Bird Watcher who spys. Up date

 Up date of ‘BIRD WATCHER WHO SPIES'.

                     By

SARA JANE GORMAN

CONTANTS PAGE

1. Introduction

2. ' Bird Watcher Who Spies.

3. Lee kissed the sixth form teacher.

4. Lee spends his adult life with the sixth form teacher.

5. Sixth form teacher and Lee get Divorced.

CHAPTER ONE INTRODUCTION

I started writing this story ' Bird Watcher Who Spies'. Back in 1996. To be truthful the idea in the beginning of the story is unknown, nothing inspired me to write such a story, just thoughts kept on running through my mind that I found myself writing down on paper on a day I had nothing to do. The last thing I thought of is making to story; I guess I was just passing time.

 I never saw myself adding more on to this story, which is happening 16 years later. I have never tried to publish it because I have never seen it as anything special. People don't want to read watch stories from the 1960s write today. The reason why I based in the 60s was because as more thoughts kept on going on in my mind as I was writing the 60s styles seemed to match. Yet I was born at the end of the 60s.

What didn't draw on me a year later was that my ex partner who worked with the girl he finished with me for. The employer gave them both a warning, if they didn't pay attention to their work that they would have their engagement rings off them. This is where Lee works with his teacher elsewhere when he finishes school, yet I never really remember having any crushes on teachers but I guess I may have done. At some time in our lives many of us go through a stage if not more than once having strong feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same.

This can make us feel embarrassed with the way we do feel, mainly when it's someone with a partner, too young or and too old for us. The most scarily thing is letting our teacher know how we feel about them. Six months after Joanne and Dan left Lee had a secret crush on this strange looking teacher. Lee felt in embarrassed a mainly in front of his friends. She was 42 years old but she looked more like 82. Miss Cane’s looks didn't seem to be an issue to Lee. There was something about her that he couldn't put his finger on the reasons why he was attracted to Miss Cane. He just fell in love with her. She wasn't fit or a thing of beauty but he thought so much of her. She was a typical thin and frail lady, very old looking as if she had a face mask on her face and it cracked. Miss Cane had curly and short curly hair with brown turned in glasses, brown and cream dog check coat in the winter time.  Lee never thought that Miss Cane would have been interested in him but by his surprise she was. Miss Cane was surprised Lee was interested in her why was he? It was hard to see the good in her looks or in her as a person but Lee must have seen something. It was very strange that Lee was interested in Miss Cane as she was so old fashioned in her ways and strict.

No wonder he kept their relationship a secret from the other kids would have wondered what he saw in her. It would have caused him so much bullying and stress. Lee found it hard enough to make friends as it was and he was always getting bullied and into trouble enough all ready. Without giving too much of the story away in the introduction Lee could anger people very easily.

 People who Lee went to school with were very shocked when Lee married Miss Cane. Many people knew he was an easy target to bully and he easy got into trouble but no one knew he had strange ways in his taste.

 People he went to school thought a hard woman like Miss Cane was the last kind of woman he would have married. Most people who knew Lee bullied him. He was known as a cry baby because he was very good at upsetting people and putting foot in yet. It was never on purpose though because never understand what could wide people up yet coming between Dan and Joanne was a purpose thing because he really did have the hots for Joanne.

Believe or not Lee Marrying and divorcing Miss Cane did him a world of good. Lee became a different person and stronger than he was school. All these people he didn't get along with in school he started to get along with. Lee even started going to Night school to catch on his education. He learned a lot better than he didn't school because for someone reason as an adult he found easier to relax better than he ever did as a child.

Not long after Lee caused jealously between Joanne and Dan, they changed school as soon as they moved into the sixth form. Lee tried to move on with them but Joanne and Dan left London Senior School without telling Lee. Lee never saw them again; he had a feeling that they had left London as he hadn't seen them outside of school since school. It was strange because Dan used to live in the same street as Lee.

