Stress Awareness.

Stress isn’t a new thing it’s always happened and it always will. Britain has been suffering from a credit crunch since 2009 and many other tough times like World War 1 and 2 1914 – 1918 and 1939 – 1945.

Stress is the biggest killer of all. Many people have got to the point they don’t feel as if life is worth living. At the end of this report I will leave some websites for those of you who feel you need emotion or even counselling support.

 Stress can make people feel angry and worried, which can cause people a lot Anxiety and depression. This can be just as bad if not even worse for those of us who suffer from Anxiety and depression ready. If you don’t have disabilities and health problems as it is this credit crunch is enough to cause you to.

What can cause stress?

·      Loss of business

·      Loss of Job

·      Loss of home

·      Moving house

·      Loss of family

·      Relationship break up

·      Marriage break up

·      Divorce

·      Caring for children

·      Being a child

·      Caring for people with disabilities and health problems

·      Being someone with disabilities and health problems.

·      Benefit cuts and appeals.

Its big worry that the councils have cut back, which it makes it hard for people to find homes yet people can’t afford to buy homes.

WWW.victimsupport.org.uk

WWW.reading.gov.uk

WWW.carershub.org

WWW.wandsworth.gov.uk

Disabled cuts 2014.

My name is Sara Jane Gorman. I have been working as learning disability and mental health awareness trainer for nearly 7yrs. I have disabilities and health problems my self. I used to work at Royal Wolverhampton Mencap, which has folded through the cut now. Now I work 4 an Advocacy service called 1 Voice in Wolverhampton. I guess people are aware that a lot of services are and or have cut back. Disabilities and mental health services are two of those services. Peoples' support seems 2 be the main topic the government seem 2 be cutting back on services. People are getting less and less help with jobs in the home, personal care, education, employment, benefits, health and etc.

A lot of people have even had their benefits cut by the government; therefore they have to go through appeals. It can take about twelve mouths or even longer before their appeal comes through. During the waiting time they are living on very little money. Many people have even lost their lives through their health problems and through the stress of their money been stopped. Many people have even been signed off fit for work when they haven’t been fit for work, which is another cause of why a lot of people have lost their lives.

The government needs to wake up to the fact that the lives of people with disabilities and health problems are as just as information as other peoples’ lives. The government has not got a clue what it feels like if they had to rely on others most of their lives but then support isn't always possible when they need it. 

When it comes to having your benefits cut it becomes a very big and it's not very nice for anyone to live on such little money. When you face these problems it's so easy to feel alone but then there's thousands of people who are going through the same or not much different to what are. If you or anyone you know are facing these problems, if would like to chat to others in the same situation.

  Disabled People Against Cuts (DPAC) on Facebook

It is a safe site, no discrimination is allowed.
 If anyone discriminates anyone they will be taken off the site. No is force to do what they want
 to do, the choice is yours but the site is there for you.
 If you would like to look for any other sites the same or and not
much different please email sarajgorman@gmail.com

There are other reasons why people join Disabled People Against cut (DPAC) like a lot of Disabled services

Going through cuts.

It's a big worry that Britain has lost roughly 10'600 disabled people through these people losing their benefits. Having very little money to live on. A lot of disabled people have died within 6 weeks of losing their benefits since 2011.

800'000 disabled people employed on Job Seekers Allowance have had their money stopped and lived off nothing for the year alone.
The government is killing vulnerable people this has got to stopped.
There's lots of people with nothing with them, claiming benefits, claiming to be  ill and disabled so they don't have to work because they don't want to. You'd think with today's computer's system the government would work harder at tracking the benefit cheats down.   

Most disabled people want to work no matter how unwell and disabled we are but then there's limit on what a lot of people can do. There's plenty out there nothing wrong with them who won't even take the chance of a job yet disabled people will but can't be accepted so the government needs to wake up. In situation disabled people can cope with and the right our lives should just as equal as much as anyone's. The government is cutting back money on the wrong things when disabled people need support to live our lives, not that we are saying life lives all around us.

Introduction to diary entries.

