WHO SAYS

Who says people with disabilities are useless?
who says we are difference even though we may look difference?
we can achieve our own skills just like you so why not let us put those skills to use for our future just like you?
we have have a future as much as you do otherwise why why are we here?
some of us have our body parts others don't but it doesn't make us useless there is something about everyone.
some of us can paint with our hands others can paint with their feet.
we can use our body and mind in difference ways
only because we are slow than you it doesn't mean we don't know anything.
All we need is your support we don't need you to put us down.
Just think guys if disabilities hadn't have happen to us, they could have happened to you.
If you would have had disabilities like us what would you have done then.
it's hard for you to think about the affects a disability would have on your lives unless you have a disability.
If were you were in our shoes, you'd understand what we mean.
A lot of people can be fine for years then they may have a serious accident, that's when they understand a lot of things in their life they had before hand has been taken away from them.
If they are lucky, they may get the same things back but only with the right support.

NO ONE KNOWS NO ONE.

You made me to be in this world.
The first twenty-one years of my life you weren't there.
I was no one to you, at least it felt that way anyway.
You were no one to me, it seemed as if as I wasn't anyone to you because I never saw you.
when I first met you at the age of twenty - one, I thought we put the piece of the jigsaw together but I was wrong.
Now I feel as if a piece of jizsaw is missing in me again.
I think I have lost myself again.
Perhaps part of me was always been missing and always will be.
Why do I have a feeling that two human beings are missing out of my life too?
why do I have feeling that they are asking themselves unanswered questions like I did as a child?
I want to help them because I know how it feels, it's as if you are in the dark.
It's feels as I am feeling the same way again as I did as a child knowing that my half brother and sister are going through the same as I did.
I'm their half big sister, of course I want to be there for them and help them.
You aren't going to help them are you?
Don't you realise what you have done and how it has affected our minds?
The past doesn't matter, I've been there all my life.
I never knew why this had to be but it doesn't matter now, it's not about me, it's about my younger half brother and sister.
I am the past they are the present and future.
It's the present and the future, how do you think it's going to affect their lives?
why do I feel like the useless big half sister?
no one knows no one, it's all a mystery.

WHY CAN'T WE?

I'm speaking for the rights of people with disabilities.
If we haven't got those those rights we should have them.
we should should be treated equally to non - disabled people.
Some people have these rights others don't.
We know it can never be a perfect world but it can be an equal work.
How many of us live a lone?
How many of us still live with our families?
How many of us have families of our own?
How many of us work?
How many of us don't work?
How many of us are on benefit trap?
How many of us are in education?
How many of us live like non - disabled people but with the right support?
We all understand funding can be a problem but the government should spend the money on the right things for people's rights.
I've been asking these questions all my life but never really got any real answers.

WHAT CAUSES AUTISM?

It's hard to say what causes Autism, there are so many different forms of Autism from mild to major. It affect people in different ways. In my case it was lack of oxygen to the brain, Mum was neglected at birth. I've heard other causes are the MMR vaccines for Measles, food allergies, Chronic yeast infections, infections from meningitis and Mercury poisoning.

WHAT IS AUTISM?
In my research off the Internet, apart form Autism been a disability, it affects one in hundred people in Britain alone. Autism is mostly a hidden disability. People with Autism have Autism for life. People with Autism can learn skills in life but for life, we are mostly very slow learners. The kind of skills most people Autism find very hard to learn is motor skills because of grip with our hands and reflexes, we find it hard to cope with too many things at once. People with Autism can find it hard to say what we need and how we feel. People with Autism find it hard to meet people, make friends and relationships, social skills are hard for us. People with Autism can find it hard to understand people, people can find it hard to understand people with Autism.

When it comes to behavior problems, people tend to blame bad parenting, which is not true. Like I said in many reports on this website, in my experience anyway, it's more we feel anger when we can't cope with every day living skills, we don't feel equal to non - disabled people. When this happens we feel useless, the odd ones out and we feel left out of society.
Not that I can have children anyway but just out of interest, my family thought Autism isn't genetic but I have learned off the Internet that it is but it's hard to say. Without been nasty, if what I am reading is true, it's just as well I can't have children, I'd hated to see my children going through the same me, even though I'd understand them through my own experience.
The things I have just explained is what you need to except of people with Autism.

As I have written in past reports on this site, most people with Autism are creative but I don't want to bore you with what I have already said, if I remember but sometimes I get carried away studying things. Sorry about that.
Some people with Autism manage to learn by watching others. Most people with Autism can only work on one thing at a time very slowly like me. This is why a lot of us need support in schools, colleges, work placements and etc.
Many disabilities are link in to Autism for eg; dyslexia. Never think Autism affects all people the same, we are all difference like yourselves, like I've said before it would be boring otherwise.

PEOPLE WITH AUTISM CAN BE AFFECT BY FIVE SENSES IN OUR LIVES.

