Sara' poetry page 9

 Mr Spider

Big black spiders.
Big black bodied spiders.
Eight black legs.
Spiders come rushing without you knowing.
Some of us love them.
Some of us hate them.
Most of us fear them.

Some of us have nightmares about spiders.
Most of us catch spiders in jars and keep them as pets.
I am not scared of them; I just don't like them mostly when they are there when you don't know they are there.
I don't like them around me.
What about you?

 

 

Mr. jaguar
I am Mr. Jaguar, I start with a J.
I look like a leopard, cat, or tiger.
I come from the jungle or the wild.
I purr when I am frightened.

My coat is spotty.

 

Mr. .  octopus
I’m Mr. Octopus I come from the sea. 

 

Mr. peacock.

I am beautiful
 I spread my feathers in the sunny weather, it makes me feel so much better.
My feathers are different colours green, golden, blue, and pink. 

Q is quail

I am Mr Quail I live outside in the wild in a cage which needs cleaning daily.
  I need food and water in my cage changing daily too.
I am a small bird with a big body and a small tail.

 

there's still time for me but I have also learned not to build my hopes up you see.

 

When I was twenty - eight I thought my life was over I thought it was too late, even though I was in love with a man who wasn't right for me.
I may go through pain in my life like everyone else but I pick myself up and move on. 

Now I love the man who is for me.

 R is for a rat.
Rats are fury and black.
A rat can be very fat across their backs.
Down the rat holes, the rats go hiding from been eaten the witches.

Squirrel

A squirrel has a very big stick up ears.
His eyes shine out bright.
His tummy is very furry.
His craws are very sharp.
His tail sticks up like a brushy handful of fur.
He stands upon the tree eating nuts.

 

 

 Tiger.

 

The big tiger will be a bite if he needs to bit.
You will wake up in the night with a fright.
The big tiger seems to have evil eyes.
The big tiger also has very bright orange stripes.

 

 Some of us are dark, other blonde hair, and even many more colours.

Some of us in life need more help than others.

Life is not about being nosey we are just full of wondering and full of questions.

Most of us are full of information and others are full of the unknown, or even both.

Some of us love one another.

Some of us like one another.

Some of us hate one another.

We are loved, liked, hated by someone or a lot of people.

Some reasons are unknown, and others are not, whichever we are here in this world until the time is over but all the same, we are remembered to how we were.

U is for umbrella bird.
My name is Mr. Umbrellabird.
My feathers are black.
I am red across my crest. 
I like to eat large pieces of fruit.

 

v is a vampire bat
I am Mr. Vampire bat and my wings flap.
I am mostly in the dark with witches and big black cats and rats.

 what do I know, that's what I used to think of other people when I was there.

I am human like everyone sign of my Father until I was twenty - one all my family was there for me from birth.

 

When I was a young girl of sixteen, I used to dream of wings underneath my feet dreaming of the man I would marry, how wrong was I to think such a thing. I was just too blind to see but what will be. Never anyone.

 

 I am a disabled the person who has or should the right to live my life the same as other people and that is the same for other disabled people too.

Other disabled people should have the same rights too.

I will tell you as the human being sitting here all through my childhood I could not see a brother and sister with me till I was thirteen.

It was the beginning of my teenage years when my baby sister came to me.yself.

I didn't think I could carry, I felt so alone but I wasn't.

Hearing voices.

I don't think I accepted I heard voices in my heard which I still heard from those days but it was the state of mind I was in at the time.
I admitted my mind has improved to what it was.
It's too easy now whose in my shoes then to say don't give you, which is what others said to me once upon a time.
Never judge a book from its cover, who am I to say but it's okay to be not okay I'm here for you if you want to tell me too?
Not everyone is lucky to get through but there are people here to listen with the best intentions even if not everything is enough.
It's too easy for us who have come through it to say there's away even though we are still here.
We are here if you want us to listen to you but we will never force you.   

WE ARE WHO WE ARE AND WHAT WE ARE.

We are characters in different ways. 

