Tuesday 26 August 2014

Dyslexia support and talent.

Learning awareness in learning disability and mental health. I am one of many who didn't learn anything in school and left school with nothing. Due to the strong tablets doctors put me on for Epilepsy, I found it hard to learn and get around safely without support. All the same I have managed to catch up on my education and work during adulthood for the last twenty years, which some I have achieved and others I haven't. School knocked my confidence when it shouldn't of. No school is built for any child to put up with bullying and abuse. Schools are build to help children learn education.  Never tell a person with a learning disability that they are thick because that's not true, they are just find it a bit harder to learn than what you do,they just need more support than do! You won't know what that person will achieve unless you give that person their time, chance and see it for yourself.

Last year I made my tutor aware I need Dyslexia support for my Level 1 English at Old Hall Street college. It took quite a while to sort. It was decided that I need 25 % extra time for my exam and one to one support during study before the exam. Now I have failed my reading twice and I only have one more chance yet I passed my writing, speaking and listening.






Changes in school.

In my day kids were scared of the teachers now the teachers are scared of the kids.
        Kids should be learning education not murder; no kid should bring knives to school!
        When I was in school, you would get the stick whether you were clever or thick.
        I forgot to miss a line between the date and title handwriting once so the teacher hit the back of my leg with a ruler, was that ever the worst thing in the world I ever did wrong, my word it felt like it?
        Now it doesn't seem like anything to do with it but I picked up poetry during adult life.  
         In school I got the stick for learning and knowing nothing at all and been thick so I wonder if my teachers would have given me stick if I would have known poetry as a child, may be not as long as I wasn't doing poetry in their lesson, which I guess is fair enough.
        Where was the best time then to show them my poetry?
         There was no time at all.
         There was no pleasing in these teachers.
          If only I knew my poetry in my naughty lines I must or I must not do but them no which would have got me into worse trouble.
          You don't have to hit a child to teach them right from wrong just get them to write I must do or must not do until they understand the reason why or reasons why not.
        No please in the teachers whether you can learn easily or not.
        Today and even yesterday very few people take and took a lot of passion in their career for most people it seems mostly about the money.
        If I was a teacher I would have been pleased with myself as well as the learners to see that I have taught that people whatever it is.
        There's no sense in giving a person a hard time when they have a skill or and talent to share.
         No person disservices a hard time even if there know nothing at all, why show them up in front of the rest of the class?
         There shouldn't be a big deal whether someone is very or not very bright.  

I don't believe in beating or abuse but every kid should learn right from wrong. 

        Stop the bullying and stop the abuse, just keep away from another if you can't get on!
        Stop sending nasty texts to one another in school! 30.10.2014 - 8.11.2014
         





  Learning to believe in yourself.

Take me as I am or don't take me at all!
Love me as a person or don't love me at all!
Be what and who you want before you go there!
There are times that the truth hurts but lies hurt even more.
Learn to have love and faith in yourself before love and expect someone else to have love and trust in you!
Learning how to love and trust in you may sound big headed but there's nothing like being sure of yourself first.
If you can't have faith, love and trust in yourself then be honest with yourself not to have others in your life at all.
For those of you who have hurt people, now does the truth hurt?
Those of us who believe in ourselves learn to love and trust others and we rid of those who have let us down.
It's far too easy for us to blame ourselves when we are hurt.
We are all only human we all make mistakes.
Its takes two to tango the blame isn't all on one person.
The most blame is on the person who hurt you and let you go.
You are so much better than they are and there is someone out there for you so much better than what they were.

Yo   You  just need to stop taking too much of the blame when you are mostly not to blame.
      You can't change what’s happened but you can improve what’s going to happen.
       Believe yourself otherwise you will doubt yourself all the while.
       Don’t take the pain out on yourself and the person who you love now!
Don't take out on others what you have been through but then time 
to take care of yourself now then once you have faith, love and trust in yourself then move on!

          Don't bring yourself down to the person who has hurt you for you to hurt someone else, which everyone knows is so easy to do without knowing it but in time think about it then you start blaming yourself so don't give yourself any reason to do!

