You may wonder why
I write about love a lot in my poetry. I started writing poetry in 1997 at the
age of 27 nearly 28. My relationship had broken up with Anthony very badly at
that time.
Not every poem is only about Anthony, there are poems about many other friendships and relationships too. (The good and the bad times.)
One day I was walking along Bilston college library, looking at poetry books without planning to. Suddenly I found myself reading John Keats’s poems; his work was connected with what I was going through at the time. I studied his worked and wrote my own poems, which helped me learn how to come to terms with my break down over my relationship at that time. When I think about it now I shouldn't have taken it as hard as I did but if I didn't, I question would I have written poetry? To be truthful, I don't know.
I do write about other things but I sent a lot of work off to publishers, they chose my love poems. The publishers I used were Poetry Now. They wanted me to write about people homeless at Christmas, so I wrote The Youngest Mind, which isn't not about me; it's about what could be going through the minds of homeless people not just at Christmas but all year round.
These poems haven't just been written. My last poem was published in 2002 and first was published 1998. I haven't given up poetry; I just haven't had luck with publishing since my first publishers charged too much.
Not every poem is only about Anthony, there are poems about many other friendships and relationships too. (The good and the bad times.)
One day I was walking along Bilston college library, looking at poetry books without planning to. Suddenly I found myself reading John Keats’s poems; his work was connected with what I was going through at the time. I studied his worked and wrote my own poems, which helped me learn how to come to terms with my break down over my relationship at that time. When I think about it now I shouldn't have taken it as hard as I did but if I didn't, I question would I have written poetry? To be truthful, I don't know.
I do write about other things but I sent a lot of work off to publishers, they chose my love poems. The publishers I used were Poetry Now. They wanted me to write about people homeless at Christmas, so I wrote The Youngest Mind, which isn't not about me; it's about what could be going through the minds of homeless people not just at Christmas but all year round.
These poems haven't just been written. My last poem was published in 2002 and first was published 1998. I haven't given up poetry; I just haven't had luck with publishing since my first publishers charged too much.
I have written
poems since my last published poem.
Dear Readers
Note from the poet.
I have spent about 13 years writing poetry. Here are the poems I have written over the years. Some things I find hard to say in voice to the outside world. Sometimes it's hard to put down on what's going through one's mind. I do my best to say what I mean, if you know what I mean.
Like us all there has been times than I have found life hard. My mind is not always meant to be like it should. With me having a writer's block there are also times that I can say too much. We all have well and bad times in life so this my time to explain the good and bad times I have.
I have also explained the different feelings I have had in my life towards different people I know and I have explained their feelings towards me. Like many of us there has been different stages of my life that have changed but some things have come back again, gone again and so on. When I started writing I thought a lot of my feelings would stay the same in different things in my life but how wrong was I? That's the way life goes.
S.J Gorman 1996 to 2009
FOR MY NAN ... ARE
YOU THERE.
You are there.
There's a bright star in the sky at night.
This is you, you are there.
The stars are good people like you in heaven.
You are there.....
I miss you Nan love from Sara x
There's a bright star in the sky at night.
This is you, you are there.
The stars are good people like you in heaven.
You are there.....
I miss you Nan love from Sara x
HOPING TO MOVE ON.
Hope is sometimes called
wishful thinking.
We shouldn't build our hopes
up these days.
Jobs are very hard to find so
I am not missing much.
The fact I can't work, I don't
know what I want to do
When I go back to college in
September.
I have passed some exams which
I hope will help me
with my voluntary work at
Mencap.
Where do I go from here?
Where is the light in the
tunnel?
NO ONE KNOWS ANYONE.
You made me to be
in this world.
The first twenty-one years of my life you weren't there.
I was no one to you, at least it felt that way anyway.
You were no one to me, it seemed as if as I wasn't anyone to you because I never saw you.
When I first met you at the age of twenty - one, I thought we put the piece of the jigsaw together but I was wrong.