The rest is for your readers to find out more.

Chapter two.

BIRD WATCHER WHO SPIES.'

Joanne Evans and Dan Richards met at a Senior Grammar school in London in the 1960s.  They were both eleven years old. The Joanne, Dan and his best mate Lee were in the same class together.

Joanne and Dan were both 'Beatles' fans. The songs were very special to both of them. Dan looked like John Lennon. Dan was very interested in history to do with war by trying to give peace. He wanted to know why wars happen. He like John Lennon because he had a lot in common with him and he loved his music, which made him feel very relaxed and calmed his temper down. Dan was also a lonely child like John Lennon and he was very quiet. Dan had a very hard childhood, which made him the person he was. Dan's Father was a heavy drinker; he used to hit his Mother and Dan. Dan used to try to think how to get away from it all, when he was old enough too. Dan could not sing or play music but he could write poetry and draw.

He was a big fan of Mick Jagger from the 'Rolling Stones', he had a rubber lips just like Mick Jagger.

One Friday, Dan was off school with a Stomach bug, it must have been something wrong with that steak and kidney pie he had from the Chip shop.

Lee Dean’s, who Dan thought was his friend, thought it was a great chance to go after Joanne.

“Are you free tomorrow Joanne because I don't think Dan will be well enough?"

“Lee by the sounds of your voice, you are after something because Dan is not here."

“The answer to your question is no!"

Lee carried on giving Joanne a bad time but Joanne was not having any of it. Lee had been very jealous but he turned his back, huffed, puffed and sulked because he was not getting his own. Strangely he suddenly sang, thinking Joanne could not hear him.

“I CANNOT GET NO SATISFACTION”!

“Please you Joanne, Dan is using."

After Friday morning break, Lee asked his teacher Mr. Johns, if he could set him up a bird project for home work. He made out to Mr. Johns that he was very interested in the subject of bird watching, meaning the birds that fly but not truth Lee Lied.

Lee was a show off, bragger and wanted everything he could not have. He lost a lot of friends because he wanted their girlfriends so he could not get girlfriend himself. Lee could be alright if and when he wanted to.

“I want to take up bird watching sir, can you set me up some homework please."

“I am sure I can do that Lee."

“I want to study all kinds of birds, sir."

The whole class worked Lee's thoughts, and then started to laugh but Lee was dying to laugh but he knew he'd get found. Mr. Johns shouted in a very angry voice.

“What you all laughing at."

 They all sat in their seats trying to keep straight faces, they knew Lee was up to something but they did not know what.

Mr. Johns became very cross because he could not understand why the whole class was laughing.

 Mr. Johns gave Lee his home work.

It was Saturday morning; Dan started to feel a bit better so he rang Joanne up. Joanne told Dan what happened with Lee while Dan was not in school. Dan could not believe it.

“Dan, Lee is after me."

“No he is not, he just likes the doing things I don't like him doing when I am not in his company."

“Dan, Lee is doing a bird project for home work."

"The only bird Lee is interested in is the human female birds."

Joanne and Dan planned to go to Saint James Park.

“Anyway I will meet you at 12.00pm for lunch at Saint James Park, Joanne."

“Ok, Dan."

“We will try to find a private place in the park, Joanne."

“Yes, that will be great Dan."

Both Joanne and Dan looked forward to a nice hot sunny peaceful day in the park. The weather was lovely but they thought they found the private spot behind the park shed where the Park keeper directed them. It was in a romantic field full of roses, trees, brushes and singing animal birds.

They just got on as couples do and started talking about their hopes when they leave school, until someone tried to come in bet ween them.

Without them knowing, Lee had put a pair of step ladders by a high fence, he was looking through his Father's binoculars. Joanne and Dan did not notice at first. Lee was so happy to notice Joanne; he near enough fell off the ladder with the binoculars in his hands. Lucky Lee only just managed to save himself from falling off the ladder. Lee had to be careful he didn't damage his Dad's binoculars, Lee’s Dad did not know Lee took them, B he'd be for if he damaged them. Joanne heard the nose of the ladders going while Dan was a sleep, which woke Dan up.