We are who we and what we are.
We can't choose to be born or to be born.
We can't choose where we are born.
We can't choose who we are born to.
We are not perfect or all negative either, we can only be the best we can be as long we don't create wars, crime, violence, etc.
' However' one country isn't big enough for the whole world to live in and one country doesn't have enough money to keep the whole world. 

 Bob Marley, the voice of truth

The voice of truth was so many people when I was so young seemed so old when they were so young themselves. You seemed so young though when you left the world at thirty - six you went so soon when I was 11 years of age.

None of this makes any sense but I never understood what the words in your songs were about but whatever you said the style of your music sounded talented and sounds as great today as it did yesterday.

Even today at 50, I still don't understand your true meaning behind your songs I know they are about peace, not war, and not just politics and drugs.

Looks at us.

Who are we?

What are we doing here and why?

We are all human.

We are all different because it would be a completely boring world if we were all the same

We are who we are and what we are?

No matter who and what we have, we all have good and bad in us, not simply good and not just bad all different ways.

Some of us are better and worse than others.

Some of us are tall, others in between, others small.

Some of us are fat, slim, in between, thin.

Some with blue eyes, brown eyes and so the list goes on.

The Disabled character.

 

I am a disabled character

What do you think when you look at me?
Who made me and why?
Is there's a character in me?
Why did you bring this disabled world to me?
My disability may be hidden but believe me, I'm disabled so do not judge me or others like me?

Do not judge anyone at all

Disabled people are as human-like anyone.

Are you seeing the positive as well as the negative when you look at disabled people?

I'm not a poet or storyteller I just write words that mean everything or nothing at all.
You see a human being who is not very wise no more or less than anyone.
Everyone including disabled people and other people should be equal to society. 

No one is completely useless or perfect either.

We are what we are and who we are.

 

As a human being, I am sitting here still.
I'm a human baby, child, and teenager inside an adult  who came into this world just like with or without a reason.

Like you I keep trying to achieve my goals.
Did you ever you used to notice the things I used to do like losing a sock and shoe?
In all of us, there's still that baby and child, dribbling, losing stockings and shoes even though adulthood however young and old we may be.
Do you still see the baby in me?

 

Never judge a book by its cover.


I felt as if the days and nights were long, I thought I was alone but I wasn't.
I thought it was the end of me but I was stronger than I thought I was.
Anyone whose here now I can understand you not, believe me, that's okay I'm not forcing you to do so  

 

Mr.  octopus
I’m Mr. Octopus I come from the sea. 

 

Mr. peacock.

I am beautiful
 I spread my feathers in the sunny weather, it makes me feel so much better.
My feathers are different colors green, golden, blue, and pink.

 

 

 

 of my time licking fur.

 

Mrs. kangaroo
My name is Mrs. kangaroo from Australia.
I jump and hop and cannot stop with my baby Kangaroo in poach, goes bounce bonce.
Here comes Joey.

Mr. Lion

He's a big lion with hair down his front and back.
His ears are so flat, but he hears everything around him.
His eyes are like dogs, but his eyes are brown and black.
His nose is big enough to smell his meat.
The month is big enough to have a lot to eat.

Mr. monkey
I am Mr. Mickey Monkey from the zoo.
I swing from tree to picking and eating bananas.
Now I am chilling in the sun.

 

Mr. newt
My name is Mr. Newt who swims in the lake with mt coot.
I lay 200 to 300 eggs.
I eat snug and worms.

Q is quail
I am Mr. Quail I live outside in the wild in a cage which needs cleaning daily.
  I need food and water in my cage changing daily too.
I am a small bird with a big body and a small tail.

 

R is for a rat.
Rats are fury and black.
A rat can be very fat across their backs.
Down the rat holes, the rats go hiding from been eaten the witches.

 

Squirrel

A squirrel has a very big stick up ears.
His eyes shine out bright.
His tummy is very furry.
His craws are very sharp.
His tail sticks up like a brushy handful of fur.
He stands upon the tree eating nuts.

W is for walrus
I am Mr. Walrus, I live in the sea.
I eat clams, worms, shell crabs, shrimp, and sea cucumbers.

 

x is for Xerus.
My name is Mr Xerus
I’ m like a Squirrel.
I live in the wild and eat nuts.