Now I feel as if a piece of jigsaw is missing in me again.
I think I have lost myself again.
Perhaps part of me was always been missing and always will be.
Why do I have a feeling that two human beings are missing out of my life too?
Why do I have feeling that they are asking themselves unanswered questions like I did as a child?
I want to help them because I know how it feels; it's as if you are in the dark.
It's feels as I am feeling the same way again as I did as a child knowing that my half brother and sister are going through the same as I did.
I'm their half big sister, of course I want to be there for them and help them.
You aren't going to help them are you?
Don't you realise what you have done and how it has affected our minds?
The past doesn't matter; I've been there all my life.
I never knew why this had to be but it doesn't matter now, it's not about me, it's about my younger half brother and sister.
I am the past they are the present and future.
It's the present and the future, how do you think it's going to affect their lives?
Why do I feel like the useless big half sister?
No one knows anyone, it's all a mystery.
The first twenty-one years of my life you weren't there.
I was no one to you, at least it felt that way anyway.
You were no one to me, it seemed as if as I wasn't anyone to you because I never saw you.
When I first met you at the age of twenty - one, I thought we put the piece of the jigsaw together but I was wrong.
Now I feel as if a piece of jigsaw is missing in me again.
I think I have lost myself again.
Perhaps part of me was always been missing and always will be.
Why do I have a feeling that two human beings are missing out of my life too?
Why do I have feeling that they are asking themselves unanswered questions like I did as a child?
I want to help them because I know how it feels; it's as if you are in the dark.
It's feels as I am feeling the same way again as I did as a child knowing that my half brother and sister are going through the same as I did.
I'm their half big sister, of course I want to be there for them and help them.
You aren't going to help them are you?
Don't you realise what you have done and how it has affected our minds?
The past doesn't matter; I've been there all my life.
I never knew why this had to be but it doesn't matter now, it's not about me, it's about my younger half brother and sister.
I am the past they are the present and future.
It's the present and the future, how do you think it's going to affect their lives?
Why do I feel like the useless big half sister?
No one knows anyone, it's all a mystery.
WHY CAN'T WE?
I'm speaking for
the rights of people with disabilities.
If we haven't got those rights we should have them.
We should be treated equally to non - disabled people.
Some people have these rights others don't.
We know it can never be a perfect world but it can be an equal work.
How many of us live alone?
How many of us still live with our families?
How many of us have families of our own?
How many of us work?
How many of us don't work?
How many of us are on benefit trap?
How many of us are in education?
How many of us live like non - disabled people but with the right support?
We all understand funding can be a problem but the government should spend the money on the right things for people's rights.
I've been asking these questions all my life but never really got any real answers.
If we haven't got those rights we should have them.
We should be treated equally to non - disabled people.
Some people have these rights others don't.
We know it can never be a perfect world but it can be an equal work.
How many of us live alone?
How many of us still live with our families?
How many of us have families of our own?
How many of us work?
How many of us don't work?
How many of us are on benefit trap?
How many of us are in education?
How many of us live like non - disabled people but with the right support?
We all understand funding can be a problem but the government should spend the money on the right things for people's rights.
I've been asking these questions all my life but never really got any real answers.
MIND BLINDNESS.
In our minds, we
can spend our lives feeling angry with ourselves.
Some people think we want to hurt their feelings because of what we say, what we may not say, what we do and what we may not do but we don't.
It's hard for people to understand us unless they have Autism themselves.
Don't get us wrong not everything is done by accident; we all have faults like everyone.
We make mistakes and regret things like everyone else.
Autism isn't an excuse for anything, Autism is our disability, Mind Blindness and Unawareness is how it affects our lives.
Autism can affect friendships, relationships, even family relationships and perhaps the whole world around us.
Some people think we want to hurt their feelings because of what we say, what we may not say, what we do and what we may not do but we don't.
It's hard for people to understand us unless they have Autism themselves.