Joanne stood up in her pink bikini; little did she know at that point Lee wrote on a brown paper bag. Lee put the brown paper bag into his blazer pocket as quick as he could. He was still strangely wearing his school uniform on a Saturday. Lee was hoping that Joanne and Dan would not notice him spying on them.

 'PINK TIT BIRDIE'.

“What on earth are you doing here Lee?"

Lee laughed.

“I am doing my bird project home work for Mr. Johns, Dan."

“Don’t lie Lee, you bored because you have not got a girlfriend." said Joanne

 “What kind of bird are you looking for Lee?" asked Dan

“Pink Tit bird, Dan."

Dan laughed.

The fall out carried on over whether Lee was bored without a girlfriend or if it was bird project home work. Dan and Joanne took a look around to see if there were any birds such as a pink tit.

“There’s no sign of a pink tit bird here Lee." said Joanne

 “It could be a bird, we have never heard of before, I saw it in my bird project book at home."

“Have you got your book on you now?" asked Dan

 “No I forgot it."

Dan could not be bothered falling out.

 “Bring it to school on Monday Lee!"

“Have you got your book on you now?" asked Dan

“No I forgot it."

Dan could not be bothered falling out.

“Bring it to school on Monday Lee!"

“Ok."

Both Joanne and Dan knew Lee was up to something.

It was Monday morning, Mr. Johns asked.

 “Home work, Lee Deans!"

 Lee showed Mr. Johns a brown paper.

 “What are you doing with a brown paper bag, boy that's not homework and what kind of bird are you looking for?"

“PINK TIT, sir."

Whole class started laughing yet again apart from Joanne and Dan.

“Everyone stops laughing!" said Mr. Johns as he caned Lee seven times.

 The whole class stopped laughing as Lee was screaming. Poor Lee was shaking like a leaf; they all felt sorry for him in a strange way, even Joanne and Dan.

“Now sit down boy, I bet you won't sit down for a week now!"

Lee tried to sit down, it hurt so much he got up again but Mr. Johns force him to sit back down again.

“I told you it would hurt boy, sit back down, I am going to talk to the whole class."

 Mr. Johns got his bird project book out of his old wooden desk.

“Now children open your desks, your bird projects books should be there, so see if there's a Pink tit".

Everyone looked, everyone said.

“No Sir."

“Okay, we will go for a mini bus ride to Saint James Park to see if there is any such bird as a Pink tit bird."

 Suddenly everyone looked around for this Pink tit bird in Saint James park bit no sign.

You see Lee, no one can find this Pink tit bird in the park either, you are wasting a lot of class time." said Mr. Johns

“Sorry sir."

“Sorry is not good enough, Lee; it's now 12.00pm everyone's lunch time."

Suddenly going back to school in the mini bus Dan and Joanne told Mr. Johns what Lee was playing at.

“Why didn't you tell me this morning?"

“We thought this would make things worse, sir." said Dan

“You have made it even worse Dan, by leaving it to the last minute."

"Now I don't have to deal with just one of you but three. All three of you will all have the cane, distension and lines."

Mr. Johns rang the children’s' parents up, as soon as they got home they got the cane again.

 Mr. Johns got very cross with Lee.

“I have heard that you had spied on Joanne and Dan in the park Saturday afternoon."

“I was doing my homework sir."

“See your fibbing again, Lee."

Lee stood shaking as Mr. Johns gabbed the collar Lee’s shirt.

“I think you are very jealous of Dan and Joanne, you like spoiling thing for other people and you hate it when you don't get your own way."

“Why did you do it Lee?"

“It was a joke, sir."

 “One sick joke, that's just gone too far, don't you mean?"

