Tuesday 21 September 2010

Chapter five, Break up

For six mouths Jacky had been stopping with different friends here, there and everywhere. She hadn't seen Mark since he kicked her out of his flat. It caused her one big mess with her benefits and everything. Mark's promises and lies also lost her child and bought her load of depression on before and after the birth because she had the child taken off.

The birth had come and gone far too quickly. It was unknown to Jacky whether she had a girl or a boy because she knew she wasn't going to see he or she. The baby was taken away from her so quickly at New Cross hospital Wolverhampton. Jacky managed to get her own room so she didn't have to see other Mothers holding their babies. Jacky broke down and cried.Even though she didn't want to give the baby up, she felt guilty for giving he or she up. There wasn't enough support to get her a home and help her to look after the baby. Her friends Karen and Hana who didn't have disabilities offered to support her but she felt as if she was putting a block on their lives, Social services didn't allow it anyway.

It was only a mouth after the child was born that Social services didn't let Jacky know what had happened to the child. Other that the fact Jacky was shocked to find out Mark was putting the child in and out of care, which she wasn't very happy about. Jacky broke down in tears, as she spoke to Jeanette with Jet black hair in a pony tail, she wore a brown and cream striped jumped.

" How could you all let this happen, I knew I was going to lose my baby but it's just as unsafe to give he or she up to a drunk Father."

" Jacky he may be drunk but he doesn't have disabilities."

" Mark's drunkenness is his own fault, my disabilities aren't."

" The baby won't be fed Jennette, Mark will drink the money away."

" Sorry Jacky that's the way it goes,I have no control what happens, you look after yourself now."

" He is the Father of the child, Jacky."

" I'm the Mother of the child, he can do something about his drinking, I can't do anything about my disabilities, how does anyone think that makes me feel?"

" Just because I can't look after my child, it doesn't mean I don't worry like any other Mother, in fact I worry more."

"People think because I have disabilities, I don't have feelings, cause I do, I'm human like everyone else you know!"

In the end Jennette just walked but at the same she felt useless, she so wanted to help Jacky but she just had to do her job. Everything Jacky had said Jennette she was right, that's what hurt the most.

It turned out that Jacky started drinking heavy herself but she wouldn't have done if she would have had support to have and keep her child. It was a long depressing road until Jacky got back to her happy self and again. She couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. She had good and bad days. It affected her that baby, she was on the verge of taking her own life.

Jacky, Karen and Hana had a long day shopping, which started off a good day for Jacky. Shop until they dropped, they called it. Walking into Beatles car park at 5.00pm. Jacky started to feel unwell and sad again. Karen and Hana couldn't believe Jacky's change of mood suddenly at the end of the day. Jacky had suffered depression for quite a few years before then.

" What's wrong with you, Jacky we've had a good laugh today?" said Karen

Jacky didn't answer as she started to feel dizzy but it didn't stop her from hanging her head over Beatles car park as her long blond hair came down. Jacky screamed as millions of people froze as they stared. Hana and Karen were trying to stop her but Jacky was having none of it.

" I don't care, I'm going down now, good bye everyone."

" Don't go, Jacky." cried Karen

Someone outside the car park called the police, as Hana tried to walk Jacky to the car but she kept kicking off and screaming.

" Are you alright, Madam?"

" This is unnecessary sir, we have it under control." said Hana

Jacky was still kicking screaming and shouting.

" Calm down, madam." said the Policeman

Jacky calmed down when she wanted to.

Hana took no notice of Jacky, she just managed somehow to put her in the car. In the mean time Karen had a word with Jacky.

" What's wrong with you today, we started to have a good day?"

Jacky didn't answer.

" Calm down Jacky, breath in and out, you will be home soon."

Suddenly there came Mark as soon as he saw Jacky, he set Beatles car park on fire with a petrol bomb, as Hana and Karen tried getting Jacky in the car. Jacky knew then she had to get the car as fast she could as Hana and Karen rang the police. Hana and Karen knew they had to get the car as fast as they could for all their safeties. Drivers froze before they got into their car as flames rised up. People were pan icing and screaming inside and out the car park. Mark was shouting at Jacky accusing her of having the baby when she hadn't. She didn't even know what sex her child was. Mark got into his car as fast as he could with his car on fire as he drove fast through the town to Wednesfield Canal right through the water, then down to the Cannock road until the police caught as he was arrested. Police, firemen and ambiances were driving everywhere. 20 people dead through the fire and thirty people injured.

" Where's my child, Jacky?"

Jacky couldn't believe to see Mark there, she couldn't believe what she heard him say. This was the last thing Jacky needed as she was only just coming to terms with losing everything she ever what would happen. The lies that Mark made out to be true.

" Get away Mark!" said Hana

" Jacky is in this state only because of you, Mark." said Karen

This was were Jacky got inside the car because she didn't have anything to say to Mark. This was were he set the petrol bomb because he didn't get his own way. Hana had never drove as fast in her driving as she did that night.

Everything was fine until they got home, as Hana got out of her car, Jacky started kicking off in front of the neighbours. It got so tense that Hana and Karen were getting very strange looks. In the end Jacky tried to calm down as soon as Karen and Hana told her they didn't want her in prison.

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