Don't get us wrong not everything is done by accident; we all have faults like everyone.
We make mistakes and regret things like everyone else.
Autism isn't an excuse for anything, Autism is our disability, Mind Blindness and Unawareness is how it affects our lives.
Autism can affect friendships, relationships, even family relationships and perhaps the whole world around us.
FEELING GUILTY.
Autism can make us
feel guilty.
It's too easy to be unaware of what we do and don't say.
It's too easy to be unaware of what we do and don't do.
What's planned in your mind comes out wrong or and even the wrong way round.
These things come across to people as not good but aren’t planned in your mind.
It's not that you don't know right from wrong, what's planned to be one thing is seen as another from most people's point a view. In a sense it's like writing an essay.
Nobody can be blamed for misunderstanding us but we can't be blamed for having Autism.
That doesn't mean we want to be the centre of attention, we just want to be accepted in society the same as everyone.
We just want to be equal to everyone at the end of the day.
It's too easy to be unaware of what we do and don't say.
It's too easy to be unaware of what we do and don't do.
What's planned in your mind comes out wrong or and even the wrong way round.
These things come across to people as not good but aren’t planned in your mind.
It's not that you don't know right from wrong, what's planned to be one thing is seen as another from most people's point a view. In a sense it's like writing an essay.
Nobody can be blamed for misunderstanding us but we can't be blamed for having Autism.
That doesn't mean we want to be the centre of attention, we just want to be accepted in society the same as everyone.
We just want to be equal to everyone at the end of the day.
A NEW WORLD FOR
PEOPLE WITH DISABILITES.
Think about
the amount of books we have tried to read but the print is too hazy,
small or and the stories are hard to understand.
Words jump off the page and your eyes start to stain.
We don't mean to make life hard but we have missed out on a lot of stories that we didn't understand.
We would like to make these stories more clear to understand like easy words and easy pictures for the next generation of people with disabilities.
Let's support people with disabilities to have equal lives to everyone!
Let's opens new doors!
Words jump off the page and your eyes start to stain.
We don't mean to make life hard but we have missed out on a lot of stories that we didn't understand.
We would like to make these stories more clear to understand like easy words and easy pictures for the next generation of people with disabilities.
Let's support people with disabilities to have equal lives to everyone!
Let's opens new doors!
EASY WORLD FOR
PEOPLE WITH DISABILITES.
I love poetry like
music, some poems I like others I don't.
It's like everything in life really.
One thing though, not a lot of poetry is written about people with disabilities, why is that?
Can't we communicate in your way of thinking?
Let's have a bit of fun!
Easy pictures.
Easy words.
Let's play around with coloured paper!
It's like everything in life really.
One thing though, not a lot of poetry is written about people with disabilities, why is that?
Can't we communicate in your way of thinking?
Let's have a bit of fun!
Easy pictures.
Easy words.
Let's play around with coloured paper!
THE HOMELESS
YOUNGEST MINDS.
Nobody in my
family loves me.
I know I could have been very naughty, but there is no need for my family to kick me out on the streets.
I am very frightened to go back home, but I know my family don't want me.
I know I made a big mistake in thinking I could cope to find my own home; I just wanted to be an adult far too quickly.
I realise now I was wrong thinking I could cope.
I can't find any food to eat, but bits and piece of bread.
I am sleeping on the hard street floors, but some nights I sleep in cardboard boxes.
It's alright this poem isn't about me but how many of us stop to think what goes through homeless people's minds, mainly at Christmas time?
I know I could have been very naughty, but there is no need for my family to kick me out on the streets.
I am very frightened to go back home, but I know my family don't want me.
I know I made a big mistake in thinking I could cope to find my own home; I just wanted to be an adult far too quickly.
I realise now I was wrong thinking I could cope.
I can't find any food to eat, but bits and piece of bread.
I am sleeping on the hard street floors, but some nights I sleep in cardboard boxes.