 “What started this silly game?"

 “I can't get any satisfaction out of these girls sir."

“You won't have a girlfriend or friends, if you try to take your friend girls off them."

“I didn't mean to hurt anyone, sir."

“You can't always get your own way, Lee."

“I will try to keep that in mind, sir."

“Now let's get on with it, I am still not very happy with you Lee."

Lee had to write his lines.

 I MUST NOT TRY IT ON GET  WITH MY FRIEND'S GIRLFRIEND.

The three children had to spend two hours after school in school. Mr. Johns told the class what happened on that Saturday afternoon. Joanne and Dan didn't think that Mr. Johns would say anything to the class. They found out what a mistake it was to tell Mr. Johns but this pink tit joke would have still been going on. Lee had spoiled his friendship with Joanne and Dan forever. It did not seem to bother Lee how Joanne and Dan felt; he did not care about people's feelings. It was one big joke to Lee On the bright side Joanne and Dan left London to never have been seen again, due to Lee's behavior.

The next day it never dawned on anyone that Joanne and Dan had left only that they may have not have been well. No one even rang in to the let the school know. Lee wasn't the only reason for them to leave London. Both of them had parents who weren't getting on anymore and who were on the verge of divorces, the stresses were just too much for both of them. It was the day after they were detention that they managed to pack their bags and leave on the night time. They packed as quickly as they could but both sets of parents were rowing too much to notice their children were getting ready to go wherever. It’s unknown where they did go.

It was only Joanne’s Father Mark who passed Lee on the Friday morning to ask if he has seen his daughter. Lee kept his thoughts to himself knowing that this man used to beat Joanne. Lee never blamed Joanne for running away. It only hurt Lee that Joanne ran away with Dan not Lee. Nasty man, thought Lee, no wonder she ran away, I remember her showing me the bruises on her arm where she said her Father hit her. He hits her Mother the same way.

 “I don't know Mark I haven't see either of them since Monday."

“Thanks for that Lee; we have had the police out for her and everything."

“Sorry to hear that Mark, I will let you know if I see around."

“Thanks Lee."

“May be I can knock on Dan's door and ask his parents if Dan is around or not."

“Oh yes Lee that is possible, since she's not been seen since Thursday night, which was only last night.”

“Since Joanne has been seeing that Dan, Joanne’s behavior has changed, Lee."

“Ok, by Mr. Evans."  

“Mr. Evans walked off with so much shame and guilt.

Lee walked up to knocked the Rich son’s door, the lights were on and curtains were open. Mrs. Richardson was doing her knitting and Mr. Richardson was smoking a pipe. Lee stood for ages knocking but no one answered.

CHAPTER THREE.

LEE KISSED THE SIXTH FORM TEACHER.

Suddenly Lee looked at his watch to realize he was late for school. He knew he was going to be trouble as he had maths with Miss Cane. The snow was very deep as young Lee still had miles to walk. It looks as if Lee loved firefly women his day as he was looking forward and dreading the strict school teacher with a thin old cracked face and a brown and cream dog checked coat. I love women when they get angry Lee though.  

“Sorry I’m late Miss the snow is so deep today”

“Walk up my desk Deans so I can give a good spanking, for been late!”  

Lee as cheeky as he was, he looked at the other kids with such a big smile.

 “Oh yes please Miss Cane any time.”

“You are going to regret you have said that young Deans.”

“Really.”

Wrack! Lee screamed

“Now stand up, you won’t sit down for week boy, you back side is so sore.”

 Yes it is love thought Lee.

“By the way Lee, you have detention tonight.”

“I know why you are smiling Lee.”

“Sorry Miss.”

Oh do Miss though Lee.

The kids there and laugh.

“Does anyone else want a wrack?” as Miss Cane stood up waving the cane in front of every child’s face as the look their faces started to change from laughing to fear.