I'm telling myself as well as telling you, those of us who have been hurt we need to tell ourselves we are mostly not to blame because the main blamers are losers, we are not.
We showed them love but they didn't know what love is but that's not our fault.
They led us on instead of them not been honest with us and not telling us they aren't interested, they had a relationship with us that lived a lie because they didn't love us.
It may have disappointed us that they didn't feel the same way as us at the time but at least it would have been the truth.
To learn to love you before loving yourself is the best love of all.
To have faith, love and trust in yourself then you will have the same for your partner.


Yo    You can balance between being yourself not being headed because why beat yourself up over things that are not all your fault even though they seem like they are?
Most people like to get in your life to rip your heart apart to a point they want to blame you, don't let them!
Building faith, love and trust again is so hard to a point we can lose our self belief it's not easy I know but let's not let it! 
w   When others don't believe in you in all areas of life then it's far too easy to not believe in yourself, prove it to yourself then to others.  30.10.2014 - 8.11.2014



W  Whatever the choice.

There's no way of getting it right first time.
Even if feels right it not always is yet if it feels wrong it could be right.
Rightly or wrongly you can never please anyone, very often in the end you can't please yourself.
Things aren't always at the end as they are at the start.
Very few of us get it right first time but others just sail through life.
Those who are out there to look out for us but life are just a game of chance.
Yet there's no chance really life so why we here?
There are so many questions that are unknown.
The reasons are unknown to how the world around and how we all came about.
Life is known to try us to see what happens.
It's unknown unless we try yet we can't try all.
Where does it all come from?
What is life all about?
Some luck comes to others but others it doesn't.
Everyone and everything is different in different ways, how boring it would be if it was all the same. 30.10.2014 - 8.11.2014







My heroes.

Like Anxiety and depression Dyslexia can bring out talent.
You will see I'm a big Freddie Mercury, Queen fan and many other famous people I like.




 Love can be dangerous.

What kind of person am I?
Do you like the person I?
Is it fair to say I love the two of you?
Oh love can be so dangerous I don't know what to do.
I don't want to be dangerous I just want to love one of you.

I find it hard to win because I don't want to hurt any of you.
Whatever I do I feel as if I am hurting someone.
What does it matter chose one or no one at all.
Be friends with the other.
My feelings are hard to control and I am knocking my head on brick walls.
Oh love can be dangerous games to play.

I am not the woman I used to be or the woman I would like to be.
I intend to be faithful that's why I can't cope when I have strong feelings for two people.
I never thought my feelings would make life so hard.
I hate putting myself in the wrong, when life puts on the hard spot.
Love can be a dangerous game to play.

I either have too much choice or no choice at all.
It's a good job I only have the choice of two of you but that's hard enough to make that choose. 1.6.2004










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Freddie Mercury. 

Freddie you and Michael Jackson were the greatest men of all.
You and Michael did the best songs of all.



I have looked up to you both ever since I was a little girl.
You both started your careers the year I was born.
You amazed me the first time I saw you on 'Top of the Pops' when I was about 6yrs old.

You were the first man I saw with long black hair, black eye liner and nail polish, that's why I thought you were a lady.
When I saw your black hairy arms very long legs and high heel boots, I knew you were a man.
It's hard to think of a singer who can beat you and Michael Jackson.
To me you’re also the same as Jimmie Hendricks but most of the time without the guitar.

There will never be another you, there will never be another Jimmie Hendricks and there will never be another Michael Jackson.
Jimmie may have died the year after I was born but his music is just as good as yours.

Your voice stood out well.
I can still hear your voice today.
You didn't play the very often but you did play it good when you did.
Not to forget your friend Brain May who’s just as good as Jimmie Hendricks on the guitar.
Roger Taylor is great on the drums.
John Dean is good on the base Guitar.
I could never be as clever as you guys.
All I can do is draw, paint, write poetry and short stories.
I can't write songs, sing play and read music at all.
Knowing how to do something is better than not knowing how to do anything at all. 26.8.2009

You are the hero of your fans.