It's alright this poem isn't about me but how many of us stop to think what goes through homeless people's minds, mainly at Christmas time?
THERE ARE SO MANY
LONELY PEOPLE.
In this world we
do not realise that there are so many lonely people.
These lonely get out of bed every single morning.
Living a life that seems so dull and boring.
These lonely people do not have family or friends to talk to and see.
When you see the lonely people, they seem more happy than lucky us.
They have such lovely smiles on their faces.
Where these lonely people come from?
What on earth can anyone or "The Happy Society" does for them?
These lonely get out of bed every single morning.
Living a life that seems so dull and boring.
These lonely people do not have family or friends to talk to and see.
When you see the lonely people, they seem more happy than lucky us.
They have such lovely smiles on their faces.
Where these lonely people come from?
What on earth can anyone or "The Happy Society" does for them?
THIS IS THE REAL
WORLD, NOT A DREAM WORLD.
In fairytale
stories they say you have to kiss a good many ugly frogs to find your handsome
Prince.
In my case I believe I have kissed handsome princes who have turned into ugly frogs.
Believe me, believe me not, I think my days of kissing handsome princes have gone.
Because I fear every handsome prince I kiss will turn into an ugly frog.
All the lovely things I used to dream, I thought would come true.
Now I am unhappy that everything I ever wanted hasn't happened to me and no chance will it be.
I blame myself; I fell in love far too young.
Little did I know everything was going to turn out wrong?
Now I can't love at all, because I am frightened of getting hurt again.
A male and female friendship forever more.
I must keep away from those ugly frogs.
In my case I believe I have kissed handsome princes who have turned into ugly frogs.
Believe me, believe me not, I think my days of kissing handsome princes have gone.
Because I fear every handsome prince I kiss will turn into an ugly frog.
All the lovely things I used to dream, I thought would come true.
Now I am unhappy that everything I ever wanted hasn't happened to me and no chance will it be.
I blame myself; I fell in love far too young.
Little did I know everything was going to turn out wrong?
Now I can't love at all, because I am frightened of getting hurt again.
A male and female friendship forever more.
I must keep away from those ugly frogs.
GOOD FRIENDSHIP.
This may be only
friendly love, but to me it is good enough.
I don't think you need a boyfriend and girlfriend to love.
Male and female can still share a friendship to love.
My friendship will be here with you for however long you want me to be close to you.
I will never go away from you, unless you want me to.
I know we have been through the same thing, I know what you are going through.
Trying to move on from the people you love or loved is very hard to do, but somehow we must get on with our lives and get through.
We must try and see a future for ourselves the best way we can, but believe me I do understand that is very hard to do but all the same we must get through.
I don't think you need a boyfriend and girlfriend to love.
Male and female can still share a friendship to love.
My friendship will be here with you for however long you want me to be close to you.
I will never go away from you, unless you want me to.
I know we have been through the same thing, I know what you are going through.
Trying to move on from the people you love or loved is very hard to do, but somehow we must get on with our lives and get through.
We must try and see a future for ourselves the best way we can, but believe me I do understand that is very hard to do but all the same we must get through.
GUILTY AND HIDING
FROM THE TRUTH.
Going quiet on
people when they talk.
Never caring about people's feelings.
Lying to hide away from the truth, because the truth hurts one.
One is shamed, one is in the wrong.
For one to tell one, but to get someone else to tell one.
Never caring about people's feelings.
Lying to hide away from the truth, because the truth hurts one.
One is shamed, one is in the wrong.
For one to tell one, but to get someone else to tell one.
I LOVE YOU, DO YOU
LOVE ME TOO?
Your hair is
blonde, so soft and thick.
Many times I have reached out for your love to tell you.
" Darling I love you so true."
The problem is that you are not with me a lot to say.
" I love you so true too.
Now I have to wait until I see you again.
I love you so true.
I hope and pray to god that you love me to so true too, but I think or know you do.
Three little words saying I love you can make you feel so special.
So can those three little letters.