 At the end of the day Lee needed to correct him maths because he was so poor in his as Miss Cane went through it with him. Lee’s feelings for Miss Cane were so strong that he couldn't control his emotions. Despite of Lee been a very cheeky child he felt guilty for the he felt, which made his feel ashamed and nervous.  He couldn’t keep his thoughts to himself yet he was dreading telling Miss Cane how he felt that way about her. It seemed strange that such a young boy of 16 to 18 could take such a shine an old hag of a teacher like that. Due to Miss Cane’s such strict ways is why Lee was dreading her response for him having felt that way towards her.

 It was no wonder he kept it secret from all the children in the school he would be bullied more, he put up with enough bully as it was.  

“I have something to tell you Miss which is very hard to.”

“Oh right, get on with it boy, get on with it!”

Red and sweat just came out of him. Miss Cane’s patience’s were wearing. He was so scared of what she was going to say to him. He could she wasn't wearing forever so he well what will be will be.

“I fancy you Miss Cane.”

By Lee’s surprise and shock Miss Cane said.

“An old hag like me going with a gentle boy like you.”

“What strange taste have you got boy, you cannot be serious.”

“Oh I can be I have never been serious in my whole dam life.”

“Now your asking for it boy, do you want another wrack?”

“Oh that’s what I love about you Miss is the anger in you.”

“Now I am getting to like you boy, your so brave to face such a woman like me.”

“This wasn't easy to tell you Miss.”

“You have guts boy I give you that.”

“What’s the answer Miss?”

“Yes oh yes boy.”

“Are sure Miss?”

“I wouldn't say yes if I wasn't serious boy.”

“I think you need to learn more that school education off me, boy.”

“What kind of education is that miss, love and sex boy.”

It was 5pm; Miss Cane and Lee were the only people in the building. They spent an hour together, and then Lee walked it home as if it was a normal detention.

Miss Cane was very crafty; she only did detentions when Lee needed be in detention so she didn't lose her job. Lee accepted that, they both knew they had to be very careful by keep their relationship a secret, which they didn't. No one knew anything until they were married but then divorced.

Miss Cane carried on working until Lee left school, got through his exams and then went onto college. They both agreed to marry when Lee left school. Miss Cane took an early retirement and bought a house for her and Lee. Lee got a job as a reporter until he went onto university, then he bebecame a writer after he had done his English degree. Even though Miss Cane retired she still supported Lee through his studying during marriage life.

By the time Lee was 21 and Miss Cane was in her mid to late 40s the marriage was going down hill. Thorough the differences in age, they way they both thought and everything else it was time for a change. By then Lee was growing up a bit and wondering what he ever saw in such a woman. The marriage was a big mistake anyway and it all happened for the wrong reason. It was all one big joke to start off with. Lee realized that he would to meet someone younger, he may have had children and even marriage again.

 It was rather sad for Miss Cane though who had never had a great deal of luck relationships in fact before Lee. For one it never interested her before hand. Miss Cane was strict and old fashioned in her ways for people like that before and after the 60s was very few and between.

poetry blog

Introduction 

Hi everyone, happy New Year and I hope you have had a nice Christmas.  Firstly I want to say thank you for your comments to those who have over the years, sorry I haven't gotten back to you to those who may be still reading, and thank you for your patience.

 I have no excuse other than being thoughtless. I have had this website for 18 years with the support my Mium and sister. We set up this website just after my Nan died. This website is not only about me, but for others who face similar, their family, parents, friends, others who may teach them, support, them care for them, and more. Even though I concentrate on my first-hand experience of having disabilities and mental illness. Also, I guess those who may like art, poetry, and more. 

We all have our opinions on what is good and bad. I would not call myself a good artist, I would call myself a good poet, it is just words and pictures trying to express what I am trying to say. 

 As you may imagine, I don't know who my readers are. Now for saying this, I guess you may be thinking it's about time Sara is making changes. I am sorry for the repeated posts but I am going to try this year to delete some old posts and replace them with new posts and I hope to bring new things, that may not be on this website yet. If I am honest I am not sure myself what. 

