing out of my life?
May be I don't need it, may be I can do without love of a man.
Not just in a partner but in my own Father.
Where were you when I needed you?
That was a silly question, was it?
All my life, I have felt anger asking myself why I did not see you as child.
All my Mother's family managed very well with me.
I don't feel like your daughter at all.
For whatever reason you could not see me for you could of seen me for a little while.
You are my Father it seems wrong that you were not around when I was a child. Written 5.7.2000
It's far too late.
My Mother told me about you when I was five.
Why did you confuse my mind?
I know I did not know any difference at the age of five but you made me feel unhappy when find out at the age five.
The reason for that was because I knew Ray as my Father then I was suddenly told that you are my real Father Max.
Now we can't turn back the clock.
Sorry I can't be a child again.
Now I am grown up, it's your lose. Written 5.7.2000
You have had your chance to be my Father.
My Mother and her family gave you a chance to be my Father during my childhood.
For some reason you were not there but for whatever reason it was what you can't change the facts that I am your daughter.
You have not changed now, have you?
I thought I could forgive and forget until you told me you have two other children me and may be my half brother Jay has not seen.
This must be worse for them than it was for me as they are in care, they must be wondering who their real family really are.
Now I am an adult you don't feel like my Father, I just feel like me. Written 5.7.2000
I thought it would of been easy for us to be Father and Daughter.
There are many people in this world in the same boat as us if not worse.
When I first met and knew you at twenty - one I could see the future and everything seemed alright to me until many years later when you told me about the younger children.
Now I know it's hard to build a Father and Daughter relationship with you through adulthood.
So the end is unhappy how this all turned out. Written 5.7.2000
What does it feel like?
I wanted to give you a chance to be my Father, it does not seem to be like that.
The reason for that is what your family told me or should I say my Mum about you.
It's hard to forget a family past like that.
Sometimes can put it behind me other times I cannot.
Knowing that I did not see you as a child is still hard to take in.
It hurt more as a child and that you are not seeing these children now.
I will still find a way of getting on with my life without you the same as I had no choice as a child.
Don't think I am afraid that if I managed as a child I can manage now to live without seeing you.
Written 5.7.2000
What has it done to me?
Things could have been worse I know.
All the same it's not good enough!
There's only so much I can take, I have accepted it long enough.
Thank god things can't get that much bad or worse.
I am sorry, I wish I knew how to carry on as if nothing has happened but I afraid I am very disappointed in you Dad, I thought you may have chanced to what you were like in the past but for what you told me it does not sound like it.
Never mind me I am grown up my childhood was past, they are your young child you should think about their future, can't you see that?
You are the only one who has lost out whether you see that or not I don't know.
Do you know that!
What has it done to my life, more important what will it do to Henry and Louise's life? More to the point what has it done to Jay's life?
When I go into relationships I fall in love too easy, when I get hurt I find it hard to let go.
I know I dream of a far away future still the same as when I was a younger person.
Now I must tell myself to take things day by day.
Whatever the future is and how we end up does not bother me as long as he's mine and I am his. Written 4.7.2000
This is what you have put me through.
When relationships end, I have always cracked into pieces.
Depression hits me really bad, it's always hurtful and upsetting and take it takes me ages to get through.
I am so glad I write poetry otherwise I'd never get through.
Even if I have people around me I feel as if the whole world is coming down on me.
I just seem to really crack up, I bet that does that to a lot of people too.
I feel so guilty and selfish because everyone has relationship break ups, not just me.
It's hard to put it into words, what I do to go to pieces like this.
You would have to see me in this state but then again I don't like anyone seeing me like this, I feel ashamed of myself.
I am very sorry if I have upset people when I have been upset like this. Written 4.7.2000
You have made me feel empty.
Sometimes I have felt as if something has been missing in my life.
I have never known really what it is.
What do you know Father, it's partly caused by me and mainly caused by you because I find it hard to let go of love.
I hope this young gentleman will fill in the missing gap.
Looking back now, no other man who has been my lover has been there like you.Written 4.7.2000
I think I forgive you Dad.
I forgive Dad, sorry I got angry with you.
I can't help but feel disappointed that you missed my childhood.
I am happy to put the past behind me, well I will try the best I can.
I don't think my young half brother and sister will ever forgive me for this though knowing that they may not have seen either of us you, me or Jay.
