History of discrimation.

In the past in war times, Adolf Hitler came into power in 1933, roughly six years before the war broke out. The German Nazi party passed a law that called for the sterilisation of people with 'diseases' that were thought to be hereditary.

Between October 1939 and August 1941 the Aktion T4 euthanasia programme operated in Nazi Germany. It aimed to rid society of those the Third Reich called 'Useless eaters.' It is estimated that between 70,000 and 100,000 disabled people were killed. Most were large-scale killings poison gas - a technique later used extermination of Jews in 'The Final Solution. This included people with learning disabilities, Mental Health, blind and deaf people.
people with disabilities have been classed as mental and physical handicap. The reason why people with disabilities were look upon that way is because no one understood us and we were a dangerous to society. We were treated very difference to non - disabled people but Adolf Hitler was against all races . We were very easy to target mostly by the likes of Adolf Hitler and the Nazis in world war 2.

Hitler finally called an end to the T4 programme following pressure from church and public. However, killings continued until the end of the war, often by lethal injection or starvation.

This was because all disabled people were seen as depending on the care of non - disabled people, which was hard work for the likes of Adolf Hitler, he saw people with disabilities as useless. Hitler didn't only hurt people with disabilities, he had a big problem with race full stop. For eg: he didn't like you if you were a Jew or if you were gay.

These day people with disabilities are feeling less useless and less guilty of how our disabilities affect our lives. There's a lot hard work to do yet. There are still people like Hitler about. We are all human beings whatever our race. We are human whether we have a race or not. Whatever kind of person we are we are there by choice or non at all. How people are in their race shouldn't worry you, there is more to everyone than just race. We all know the world is not perfect but lets have far less Hitlers now if not at all.

We would like to think things have moved since then but no. There's a bog concern that people who have their benefits cut get force into work they can't do without support by such places like DWP.  If you or anyone you know have faced these experiences you are more than welcome to email me on  sarajgorman@gmail.com

What do you want from me?

One minute you want me and the next minute you don't.
Make up your mind, love is not a mind game!
You will go ages without touching me then you suddenly do.
I know who I want but If you don't want me, I'd be a foal to wait forever.
Think about it, there's no going back once it's too late, who says I says I am going to be soft forever, I don't know?
If I did not love you so much it would not bother me.
The fact you know I love you, you know you can play on my mind.
You are confused so you are confusing me at the same time.
You will my life worse for yourself in the end!
Why do you only touch me these days when you have had a drink?
The day after drinking I know you don't feel the same.
Please stick to one answer and please tell me what that answer is!
Why am I waiting for you, I'm wasting my time like a soft fool when I could be doing better?
There must be someone out there who loves me better than you, I must be a fool to myself I really must be.

What will be will be.

Perhaps one day this very special friend whoever he may be will love me for me.
It could be a long time to come until I love again but hopefully it will be worth the wait if I'm not looking.
Yet I may well be foolish to love the love one now but love is a drug when you have loved for so long.
I am trying to get out there by doing Speed Dating which is not easy at the moment but hopefully I will get there one day.

Trying to control feelings.

It's so hard to close door once you have loved someone for so long.
Why did I let it go too far?
Why did I hold onto you so tight, now I find it so hard to let go?
Why do I still love you after what you put me through?
Take my advice people, try not to full in love too deep, you can't get out once you get in.
If you let it like I did, love can be a habit and a drug as Bryan Ferry sang in one of his songs.
Well I should say don't fall in love too easy!
If only I knew what makes me feel strongly in love with you.
Why do I still feel this strongly in love with you?
I only wish I knew.
If only I knew 15 yrs ago what I know now.
Don't give too many chances because it gets harder as time goes on!
We must have hurt one another a thousand times but you have seemed to have stopped loving me but why haven't I stopped loving you?
If only I listened to people.
What am I on about? I still haven't learned.
I've been so soft and I am still soft today, I wonder if I will change at 40 which is not far away, scary ah?
Never let love take over your life, I wish I never did.
Please people don't make the same mistake as me!
I will need friendship to get to know someone before I love again.
After knowing the same guy for fifteen yrs, getting to know someone new will take some getting used to that's if that ever happens again.
Is my life over if it does not happen before 40? No my life has not ended.
Does life begin at the 40?
The answer, I will tell you when I get to 40 which is only in roughly 6 to 8 mouths time.
Positive thinking it's never too late for anything.
My life won't be over but it might begin.
My relationship may have ended but I think my career only began 2 yrs ago.
Never say never, it may be a long time happening but I believe it will happen.
My career took long enough.
Make the most of life because it's too short living but forever dead.

Compton Hospice

I started doing work experience at the Compton Hospice shop in Wolverhampton in 1995, when I was 26yrs old. I was on on an Adult Training Schemes. The people there were very nice but it was not the job I wanted. They were very little jobs, very short staffed and very little support. I could not manage the tills, I was under and over pricing items.

From the age of twenty - three I wanted to be a writer, before then I did not know what I wanted to do. When I told Compton Hospice I wanted to be a writer, they let me write a report in their newsletter. It was called 'THE RIGHT IDEA FOR SARA' It was mostly about the work I was doing in the shop and telling people I wanted to be a writer. It make me feel very happy that the staff gave me a chance to write for their newsletter even though shop work has never been the work for me and never will be.

I wanted to work in a library which at that time were not any vacancies, even though my wish came round one day.