Poetry is not where I can spell those three little or big words.
Many times I have reached out for your love to tell you.
" Darling I love you so true."
The problem is that you are not with me a lot to say.
" I love you so true too.
Now I have to wait until I see you again.
I love you so true.
I hope and pray to god that you love me to so true too, but I think or know you do.
Three little words saying I love you can make you feel so special.
So can those three little letters.
Poetry is not where I can spell those three little or big words.
LOST LOVE.
There's nothing
you can do when you lose the person you love.
All you can do is learn to move on and meet a new love.
When long love is lost it's hard to move on.
No matter how hard it is you must move on.
When short love can come before you look.
It is so important to be loved.
Love can't be made, unless you make it.
When love goes down the drain, it can't always be saved.
For goodness sake you must be brave enough to love again.
Love can cause you so much anger, hurt and pain.
Sometimes it's hard to love again.
Sometimes it's hard to live without love and be lonely.
Without love in many ways, life isn't the same.
All you can do is learn to move on and meet a new love.
When long love is lost it's hard to move on.
No matter how hard it is you must move on.
When short love can come before you look.
It is so important to be loved.
Love can't be made, unless you make it.
When love goes down the drain, it can't always be saved.
For goodness sake you must be brave enough to love again.
Love can cause you so much anger, hurt and pain.
Sometimes it's hard to love again.
Sometimes it's hard to live without love and be lonely.
Without love in many ways, life isn't the same.
I LOVE MY MAN AND
HE LOVES ME.
I love my man he
loves me.
I care such a lot about him and he cares such a lot about me.
Ups and downs are to come that is part of life to be.
If it's to be it will be, if it's not to be it won't be.
I hope and pray it will be.
Upsets are sure to happen, but I hope between us we will do our very best to put whatever problem we have right.
He isn't just my lover; he is also my best friend out of all males.
I'm sure and hope that he feels the same way as I do about him.
I hope and pray that we, what future we have to be, bring us love, relationship and friendship.
I care such a lot about him and he cares such a lot about me.
Ups and downs are to come that is part of life to be.
If it's to be it will be, if it's not to be it won't be.
I hope and pray it will be.
Upsets are sure to happen, but I hope between us we will do our very best to put whatever problem we have right.
He isn't just my lover; he is also my best friend out of all males.
I'm sure and hope that he feels the same way as I do about him.
I hope and pray that we, what future we have to be, bring us love, relationship and friendship.
CRYING OUT FOR
LOVE.
I must move on
again.
Please give me any reason why I shouldn't love someone and someone should love me?
Why do I feel as if my day of love and romance has gone for me?
Is there something wrong with me?
How can I share love when no one is there to share love with?
I can't give love to someone when he isn't there to have love from me.
Whoever you may be, if you're faithful, kind and good looking please come to me?
I don't mind having serious or play full love, as long as someone can give me some kind of love, I will be happy to play or stay in whatever way.
Just any kind of passion that comes my way.
I don't mind playing the field or having forever loved.
Please give me any reason why I shouldn't love someone and someone should love me?
Why do I feel as if my day of love and romance has gone for me?
Is there something wrong with me?
How can I share love when no one is there to share love with?
I can't give love to someone when he isn't there to have love from me.
Whoever you may be, if you're faithful, kind and good looking please come to me?
I don't mind having serious or play full love, as long as someone can give me some kind of love, I will be happy to play or stay in whatever way.
Just any kind of passion that comes my way.
I don't mind playing the field or having forever loved.
MY LONGEST TRUE
LOVE.
My true love once
had a heart that gave me so much love.
I had this heart
and I really truly enjoyed his love.
Now he doesn't
have a heart anymore, because he isn't now my love.
He's now with
someone forever and for good.
He's not my true
love anymore, but he was my first serious love.
That I will never,
ever forget.
I don't think he
will find another love like me again.
I don't think I
will find another love like him again
DRAGON
Watch your ps and
qs when you are talking to the dragon.
