Tuesday 8 January 2008

A LITTLE MORE ABOUT MY PAST EXPERINCE.

In the past I have had a poem published in each of about eleven books. Lost Love 1998, I Love You, Do you Love Me? 1998, The Homeless Youngest's Mind 1999, Crying Out For Love, 2000, I Love My Man And He Loves me 2000, There Are So Many Lonely People 1998, This Is A Real World Not A Dream World 1999, Good Friendship 2000, Guilty And Hiding Away From The Truth 2000, My Longest True Love 1999 and My Life Without You 2002.

I did work experience at Compton Hospice Charity shop near where I live in Wolverhampton. I wrote a small report in their newsletter. The report was called WRITE IDEA FOR SARA, which I wrote October 1995 when I was 26 years of age.

In the mid 1990s I wrote a Newsletters for a disability social club called ' The Happy Society, which I enjoyed.' The Happy Society didn't turn out as happy as it sounds. I don't know if it's still going but the guy who ran it charged us too much money, so at least I left I don't know about the rest.

I have also passed four exams in Creative writing, Creative communication Level one, Away with Words Entry Level 3, Level one and Level 2.

MY DYSLEXIC, READING AND WRITING.

I would like to study animals and humans beings worse off than myself, which I hope will give me ideas for stories in the future. My aims are to raise money and awareness for children and animals whose need are worse off than what I am.

A lot of people have said to me, how can I be a writer if I'm dyslexic? Being a dyslexic doesn't mean, you don't thoughts in your mind. Ok we may well have a memory problem but we don't forget everything. For eg: we remember some parts of our childhood at least I do anyway. We also know what we would like for the future whether get or not, such as dreams, aims and etc. I know I want to be a writer and improve the the live of peopl with disabilities. I know also that I want a partner in my life.

Some people say that dyslexic is if you can't read and write, others say that you just have a few problems along the way. For: eg seeing things the wrong way, forgetting that you have already written something down. As for spelling words you may know that those letters are in these words but may be written down. With essay you may find it hard to write things down in a short way, that's my big problem, I think I have almost ended up writing a novel. Don't laugh, I know I want to be a writer but let's just say writing a novel when I don't want to. This is why I need someone to check my work. It can be a memory problem. Some mistakes I notice others I don't this is why, I have to get someone to check my work through. If you know what dyslexic really is. Please send me an email on sarajgorman@googlemail.com or sarajgorman@gmail.com . If I don't have dyslexic why can't make my work easy to understand? Maybe this could help others as well as me if anyone knows the true answer. My Auntie thinks I'm not dyslexic but when I was at college they assessed me on the computer, it classed me as dyslexic. I have been assessed at two colleges, one says I have been that I what you call borderline dyslexia.

When I write I can miss words out of sentences. I can problems with sound, sometimes words aren't what they sounds. Like said in some words I know what letters are in there but there not always written in the right order. It's hit or miss whether I notice these mistakes or someone else. I couldn't take my GCSE English because I would need a dictionary but I got through my mocks. I can proof read my work but I can't always see everything that needs to be put right. They say Dyslexia is word blindness so may be I am.


Because I have dyslexia I can only read so much at a time, I have also found by reading the shortest of information can still help me with the ideas of a story, one idea just gives me a little kick start, which then I end up writing a story. I keep promising myself that I'd read fifteen to twenty minutes a day but I don't seem to have the time. When I read it's hard because I can only read for so long and everything seems to be hazy, it depends on the size of the print. Really small black print on white paper, I find it hard to read for long. Yet my reading has always been very good but I always used to have a big problem taking in information, I still have problems with that now a bit but not as much. Sometimes I have problems reading some word. It can be strange, they can be long or words, mainly if they are new to me. When someone talks, knocks the door or whatever when I'm read although I used book maker, I forget whether I was on page one or two for eg. I am still trying to learn what coloured paper and writing is more easier for me to read.

At Our Shout we do do easy words, pictures, easy read, clear texts, etc and no jargon. We have a meeting about it once a month to talk about difference ways of writing information more clear for people. It's very hard to make it easy for everyone because every one's needs are difference. We all have difference communication problems. Some people can't read and write so we do pictures on the computer, take photographs. You can only do pictures out of nouns, people, places and objects. For eg you can't do a picture of could because could isn't an object, person or place. of the so we have to support people with that. For eg; a cat sat on a mat.



When I learned to write as a child my rs used to be an o with two sticks and ks used to be one stick used to be at the top of the stick and the other stick used to be at the bottom, if you understand what I mean. Sometimes I get numbers the wrong way round for eg 23 could be 32. I used to get confused with left and right but not as much had now. I can't cope with big map, directions have to be written step by step with bullet point numbers what to do first, second, and so on, 123 or abc.