Not long after asking for work in the library, I was put on a scheme called Training For Work, I did some training at the 'Beacon For The Blind office in Wolverhampton. Yet again very few jobs and I could not complete all the jobs they ask me to do quick enough for them. I though as that job ended as one door closes another one will open. I tried many things after but only two jobs I liked before helping out with Our Shout Mencap. That was Warstones library then the office at the Employment team in Wolverhampton.

Equal oppportunities for people with disabilities.

When I was a child, I saw lot of people with disabilities besides my self go through a lot of disadvantages caused by discrimination. If you could not or do things first time, you would lose out. Now times have moved on to give us the right but not enough out there just yet. Not many if not anyone with a disability could see a positive future in ourselves.

When I left school over 20yrs ago, I had not learned anything. I thought I was going to spend my life looking the four walls. How wrong was I, I have achieved a lot exams in college. Now I am helping out with Our Shout Mencap to see that other people with disabilities get what they want out of life quicker than I did with the right support.

I am pleased to say that children today with disabilities are getting one to one support in schools and in college when they leave school. Having said that with this credit crunch now a lot of support and courses seem to be cutting back. We also need to make courses more interesting. Even though Life Skills are very helpful for eg maths, English, cooking and shopping; we need to support people with disabilities more to have skills for work so they can as have a normal wage as possible the same as everyone else. The government are costing themselves twice as much money paying benefits for people with mild disabilities when more than 9 out of 10 us want to some kind of work to make us feel equal to people without disabilities.

We are all human beings just like non disabled people. We except the same rights and to be treated the same as non - disabled people. With the right support people disabilities get by, we just want people to understand that we take longer than others to get. The right to us is time. If you give us that time, you have achieved skills by giving us time to achieve ours. If you were in our shoes, you'd want people to you to do things in your own time. The training non - disabled people have got is better than it used to be but not good enough. People with disabilities have a lot of hard work to do by training non - disabled people to support with disabilities to get the same rights as everyone in whatever they want.

It will never be a perfect job, at least not very quickly anyway but Mencap and people with disabilities would like to see the future getting brighter as the years go on. The next generation should be better than the last.

Support for education and employment aren't the only topics that need to get better. Education and employment are just two examples I have used. Every support for all topics need to get better their own way. Life is full of learning, it never ever stops. We can't get everything right: it takes a long to get a lot right. If you would like to help make things better for people with disabilities please email me sarajgorman@googlemail.com or even read our Mencap website.

Moving house

Moving house is the most stressful time for everyone, it's even harder if you have a disability. Due to your disability you can only do so much to help. It can make you feel useless. You feel equal to others around you. Most of us are not quick for others. With the right help you be able to feel equal and useful. Two pairs of hands or more are better than one. I only wish I can help more than I can do. On the whole once the hard work is done, it's worth it. Everything happens slowly when you move anyway, there's always some things that take forever or not at all.

Without been tied down from the big wide world there should a balance between peoples safety and rights, that is the right help. People who aren't disabled have good intentions but they understand what it's like to have a disability unless they had one. We need to raise awareness about these things otherwise people with disabilities won't find their lives are worth living. Those of you who have disabilities, are you getting right help? No one is saying family support isn't good but are they getting the right support to help them help you?

This can work one way or another, are people doing everything for you or are people giving you chances to do things by helping you? Are people rushing you? You may find some things harder than others so you may need time to do them. Perhaps you can do things that are so easy to that you can do them quicker than most non - disabled people.

Whatever help you feel you need Mencap are here to help person with disability and their helpers in some way. We are even here to help people with disabilities themselves. If you want to email me your story I'd be more than interested to hear it sarajgorman@googlemail.com or even a private message to facebook sarajgorman@gmail.com. Perhaps I can help you through Mencap, you will never know unless you ask. What I don't know I will ask Mencap, if that's what you want.

If you have a disability and you have experienced moving house or you may have helped a person or people with disabilities moving house. Please contract me on either email addresses on any subject to do with people with disabilities. Mencap are here to help people who help people with disabilities but they must understand difference between health, safety and rights to live like everyone in this big wide world. You guys as helpers need to balance the two because having a disability could have happened to you. How would you feel and what would you have done? You don't know do you?

When you are moving into your new home it be your choice to have what you want in your home how they want it. It is not always possible for people with disabilities to have their choice because that choice is very often made by the person or people who are helping them. Not everyone has the same taste as one another, this choice gets control ed by non - disabled people nine times out of ten, when it should be the choice of the person with a disability. Sometimes the helper and the person with a disability will agrees but that is not the point. The helper should not guess what what the person wants they should ask them first. The person who is looking after you, caring for you and helping you could be your Mother, Father, other family member, key work, support worker, link worker, carer or etc.

The reason why I am writing about moving house is because I have just moved myself. Lucky for me it has been worth the stress of the last few days. I think my Mother could have done with someone to help her even though we had a few members of the family to help. Society tends to think families have all the time in the world. These services don't understand that families have other lives or should we blame that on the government? A lot could be down to management, one hand does not know what the other hand is doing. People get the difference answers to one question from difference members of staff. It's either one answer of another to the rules of running a service people should use common sense.

My new flat has turned out to be very nice, mostly have cream and brown to match in my living room. The carpet is a cream with brown spots all the way through. Pictures and light fittings need to be soughed. There are not many plug sockets though, I guess it's because years ago there weren't any computers so there weren't many things to plug in.