You put on a smile on your brave face, we saw you sing on stage on television.
When you left us, it cut us like a blade going through us.
When we heard your voice and saw your face, we felt as if you were still with us.
When we don't hear your music, we remember you are not with us anymore.
Your music still lives on, Freddie you are still forever our shining star in heaven with many other famous stars with you. 27-30.4.2004



 Come and take us up to heaven! 

Take us away from this unkind world we live in.
Take us away from unhappiness of the earth.
Take us away from pain.
It's not all 'BLACK AND WHITE' but there's more' BAD THAN GOOD,' Michael.

It's almost as if we have known you more than just a pop star but we know we have known you as just a pop star.
Keep us safe from this unkind world!

You are our singing hero.
A lot of us have looked up to you since we were children, if anything we always will do like we do and have done with a lot of famous people.
For some reason we get the feeling we should have known you more than just a pop star.
As silly as it sounds, we feel close to you when you are singing television. 26.8.2009


Queen
What are you thinking?  Roger Taylor 


What are you thinking about up there?
What are you trying to tell us?

What rights have we got asking you questions?
What rights have we got trying to get into your world?
We can't see or hear you so why don't we leave you in peace?

If only we knew what you thought of us as your fans.
We know what we think of you, you’re great.
Otherwise I would not be writing poetry about you.

Our hero, our friend and every one of us fans feel with a bond with you.

You are more than just a singer to us, mainly when you sang a lot of years of our lives.
This makes us feel warmth and we feel at home with listening to you as our singing hero.
We all love and miss you so much.10- 13.5.2004 - 2014-08-27


why do we hold to love?

I live on my own.
I am out and about.
I love all kinds of music.
When I hear you singing I love your music just good.

Your right about love killing you.
When love gets me down I listen to your songs.

You still said love does not pay bills; you give me advice just like a Dad.
My lover spends his time in the pub just getting drunk, when he finishes work.
Our relationship would be even worse if we lived together Freddie because the bills would not get paid.
I am better off ' LIVING ON MY OWN' even though it would be nice to have someone to come home to.
I still see him as 'THE LOVE OF MY LIFE' even though I must be mad.

If I lived with him things would get worse but as I said it would be lovely to have 'SOMEONE TO LOVE' at home. 10-13.5.2004 - 2014-08-27


My memory of George Harrison.

Like a lot of us I never knew George as a person.
We knew George as an ex Beatle he playing and whiling his guitar gently weeps.
What was so sad was that he was not here to be sixty - four.
I born at the wrong time by the time I understood about Beatles they split up.
When I heard the news of John Lennon when got shot that was a big shock
Sadly John Lennon died December 8th; I was only eleven years old.
However long famous people lives great talent never dies.
Wherever you are George all your music will forever shine.
We all miss him, we all kiss him.
Have nice rest George. 3.12.2001 - 4.12.2001
George Harrison out of the Beatles.


 Ringo Star

 Brain May out of Queen.


 Freddie Mercury

Was I dreaming?

Was I dreaming you were here?
If I am right, are you still here?
Is it just your sing voice and music that I can hear?
I can't see you but I can hear you singing voice.
May be your family, friends, lovers and friends can hear you too.
Who knows, only you.
The answer is we can only hear your voice on the television, radio, and cds. DVDs and internet. 
 You have always been very special to fans that were around at the start of your career.
It's when we don't you singing, we remember you’re in heaven.
Having lost you both has felt like a sharp knife gone right through us. 26.8.2009 - 27. 8. 2014


Sound. 

I hear the sound of Freddie and Michael Jackson's music.
They were both the greatest men of all with the best voices of all.
To us Freddie Mercury you are still in Queen and Michael Jackson you are still in the Jackson 5.
Freddie you are the king and Queen Of music and Michael you are the King of Pop.
You were more than just pop stars to your fans; you were heroes and best friends to us all.
What is it about you guys? I can't put my finger on it, other than having made just great music for us.
I can hear the sound of silence which tells me that you are both in peace in heaven. 26.8.2009 – 27.8.2014


we all feel lost without you both.
                                                                                                                                 

Our hearts ache and break.
When you both died at difference times, we lost a big part of us.
We died inside ourselves.
Why did it have to happen to you two?
They say the good died young.