Please don't forget I have not forgotten though, I may live with it but it will never come out my head.
I agree that it must have been a shock for you with me on the way because Mum and you were so young.
I know now that these things could have happened for the best, all good things come to an end.
In whatever way the past may have affected me I am willing to cope the best I can.
I know I call you Dad sometimes I think life is too not to talk again but other times with not seeing Henry and Louise I feel as if I am a jigsaw with two pieces missing out of me.
Forgiving me what I said but I am confused Dad.
Ray had been always the person called Dad.
Ray looked after me as a child, he was there for me when I was ill.
All Dads should do for their kids what Ray has done.
Please don't feel guilty because you can't change the past but you can be difference in the future though.
I was angry because I wanted to try to put the past behind me.
I must make a new start put the past behind and look to the future.
May be I could think of you as a friend rather than a Father but that's hard when you are my Father.
I still feel as two human beings are missing from my life mine half brother and sister, I bet Jay feels the same way too.
Whatever me and Jay say we may not say how we really feel because we have had choice but to live with the situation you have created Dad.
I don't know whether or not Jay knows about Henry and Louise.
I am sorry if I am confusing you because I am confused myself but seeing as my Dad and you is confusing too. Written 25.7.2000
Mothers.
No matter what you do in life Mothers seem to be always right.
Mothers tell you but you think you are right.
Never feel ashamed because your Mother was your Grandmother's child, had to be told by her Mum too.
Trying to find the right boyfriend or girlfriend to please your parents is hard work. Written 1997 -2000
Who is always there for you?
You may think you can live without your Mother but can you?
Parents can be like your partners you can't live with them and you can't live without them.
If you have a problem Mother s are always there to care and share with you, well some things anyway.
I felt leaving home was the best thing I did even though it was with my Mother's support but spend too much time together you do each others' head in.
Life is how it suits you.
Mother always knows when you have made a mistake.
Sometimes parents and children can do one anothers' heads in, mainly Fathers and son, Mothers and daughters.
My Grandmother my Mother's Mother told me that she and my great Grandmother used to fall out over my Grandfather.
My Grandmother said to me I was wrong going with your Grandfather, you great Gran was right saying I should not have gone with him or married him but my Gran divorced my Granddad in the end.
My Gran said the only thing I have to thank your Grandfather is your Mother, your Uncle Tony Aunity Vicki and my Grandchildren.
Only you can sought your own mess out, only you can find out for yourself.
Let's hope the next stage of life is right for you.
What is right the end of the day? who knows! Written 1997 - 2000
Who does everything for you?
Who has cooked for you all your life near enough until you met you husband or wife?
When I am with my Mother she always there to care about my problems.
As long as my Mother is alive she will know when I need her there.
I am an adult with a disability some things I need help with some things but not others.
It's a fact my Mother has known me since I was a child I am only human just like her and everyone.
No child can live with their family but an adult need their family just as much mainly when they have a disability. Written 1997 - 2000
Mother's day.
I am an adult but deep down I am a teenager, I am a child and baby just like all human beings.
I can't live with and without my family and Mother.
The loves me just like my Mother does and love them too.
I may worry my Mother and family but no human being is perfect neither is life.
A Mother is a child in herself she is her Mother's child. Written 1997 - 2000
Mother and child.
Mother never fear I am well and I here.
You have been here to get me over fears over the years.
You were an older child Mother but you were too young to had me, you were seventeen.
My life started with the child who is the Mother of me. Written 1997 - 2002
Rats.
Rats are fury and black.
Rat can be very fat across their backs.
Down the rat holes the rats go hiding from been eaten the witches. Written 1997 - 2000
Fairly Tale land.
When I was a little I used to dream of been a princess meeting my handsome prince when I grew up.
How untrue can the fairly tales be after living one's childhood believing in them. Written 1999
August.
The start of the middle of the August holiday season still goes on.
August is third summer month but the eighth month of the year.
August is the last summer then cold in September may kick in.
Kids' holidays may start and finish at the seaside before they go back to school. Written 21.7.1999
September.
September be warm or cold.
September can even warm enough and less money to go aboard.
On the 21st September it can start to cold as the light nights go short to draw in for autumn.