She may well blow smoke at you and burn you if you get on the wrong side of her, she can have the Irish dragon inside her.
Don't be put off by her; she has a nice side too.
She may well blow smoke at you and burn you if you get on the wrong side of her, she can have the Irish dragon inside her.
Don't be put off by her; she has a nice side too.
PEOPLE.
We are all human
beings.
We all have different nationalities.
Most people have white skin.
Some people have black skin.
Other people have brown skin.
Some people believe in god others don't.
Some people go to church others don't.
Why don't we just accept each other for the way we all are?
Life is hard enough without making it worse.
Some people have chosen to be who they are and what them; others don't have any choose at all.
Just because one person is black and the other person is white, it doesn't mean they are not alright.
I understand that not everyone gets on but you can't take away the way they are or their equal rights.
You have the right to know what people say and think about you but
keep your thoughts to yourself, just walk away!
Why risk being locked away from the world, it's not worth it for anyone?
No need to hurt or kill.
Why take your anger out on people, who are harmless to you, be strong.
Stick to your own thoughts in life: let others stick to theirs.
We all have different nationalities.
Most people have white skin.
Some people have black skin.
Other people have brown skin.
Some people believe in god others don't.
Some people go to church others don't.
Why don't we just accept each other for the way we all are?
Life is hard enough without making it worse.
Some people have chosen to be who they are and what them; others don't have any choose at all.
Just because one person is black and the other person is white, it doesn't mean they are not alright.
I understand that not everyone gets on but you can't take away the way they are or their equal rights.
You have the right to know what people say and think about you but
keep your thoughts to yourself, just walk away!
Why risk being locked away from the world, it's not worth it for anyone?
No need to hurt or kill.
Why take your anger out on people, who are harmless to you, be strong.
Stick to your own thoughts in life: let others stick to theirs.
PEACE AND LOVE.
We all have to go
by the rules of the law.
We are all prisoners of war in our own counties wherever we are from.
We are always dreaming of a peaceful and lovable world.
Not a greedy or hateful world.
Why do we hurt and kill one another?
Why can't we respect one another for being human beings?
Why can't we keep away from one another if don't like one another?
Why waist our lives behind bars when there are so many good things to see and look forward to?
No world needs to be perfect but why not give peaces and love rather than war?
We are all prisoners of war in our own counties wherever we are from.
We are always dreaming of a peaceful and lovable world.
Not a greedy or hateful world.
Why do we hurt and kill one another?
Why can't we respect one another for being human beings?
Why can't we keep away from one another if don't like one another?
Why waist our lives behind bars when there are so many good things to see and look forward to?
No world needs to be perfect but why not give peaces and love rather than war?
Back to poetry
more poems to put on old and new.
The single
rose.
When the wind blows it opens one single rose.
When the rain comes down the whole roses are very washed down.
When spring has just started lovers have ran.
When summer is on its way lovers pick roses every day. September 1997
Lovers.
Eating ice cream on a hot summer's day in the park.
Eating fish and chips, kissing and hugging wrapped up warm on a cold winter's night in the dark.
Eating pop corn in the back seat on the back row hugging the night away.
Drinking in the pub getting drunk, hugging and kissing September 1997
I hope you feel the same as I do.
I am sitting writing poetry about you.
Thinking about you as I do.
You love me like I love you.
You’re not only my lover but my best friend.
What happens happens.
I can't accept it to happen forever but never say never. 8.9.2002
September.
September is a mouth blowing in the wind.
September can be also warm.
Most Septembers can be cold.
Lovely India summers can happen. 12/9/2002
Molly.
Molly my longest friend.
Can't say she's my oldest friend but best friend.
Twenty to thirty odd years of knowing her since school.
Always be my best friend, we have known one another long enough.
There's no friend like Molly. 8/9/2002
War.
Protecting you from gas and smoke with a gas mask.
Bombs going off and going mad.