You two brighten up our lives and put songs in our hearts.
We lived in a happy world with you two, Michael Jackson and Freddie Mercury.
Still guys your music lives on though.
Now our world has fallen apart without you both.
Other than your music things won't get better.
One day we will join you both in heaven with happiness.

You both brighten our childhoods just by watching you singing and dancing on television.

Now Freddie there's no Queen without you because you wore the crown.
Brain, Roger and John don't feel the same without you neither do your family, friends and fans.
Michael there's no Jackson 5 without you even though in the end you sang a lone; The Jackson 5 won't feel the same without you Michael neither will your family, friends and fans.

Freddie, Paul Rogers is great but he is not you.
Paul Rogers will be 'Alright now!' in Free. 26.8.2009 – 27.8.2014



Heaven. 

We wish you could both tell me what it's like in heaven.
We wonder where you both have gone, if you guys have gone anywhere.
Is there a place called heaven if so is it more peaceful than earth?
A thousand unanswered questions could be asked but the mind can think over time.

Does it rain into a heavy storm in heaven or is it always sunny and warm?
Is the blue sky with the yellow sun shine that's so bright?


When you both left us, the wind blew.
The wind blew all the roses away and took us away from you guys.
From the first time we saw you both on television; we have grown up with you guys until the reach of your days came to take one each of you to heaven.
Now the show goes on, you music lives and live goes on.
Life is not very easy without you both, even though Freddie you have been in heaven nearly 18 yrs.
Like we say we look up to you both with thanking for the music you both gave us.
Love you all, rest in peace both of you.


 26.8.2009 – 27.8.2014



  It's impossible. 

It's impossible to forget you both.
Both of you took our breaths away.
If there are such words as gods, kings and queens you two say it all.
If there is a god, why did he take you both away from us so soon?
If there is a god, you guys could have made more songs if there was not a good. 26.8.2009






your songs and music still lives on.

If there is a god, he took your voices away from you both.
He took away your love for us.
You both sang to us with love because you both loved us all, we are your fans, still are and always will be.
Deep down you still love us as your fans.
Deep down you are both looking down on us?
I believe like I guess many fans around, that you guys are somewhere round. 26.8.2009







Freddie Mercury and Michael Jackson are you there?

Where are you Freddie and Michael in the world of heaven?
Are you both there, one day 'I'LL BE THERE' because everybody has 'GOT TO BE THERE' one day but you two had GONE TOO SOON?
Life is not fair without both of you.

Do you both know how much you are loved from your family, friends and fans?
We will always love you both same as we did when you were both on earth.

Without both of you the world has gone to piece, even the children miss you Michael that includes your own children as well.
Music and life is not the same without both of you.
Both of you bought so much happiness into our lives.
We want you to know how much we really care about you both.
We miss you both, you should be both 'HERE NOT THERE.' 28.8.2009



about both of you.

You both had lovely voices and sang lovely songs.
Life won't be the same without either one of you guys.
Watching both of you was so enjoyable in your own ways; it was so interesting you had your own styles of how you both performed on stage.
In many ways you both made us laugh and cry, for most of us at the same time.

There you are in heaven drinking your Champaign just like you did on earth, Freddie.
There are people who love you crying over you, yet you’re having a ball drinking in heaven.
You two are sleeping in peace while we are living in a dangerous world.
May be the world is not all black and white Michael Jackson but there's good and bad in us all.
When we hear the news we hear very little good news in this day and age.
Your fans round the world all ages. 26.8.2009
You’re both still here.

When we hear your music you are both still here on earth.
When we don't hear your music everything is quiet, both seem at peace and you’re both in heaven.

You are both looking down on his as your fans.
You could be both singing to us but we can't hear you both from heaven to earth.
We still feel as if you are both giving us love.

Listening to your songs makes us all feel lucky to be alive.