The leaves are blowing off the trees to change from green to brown as the wind gets stronger. Written 21.7.1999
Why are some people homeless?
Some people are homeless through family rows.
Other people are homeless through broken down relationships.
Some people may have child who have to become homeless with them which can be eve harder.
Some people don't have any family and friends to help them out.
Some people are homeless from babyhood even from birth.
Some families don't care about their children.
Some children are lucky enough to get a second family home.
Some first families are found out others are not.
No one knows where the children were born, they can only guess where they were found.
Very few children are found today.
Years ago homeless children were found all the while.
Very often children became orphans and slaves which writers wrote stories about.
Stories like Oliver Twist, Jane Eyre and Wuthering Heights written the Bronte sisters and Charles Dickens.
These day there is not as many of these problems but there's still a lot to get better.
It's not as half as bad as it used to be. 15.9.1999
Young people today.
We live in a dangerous world today, even walking down your own street is a risk of death.
Not all children are bad but a lot of children are not tough right from wrong like children used to learn, the government has gone out of control letting the children go out of control.
Children and teenagers are not the only ones out of control adults can be too.
It's hard to come terms with today's way of life but whether you are a child, teenage, adult or old person your life is in risk.
Your a loving caring parent and they can still do the opposite to what you want, as soon as they become teenagers they start to be their own people who could be anybody. Spring 1997 - 2000
What happens tomorrow?
Today the world is full of hurt, killing and pain.
Yesterday the world was full of happiness, laughter and love, where has that all gone.
What will be tomorrow would be like if today's world is bad?
Will the world get better or worse?
You want children to enjoy themselves the way they want and be safe.
If today is bad, tomorrow could be worse but then let's have a positive mind to say it's got to get better after it's get's worse.
Life is for living and it goes on however it wants to but it's how we make it too.
When your child is an adult, you will be worrying about their safety even more.
Sometimes we have no choice but to treat them like children anyway because of how unsafe the world is today, even though we want to let them go completely free. Spring 1997 - 2000
We all have something to live for.
Just tell yourself that you have a life out there.
If you think about that you will get there, where ever is there.
Do what you want that is good for you, show everyone that you are better than them.
Show everyone you can pull through bad times better than them.
How your life and future is is up to you and it's down to you.
Life is what you make it. 6.8.2000
Not all dreams come true.
Follow your heart and your head you should get what you want in life.
Let your life and future happen how it's going to.
Do not tense up when the bad things happen the best is to come to you.
Happiness will come to those who wait.
Something or someone will make you happy, put behind you what you have already gone through. 6.8.2000
Every picture tells a story.
Your mind is full of many pictures that tell many stories.
Even though you may be sitting down someone is walking in your mind.
Now there is a street in your mind.
When you go to talk about what's going through your mind it can be hard to talk about and put pen to paper.
Once you become full of ideas you are writing so fast, your writing is untidy then it's hard to read if your work makes sense.
If you are a person with a disability you may not be writing with your hand you may be writing with your feet and mouth.
If you find it hard to write your idea you may draw you could use your hands, mouth or and feet for that.
You could be painting with a brush as well as drawing with a pencil.
One way or the other your mind is full of ideas or blank. 13.2.2009
27 1997.
At the age of 27 1997, it was a bad year.
You broke my heart, you torn me apart.
At the age of 27 in 1997 I just wanted to go to heaven.
Life did not seem worth living, it all seemed like a dark tunnel.
The winter was dull and cold without you.
I discovered Shelly and Keats in the summer.
Without planning to I wrote poetry but when I did I knew life was worth living after all.
Once I started writing poetry it helped me clear my mixed up mind which helped me to get stronger in my mind.
That's when I learned to understand that life goes on, without writing poetry I would have broke down or and even ended my own life.
Jim Hendricks, Kurt Cobain and Jim Morrison all suffered depression one way or the other over difference very bad times in life, they were all 27 when they died.
They were very creative people in their music but I pulled through my breakdown when I was nearly twenty - eight by discovering poetry. 13.2.2009
Disabled world.
I have been living in this disabled world since the day I was born.
I have the word disabled world on my forehead according to society.
I am not only disabled but I live in a disabled world with all the others with disabilities.
We are a danger to society when society should support us to be safe and live our lives equal to everyone.
We don't have to have disabilities to make mistakes, we are human like all people.
