Saturday 31 December 2016

Things can't go right all the time.

Nothing goes everyone's way all the time.
I can't stand fear but I love beer, beer doesn't love me, it makes me fat lol! 

Life isn't all black and white.

Worse things happen at sea. 

Can't get it right all the time.

No one is perfect, we all make mistakes. 

Life is what you made it.

Life is too short make the most of it. 

old sayings

Take the good with the bad. 

Saying

Be yourself don't try to be someone your not and try not to make yourself misunderstood.

Summer time.

Summer.
Daisy
Buttercup
Rose
Trees with leaves all over. 31.12.2016 

Spring.

Easter.
Chocolates
Bunnies
Rabbits
Lambs go baa
Chicks 31.12.2016 

Valentines poem

Love.
 Hearts
Flowers
Chocolates
Cards
Poems
Verses 31.12.2016 

More poems.

The weather.
Wind
Hot
Cold
Sunshine
Rain
Snow
Hail 31.12.2016 

Get a move on.

Fast poetry.
Not much time.
Time to party.
Soon be time to let the old year old and the new year in. 31.12.2016 

Drinking for new year.

Get drunk.

Get drunk and merry.
Happy new year.
Let 2016 out and 2017 in.
With no tear
my dear
of the positive and negative of 2017. 

Get it off your chest!

It all comes out.

I know what's making you low.
The cold winter weather.
The change of the season.
Dull days and dark nights.
Every day is short but months seem so long. 31.12.2016 

Taking Anxiety

Anxiety.

Panic
Fear
Worrying about things that mostly don't turn out to be what they seem. 31.12.2016 

Closing 2016

Fireworks.

I hear fireworks going off to close 2016.
2017 to open.
Another year to come and go as quick as this as the years fly to 2018. 31.12.2016 

poetry post.

I grew up to be me.

I am no good with my fingers and toes.
I am good with my mind.
The good thing is I can write.
I say what's going through my mind. 31.12.16

Taking the risk.

Risking a long road without realizing.

 I wrongly let my feelings get in my way and I should have controlled them.
Therefore I feared and took the risk for someone I loved at that time and now I hate him.
If only I was braver I would have saved myself extra pain.
I took the risk knowing he was going to break me again but then realizing he didn't in the end because I fell down and got back up again ten times stronger than what he did.
I took him back, we spent seven years together, what a big mistake that was because my love was far too strong towards him to turn him down.
This time I knew whatever it took I had to start to walk away before he hurt me ten times as hard as he did before.
I started to walk away slowly for a month in spite of my feelings.
In a few days, I started to feel nothing for him, which I couldn't believe after 13 and a half years on and off.
 It was a great weight off my shoulders but it still took six years till I was out of his life altogether because I was great friends with his Mum.
 Only after she died I walked away from him for good
He couldn't make up him his mind whether he loved me or not so,  therefore he didn't love me at all.
As time when on he kept on saying sorry, he kept begging me to take him back, I kept on saying no. 31.12.2012



Happy new year post 2016 to 2017.

Happy new year 2017.

Time to put 216 behind us and bring 2017 forward.
Let's hope 2017 is better than 2016.
Now it's time to deal with the unknown.
Looking forward is not easy when you don't know but wouldn't be right to know.
Forget the past but learn from it, meaning put it behind the best you can. 31.12.2016

If only you knew what feels like.

This is not a cry out for help.

This is not a cry out for help.
This is not seeking attention, we are just making you aware of our conditions.
This is a very down feeling with or without a reason.
No one wants to feel like they do.
No one wants to take how they feel on others.
No one wants to leave others in sadness.
Just when you feel like this, life feels painful to live but it doesn't mean you want to leave the world to grief.
We are not nuts, it doesn't make us suffer worse than others the way you may think we think, we just cope in a different way to you.
We would say if we really truly knew why ourselves, it may well pass but then it comes back, we are up and down which can happen to anyone but we are just more so often than, those who do not face Mental Health .
We are not asking for the world, we are asking to learn and understand about us. 30. 12.2016


Misunderstood.