Boots getting stuck in the mud.
Sore wounds as one moves from place to place.
Hoping and dreaming that the war will be soon over to give love and peace.
Young men and woman been poised by gas.
Worrying about losing loved ones. 7/9/2002
I love you madly.
Hello my lovely lad die, I Love you so madly.
I hope you don't leave me so sad.
Why I am I as mad as lass to meet such a lad?
I may as well lose love from start to end.
One way or the other I will manage to be loved again and dumped again.
I once ended up with a lad die that went off with another.
We fell in love for two and a half years, after that I had so many fears.
It took me a long time to move on, now gladly and madly I love another lad die. 1997 - 2000
The voice of homeless people.
I can't cope any longer; I don't have any money to live on.
I keep on feeling sick because I am not eating a lot.
Please save my life!
Please give me a home!
Please me a job and career!
Please give me a normal life like all of you! 1997 – 1998
Protecting you from gas and smoke with a gas mask.
Bombs going off and going mad.
Boots getting stuck in the mud.
Sore wounds as one moves from place to place.
Hoping and dreaming that the war will be soon over to give love and peace.
Young men and woman been poised by gas.
Worrying about losing loved ones. 7/9/2002
I love you madly.
Hello my lovely lad die, I Love you so madly.
I hope you don't leave me so sad.
Why I am I as mad as lass to meet such a lad?
I may as well lose love from start to end.
One way or the other I will manage to be loved again and dumped again.
I once ended up with a lad die that went off with another.
We fell in love for two and a half years, after that I had so many fears.
It took me a long time to move on, now gladly and madly I love another lad die. 1997 - 2000
The voice of homeless people.
I can't cope any longer; I don't have any money to live on.
I keep on feeling sick because I am not eating a lot.
Please save my life!
Please give me a home!
Please me a job and career!
Please give me a normal life like all of you! 1997 – 1998
What has it done to my life?
When I go into a relationship, I fall in love too easy.
I know I dream and hope for too much for the future.
I should take things day by day.
I need to accept that break ups happens, I can't help this when I love someone.
When my relationships end I always seem to go to pieces because it hurts so much.
It's as if the whole world has crashed on top of me.
Sometimes I have felt as if something has been missing in life. 4.7.2000
I live in hope.
I live in hope that I won't you like I lost the rest of them.
I live in hope that I will hear your voice on the telephone.
There is not time that I don't think about you or miss you.
You don't have to fear me; I won't give you a hard time.
I love my freedom and space.
Most of all I love you for you.
The time we spend apart the more I enjoy seeing you.
My fear is losing you but then nothing lasts forever.
I love you so much so much.
I fear because I want to carry with what we have got. 28.8.2000
I'm in love but I have space.
No ties on my life and no strings attracted.
I am still faithful.
I love partner and he loves me.
We can trust each other too. 28.8.2000
When I go into a relationship, I fall in love too easy.
I know I dream and hope for too much for the future.
I should take things day by day.
I need to accept that break ups happens, I can't help this when I love someone.
When my relationships end I always seem to go to pieces because it hurts so much.
It's as if the whole world has crashed on top of me.
Sometimes I have felt as if something has been missing in life. 4.7.2000
I live in hope.
I live in hope that I won't you like I lost the rest of them.
I live in hope that I will hear your voice on the telephone.
There is not time that I don't think about you or miss you.
You don't have to fear me; I won't give you a hard time.
I love my freedom and space.
Most of all I love you for you.
The time we spend apart the more I enjoy seeing you.
My fear is losing you but then nothing lasts forever.
I love you so much so much.
I fear because I want to carry with what we have got. 28.8.2000
I'm in love but I have space.
No ties on my life and no strings attracted.
I am still faithful.
I love partner and he loves me.
We can trust each other too. 28.8.2000
I have no fear.
I have no fear of trust.
There's a lot about you that makes me feel as if I can trust you.
I love you for you.
In my mind there's no one like you.