We all have good and bad points everyday of our live whether we have disabilities or not.
Never feel like the odd one out because we are all together one way or another.
Never let society put us down.
We are all human beings whether we have disabilities or not. 24.8.2007
When I write.
When I write I worry about my spelling.
I know there are times I miss words out because I may write too fast if I have an idea to write.
I also worry about punctuation and grammar.
Out of all I try not make my readers board with what I write about I try to change the subject when I can.
I know I am a romantic poet that can go on too long about love and pain but sometimes I get carried away with my feelings, I feel very guilty about that.
When I feel I am saying too much about the same subject then understand that's time to tap my pen and think about to write about next. 2007 - 2008
It's hard to believe.
It's hard to believe I will never see your face again other than by family pictures.
Your birthday without you is not the same.
I used to love buying you a card, a box of sweets and may be some flowers Grandma for years.
This is something the family has to get used to now being without you, which is hard when you had looked after us all our lives.
We love and miss you Nan. 21.8.2007
Happy birthday Nan.
If only I knew whether you could hear me or not.
Happy birthday to you Nan.
I love and miss you but I know you are in peace.
It's nice to know that you are out of your pain but not the same without you.
You are at peace now no one can hurt and harm you.
You are out of war with Granddad but you are at peace with your baby son Tony ( Uncle Tony.) 21.8.2007
How unkind life can be.
You should not be laying in your coffee at such a young age.
You should be in a romantic wood.
We should be eating out in the sunshine and drinking wine together on a hot summer's day.
We should not be dead if your dead I am too.
There's handy any happiness in the world today.
I don't feel the joys of spring something is missing in my life mostly in winter weather. 20.11.2005
This poem is based on a ghost story I have been trying to write for years ' called TALKING TO THE GRAVES'.
I dream about Queen.
I dream about Queen, Freddie Mercury dressing like a cream angel in wings with his long hair.
Freddie had a kind and lovely dark black hair and brown eyes that you could not miss.
He was a lovely devil and angel at the same time with love.
Freddie's world rolled into one as a man and woman.
If he was a parent he would have been a Mother and Father in one.
I loved his ways because he was difference i a lot of ways. 20.11.2005
How I remember, how can I forget.
Are you just laying down looking at the lid of your coffin?
Is it hot, cold or don't you feel a thing, may be you are just right.
How can I forget seeing your face in the newspaper but I can't remember you face to face?
I did not meet you as far as I was aware, if I did you have a better memory than me.
If I say I did meet you when I did not that is fiction.
The truth is that I have heard about you from friends I know.
You were taken from the world before I had chance to met you and be aware of you. 20.4.05
This poem is also based around the ghost story too.
All change.
It does not seem as if a lot is happening at the moment.
Money does not seem to go very far.
Five pound kept a family during the first and second world war.
Children never got a lot but they were happy.
Now it is a very selfish, people want it all and no one is willing to share.
The only sadness people had in the old wars was losing the people they loved which mostly came into family matters.
Today toys cost too much and children still want more.
What happened to hide and seek kick the can?
Today we get a lot more but we are not happy.
Why can't we be happy now because we were years ago yet we had less but it had to go a long way?
We still had change in our pockets after a long night now we end up with less.
The town, pubs and clubs are like ghost towns when years ago it used to be buzzing with life.
When you we have not seen changes we don't know we are born before then we understand the same is not going to last forever.
Yet it would be a boring world if it was all the same but this day and age there's too much going on for the worse today. 20.11.2005
What do girls and woman like?
Make up
Jewelry
Clothes and silky underwear of their men.
Just pick a color that's all.
Even though I am a woman I don't ask for the world, as long as I have got what I need that's the main thing.
I don't except anything off anybody only if I need help due to my disability. 18.4.2000
I don't want to get old.
I don't want to get old.
I don't want to get gray.
I don't want to have cracks in my face.
I don't want my hair to go away.
I want to still carry on looking alright.
However old I am I still want to be me.
I will always want to be full of life in my own way which is in my mind as a writer.
I hope it's a long time until I am an old girl yet.
When I die I don't want pain but peace.
I just want a quiet life as well as peace.
While I am going I don't want nose and fuss. 18.4.2000
Sometimes it's not fare but we have to live with it.
Sometimes life is not fare but we have to live with it.