So you think I am all black and white sorry to disappoint but you are wrong, we can be quite bright when we see the light.
There's more to me and others the same or not much different to me.
We are always what we sound and appear to be.
Just because you may see us laughing and smile, doesn't mean we feel the same inside.
We are not fake people and we are not attention seekers either.
Feelings emotion can vary from time to time and or person to person, not all people manage their conditions the same.
It may depend on the people and situations around us.
Not everyone faces and reacts to life the same.
Mental Health is hidden, it's not a lie.
It's not something we decide to be ourselves, it just happens and nobody knows why.
We are not fake, we are real but sensitive people. 3012.2016

Every day I ask myself.
What happened?
Why did it happen?
When did it happen?
If only I knew because I feel that you would be at peace if I did so would I.
No reason is good enough you should be here.
Doesn't how you felt about me, I loved you and I always will.
However you felt about me, I would sooner you would be alive than where you are now.  30.12.2016


December.

Your birthday gave me a mixer of emotions, wishing you were here as the party animal you were.
Days before and after you birthday have seemed very dark and dull, leaving me to wonder why you left this world.
Not easy to move on anyway but even harder with the unknown.
I have tried to stop myself asking myself questions knowing full well I get no answers, which is not easy.
What I do know is that you would tell me to stop be so daft and move on with my life.
Yes, you're right, I'm not very good at it am I? 30.12.2016

Drinking and poetry.

Through been over tried and drinking emotions tend to get taken out on the wrong people, which should wait to be written on paper.
It's not poetry, it's just words that has come out of my head, words of emotions.
I haven't been sleeping right since you left this world with all these questions I can't answer coming into my head.
I haven't took sleeping pills, I have drank instead only huge amounts now and then.
I sit at my computer desk with words pouring out my head that don't make any sense, then it goes blank as I wonder what to write. 30.12.2016

No point.

It seems life is not worth living when you weren't meant to be here in the first place.
Sorry be so sad, take no notice of me it's just a wrong feeling of opinion I had.
I don't feel like anyone.
Who are you?
I may as well not be here at all.
Sorry, to feel this way I just want to end it all.
Sorry, it was just what I was feeling at the time when I wrote these lines. 30.12.2016

Words are words.

Say good or and bad words about I don't care.
They are words, they don't hurt me.
Do whatever you like me, I will leave this earth as a door mat.
I will fall down and get back up again.
I am used to people treat me how they want, I don't care how they treat me anymore.
If others think I am a laughing stock so what I'm as strong as an ox. 30.12.2016

I keep feeling the need to do it.

I keep feeling the need to do it but I haven't got the guts.
Too scared of heights and I don't think I am strong enough.
If only I knew why I feel the way I do.
Open the window and let me fly to the sky.
Life is a pain and sadness, I don't feel selfish to do it but I feel guilty and ashamed that I feel this way.
30.12.2017











Thursday 29 December 2016

Put the past behind.

Depression.
Depression isn't all sadness.
Depression isn't all black and white.
We not nuts or neither are we not completely sad or completely happy either, we just want to be heard and understood.
Depression isn't all one feeling to what it says by the sound of the word Depression.
Depression you can be feeling very up and down more so than people without Depression.
Please don't judge what you don't understand or know!
We are all positive as well as negative people.
The same the other way round, just because we may laugh, smile or and etc doesn't mean we necessary do feel that way inside ourselves, many of us feel very sad side.
How we show ourselves can be very different to what feel inside but not always the case, it can vary so much from time to time and or even person to person.
Little is show because it's so very hidden as far as the condition itself is concerned.
You could have the greatest life in the world yet feel the unhappiest person in the world yet have the worse life in the world and be the happiest person in the world, which can vary from person to person,  time to time or any way round.  29.12.2016


You were all in my mind.

