To be a female.
She was an unknown character with golden blonde hair, with
an unknown name.
She was just a person out of nowhere.
No one bothered her.
Older, she got the less stress she got with feelings unknown.
How long had she been feeling the way she felt?
How she dies unknown.
She was in New York.
She did not find it easy to say how she felt.
The young star of New York back in the day.
The sun was extraordinarily strong as she was tanning very
quickly.
She feared her body changing. 17.4.2014 to 24.6.2020
It was so long ago.
It was so long ago since she lay on the beach.
She lost interest in the world around her.
She did not like dirty dull counties she liked counties that
were fresh and green.
She drank the coffee on the train on the way to Manhattan.
She walked along with New York City.
She loved New York. 17.4.2020 – 24.6.2020
Change of feelings.
I loved him so long ago.
It took me years to stop loving.
I thought it would never end with us, it lasted so long.
I have not felt anything for years and hope I never will.
I have learned that love can be blind.
I would never build my hopes on anyone now.
My feelings were too out of control. 18.4.2014 – 18.8.2015
Writing comes from the mind.
So little time to write.
So little time to type but it will be on my website.
Now easy to put things into words so readers understand.
Cannot help but fear that my readers may think I write
rubbish.
Cannot help but think I do not make myself clear on what I
say.
It can be strange how the mind thinks and then I get writer’s
blocks.
I am no one special I just write words.
My pen cannot always write in time to my mind or cannot
think of anything at all.
I do not always make sense, but I try to. 18.4.2014 – 24.6. 2020
Life is in bits and pieces.
Nothing is straight forward.
Everything is all over the
place.
Things are not always what
you except.
However,’ there’s good and
bad in everything and everybody.
If everything and everybody was
the same what a boring world life would be.
Every day there’s an animal as
well as a human in us.
We live and die, change and
we are our own people. 18 4. 14 to 23.
6. 2020
Overpowered.
We are overpowered by the
government.
How dare they control us and tell
us what to do.
However,’ rules are needed
but they can only go so far.
Life is how we make it, or
should I say at times how we have to make it?
It is not always the case if
others make a life for you.
It is not right to have life
too easy but not too hard either.
Britain too tight and kind
with money.
Money does not buy love,
happiness or and it does not grow on trees. 18.4.2014 to 23.6.2020
Writing travel.
Not easy to travel writing.
Easier to write on the plane
but hard to see what is out and about.
Need to keep a diary and keep
track of what one has done.
With today’s IT, recognize
places and study maps.
Easy to think of too much or
and nothing at all to a point of a writer’s block. 18.8.2014 – 23.6.2020
Passion for writing.
It takes me a while to think
about what I am going to writing.
Once thoughts get out of my
mind it is like nonstop.
I have no talent I just have
words to say.
Words that do and do not mean
a lot but just somehow come out.
My mind goes blank before I
write again.
My pen does not always work
in time to my mind to a point nothing makes any sense. 2014 – 23.6.2020
On the road again.
On the road to Woodstock New
York and the sun is shining.
Woodstock is the history of
American 60s bands.
I view the mountains of Woodstock.
Everywhere full of forests,
departments, and old trees.
Old winter trees and new
spring trees
Green leaves on the trees for
the summer.
The deep blue sky.
The long bumpy road. 18.
4.2014
Dyslexic writer.
It is hard to write when the
car is moving as I think what to write.
I feel no poems to come or I
just end up writing rubbish.
I am Dyslexic, I cannot read
and write.
It is just rubbish writing
unnecessary to non-Dyslexic people. 18.
4.2014
You have gone out of my mind.
Now it is time to get you off
my mind.
Time to move on.
I need to move on.
I have to move on.
I want to move on away from
you.
It is far too late for us to
love again as you broke my heart again, you cannot keep on walking in and out
my life as nothing has happened.
I now have no love for you to
go back to you anymore.
I have now had enough time to
put the past behind me, there is no point us being together anymore.
My mind is getting stronger
and stronger every day.
Now I have realized us
parting was the best thing that ever happened.
You only have yourself to
blame, you did not take the chance when you had it, which was when I loved you
so much now, I hate you so much.
I need to stop myself from
writing about you, but I need to write lines to remind myself I do not love you
anymore till I feel nothing at all for you.
I must not feel in love with
you, the message has been taking years to sink in.
I need to get over the love,
I now have so much anger.
I now feel nothing at all for
you.
Your loss, my gain, I am going
through no more for you and I mean it now. 19.4.2014 – 2019
Today.
Today will be a good day.
Today will be a warm day.
Whatever the weather there
are ways of enjoying your days.
Think about the villages,
shops of Woodstock.
The year of my birth.
Jimi Hendricks in Woodstock
over 50 years ago.
Brain Jones from the Rolling
Stones lost his life in England swimming, what a sad time for the band even
though they sacked him for his death.
1969 Neil Armstrong landed on
the moon. 19.8.2014 to 23.6.2020
Let us just say it as it is.
Let us just face the truth
even though it may hurt.
No matter what the reason, I
cannot keep on giving into your games.
Now is the time to put an end
to this by me being out of your life.
I knew sooner or later you
would want me back again but then you don’t as you just want to pretend you do
to cover up your own guilt, you feel nothing for me at all., I have news for
you I feel nothing at all for you either no more and I mean it.
I am well and long out your
life now; sorry I have gone for good and met someone else twice the man you
are.
Sorry I can’t be friends with
you as you hurt me too much to be friends with you, even though I know hate is
a stronger word, but I forgave you for far too long.
This may well sound two-faced
of me but I would never wish you dead, otherwise, why should I care what
happened next but I only hope the next woman you have in your life you treat
better than you did me because I guess she won’t put up with as half as much as
I did?
You will probably love her a
lot more than you loved me which was not all and if you blow it with her, it
will hurt you badly if or when she goes out your life like I did but sooner than
I did.
What goes around comes
around. 29.8.2015 – 23.6.2020
Please tell me why.
I told you that I could not
promise we could be more than friends and that I was not ready for a
relationship at the time at the time I was facing emotional stress at the time.
I was not still in love with
my ex, I was emotionally angry with him.
Not that I did not love you,
but I did not want to take out what I had been through from someone else onto
you, which was why I did not
consider the relationship.
It was a mistake us trying
but you would not take no for an answer and you were not accepting that I was
not ready for the relationship.
Now it is too LATE; I am with
someone else and I have moved on.
I promised myself I would not
give anyone a second chance but again you kept on until you got your own way.
When we broke up the second
time that was that for good and still is.
If you would have loved me
like you said you did, you would have understood and accepted whatever
happened, but you did not.
Just be grateful that I am
your friend and that is the way it will always go forever.
Somethings happen for the
best; it could have been worse you could have lost my friendship as well.
30.8.2015 – 23.6.2020
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