Sometimes we don't have a choice in life but this is the future whether we like it or not.
What is the world coming to?
No leaving doors open otherwise strange or not so strange people may come in to mess up your home.
Everything is too much money but we don't have enough money to pay for anything.
It's not a safe world to go alone anywhere but life goes, we can't live scared there's a risk everywhere.
Too many young people wasting their lives on drugs which spoils their career and
education.
Smashing people's windows.
Breaking into people's homes.
Robbing people.
Attacking people.
Too many shootings and killings.
We have war everyday in our home towns again one another than world wars.
Why should that be when we are the same in many ways, only that Britain is a mixed race I guess that's why.
That's no reason we are all human beings with feelings that get hurt.
Matters and respect has gone.
The world has changed for the worse, at one time you had no choose but to learn right from wrong.
Adults should not be scared of children but they are.
Some adults get into trouble but why are more children behaving how you except an adult to behave? Violence should not happen at all.
Too many people now who don't want to work or educate themselves, they just want to hurt people.
What do nice and the trying people do to get by in life when the world is in danger from people who just want to make lives unhappy because they have no interest in soughing their own lives out? 22.8.99
Teenage girls are a big worry.
With most teenage girls, they look at pictures in magazines, worry that they are too fatter or thinner than the women in the picture.
What do young girls say?
" I wish I was like her!"
None of us in the world are happy with what we have got.
It can be too easy to put ourselves down when people put us down.
I think with somethings we need to think about the good thins in ourselves.
I have notice a lot of us females tend to worry about our bad points the most, in fact we may well run ourselves down the most mostly when we are teenager.
Nine out of ten males tend to get on with life without running themselves down, how do they do that?
We females are always wishing we had something better than another female but that can work in some males too.
If it's not someone it's something.
We seem to want to fill our lives.
We are not always happy with what we got.
We must learn whatever you do life is not full filled.
We always want more but we must remember some people have nothing at all.
Why don't we think about the things we do have that are good and be happy with what makes us happy?
It's not possible to not have anything that make us happy.
Live for what you got, you'd have every reason to be unhappy if you had nothing at all.
Don't except things to go your way all the time. 13.4.2000
This poem is written about a silly idea I had in my head for a story but believe it or not I can't remember whether I wrote it into a story. It's about some hard times in 1700s - 1800s.
Jack and John were close.
There were two little welsh boys John and Jack.
They lived in a big farm house in Newtown Mid Wales in the late 1700s to early early 1800s.
Mr and Mrs Jones did not have a lot of money to keep the family and the house but no one wanted to leave.
The Father of the boys Edward Jones sent the boys to work as times were so hard.
Every night of the week the boys would come home from work as black as coal from the mines.
They hated doing the same everyday but it meant that they kept the house they loved. 23.1.2000
Why are some people homeless?
Some people are homeless from babyhood and birth.
Some people are homeless with their children.
Children are in care for whatever reason.
Some children are lucky enough to get a family and home.
You come across some cases that no one knows their birth family history.
In the old days homeless children were just left to walk the street and work.
Why are some people homeless?
Where are the people who can help those kind of people?
We all know that life is full of good and bad but things should get better.15.9.99
Living.
Washing up and washing.
Hovering, tidying up and dusting.
Cooking, eating, cleaning and shopping.
Paying bills.
Education, career, work and social life that seems to be the way of life 12.4.2000
Beauty in woman.
Things women have to do to look lovely.
Shave legs and under arms.
Put on under arm spay, body spy and perfume.
Spends age doing their hair, cream face and make up after a shower.
Put on clothes and jewelry.
Many other things to do, is it all worth it? 12.4.2000
Spring is on it's way.
It should not be long until the daffodils are in the garden.
Pancake day in March instead of February.
It's not just a new year but a new century.
Easter eggs, lambs and bunny rabbits coming out to play.
All things come to life jumping all day. 26.2000
The year 2000.
What can change in the 21st century?
Life is what you make it.
You can only change your life not the century.
We only live once so we may as well think of what we want to do.
How many of us believe in life after death?
Is heaven a difference world to earth?
The answer is we will never know, some of us believe it others don't.
Once we pass we can't really come back and tell people on earth what it's like or can we?
Most people believe if you do bad things you go to hell and see the devil.