You were all in my mind.
You were all in my head.
Writing poetry has been like writing lines in school.
I must get you out of my mind and head.
You have seen to be with me for so long even after I finally walked out your life altogether.
You seemed as if you were going to be with me forever, I never thought I'd get rid of you and I never thought I ever wanted to get rid of you.
Now it's as if I have been sleeping these years with you in my mind and head, it's been all a dream and nightmare.
Now I don't think about you anymore and now I don't think you are real anymore.
Now to me it's as if you are this monster who has been eating away at me all these years and now you have gone away, you just not here anymore and finally I am free from you.  29.12.2016



Never thought it would end.

I once went off the rails because of you, I never thought the pain would end.
Every day seemed like a big effect to keep myself living and going, I never thought I was going get by but I did, with counseling and poetry I made it through in the end without you.
I never I thought I'd see the light at the end of that black tunnel, which seemed so far away.
Every day seemed so scary and I never thought I'd get through.
I never thought I'd feel the same without you.
I never thought I would be pleased to be without you.
I never thought I would make it without you in the end. 29.12.2016

If only I did it sooner.

I only I left sooner and if only I didn't love you for so long.
I only I felt stronger to walk away from you sooner but then in the end I did.
Still, although it wasn't nice at the time, the harder time you gave me, what you didn't realize was the stronger you made me.
Now I can move on without you on my mind.
It took me so long to get where I am now, now it's as if I never knew or saw you.
You thought you knocked me right down, okay you did but I got back up again.
You never thought you would be sad to lose me but you are because you begged to get me back when you realized you were wrong to let me go so what goes around comes around.
I don't like revenge but if it's necessary it doesn't do you any harm to see what it's been like to be on my side of the coin, does it?
How long did you think I was going to let you walk over me without me realizing I was?
How shocked were you when I could walk away and live without you being in my life?
You don't like to see the change in me and you don't like the truth do you?
The truth hurts you so don't beg me like a dog for another chance because you will get nowhere with me!
Sorry, I won't do it again!
Let's not go there pretending you're someone you are not.
How many chances do you want?
None with me.  29.12.2016


You go by what you see.

You go by what you see.
Also so much his hidden in the condition so don't judge what don't understand what you don't know!
Therefore you misunderstand us for someone we are not.
You stare at us as if you think we are nuts.
You react to us as if we are not there.
Hello, we are there.
We have thoughts and voices like everyone.







Mental health poems and try to put the past behind.

In my own world and in my own words.

I was like the only child to start with.
When you came into the world we were like miles apart but you brought a lot of joy into my life, that I know at times I found it hard to show.
Now you are a great Mother raising my two lovely nephews.
There has been so may changes that we never thought would happen from when You were born when I was 13 to now. 29.12.2016

I am me no matter how hard I find it to change.

I try not to be a dreamer but I seem to be.
Being romantic can be a good and a bad thing because you can easy hope too much.
Not easy to balance the good with the bad.
Not good when you want to write and you can't think what to write.
Once you start to think, your pen can't write in time to your mind, please forgive my untidy hand writing when that happens, which is why I mostly type. 29.12.2016


Just a feeling with or without a reason.

Just a feeling with or without a reason why, even then no one really knows why.
For some of us it comes and goes with no in-between.
For others it stays where it is unknown to the reasons why most of the time.
Just except anything, everything off anybody and everybody.
We are just human with things we can and can't control. 29.12.2016


Don't get me wrong.

Don't get me wrong, not everything is down to Mental health, we know that.
Most of it is down to being misunderstood.
Yes I agree we all have faults. 29. 12. 2016

Managing feelings.

Art, crafts, hobbies, interests, talents or and etc is a great way of managing Mental health but it doesn't work for everyone, even counseling or both. 29.12.2016

Take me as I am or not at all.

I am happy one minute but not the next.
Sometimes there's no reason for it, other times there is.
It's just a feeling side me that can change from happy to sad then sad to happy.
No one is to blame either way. 29.12.2016



Will the sad feeling ever end?