 

My name is Mr Yak.

You can ride me on my back with my tack like a donkey, pony, or horse out in the field.

I look like a bull or cow.

Z is for zebra
My name is Miss. Debra Zebra.
I look like a horse but with stripes. 
You see me in the sunlight.

 

 

Sara's poetry page 8

 This is not a cry out for help.

This is not a cry out for help.
This is not seeking attention, we are just making you aware of our conditions.
This is a very down feeling with or without a reason.
No one wants to feel like they do.
No one wants to take how they feel on others.
No one wants to leave others in sadness.
Just when you feel like this, life feels painful to live but it doesn't mean you want to leave the world to grief.
We are not nuts, it doesn't make us suffer worse than others the way you may think we think, we just cope in a different way to you.
We would say if we really truly knew why ourselves, it may well pass but then it comes back, we are up and down which can happen to anyone but we are just more so often than, those who do not face Mental  Health .

We are not asking for the world, we are asking to learn and understand about us.

 

If only I did it sooner.

I only I left sooner and if only I didn't love you for so long.
I only I felt stronger to walk away from you sooner but then, in the end, I did.
Still, although it wasn't nice at the time, the harder time you gave me, what you didn't realize was the stronger you made me.
Now I can move on without you on my mind.
It took me so long to get where I am now, now it's as if I never knew or saw you.
You thought you knocked me right down, okay you did but I got back up again.
You never thought you would be sad to lose me but you are because you begged to get me back when you realized you were wrong to let me go so what goes around comes around.

I don't like revenge but if it's necessary it doesn't do you any harm to see what it's been like to be on my side of the coin, does it?
How long did you think I was going to let you walk over me without me realizing I was?
How shocked were you when I could walk away and live without you being in my life?
You don't like to see the change in me and you don't like the truth do you?
The truth hurts you so don't beg me like a dog for another chance because you will get nowhere with me!
Sorry, I won't do it again!
Let's not go there pretending you're someone you are not.
How many chances do you want?
None with me. 

realized you were wrong to let me go so what goes around comes around.
I don't like revenge but if it's necessary it doesn't do you any harm to see what it's been like to be on my side of the coin, does it?
How long did you think I was going to let you walk over me without me realizing I was?
How shocked were you when I could walk away and live without you being in my life?
You don't like to see the change in me and you don't like the truth do you?
The truth hurts you so don't beg me like a dog for another chance because you will get nowhere with me!
Sorry, I won't do it again!
Let's not go there pretending you're someone you are not.
How many chances do you want?
None with me. 

Will the sad feeling ever end?


Mental health isn't always a sad feeling, we go through times of feeling happy and sad just like everyone but the difference is how often we do to those you don't face Mental health.
The sad feeling can last however long or short it going to be but to us, it can feel like long even if it's short because it can be the unknown.
You can feel the way you do with or without reason and no one really knows why it's just the feeling inside the person.
Anxiety can link with Depression because you worry, panic or and even fear over things that most don't seem to be as bad as what they do seem.
In the time sadness, it's hard to have faith and positive in yourself until somehow, someway that feeling passes but then you wonder whether or not you going 

to get through, which is why you may be saying things you wouldn't say and even do in a happy state of mind.
It can vary from time to time and even person to person.
Never think those who suffer from Mental health is how life will end, it will either will or won't the same with disability too. 

I never saw the light.

No one seemed to agree with my thoughts and as years went on, I saw the light that I was wrong and they were right.
For twelve months my head was just in the sand back between my hands in 1996 to 1997.
All I saw was a dark tunnel each hour, minute, second of every day.
No light never seemed to come my way.
Loneliness was just a cloud as couples walked passed, therefore I thought this wouldn't happen to me again.
That's how I thought my life was going to be.
Found for me to make one hard choice to love or loneliness but then I found it hard to get too close again.
I lost all trust in everyone but felt so bad for feeling this way.

I spent a lot of time worrying that I would meet the wrong person and get myself hurt again.
As right or wrong people may be, it's best to let people in these states of minds be themselves, in their own time some may see the light.
If you ask me what I think I will tell you but I will never tell you what and what not to do.
I will be there for you and I will never judge you, I know what this feels like, I have been there myself.
How can I love without been blind I used to ask myself?
I went through this fear for such a long time.