Some people believe in ghosts and many people believe they have seen ghosts.
Some people believe that we come back to life as an animal, another person or even an object.
No one knows but you don't need to be a believer to be a writer of fairly tales.
Why talk about the year 2000 as if it's new way of life, the 21st century will change some things for the worse other things for the better just like life always has done? 24.2.2000
I work in the library.
Every Monday and Friday morning I work in the library 9.00am - 1.00pm.
I enjoy working in the library it interests me so much.
Being a writer is part of the reason why I work in a library.
In the library there are so many subjects of books to read.
Love, Crime, Gardening, Famous people, Writing, Knitting, Westerns and many more.
My job is to sought the books out the Crime and Large print.
Clean and label the books.
Read and review the books.
Check to see if we have any new books on the computer.
Discharge the books.
I love it at the library but who knows what the future brings. 24.2.2000
School bullies.
When I was a school, I hated school through bullying.
A lot of adult told me that school day are the best of your life.
That is not true when children are been bullied by other children.
Teachers tend to say that they will see the parents but that is not always the case.
I used to be frightened to death of going to school, on my mind in bed at nighttime not been able to sleep and could not cope with my school work.
I just could not cope with the stress of been bullied and called names in the class room and playground. 21.4.2000
Summer mouths.
June is the mouth that the colleges break for the long summer holidays.
July is the mouth for holidays by the sea side, children play in the sand and sea.
Time to make the most of the summer, the summer holidays are over and autumn is coming in September to October time.
November here comes winter time. 11.8.2000
Part of an idea for a story years ago that I can't remember whether I got it into a story or not.
The fog and the frost.
This little boy named Jack got lost in the fog and the frost.
No one could find the little boy at all.
His Mother and Father called and called.
" Please everyone people called for our son." cried his Mother to people in the area.
There he was on top of a frosty hill.
The only way the police could see him was by a shining torch, it was so foggy and frosty that night.24.6.2000
It's a dog's life.
My dog's name is Eddie.
He is always ready to sleep, drink, walk and eat is a dog's life.
When you talk to him, he answers back with a woof.26.6.2000
Unlucky child.
If you were a child in the 19th century, your school day will end at twelve.
What would you do next?
In the poor dull days they gave you a lot of work to do.
Working down the coal mines, sweeping the chimneys,working in the warehouses and cooking in the kitchen.
They would home from work as black as coal and dust.
They would bath the bath tub.
These children had a childhood, hardy any time to play.
Nothing to eat but bread, potatoes, fat dripping and water to drink.
A bowl of porridge for breakfast if they were lucky.
Sleeping on hard floors or living in cardboard boxes, not getting enough sleep.
Sleeping on hard floors. 28.6.2000
Lives.
It's a dog's life.
Cats have nine lives.
A fish swims until it's down.
A horse works hard of course.
A bird lays eggs in a nest.
Rabbits live in their hutches or they run wild. 21.7.2000
Health.
In the 19th century health was very unknown.
Human beings even died of a cold.
Hearing about those things now seems very silly in today's world.
Children very sadly died of epidemic diseases, cholera, typhus, small poxs and many other things that we can pull out of today. 26.7.2000
Weather two.
I am not looking forward to the winter.
I hate the dark winter nights.
I hate the dull and gray days.
The summer this year has not been good, this be what the 21st century brings.
First rain then shine in Britain all in one day. 12.8.2000
Human face and body.
Your eyes are here to see what is going on around you.
Your ears are to hear what is going on around you.
Your month is the say what is going on around you.
Your hands are to help you do what you want to do and touch what you want to touch.
Your nose is to smell what is around you.
Your hair is to keep you warm and make you look good.
Your head is on top of you.
Your brain is to help you think what you want to.
Your arms are to help you reach out to love someone.
Your chest is part of your body.
Your tummy is where the food goes down.
Your legs and feet are to walk with.
You have every part of your body a part of you.
Not everybody had all parts of the body. 24.2.2001 - 25.2.2001
Elephant.
He's a big elephant with a big trunk.
He has very long feet.
He's big enough for you to ride on his back.
When he lays down, he sleeps in the hot sun. 26.2.2001
Lion.
He's a big lion with hair down his front and back.
His ears are so flat but he hears everything around him.
His eyes are like cats but his eyes are green not black.