Mental health isn't always a sad feeling, we go through times of feeling happy and sad just like everyone but the difference is how often we do to those you don't face Mental health.
The sad feeling can last however long or short it going to be but to us it can feel like long even if it's short because it can be the unknown.
You can feel the way you do with or without reason and no one really knows why, it's just the feeling inside the person.
Anxiety can link with Depression because you worry, panic or and even fear over things that mostly don't seem to be as bad as what they do seem.
In the time sadness it's hard to have faith and positive in yourself until somehow, someway that feeling passes but then you wonder whether or not you going to get through, which is why you may be saying things you wouldn't say and even do in a happy state of mind.
It can vary from time to time and even person to person.
Never think those who stuffer from Mental health is how life will end, it will either will or won't the same with disability too. 29.12.2016.








Wednesday 28 December 2016

Useful websites for your study.

http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/handout-1.html
http://irishpost.co.uk/family-still-coming-to-terms-with-fathers-suicide-after-flawed-fit-to-work-dwp-assessment/
http://wp.me/p4Sru1-3Jd
http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/dad-two-killed-himself-because-1844633
http://www.adhdawarenessmonth.org/
http://www.disabilityrightuk.org/
http://www.mencap.org.uk/
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/reminder-of-accessible-information.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/more-understanding-with-mind.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/teaching-from-experience.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/stress-management.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/managing-health-problems.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/about-cuts-and-changes.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/introduction-to-changes-and-cuts-in.html
https://www.facebook.com/MSSociety/videos/10153588996953664/?fref=nf
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/revision-guide-for-2nd-year-students.html
http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/plan-for-disability-hate-crime.html
https://www.mencap.org.uk/?gclid=CL3C3M6o-qsCFcRO4QodcRHSlQ
https://www.mencap.org.uk/sites/default/files/documents/Information%20about%20hate%20crime.pdf
http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/tories-take-rape-victim-supreme-7256632


Information isn't always clear, it needs to be in easy read.

Back in 2011, I had got a letter off the Benefit office about my Incapacity benefit changing to Employment and Support Allowance.

The letter wasn't very clear and easy to read.


DWP should not send out unexpected letters or give people unexpected call, the Job centre staff should make people aware of the changes face to face in the Job centre.

 We could get a call or and letter any time to tell us our benefits have changed.
Days, months and years need to be made out clearer to when the Job centre wants us in to tell us about the benefit changes.


It is hard to plan our support when we don't know when they are going to call, we need plenty of notice.

 We could get a call or and letter any time to tell us our benefits have changed.

It is hard to plan our support when we don't know when they are going to call.

If people are expected to work, they can't be expected to be sitting at home waiting for the Job Centre to call. 

Benefit Cut awareness update.

This is a message to the Student Learning Disability nurses and trained Learning Disability nurses.
Stress is a risk of a killer for all people not just people with disabilities and health problems.
As you all may be aware since David Cameron has been in power there have been more people with disabilities and health problems lose their benefits than ever before. This may seem strange to hear, the stress people have been having going through has affected peoples’ health as far Anxiety, depression, epilepsy, even such health problems as diabetes, asthma and etc is curtained. Most people have even died. Last year alone Britain lost 10’6000 people with disabilities and health problems. Let’s do our best to prevent this stress for people as much as possible by signing the petition or and sharing the link http://www.change.org/p/3200011?recruiter=85458926&utm_campaign=signature_receipt_fb_dialog&utm_medium=facebook&utm_source=share_petition&fb_ref=Default
http://blacktrianglecampaign.org/2012/10/04/10600-sick-disabled-people-died-last-year-within-six-weeks-of-their-claim-ending/

http://realmedia.press/welfare-report-1-figures-fakers-and-failures-of-the-dwp/

 If you work for any service, company, group, organisation to do with learning disability and mental health I would be most grateful if as many of you as possible team up together. This could well be the same for people with disabilities and health problems as well. Many people like me with disabilities and health problems are also Advocates; Learning Disability and Mental Awareness trainers may be people like us could team up together with professionals.  
We need to be awareness that there are people on benefits who don't have disabilities and health problems who don't like working who should be but it's not in everyone. People who are in that situation are making it hard for those with disabilities and health problems http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/benefits-mum-cheryl-prudham-baby-5966870?ICID=FB_mirror_main