I had no trust in anyone at all yet I felt so bad about.
Therefore I left people to carry on talking and telling their thoughts, which I was blind to.
I used to think I may as well live my life in sin because I feared of getting hurt again.
Now I wouldn't say I'm one hundred percent me again but I'm ten times better than I was then.
Oh yes back then I wouldn't think I would be where I am today, which is why I would never say to anyone you will get there, I listen, understand, and let them make their own choices.

Anxiety going through my mind.

I lay asleep then woke up to see deep snow.
The clouds were grey with a windy wintery cold the breeze of fresh.
The trees drifted into the breeze.
Although the doors were locked wind blew snow right into the countryside.

The winds blew high right across the sky.
The moon shone brightly with shining stars into the morning light.
Therefore I blew like a kite going through the light with such a fight.
There came the thundering and lighting with a fright.
There was darkness then came into the light.
It was such a very wild site into the night.

 

Me as I was, me as I am now. 

I was just a child with thick long brushy hair that blew with the wind.
Now my hair is as grey as hills.
Now tiredness is hitting me with the cold and the wind.
At the age of ten, I sprained my ankle running up the hill.
Winter days, winter nights, and frostbites.
The skies are wintery, sients and grey as there are 

handy any people about because it's just too cold to go out, everywhere just comes to a standstill.
Short grey days turn to the long dark of the night as the moon and stars don't shine a bright light.

 

 

Fighting with my mind.

Every day I fight with my mind, it's a case of taking one day at a time.
Forty old years I have been fighting with my mind, which is near enough all my life.
I smile, I'm grateful for my life but it doesn't mean I'm always fine.
Now that I'm older I live with my feelings and emotions and try my best to accept the way life is.
At one time I would cry but now I don't do it like I used to.
No problem I have is going to get the better of me.

I know it's easy to say to others just get on with life  but I won't, I was there once and I haven't forgotten, I just now cope with it in a different way than I used to and never tell others how to cope. 

 

Dyspraxia
I could never do up my buttons.
I could never do up my laces.
I could never clean my teeth on how they should be cleaned.
My mouth is too small with too many teeth, food just gets everywhere it always has but I love it.
Exercise is hard to access when you have Dyspraxia.
I can't catch or throw a ball.
I couldn't even open a tin with a tin opener but then I discovered how to use the old-fashioned tin openers after.
I love going to the pub, I'm useless with money then I overspend.
I have never been very good at maths.
I am more can with English and words but I even get confused there because of my Dyslexia.

In a poem, I can express my disabilities in a poem better than I can to people.
I am more skills with my writing and raising learning disability awareness then everyday living skills. 

 

Bunny rabbit.

I have sticky out teeth.
I live in a hutch.
I eat carrots.
I can see it in the dark.
I get so bored inside my hutch that I run wild when I am out of it. 

 

confused there because of my Dyslexia.
In a poem, I can express my disabilities in a poem better than I can to people.
I am more skills with my writing and raising learning disability awareness then everyday living skills. 

 

THE INTERNET ISN’T THE ONLY RESEARCH.

 

There was once a time without the internet when we relied on books, newspapers, tv, etc now all that is put on the internet but still libraries, bookshops, etc.

Back in the day, there were no pcs, iPad, iPods, iPhones, mobile phones, tablets, etc.

It was just landlines, call boxes, etc, call boxes could either be a long or short walk.

IT has been a big change in society, it is when the young could never be without IT.

 The middle age has forgotten what it was like to be with IT.

 Most of the old could do with being with IT.

HIS LOSS, MY GAIN.

 

I kept my thoughts to myself, most people thought I was wrong to feel for him as I did, which they were right to think that, my mind and feelings were so blind so was love.

I should have walked away sooner, and I should not have had him back, but he cheated on me twice so his loss my gain.

Now he is well out my life I feel nothing for him at all now I love someone new.

Now I am well over him.

I saw the light at the end of the tunnel in the end and now at last everything has come to light.