His nose is big enough to smell his meat.
He month is big enough to have a lot to eat. 4.3.2001
Squirrel
A squirrel has very big stick up ears.
His eyes shine out bright.
His tummy is very very fury.
His craws are very very sharp.
His tail sticks up like a brushy handful of fur.
He stands up on the tree eating nuts. 2.3.2001
Giraffe.
A giraffe has a very thin face.
He has very large feet.
He's has a long pointed ears and thin neck.
He has very brown patches on his his body and a long tail.
He has long narrow legs and feet. 26.2.2001
Hippopotamus.
A hippopotamus has a very long face.
His eyes long very cross.
He has a very chunky nose.
He has a very bis back and very short legs.
He has very long toes. 27.2.2001
Polar bears.
I really truly love the look of polar bears.
They are so white and fury like teddy bears.
They seem such loving and caring bears.
They come from the North Pole and they roll about. 28.2.2001
Dogs.
Dogs can bark so loud when they are alone and have nothing to do.
Dogs talk and shout.
" Hurry up!"
" Feed and water me!"
" Take me out for a walk, then I will go to sleep." 20.3.2001
Autumn.
Autumn leaves falling of the trees onto the floor.
The wind blows the leaves are everywhere you walk.
Leaves are by footpaths and the doors.
Leaves change colors from green from the summer to autumn golden browns. 30.4.2001
My disability.
Thank goodness I am not in a wheelchair.
Thank goodness I can walk with both legs.
Thank goodness I can write with both hands.
Thank goodness I can move my arms.
Thank goodness I can read and write.
Thank goodness I can feed myself, wash myself and go to the toilet myself.
Thank goodness I can catch a bus on my own.
Thank goodness my disability is only mild.
I am just thankful for what I have got but I will do everything I can to help people with all disabilities. 2.5.2001
The wind and the storm.
When I hear the wind and the storm at night, I am so frightened of things getting damaged outside.
I hearing the wind whistling through the night.
I wish you were here to hold me tight.
In the summer I hear the bird talking and singing to one another.
In the autumn storms the leaves are shaking off the tree as they turn golen but soaking wet if it's raining. 21.5.2001
My Father.
My Father can be very good to me.
On the whole we are Father and daughter who get on very well.
We talk, laugh, eat and listen to music together.
We get on very well together. 22.5.2001
Time goes by fast.
I remember playing on the beach making sand castles as a child with my bucket and spade.
My Father never saw me use my bucket and spade in the sand with my pals.
I didn't have chance to should him my bucket of shells.
When my Father looked at me after twenty - one years I was grown up, those days childhood days were gone.
Now I am a young woman of thirty - one, I wonder where time has gone.
When your a child you were grown up, when you are grown up you wish you were a child again.25.5.2001
Now I am grown up.
It's a shame I am grown up because my youth has gone.
The good thing about getting older is that you should get wiser.
Me and my Father have more in common than we would have when I was a child.
Listening to Bod Dylan instead of playing dolls.
The great thing about been grown up I can join in with what my Father does instead of been board with one another doing difference things. 29.5.2001
Camnant.
Long cold winter days and nights when the weather bits.
Short lovely hot summer like no other.
Carry the bucket through the house for water for the animals because the outside is frozen.
Mix the animals' feed.
Give the animals water and hay.
Time for breakfast.
Time to much out the stables.
Time to groom, tack up the ponies and horses then ride.
Time for coffee at last.
Time to put beds down then give more hay and water.
Cups of tea after afternoon ride, not forgetting lunch.
Time to give the animals their tea.
Time for baths.
Time for dinner.
7.30pm last minute hay and water for the horses.
Warm drinks and sleep to start again the next day. 8.6.2001
21st century.
It is so lucky to be born to a new century.
It is so lucky to live to see a new century.
Some thing will change for the better others will change for the worse like it always has done.
If you wait your wish may come to you.
Whatever life is, it will go on. 19.6.2001
Sorry I am here.
Sorry, I am here in this world.
I am so sorry I was born.
I must have caused hard work for all.
Do I have any good in me at all?
I am a human being I make mistakes like you all without knowing it.
The way society looks at people with disabilities as if we should not be on this earth at all.
If that's the case why are we here at all?
Why is there a world at all?