As a child I used to get confused with bs and ds but not as much now. I also used to get confused with ps and qs. Most of the time I find it proof reading hard as you may guess with me writing my website, I spend a lot of editing which every writer does but even more so when someone has dyslexia. They used to say dyslexia is a word blindness, I know we don't like it said way but It could take me ever to make sure everything is proof read in a text. Still used the word dyslexia, it not only a because it's shorter to say than word blindness. Every now and then I will ask my Mum to proof read my website. I had get someone at work to proof my work when I wrote the Employment play.

When I was in school, no one really knew about dyslexia, I used to get told off for my dyslexia errors I have told you about.

If you have dyslexia or you know anyone that does, you are welcome to send me an email if you want on sarajgorman@googlemail.com or sarajgorman@gmail.com If you would like any dyslexic websites or anything like that would or could help you, I would be more than happy to help. I would also be interested if you have your story about experience of dyslexia, if you would like to tell me. May be I can find out if Mencap know anything about dyslexia support websites or anything if you want.

WRITING MY LIFE STORY.

So many months after I started writing, I made a start on writing my autobiography along with a few short stories that I didn't think they were good. I called my autobiography Introducing Myself. It needs it checking over and proof reading. I'm sorry to say, it needs a lot of proof reading because of the lack of support I have had with my dyslexia. The thought of having it published would be great but I need loads of support to get it right. By me writing about my experiences of having a disability in my autobiography, hopefully I will raise money and awareness to improve the lives of people with disabilities and I hope that support will get better in the future.

I would also like to introduce myself to my readers, I don't like leaving my readers in the dark about what I'm writing about. Sometimes I may bring a twist in the tale in some stories for readers to make their minds what happens need, which hopefully can help other writers. I'm interested in writing about all difference kinds of subjects really as well as around learning disability awareness.

HOW I STARTED WRITING.

I started writing in 1993, when I was twenty - three to twenty - four yrs old. I was recovering from cancer of the throat. I was staying at my Grandmother's house. I was watching the 10.00pm news. They were talking about the council homes closing down. I thought to myself, where are disabled and old people going to go? It worried me a lot.

I was messing around with my paper and pen thinking about what to write. I just made of messy notes but I've forgotten what I wrote. Suddenly I started thinking about Charles Dickens who wrote about children who were Orphans, which started to give me ideas.
The subjects I have always feel strongly about are animals and human beings in need, I always feel even more strongly about people with learning disabilities.

With having communication problem, I found it hard to explain and express my self. My Mother encouraged me to start writing my autobiography, which still isn't finished today. I have just gone back and to because I have had so many other things to do. Writing has helped me to be understood but than I used but I still have a long way to go.

Monday 7 January 2008

EXAMPLES OF HOW LIFE WAS FOR PEOPLE WITH DISABILITES IN HISTORY.

Today the hospitals would have be paying a lot out of money for families who have experienced
neglected births. I was born with lack of oxygen to
the brain. This is was what caused me to have autism, epilepsy, dyslexia and may be even dyspaxia, which most things weren't known about. I know I never been badly disabled but I could have done without with what I was born. My Family couldn't claim any more in those day or they didn't know they could. I was born at the Beeches
old Nursing home on the Tettenhall road Wolverhampton, they neglected my Mum when she was having me. It doesn't mean I would have expected any of the money. In those days you had Terry toweling nappies and you were lucky if you had a washing machine, my Mum didn't. My family could have done with the money at that time because for eg; I was having to wear nappies longer that I should have. It doesn't mean to say that all these unnecessary things have stopped today. We would like to see that families and carers of people with disabilities get more support in everything that what we did.

I know I keep saying that it's about time people with disabilities started training and educating non - disabled people mostly to learn to understand is as human beings. Non - disabled people need to learn that we try very hard to learn from our mistakes. understanding us would be a bid help to create a better future from having to learn from a very dark past now it's the 21st century.

All my family had extra hard work with me due to my disability, support was very little or not at all.

I think it took years to diagnosis my disability, now I don't think even now we are really sure whether I have autism or not. We know I have a disability of some sort for sure. Who knows if we have been told the truth or not? We know for sure that I have epilepsy because I had it in the past and it came back.

As for being hyperactive little did we know that too much sugar and may be even too much salt can caused some people be hyperactive mainly children, even now that we have been told more things, who really knows for sure?

Please drop me an email if you have any views or need any support the kind of subject I have just written about now. My email address is for all subjects to do with disabilities on this website. sarajgorman@googlemail.com