Loneliness has passed my cloud when I felt sad when seeing couples hand in hand.

Now love has found me again with someone new, he is twice the man he will ever be, even though I spent years having lost faith and trust.

 

 

STATE OF MIND.

 

If you ask me what I think I will tell you, I will never tell you if you do not ask me.

We all have our own minds when it comes to feeling whether we are right or wrong.

Therefore, I will not judge you, which I will not anyway.

I know what it feels like, I have been there myself.

I used to think I would live my life in sin in fear of getting hurt again.

Love can be so blind to loving someone who is not right for you, I went through that fear long after my last relationship ended now a new one begins.

I had faith and trust in no one.

I’ve so happy now that I have forgotten how unhappy I was but then not therefore I understand what it is like to those who are facing like what I faced.

Without poetry and counseling I believe I would not have got through what I did.

Now I have moved forward and loving someone so much better than who I had before.

So far away or not at all.

 

Never judge what you do not know.

Things are not the same for everyone.

I went from seeing darkness, lightness then brightness.

Now the future is moving forward into the light and the bright.

I am amazed I have moved forward at all; I saw the light from the dark and now it is bright.

We both feel the same way for one another, he is so much better than the other was.

 

Behind the mask.

 

We are not completely round the behind, we are not all black and white, and we are not completely sad.

Depression is a feeling inside of us, with the sound of the word it is too easy to think we are someone we are not so do not judge a book by its cover.

Depression is up as well as down feelings, we are not all negative, we are who and what we are in order to manage our Depression.

We laugh and smile as well as the opposite.

How we feel inside does not always show but we are not living lies, we just do not want to be the center of attention or a burndown to others.

This can vary from person to person though, which can be overly concerning.

Little can be shown, and more can be hidden, which can be genuinely concerning.

 

You can have the greatest life in the world but not the happiest life in the world but doesn’t make you ungrateful, it’s just a feeling that’s apart of you in most people with or without a reason, others with a reason and others without.

 

You can be the happiest person but also have the hardest and saddest life, what is shown outside is not always necessary behind closed doors or and behind the mask.   

My name is Mr. Ape.

 

My name is Mr. Ape.

I eat plenty of grapes on a plate.

After I go for a swim in a lake.

 

I am a bird.

I am a bird I have two legs and two feet.

I build my own nest at my best for me and babies to rest.

I wake up at 4.00am in the spring as mornings are dawning.

I also wake on summer mornings when it is hot.

I sleep in the wintertime when it is cold.

I may come out at Christmas time in the cold, I am red and white.

I may even sing all day long before I lay my head on my nest and sleep all night long.

I could be any animal that flies from a bird to duck and who lays eggs in a nest.

 

I am Mr. Cat.

 

I am Mr. Cat who is very black.

I lay on my mat.

Touch me and I should give you good luck.

I wait outside your door in hopes you will let me in.

I come inside your house if you let me.

 

I am Mr dog.

I am Mr dog with fluffy fur.

I am a family and a friendly dog.

I love playing with you all.

I love going out for walks running across the parks.

I am a happy dog, woof woof.

I cannot stand wearing a lead, but I have to wear one going to the park, once I get to the park, I am free.

I am a country and park dog.

When on the lead I pull everywhere I go because I hate being on the lead.

I will protect you from strangers.

 

  Mr. Elephant.

I have a big trunk.

I have exceptionally long feet.

You can ride me on my back.

When I lye down and go to sleep I enjoy the hot sun.

 

I am a frog.

 

I look rather bright and green if you know what I mean.

I never see a frog through the fog, not even me, it is far too cold for us frogs when there is fog.

We are sleeping where it is nice and warm.

You will see us through the sunshine and the pouring where we can sunbathe, swim and keep cool.

 

I am Mr Giraffe.

I have a very thin face.

I have exceptionally large feet.

I have pointed ears and a long neck.

I have very brown patches.

I have very narrow feet and legs.

 

I am Mr. Horse.

I am Mr. Horse of course.

My ears prick forward when I am happy and back when I am sad.

You feed me with hay and give me water.

You muck my stable out.

You clean my tack.

You groom me.

You ride on my back.