Sight, sound, touch, taste, smell yet again I guess we aren't all the same. Some Of us may be affected by all five senses, other could be affect by only so many, well there's only five them. Strange because I've learned five senses in Creative writing, which is common sense because we have to explain feelings of our characters. Perhaps that's why most people with Autism can write, joking that's not always necessary so. When it comes to sight, people with Autism could be affected colour or and lights. For eg; even bright colour lights affect me, mainly when I'm having fits. I am jumpily when dogs jump, run fast towards and bark at me. I'm also affected by flapping birds, I don't like them standing my shoulder, I get very nervous. I don't dislike any animals, in fact I love them. If I live with them I get used to them but I don't have the time on hands to have animals. Sometimes touch affects me others times it doesn't, it depends how I'm touched, I guess that's the same for anyone really. Taste I like all food really. Smell is no difference to anyone really. That's enough about me but If you have Autism or you know anyone who does really as long they know your telling me, I'd be interested what 5 senses affect the people you know with Autism . If You have Autism which five senses affect you? one or a few or all. Sarajgorman@googlemail.com or and Sarajgorman@gmail.com on Facebook if you want to and can email me. A bit of extra support for people with Autism, families and carers. The National Autistic Society http://www.autism.org.uk/ autismhelplinenas.org.uk

As I was researching, I have found out that Asperger Syndrome and I think ADHD Defict Hyperactive Disorder, which is two common types of Autism.

FAMOUS PEOPLE WITH AUTISM.

A lot people don't realise that there are a lot of people who disabilities who are famous. Like I have said in one of my reports on my website, that there were a lot of people with disabilities who didn't become famous until they died. People like Isaac Newton, Albert Einstein, Vincent Van Gogh, Andy Warhol, Beethoven, Bela Bartok, Wolfgan Amadeus Mozart, Richard Strauss, W.B Yeats, George Orwell, Charles Dickens Lewis Carroll, Thomas Jefferson and many more who had Autism according to the Internet. There are and were famous people with many other disabilities too. These people were writers, artists, composers, worked in science and or and in many more things. How people have known this I don't know, perhaps they have been researching their lives to create these sites on the Internet. I'd be very interested to know what you do and don't believe. It's hard to say with the people who aren't with us anymore because in those day people weren't educated to know what disabilities are. We must be careful because it's too easy think if people didn't cope with school education, they must have had some forms of disabilities. Some people may have been bullied or problems at home, which could be another reason for not doing well at school. It's isn't just about that can be how they were at the beginning of life, for eg; slow at speaking. sarajgorman@googlemail.com or and sarajgorman@gmail.com.

MORE ABOUT AUTISM.

Most of us are very sensitive to sound, light, dark and touch.
Most of us find change hard to related to, mainly change to route. We could stay in the same route for years or always be the same. It can take us ages to get used to something new. We understand it must seem boring, we don't disagree but we can't help the way we are. If we are going to change, it's best leave it to us in our speed.
Like I said in my poem, we people with Autism can do and or say things that can affect people, without us understanding what we may have done wrong, that doesn't mean we have excuses all the time. Autism is a learning not a reason to be wrong all the while. We are still human like everyone, we make mistakes like everyone else and if we don't understand we're not aware. This why Autism Mind Blindness like dyslexia is word blindness. Most people with Autism can have dyslexia linked into Autism like I think I have said in at least one of these reports on this site. We have faults, good and bad points just like you at end of day and we all do things regret, just people without disabilities, that how we learn but we may be slower than you. I agree many of us don't learn whether we have disability because we don't want or ever mistake it could just easy to do.
Autism isn't just a disability on it's own, it links with other disabilities such as dyspraxia, (ADHD)deficit hyperactive disorder,dyslexia and perhaps many other things too. Not every person with Autism has to cope with the same disabilities. Some people may have all disabilities link in others may have just a few. One thing what I think isn't the same is that we haven't all got the same disabilities, in fact there may be more I don't know about. I have dyspraxia, dyslexia and oh what I haven't said is epilepsy. I was hyperactive as a child, I think it was due to those heavy tablets I was on but I think (ADHD) is for life because I'm not hyperactive anymore. Perhaps I have changed my diet a bit since I was a child without realising. I think I'm right because I used to eat a lot of sweet things as a child but I think (ADHD) is there with a people whatever they do.

MIND BLINDNESS.

In our minds, we can spend our lives feeling angry with ourselves.
Some people think we want to hurt their feelings because of what we say, what we may not say, what we do and what we may not do but we don't.
It's hard for people to understand us unless they have Autism themselves.
Don't get us wrong not everything is done by accident, we all have faults like everyone.
We make mistakes and regret things like everyone else.
Autism isn't an excuse for anything, Autism is our disability, Mind Blindness and Unawareness is how it affects our lives.
Autism can affect friendships, relationships, even family relationships and perhaps the whole world around us.