2013 wasn't a bad year. I didn't achieve everything I wanted but then I didn't except to.Yet I wonder what I will achieve this year 2014. Career wise wasn't too bad could have been better : could have been worse.
Sunday 13th December 2013. I replied to Tim's message on the Disabled dating site. We both seemed to have a lot in common with our disabilities and health problems. I told him at that point I wasn't  ready for a relationship but as time went on we wanted to meet up, even though he lives Kettering Northamptonshire and I live Wolverhampton. Tim has traveled over to Wolverhampton by train a fair few times last year. Since we have grown more and more like one another. He added me as a friend on Facebook 16th January 2013.
I achieved a realtionship that I wasn't excepting to get, which I saw as a friendship at the first but the thing was I was getting to like Tim more and more.
Just because I went on a Disabled dating site doesn't mean I was looking for love. There was many who I spoke to before I spoke to Tim who didn't expect more of me than just friendship. Tim was the only who accepted me as I am but in at time our feelings were getting stronger for one another. 
It was Friday 19th July 2013. When we should have been dating on Tim's birthday, it was hot sunny day but sadly we had to cancel the date cause Tim had to go to the job centre. I brought myself a summer dress that I never had on my back. Not only I hope on Tim's birthday this year that the weather is nice but I hope there will be nothing to spoil our date.
 It had seemed so long ago since we had a hot summer I can't remember when. I excepted us to have an early long cold winter late 2013 to early 2014. Instead with we have had a stormy winter in Britain with wind and rain. Summer 2012 was a complete wash out with the rain with floods and that.
As for my career, I am not working for 1 Voice Advocacy service Wolverhampton, Studying for my English level 1 at Old Hall street college, doing a bit of learning disability and mental awareness training for Wolverhampton University. I wonder what I will achieve this year, which be will be written in my diary entries.

Tight government.

Society and living conditions.

Should people with live unhealthy lifestyle should be treated from the NHS?

People who end up drunk a lot make it very hard for the people who are seriously ill through no fault of their own because this can cause longer waiting time in A&E.

There again no one knows the reasons behind people drinking so much but then some people may drink because they don’t want to work.

I believe the government has been far too greedy with money and spent too much.

Although we as human beings are responsible for our health at the time the unhealthy protects like cigarettes, drink and drugs are still out there.

 The government makes money on so therefore no matter high the price there will be still people who buy these protects.

A lot of unhealthy food seems to be cheaper than the healthy food.

Most people today have very busy life styles so they don’t seem to have the time to cook homemade and have fresh food like they used.

We can’t judge people but then we can’t be sure of the ones who are playing system.

It’s to know who are the ones who are trying to eat healthy and one who are not.

Without been raciest the government is spending far too much money letting too many foreigners into Britain. Not that all British people got anything against foreign people but our country is so small with so little money we haven’t got room for and we can’t afford. The way it is going there will be no homes and jobs for the British people but many British people would be happy to so many foreigners here but not a lot. I am not saying that the fact we have so many foreigners is the reason why Britain is in debt but part of the reason is that there are too many people in such a small country with very little money. Foreign people aren’t to blame but the British government is for letting too many in, which causes nothing left for the British people who were both here.

The government goes on about and promises a chance for people with disabilities and health problems to work but then there’s no work for people without these problems so what chance is there for us ourselves?

Royal Wolverhampton Mencap.

When I started Royal Wolverhampton Mencap in 2007, we had quite a lot of work projects goingoing that supported people with disabilities to get on with their lives such as.

·       Circle of friends for people with disabilities to socialise.

·       The drama group, Wolverhampton Art centre, which was a create arts project.

·       Heaton which was a support for people who need support with shopping, cooking, house work and etc.

·       I helped Mencap set up a project called Mates to Dates, which was a friendship and dating project.

·       I also helped Mencap set a Disabled Writer’s group.

Roghty up to early 2013 the government sadly was cutting the funding bit by bit, even the staffs’ wages were cut. I lost my work with the Group Advocacy ‘Our Shout’ I was working for. We spoke up for the rights of learning disability and raising learning disability awareness by doing drama plays and talks.