Stress of benefit cuts.
·       People with disabilities and health problems are more sensitive to stress than other people due to our disabilities and health problems.
·       If people have their benefits cuts they won’t have access to counselling because there will be money to pay for it without benefits.
·       People who have their benefits cut are in risk of hunger and or debt.
·       People worry about owing money which can push them to end their lives.
·       So many people have overdosed.
·       Not everyone who has their benefits cut or stopped has a negative ending. ·    
·       Winning appeals doesn’t necessary they are going to be better off than before they lost their benefits?
·       People may worry that they may not have enough money back to pay what they may owe.
·       This is where they are in risk of going hungry and homeless.
§      People can’t affront to live when they have lost their benefits for example paying bills, eating, rent, they may end up homeless and or etc.


People who have their benefits stopped are in risk of going hungry or and going into debt.
§      People worry about owing people money.

STRESSES ON PEOPLE'S HEALTH.

§     Due to peoples’ health problems Stress push them into taking their own lives if life gets too much for them. 
§      Stress can mostly affect those who have such health problems like Anxiety, Depression, Epilepsy, Asthma, diabetes,    and etc.
§      Many people have taken overdoses.
§       Many have taken and lost their own lives.

Awareness of learning disabilities and Mental health awareness cuts.
        This is an update of the Benefits cuts awareness presentation.
        Lives of vulnerable peoples matters as much as yours.
        As you know stress is the biggest killer of all but if you are a vulnerable person, you can't cope with it as much as other people.
        What professions need to be aware of is that 10’600 people with disabilities and health problems died last year due to the benefit cuts.
         I was only aware the figures on Sunday 29th March 2015.

§     People are finding it hard to affront living experiences.
§     Many people have lost their lives through eating very little nothing at all.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3m
GZZ4TmEGA&authuser=0
Here's the rest of this link, http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/httpswww.html


http://sararevealed.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/httpswww.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mGZZ4TmEGA&authuser=0


The cuts and changes to the benefits.

    My Sara Jane Gorman I'm a visiting Literature for the University Of Wolverhampton Walsall Campus. Back in 2015 to 2016 I raised awareness of the benefit cuts to the first year students, I have updated the powerpoint ready to raise awareness of the benefit cuts for last year’s 3rd year students when I go back to work after the summer holiday on September 3rd 2015 at the University of Wolverhampton Walsall campus. It’s down to me to raise this awareness so the students know as Learning Disability nurses what their patience’s could be going through.

Here are the handouts to the Benefit cut awareness power point on this website.

I am aware that nurses are not responsible with what happens in their patient’s life but a lot of things can cause a lot of stress their health such as to do with the benefit cuts.


I understand a lot of services in Britain are under stress with cuts this, that and the other so you will only be able to do what you can do. I also understand that you have to go along with rules of management and laws; I understand there could be things I am teaching you may not be able to put into use. All the same don’t feel my time has been wasted as naturally I hope you don't have to find yourself dealing with patience’s in these serious situations but just in case you are asked by management if you know anything about the benefit cuts at least you will know. I feel all the same it’s my job to prepare you in case what I teach is to be allowed to be necessary. Whenever you get chance to go online just to see if things you have learned are still in date but bear in mind with some sites they can take ages to update them so if have time, it could be best make phones if you need to know if some important things still apply.




https://www.youtube.com/attribution_link?a=YYYmVUou9JI&u=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DgHVKfWPftYg%26feature%3Dshare