If you guys had not had sang the world would have been dull, thank you both for the music you gave us. 26.8.2009








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ou both lived, we died.
You both left the world in peace.
We died inside ourselves.
You were both too young to die, you were both 'GONE TOO SOON.'
You were both meant to be forever young.

You both treated us as your friends and family as well as fans.
You never both just said hello and goodbye to us, you both made us feel very welcome by the music you made made us feel at home.

You both let us sing along to your songs and clap our hands.
After so many songs, you both spoke to us all.
You both gave so much fun to us all. 28.8.2009



     
how did you both do it?

There are many famous people but not as great and as famous as you two.
How you guys did your work, beats us all.
We are no one without you guys.
The world has got worse without you both.
It's not the same without you both. 28.8.2009
It's still strange without you.

When I put Live 8 on yesterday afternoon, I accepted to see you sing like I saw you sing on Live Aid in 1985.
Instead I saw Robbie William singing ' WE WILL ROCK YOU' which was not as good as you singing it Freddie.
I should not have accepted it to sound the same as 20 years on, you rocked the world.
I suddenly remember you sadly left this world 15 year ago and I was 15 when you sang on Live Aid.
You made us happy to sing along with you, even though a lot of us were watching it on television.
Without you the world has gone to pieces.

All we do now is upset one another, which we should not do.
Why have we changed without you been here?
There was something about that bought complete happiness to the world. 

Be happy to live your life how you want and the best way you can.
No one knows how you and I are going to end up being. 17.3.200 - 3th 
July 2005


 




People loved you both: you both loved people.

You guys must have been aware over at least a thousand or more fans around you.
You get so many emails now Freddie, if only the internet was here when you were on earth.
You guys are as well known today as you were yesterday.
You guys will never ever go out of fashion.
You both must have more young fans than old.
Fans who were not even born when you were on earth Freddie; I guess you will have even more fans to come Michael.
The memories are still here guys. 29.8.2009







We felt as if you knew us.

Not a day goes by when your fans don't think about you both.
We love you and always will just the same we did when you were both on ' Earth'.
We looked up to you both.
To us you were both born with silver spoons in your month.
Freddie you grew up to be one of the members and main Footman of Queen.
Michael you were a child main footman of the Jackson 5.
As fans we only saw you guys on stage, we never knew or understood your lives behind closed door.
What everyone does know about you Michael is that you were happier on stage than off.
Both of you made my childhood and teenage years.
When I listened to both your music, it relaxed me from stress.

Having had a lot of drawings of you Freddie, I thought I'd write poetry about.
I have only started to draw and write about you Michael.
In the future there's a lot to come. 29.8.2009







you two.

You gave us the freedom to listen to your music.
The music you both made was good and made us feel free.
The music both of you made gave us peace on earth.

When you’re not frightened, you feel free.
Freddie' YOU WANTED TO BREAK FREE' when you wore your short black skirt, black tights or stockings and shoes.
That's very brave and funny that you showed the world to feel free to do what we want.
You did not care what people thought, that's the way to be.
You achieved what you wanted to achieve in life.
You were a free a person, you where who and what you wanted to be.

You did not need to think what you wanted.
People loved you for whatever you chosen.
The world had a lot of respect for you and Michael too.

Life may well go on without you both but if the world did not have your song, the world would be dull.
There is far too much sadness in today's world without any happiness at all.
With your Freddie and Michael as a world, we are 'NOT ALONE.' 26.8.2002

The years have gone.

I spend all my life listening to the music of Freddie Mercury and Michael Jackson when Freddie sang in Queen and when Michael sang in the Jackson 5.
I have even heard songs that Freddie and Michael have done alone and together.
Where have all the years gone?

Freddie we can't believe that you have been gone nearly eighteen years.
Michael to find out that you had suddenly gone was a sudden shock.
You both had been part our lives one way or another.
The world died with both of you.
The world is a world of ' GHOSTS' without you both.
You guys were our world, still are and always will be.

May be a lot of us did not meet you both face to face but you were both very special to us more than just pop stars and fans.
When you have seen people all your lives, you feel as if you have known them all your life even though you have not. 27.8.2009








The Jim Morrison from the Doors.