Due to the credit crunch, everyone knows how hard it is to look after ones’ self but when it comes to people with disabilities, health problems, the elderly and etc they are the people who need these services and charities because they need more support that other people. Without have any support their needs are not met.
Bearing in mind had employed people with disabilities to help people with disabilities. I myself were was though people who lost our work. Although we have moved on to jobs in the same field, which is ok, Mencap is a charity based all round the Uk but each project is cutting back bit by bit in each part of the UK but it's just a case of knowing how long it will till Mencap goes altogether which is going to be distressing to see. 
I don't enjoy raising these home truths but sadly this seems to be the real world but somehow let's believe it's not all black and white there's positive somehow somewhere but it's a case of how. 

Dycalculia.

What is Dyscalculia?

Dyscalculia is a learning disability that causes people to have problems with maths. These people have problems with numbers, I myself are one of those people. You can still have a normal IQ. I myself haven't been diagnosed but I will be honest I have always had big problems with numbers.
 Once I have got past counting to ten, then I get stuck so I try to work the maths out on paper or make sure I have many items to add onto my fingers. with - when it comes to borrowing write the numbers down to how many numbers I need then put through the numbers the sum asks me to -. * eg; 4+4=8 2*4=8. I can't seem to do maths in my head I have to work then out on paper, which mostly with me takes a long time. There are some maths I can't even work out with a calculator but some I can, which is strange, I can't round numbers up either and I can't only half so many numbers.

 It's hard to believe it has taken nearly thirty years of my life to even guess that I may Dyscalculia. In the last twenty odd years ago, this possible maths disability has affected my chances of getting a job so it's hard to know if I can get tested for Dyscalculia before i do get too, may be even if the funding is out there may be support for me to get a proper job.
Anyway going by my own experience it's a sad fact that we get these cuts coming in because people a lot younger than me with all kinds of disabilities could get better support than me.
Dyscalculia is only a problem with numbers but people can find it hard to tell the time, find it hard to tell from their left to their right, they can find orientation hard and following the rules of games. Pretty much all of those I have problems with but as years went on I strangely didn't do bad at telling the time but very slow at learning it.

These are problems people Dyscalculia but every person varies to how their problems lie.

1. Numbers lines can be hard to understand.
2.Borrowing numbers in - can hard to work out.
3.Finding it hard to work, some, most or even all maths can be for some with dyscalculia in their head.
4. Some people find it hard workout maths when they have to go past ten.
5.Difficulty using fingers counting recognizing how an answer can be to a sum like for eg; 6+4= 10. 
6. Difficulty in understanding value.
7. Some people will find it hard to to calculation certain kinds of maths but could be different ones for different people.
8. Anxiety is a sense of fear and dread, Dyscalculia is more than just a weakness of maths it's disability. Meaning the person with Dyscalculia a fear and dread maths but also it's causes them a lot of frustration  knowing they can't get easily because of lack of maths skills.
9. Dyscalculia is a sense of number blurriness, blindness and jargon of facing numbers.
10. Spatial difficulties not good at drawing, visualization, remembering arrangements of objects, understanding time, direction.
11.Short term memory difficulties the literature to relation between these and dyscalculia is very controversial. 
12. Poor coordination of movement ( Dyspraxia).
13. Reversal of of numbers this is normal development stage which all children go through and no cause to alarm it.
14. Difficulty remembering names - evidence to suggest that verbal memory has anything to do with Dyscalculia.
15. Good language skills but very poor maths skills.
16. Problems with very basic calculations as well as maths.
17. Problems with guessing and estimation numbers.
18. Inconsistent maths skills ( can do something one day but not the next.)
19. Most people find it hard to read analog clocks.
20. Some people find it hard to understand maps, many people may even get confused with right and left.
21.Most people find it hard to keep numbers in columns, then end up with the wrong answer in the sum.
22. Confusion with math concepts.
23. Most people can even have problems with words.
24. These problems can cause a lot of people Anxiety, stress to a point they burst into tears because they feel useless, helpless and fearing that they will never get anywhere career wise to a point they feel as if life isn't worth living.
25. Switching to addition while doing subtraction problem or vice versa.
26. Forgetting addition facts and multiplication.
28. Failure to remember math stept.
29.Changing sequence of numerals when copying them can be a problem for most people.