That question no one knows the answer to. 25.6.2001 - 26.6.2001I once.
I once believed in fairly tales.
I once believed the big woof was inside the wardrobe.
I once believed the troll was under my bed.
I once believed that snowmen walked through the snow. 27.6.2001
Getting old.
Aches and pains.
Feeling unwell and fit.
Gray hair, wrinkled and old skin.
Too fat or too thin.
Feeling more tried than you used to feel.
The good thing is that you get more wiser.
Most of us can teach the young generation a thing or two. 12.7.2001
My memory of George Harrison.
Like a lot of us I never knew George as a person.
I know as ex Beatle he play the guitar.
What was so sad was that he was not here to be sixty - four.
The happiest thing is that he did not lose his hair.
He would have got his valentine card and bottle of wine.
The sad thing was that I was not here to enjoy the sixty.
I was born at the wrong time.
By the time I understood about Beatles they slit up.
The news was that they were all singing alone in my life time.
Sadly John Lennon died December 8th, I was only eleven years old.
Twenty - one years later, he has still left great music for us.
We all miss him, we all kiss him.
Have nice rest George. 3.12.2001 - 4.12.2001
The weather poem 2001.
I can hear the wind and rain in December.
This was the weather on the 3rd December in 2001.
I will never forget the very heavy storm that kept me awake that night.
I would like to put the sun in the sky and make the early mornings light.
The trees in the ground cover them with green leaves.
At the moment the mornings and afternoons are dull and gray.
Dark early evenings you can't see your way.
Seven o, clock in the morning is as dark as seven o, clock in the even.
The clock back or forward as the seasons change.
Every night and day is short, no time to work and play. 4.12.2001
Time to sleep.
When it's time sleep, I dream of a quiet life.
Enough money to be able to live my life, that's all I want.
Drink and talk with fiends and the man I love. 12.3.2002
Queen Mother.
Queen Mother, Mum, Granny, great Granny and the people's friend.
A special lady who worked hard to keep people alive all through the second world war.
Without her there would not have been a world, we would not have won the war without her support.
Now she has the right to rest in peace at the age of 101 to 102.
She never had a lot of rest, peace and sleep on earth.
My word she'll be missed by all. 13 .14.3.2002
Children of today.
It's such a shame we can't bring up children like we were.
If we do what most of today's children do, we'll be locked up for life.
There's no respect for anyone today in this mixed up world.
We try to teach them right from wrong but it's even the law doing that.
While the cat is away the mice will play.
There has been a big change since yesterday's children, what will tomorrow's children bring? 14.15.3.2002
What do you do with them?
Whatever we do, children talk and treat adults how they want to.
As adults we have no control over children.
Children are a worry over their own lives and ours.
Some people have to bring children up to this outside world alone.
If people stopped having children because of Government rules on bringing children the world would not go round.
Most of us like myself don't have any children.
Not all children are out of control, it's hard to know their good and bad points.
There's too much bad in the world today.
It costs too much money to look after them.
It's hard to bring children up in today's society.
Children are lovely but hard work.
Work the good and bad points of what you see in this society. 18.19.32002
Today's society.
Never be too kind to people otherwise they will want off you all the time.
Never stop been kind but learn and know how to draw the line.
Every time you turn and move your head you never know who and what is behind you.
Be careful : you can never be too careful.
Enjoy yourself, you only have one life. 11.4.2002
I must read.
I must read information out and remember it.
I must get ideas to help me write my stories and poems.
I must learn what life is about. 22.4.2002
My mind.
My mind is blank.
My eyes are tired.
I don't know what to write.
I think it's time to say good night.
The winter is here, it should be spring.
I feel lazy I need to keep warm. 24.4.2002
Nothing stops me.
I feel tired, I don't feel well.
Now my fits have come back, I must accept it and get on with life.
It still does not stop me living my life how I want to. 16.4.2002
Short verse.
I love studying, seeing my boyfriend and drinking in the Dutchman pub, that's how I live my life. 17.4.2002
Writing.
I put pen to paper when I know what to write.
I just write words that go through my mind as I type them on the computer.
There are times that my mind goes blank, when I don't know what to write.
I try to think of interesting things to write, which is not easy to write.
I research information that helps me to get ideas of what to write.
Sometimes I get an idea on my own what to write. 15.19.4.2002
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