At the moment for many reasons, I won't bore you with it, I am not working, or studying but I will carry on raising more disability and mental health awareness and writing poetry, etc.

 What may be new is I am doing a lot of artwork as well, and I am going to try to put it on here. 

One thing I have never said sorry for and I am doing so now is not good spelling, not good grammar, not making sense, etc but hopefully does not happen in every word I say. 

It may take me quite a while to work this post alone, I have so much to do so sorry if this takes so long. I hope to achieve a lot by the time this new year has finished and hopefully, it will be more interesting than what it has been at the same time I understand I cannot please everyone and again I am very sorry about that due to my disabilities and more but hopefully I make sense in the best way I can. 

Sorry world. 

I understand that you may not understand me.

I am not alone, there are plenty of others who face

 the same if not similar to me.

It is hard for you to understand what it is like to be us.

It is hard for us to understand what is like to be each other 

because we have so much of us different from one another

 but for some of us, we are so much the same as one another.

No more different to all of you. 

It is hard for us to understand what it is like for you to be you.

It is even hard for all of you to understand what it is like for you all

 to be each other because one of you

 is different in some ways but the same in others.

How boring would it be if we were all the same in every way

but how boring would it be,

 if we were all different in every way.

None of us want shame, neither want pretty, nor want to be poor, so the list goes on.

Meaning none of us want sympathy.

We just want to be treated and seen as human beings like everyone.

Sorry for our breathing.

Sorry for being here.

We do not mean to be a burden to you all.

We do not mean to cost you, time, work, and money. 

All the same, we did not make ourselves how we are. 

There is no way anyone can ask us what we

 want to be for the world and ourselves.

No one is to blame, in fact, no one needs to say sorry.

We want to be as independent as we can be. 

We did not ask to be different, we are not different,

 it is just what is inside us. 

We just need a bit of help with everyday skills

 some of us more than others.

We have abilities as well as disabilities,

 meaning struggles and strengths.

We are more than who and what we were both to be.

We are ourselves. 

Not everyone is born with their problems, some come before,

 during, or after.

Whichever way, we did not plan it out to be the way we are. 

Autism

Most people think we are normal, whatever normal is.

What is normal at the end of the day? 

If we stand up, walk, and more, they may think we manage life the same as them,

 and other people.

They don't know what is behind the mask. 

If they do see the struggles, they wonder why we do. 

Not everyone can do everything the same as everyone else.

Not everyone can do things at the same age as everyone.

Not everyone can do everything, in fact, no one can do everything.

As a child, like many children, I hated school.

For me, I was surrounded by strangers, which I thought upset me but

 really I was anxious about being away from those

 I do know, my Mother and family. 

When I did get to know the other children, 

I did not learn anything, I was bullied but

 I was not alone, other children faced the same if not similar.

Not all the children hated me but most did. 

On the positive side, without bragging, people with Autism are created in their own way. 

I caught up with most of my education by going to college. 

I have had many meltdowns as a child, teenager, and young adult but I do not have as many now, and at fifty - five years old I should have any at all. 

Dyspraxia.

At times my speech may not be understood.

My speech may not be clear.

That is because I am mildly brain-damaged on the left-hand side of my brain.

Some people just may face it on the right-hand - side of the brain.

Dyspraxia is similar if not the same as a stroke.

I do not have the strength to grip.

I can only carry one hot drink at a time, that is in my right hand.

Sometimes it may depend on whether I carry a cup or a mug. 

My hands may shake as pencils may break. 

My handwriting may be a mess and all over the good 

without lines or a margin on the paper but that is down to my Dysgraphia. 

Dyspraxia is a learning difficulty that causes people

 to struggle with skills like cleaning teeth and tying shoe laces.

Dyspraxia causes fine motor skills difficulties and coordination difficulties.