Famous people with Dyscalculia.

Henry Winkle who played the Fonz in ' Happy Days', Cher a singer, Mary tyler Moore writer and actress, Benjamin Franklin newspaper printer, writer, musician, scientist yet he was very poor at maths.
Hans Christian Andersen fairy tale story writer, Bill Gates computer creator but he has numbers coming out his ears, Thomas Edison light bulb invert er, he had problems with maths but he managed to overcome them, Luis Armand, Garcia child star, Sarah Barr able Tisha actress, Mick Hucknall who was in a pop group Simply Red, he once said ' I suffer from  Dyscalculia number blindness - I am made to feel stupid but art school opened the new world of creativity for me and I loved it, although Albert Einstein was good with his physics and his science certain part of his life he was very weak at maths but may have overcome it WWW.alberteinstensite.com. May you could find out about more famous people with Dyscalculia. 

  I myself, this is what I thought the same with my poetry and drawing even though I haven't had any luck as such with publishing. 

Causes of Dyscalculia.
Reserach says that Dyscalculia is caused by a result of a (brain injury). In my case it does make sense because I was born with a very mild brain damage on the left hand side of the brain, which has affected the left hand side of my body as if I have had the affects of a stroke all my life but it cause me to have mild Epilepsy instead. I also says which also makes sense in my case it can link with other disabilities like Dyslexia, Dyspraxia and (ADHD). 

Other disabilities that can be cause by a mild brain damage.
There are at least 30% of of people who suffer from epilepsy ( nearly) who have mild to moderate learning disability. The more severe the learning disability is the more likely the person is to have epilepsy.
Emotional and behavior problems.
( ADHD hyperactively) is an emotional feeling of sadness. moodiness anger, which could also be linked with Anxiety and depression. This can happen any time any place any where whether there's a reason to have those emotional feelings or not, this can make a person behave anyway as possible depending how sensitive they feel. People whose disabilities started of from certain brain injuries may likely to suffer from Clinical depression like people such as myself who was born from a mild brain damage.
A sense of anger could be for eg; Someone trying to achieve a skill but they just can't without the right support, they feel angry because they are having to ask for support and they hate feeling a buron to people. Yet people who can do can do most things for themselves don't understand what it's like for those who can do least things for themselves.

Unemployment

Unemployment awareness.

What a fine start of the new year this is. I am so sorry to bring such a subject: this a important big worry.  If the truth is known I don't know where to start. I was reading this morning about the amount of young people out of work who are feeling as if life is not worth living. To me like a lot if not all people this is a very big worry. Many young people are close to suicide because of the lack of employment. I am very upset to hear that 751,230 young feel as if life isn't worth living. One in three 32% have contemplated suicide, one in four 24% have self - harmed themselves, 40% of young people are suffering from being employed and more than 440,000 young people are facing long term unemployment.
Although I have never had proper work myself, which is what I want. As many of you may have read on this site I used to do some work for Royal Wolverhampton Mencap but back in 2007 - 2011. The group Advocacy work project Our Shout, the work I was doing cut back May 2011 put Mencap had supported and someone else with a learning to have our learning disability awareness training business in a year Mencap ran out funding to support us. From the May of 2011 to the December I couldn't find anything else to keep myself going, was heart breaking at the time I was going out of my mind. I do have quite a bit of understand what it's like to be without work and how it can make very depressed it did the same for me. If you would like to contact me on this subject. sarajgorman@gmail.com


 There again it's very hard to know the truth because there are many out there who don't want to work as well who make it hard for the ones who want to. You don't have to have disabilities and health problems to need support to find a job and that. Now the government has made cuts on the support people are needing. Even though support is hard to get, there's still good many people who don't do anything to try and get work but that's not everyone. Sadly because it very hard to tell the ones who want to work to the one who don't then more often than not the wrong people get judged. 

Yet it's hard to tell who are the ones who are playing the benefit system just because they don't want to work when they nothing with them at all. I need to be careful how say this because there's drinkers and there's drinkers, there smokers and there's smokers. The people who I mean are the very heavy drinkers and heavy drugs takers who make themselves so unwell so they don't have to work are making it very hard for the ones who really have reasons not to work but want to. 