 Jimi Hendricks the guitarist.  John Keats the poet.
 27 1997.

At the age of 27 1997, it was a bad year.
You broke my heart, you torn me apart.
At the age of 27 in 1997 I just wanted to go to heaven.
Life did not seem worth living, it all seemed like a dark tunnel.
The winter was dull and cold without you.
I discovered Shelly and Keats in the summer.
Without planning to I wrote poetry but when I did I knew life was worth living after all.
Once I started writing poetry it helped me clear my mixed up mind which helped me to get stronger in my mind.
That's when I learned to understand that life goes on, without writing poetry I would have broke down or and even ended my own life.
Jim Hendricks, Kurt Cobain and Jim Morrison all suffered depression one way or the other over difference very bad times in life, they were all 27 when they died.
They were very creative people in their music but I pulled through my breakdown when I was nearly twenty - eight by discovering poetry. 13.2.2009


 Phil Lynott Thin Lizzy 








 Love is in the air.  Human and horse.



  


John Lennon.
John Lennon was a young hippie in the 1960s.
He believed in peace not war.
He would not be happy with the world been any other way than peace not war.
Today he'd be rolling in his grave if he saw knew what a mess the world is today.
John always rewarded brave people.
He wrote great song and poetry.
He drew and painted lovely pictures.
He was a very clever man.
The sad thing was that he did not die in people but with a bang bang.
Everyone guessed that John Lennon wanted to die at a peaceful grand old age with no pain but just in his sleep. 31.1.2001


Peace.
We want this war to be over.
We want our lives to be lived to the full, knowing that we will still be here tomorrow.
Be happy to live your life how you want and the best way you can.
No one knows how you and I are going to end up being. 17.3.2003


Love.

Give the world as much love as you can.
It takes all kinds of people to make a war but it take all kinds of people to give love.
We are all in the same boat in ways fearing for people's lives and our own.
We should all get through this war together by loving and supporting another.
Know one will know where it will be one day to the next; most countries may be safe not but in the future who knows!
We must as much peace and love as much as we can but no war.
Be brave enough to take it day by day. 12-13.5.2003


War and peace.
What a life.
Make sure you have good times.
Try to get through the bad times.
You start off young.
You end up old but then you learn a lot more than you know now.
Everyone wonders about what life all is all about whether it's a waste or not.
Life is what you make it, if you make it good, it's no waste at all. There are too many people risking their lives for others.
They are risking their lives for you and me.
We are risking our lives in our country in order to live our lives.
There are too many dangerous people about on this earth sadly.
Heaven could be the most peaceful place to be if there is a place called heaven.14-15.5.2003 - 23.4.2003 - 19.8.2012

Brad well Bronte
   Salvador Dari


Art.

Paints
Crayons
Felts
Colouring pencils
Paper
Board
Frames
Pictures
Art is full of feeling and life; it works like poetry, plays, novels and short stories.
Every picture tells a story. 2-19.3.2003 


 Emily Bronte Writer  John Lennon and Cynical Power.


 George Harrison and Patti Bond.  Brain Jones from the Rolling Stones

 Bet M idler.  George Harrison




 Brain May Elvis Presley.


 Bob Marley

The story Bob Marley

I think Clive must have researched out of books or the internet, may even both.

Bob's biography was written by Clive Jackson about twenty years after Bob's death.

I enjoyed reading Bob's story because he led a very complex life where he was born in Jamaica. I enjoy reading about people from other counties and difference back grounds. ( Difference .) The kind of life I have and never experience.

I think I have been a fan of Bob and his band as long as I have been a fan of Queen. My Mother used to listen to Bob's music when I was a child so Bob was one of many stars that I was brought up with.

I found the information easy to read but hard to understand. I can't put my finger on the reason why, may be it's because I know so little about Bob Marley. If I get his main biography, I may understand more, I'd like to read that.

You never know what's true and what is not in what you read about famous people. One piece of information can tell you difference to the other.

Clive had introduced Bob's Reggie music to his readers well and very little about his private life, famous people Bob knew, Bob's hobbies and life before he became famous. I find that even more interesting.



 

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