Risk of people been forced into things they can’t manage without support.
§     Many people have been forced into situations they cannot cope with without support due to the benefit cuts such as DWP and Altos signing them off fit for work.
§      I’m not saying people with disabilities and health problems can’t work but health, safety and support needs to be taken into account.
§     For example; you may have to write proof to reasons why a person can’t hold down a certain job without the right support.
§     With certain disabilities and health problems there are limits of jobs they can and can’t do, for example someone with Epilepsy; it’s a risk to let them climb ladders.
  • With the cuts the government have been making, a lot of people haven't been getting the support they need.
  • The benefit cuts are risks of injury and accidents at work if they are not supported.
  • Risks of as I said dying of hunger.
  • Some people may be stressed through the Anxiety and Depression of services not able to provide the help people need.
  • Gps only do so much or only allowance to do so much, which is hard to tell because most people have been weight for example and not been told what their weight is.
  • Some people might be underweight and others may be overweight.
  • Prices in shops need to be checked when it comes to healthy foods because people can be limited to what they can spend if they are on benefits or and if their job doesn't pay that well.
  • Risks of taking their own lives.
  • Risks of being in big debt.
  • Risks of people been more unwell.

 Although this is an old report when we had benefit changes back in 2011, now we are facing benefit changes again with the DLA changing to PIP, which most people could face from this year 2015 to I think 2018.

 No one gets told when this change is happening, DWP just sends people a letter out when it suits them.
 Each time people's’ benefits change or even get cut it gets more and more stressful for people and the government puts the stress on people who are less likely to cope without support.

 Now they are making it hard for people, they can’t have any family support.
I will be honest to say I don’t know anything about whether or not the benefits pay for the carers and or support worker so I don’t know what is what there. It may be an idea for you to look into this because you will never know whether you need to know or not.

People get questions on letter then they have to ring a number up that’s written on the letter.
Then people are sent for an assessment which could be for most people out of their way from where they live and most people may face transport problems.
If a friend or carer comes with them they have to wait in the waiting room, they are not allowed to come in the room with them.
This is something else that can cause a lot of stress on people's’ disabilities and health problems.
   
There are a lot of changes and cuts to the benefits in Britain.

·       The stresses of the changes are too much for people with disabilities and health problems.
·       This can make people worry.
·       This can make people ill.
·       This can even cause death, if it gets far too much for people.
It is so wrong of the government to take money off people who need it most.

 No one wishes anyone to be homeless. People with disabilities find it hard to look after ourselves more than other people.

 Back in 2011, I had got a letter off the Benefit office about my Incapacity benefit changing to Employment and Support Allowance.
The letter wasn't very clear to read.


DWP should not send out unexpected letters or give people unexpected call, the Job centre staff make people aware of the changes face to face in the Job centre.

 We could get a call or and letter any time to tell us our benefits have changed.
 Changes may happen to a lot of people in days, months and or years.
For other people changes could happen as soon as tomorrow.
The fact that no one knows when it’s time for their benefits this is what cause people a lot of stress when the unexpected happens.
 Information needs to be made clearer.
As the government is trying save as much money as possible the Job centres have to cut or and stop people money whether there’s a reason or but then it happens to some people not others. Nobody knows why they only cut or and stop only certain people's’ money.

What time?

It is hard to plan our support when we don't know when they are going to call, we need plenty of notice.

 We could get a call or and letter any time to tell us our benefits have changed.

It is hard to plan our support when we don't know when they are going to call.

If people are expected to work, they can't be expected to be sitting at home waiting for the Job Centre to call.  
The cuts and changes to the benefits.

  There are a lot of changes and cuts to the benefits in Britain.

 The stresses of the changes are too much for people with disabilities and health problems.
·       This can make people worry.
·       This can make people ill.
·       This can even cause death, if it gets far too much for people.

 It is so wrong of the government to take money off people who need it most.

 No one wishes anyone to be homeless. People with disabilities find it hard to look after ourselves more than other people.