However, some skills people may overcome, and others they may not. 

No one knows, who if, when, or what. 

It may be different people with different skills. 

Writing may hurt people's hands, and they may find it easier to type. 

That does not mean they cannot write or will not.

There are positives in Dyspraxia as well as difficulties,

 even though there are a lot of difficulties.

Childhood years may face a lot of messy writing without lines and margins.

Grammar, spelling, and more may be poor.

People may not be perfect but they may improve the older we get. 

Dyspraxia causes difficulty in adult life as well, household skills, cooking, 

shopping, money, and more.

Again different people may improve in different skills, some not all skills,

 others maybe not all.

Sorry, I do not know for sure, I can only speak for myself what I am good and bad at.

On the education side, Dyspraxia is similar if not the same as Dyslexia. 

It can be hard to know if someone has Dyspraxia, Dyslexia, or both. 

Maybe search engine the question, the answer may be interesting.

Some people may find it hard to do jigsaw puzzles, crosswords, and more.

Dyspraxia is a hidden learning difficulty

 but there are abilities, such as creative minds,

 like art and poetry.

It can also cause a lot of Anxiety and furstraghten

 when people are struggling to do things but

achievements along the way. 

I have fallen over and got back up again physically,

 and mentally all my life and I am still alive. 

Just when you think you will not make it, you do. 

Dyslexia. 

My reading, writing, and spelling are not all good, but they are not all that bad.

The same for others who have Dyslexia but have strengths and difficulties in different skills.

Please do not judge us for not being able to read, write, and spell, we all can, we just have difficulties along the way.

Even those who cannot read, write, or spell at all know what is going on around them, they have stories to tell and more as everyone with different strengths and difficulties, different in different people. 

We cannot take in what we have read and what people have said to us. 

Some things we may take in, others we may not or we may not take in anything at all.

That does not mean we are interested or not, it means it is part of our dyslexia meaning lack of communication and understanding. 

Despite that, we may make good poets, writers, and more in different ways.

We may be good at drawing, painting, and more in different ways.

We may miss words out of sentences, put words in the wrong places, know the letters are in the words but put them in the wrong places, order, and more, this may be the same with numbers. 

We may find it hard to create safe passwords but we have strengths in other ways. 

We may not read all of a book if we do, we do not remember what it is about, same with watching TV but then we may pick up some things not others but again we all have different strengths and difficulties. 

Dyslexia is the same if not similar to ADHD, we may struggle to concentrate but again maybe in different areas of life as one another. 

There is more to Dyslexia than meets the eye, maybe more than even I can think of, and I may have Dyslexia myself. 

Dyslexia and other problems do not make you thick, they just make you need to think more than other people, which may take more time than other people. 

Each one of us has a talent but in different ways. 

Dyslexia in my opinion is a mental education difficulty but with talents. 

What do you think?

Anxiety.

 If you fear a lot, it is Anxiety.

To me, fear feels like you are locked in a room, 

you cannot get out without a key that you have not got.

You feel like you are trapped in your own emotions and thoughts.

You feel overwhelmed by being surrounded by so many people you do not know but it takes time to get to know them. 

Like you're standing up on a mountain or up the stairs and down feels like a long fall. 

You feel like you have the evil devil or an evil monster inside you. 

You do not feel calm until you are swimming in the deep blue sea. 

You feel like a piece of glass that will smash. 

Like your mind is not thinking at all or all the time to the point you struggle to sleep. 

Like your anger like the wind. 

Depression 

It feels like no one knows what you are going through.

No one knows what goes on behind closed doors. 

What are you thinking?

Why are you thinking about it?

Sometimes or some of us do not know why ourselves. 

We are either doing too much of something, not enough, or nothing at all. 

Whether it is eating, sleeping whatever it may be. 

Depression is like one big fog, a big black cloud hanging

 over you until it bursts to rain as you cry.