The British government better not make cuts on counselling services otherwise Anxiety and depression will be rising even higher what it is now, it's serious enough as it is. I guess there are more people suffering from Anxiety and depression since the credit crunch started back 2009, which have hit people in the last five years who had never suffered from Mental health before. Depression is a feeling of sadness at any time whether you have a reason to feel that way or not but if you do have a reason, that reason can make you twice as upset than someone who doesn't suffer from depression.

  

Dear Poets and writers.

Dear Keats                                                                                                           24.12.2013
       The world may well think I have gone mad writing to you but who cares what anyone thinks. If I am mad I am mad.
Since the age of twenty - seven John, you have inspired me since I was twenty - seven years of age, now I am forty - four years of age.
What I thought about to say while I was having a smoke, my thoughts have gone.
I must take life as it comes  however long or short I live for.
As much as the government is making life hard today I bet it was no different in your time.
They will never stop people taking drugs, drinking and smoke because these things are there.
Fair to the one who don't touch either of these things.
It becomes a hard habit to break but then it's luck of the draw whether I live or died.
I guess not much different to what happened to you, I guess I will never get published in my life time but may be never at all.
I enjoy writing and words but I don't except a lot or anything for my work but the fact that I may not be published doesn't stop me doing what I enjoy.
One may see it as wasting my time but as I enjoy it why not carry on, otherwise why was I born?
                                                                 Love From
                                                                  Sara Jane Gorman

Dear Keats                                                                                                      24.12.2013

Many people find poetry boring may be that's because in some peoples' cases not other, that we poets tell the truth in our words which hurts and bors a lot of readers. This may well explain why we poets find it hard to get published but we can't help the talent we have got.
 We can't help the thoughts we think and the feelings we have got. It's hard to work out why and how we think what we think really. How life makes us happy, sad, angry and even mad. Yet life is so short who knows what are ones thoughts?
Who am I to say otherwise? Without you I may not have had the talent I have got. May be it's not poetry or talent may be it's just words that I have got but to me you have talent.
May be I am not what I thought I was but I will carry on writing to be just myself till the day I died. I am who and what I am, I can't be anything or anyone else.
I need to write all the same not build my hopes up or and chase fame.
                                            Love from
                                            Sara Jane Gorman
Dear Keats                                                                                                         24.12.2013
      People may think I am mad writing to you because you have long left the world. I guess this is because I will never know what your views would have been to what I have said to you in these letters. At the end of the day you were a poet and in the mind of your fans such as I you still are. Not only I like your work but you were the first poet to inspire me to write poetry.
Yes I would be honest to say that I wonder what you would have said but then one can't have their own way on everything. I am yet to think about who I will write to next properly Shelly.
I think it's wise to be ones self but who knows if I am right or wrong?
I could never be talented in the eyes of society I just write words but all the same I will carry on whatever happens. Without you been aware of it you started me off with poetry back 1997, now I have started I won't stop.
Christmas eve is upon us today with the wind and the storm. When I drafted this letter to you last night I'd just come back from my local pub the Gunmakers Arms a little bit on the tipsy side as i drank a can of Fosters when  I got home, that's nothing new from most of us poets is it? I accept you can't answer that or anything.  I drank and smoked but enjoyed it too much but I wasn't too drunk, I know it does me no good. It's unhealthy  to have a enjoyable : life without these pleasures would be boring.  The fact these projects are there makes hard not to buy: if everyone stopped buying them what would happen then? The government excepts you to stop drinking, smoking etc but then what would they do if you stopped buying them? Britain is full of greed wanting things both ways, which isn't possible.
Not that I have any interest in the government but it's there in front of your face the country is in a  state of mess. May be Charles Dickens a writer I will to next because the country was in a mess his time and it's slowly going back to that now. There's no perfect world I know it would be boring if it was: this government is hard to understand. Let them carry on being hard as nails! I guess both you and Dickens are rolling in your graves if you knew the state of this world not just this country. If they realize there mistake, they have only got themselves to blame.
                                                   From
                                                    Sara Jane Gorman

Dear Charles Dickens                                                                     28.12.2013
       I am writing to tell you that I wrote to the poet John Keats telling him what this world is coming to. There's a lot funding cut on a lot of services and charities in Britain, a lot of shops, jobs, clubs, pubs and etc, are either closing or already closed down. The government now is very greedy and we are spending money what we can't afford. This government is making the cuts on things that are needed even the banks have been in debt. My worry is now in the things go back to where there were in your time. They are taking the money off the people who need most like people who have problems with their, disabilities, babies children, old people and etc.
Also work is very limited but then they are expecting to be in work when there's handy much work about. The good news is that  they are trying to get disabled people into work but the bad news is that they are making a lot of cuts on the disabled people need which is the same with Mental health too.
People with disabilities and mental health problems are still made to be nobody when we are just as human as everybody. We shouldn't be talked about as if we weren't planned. We are people  and we are useful for something : we shouldn't be treat as if we are nothing or nobody at all.  We shouldn't be treated as if life isn't worth living. These are the things that are very often said to us.
The rest of the world seems to be a normal place. people living in a perfect world and living normal lives, which is not the case. There's no such thing as perfect and normal otherwise the world would be a boring place.
I started my life in school as a child who found learning hard and I was very slow. I found it hard to pay attention on what was going on around me. I was told I would never get anything in life but I managed to caught up in college years. I even decided I wanted to be a writer when I was twenty-three years old. I was most inspired with the work you did in your time with you writing about living conditions and how society was in your day.
As a child I used to find it hard to learn my times tables as Mr Edward hit me on the fingers with a ruler every time I got a sum wrong. I still see his brown brief case with the black detention book inside. He used to say to me.
" Is anyone in there"
Since then times have moved on but the children are harmful to adults now there's no balance in-between, even though I know you were trying to put a stop to children been over hit but not it's caused to be harmful towards adults. Many teachers have been stabbed by children.
                                                                  From
                                                                   Sara Jane Gorman

Dear Charles Dickens                                                                             31.12.2013
        I think the world is coming to a big depression. Many people seem to think that people with unhealthy life styles shouldn't be to be treated by the NHS. This is a hard thing to know because no one can judge anyone because no one can say who disservices to be judged and who isn't for sure. We should never judge people: we should take it that people are as they appear to be either.  We should never take it that everyone causes their health problems, which is hardy surprising healthy things are out there like drinks, drugs and etc because governments make money out of them. Unhealthy food seems to be more cheaper than healthy food.
We must face facts that we are never going to have a healthy society, people don't exercise as much as we did in your day, we are aware of too much crime and too much traffic on the road.
The world is greedy all we live for is money, which my worry is that greed has caused the cuts in the world. Despite of what's good and bad for people they will buy because it's there ; then the good get judged and misunderstood for the bad.
I believe many governments are greedy for money no matter how much is spent. Money get's taken off those who need it most.
A lot of people smoke, drink or and even take drugs because it's out there.
There are far too many fast food places to eat, the odd healthy places are far too costly for the poor.  The ways things are going people will have to pay for their health or die just like it was back in your day. This is one big worry but like you society and living conditions is my research for my writing.                                                    From
                                                                 Sara Jane Gorman

Dear Charles Dickens                                     31,12,2013         
I am curtained of the state of the world. services, clubs, pubs, shops and etc are going one by one. Such people like the elderly, disabled, mental health problems and etc are getting less and less help.
This isn't all about health but the way people are having to live day by day.
If only you knew what really is going on you would be rolling in your grave. This isn't only happening to Britain but other counties in the world because Britain having to let a lot of foreigners live here but really we haven't the money or the room but nothing against the people themselves.     
This writing may be boring; it's the truth of what's going on in the world. We are spending more money than we can manage. the banks are in debt and all sorts.
There's also very little employment.
To be honest I find it hard to see a positive future.
On the bright side I only wish I could make a difference to the world trying bring times forwards rather than backwards but what seems to be happening in the world, which worries me very much just like many of you.
                                                          From
                                                        Sara Jane Gorman