When I am without you, I miss you so much.
Now I am brave enough to cope without you.
It does not matter to me what life is like and how hard it is nothing or no one will put me off you.
Please get some sleep while you can with you working all night long.
I don't want anything to happen to you.
I'd rather miss you because you’re working than knowing that I am not going to see you again. 28.8.2000 onwards.
In your dreams.
Once a upon a time, I knew you for two and a half years which seemed like a life time.
Thinking back you did not know.
I know the truth hurts but not as much as you hurt me.
Why has it taken you so long to know that you made a mistake leaving me in the first place?
Well it's only your own loss.
If only you had not hurt me in the first place, you know now that you hurt the wrong woman.
Don't ever think if she leaves you that you can come back to me.
You must accept that nothing can be the same again.
Things will get worse for you not better, you would either up end living with a nasty old woman or you could end up being a lonely old man.
It's far too late now.
If you still love me, please leave me to love a man who will love me for me not what he can get out of me.
If you don't love me, why should I be bothered, I don't love you either. 25.6.2000
I have no fear of trust.
There's a lot about you that makes me feel as if I can trust you.
I love you for you.
In my mind there's no one like you.
When I am without you, I miss you so much.
Now I am brave enough to cope without you.
It does not matter to me what life is like and how hard it is nothing or no one will put me off you.
Please get some sleep while you can with you working all night long.
I don't want anything to happen to you.
I'd rather miss you because you’re working than knowing that I am not going to see you again. 28.8.2000 onwards.
In your dreams.
Once a upon a time, I knew you for two and a half years which seemed like a life time.
Thinking back you did not know.
I know the truth hurts but not as much as you hurt me.
Why has it taken you so long to know that you made a mistake leaving me in the first place?
Well it's only your own loss.
If only you had not hurt me in the first place, you know now that you hurt the wrong woman.
Don't ever think if she leaves you that you can come back to me.
You must accept that nothing can be the same again.
Things will get worse for you not better, you would either up end living with a nasty old woman or you could end up being a lonely old man.
It's far too late now.
If you still love me, please leave me to love a man who will love me for me not what he can get out of me.
If you don't love me, why should I be bothered, I don't love you either. 25.6.2000
Are you lucky or not?
If you met a nice girl I hope you don't hurt her like you hurt me.
I hope you won't hurt her at all.
Who is this unlucky girl who you are lucky enough to have?
Is she out there for you?
What is her name?
She is brave enough with you but will she put with you as long as I did?
If you are lucky enough please don't let her down like you let me down. 25.6.2000
I love you and I know you love me.
I love you and I know you love me.
I have that loving feeling that we are meant to be.
I love your lovely dark hair, those lovely brown eyes stick out a mile.
It's so sad I can't see a tiny bit more of you.
I just want to make it clear to you that my feelings are very strong towards you.
I hope we are right for one another.
To me you are a love waiting for; I hope I am right in thinking that.
You are very special to me.
No other male has made me feel like you do. 26.6.2000
You and me.
Ups and downs may well happen time after time but good and bad is accepted to be.
At the end of the day we are strong for one another.
There's not a day goes by that we don't think of one another. 2000 - 2001
I can't live with or without love.
Why don't I see you, I miss you badly.
Go back to work, I'm only joking.
When I am without you I miss you so much as much as it hurts.
When I am with you I can't leave you alone.
Never the less the more I don't see the stronger our love is. 2000 – 2001
If you met a nice girl I hope you don't hurt her like you hurt me.
I hope you won't hurt her at all.
Who is this unlucky girl who you are lucky enough to have?
Is she out there for you?
What is her name?
She is brave enough with you but will she put with you as long as I did?
If you are lucky enough please don't let her down like you let me down. 25.6.2000
I love you and I know you love me.
I love you and I know you love me.
I have that loving feeling that we are meant to be.
I love your lovely dark hair, those lovely brown eyes stick out a mile.
It's so sad I can't see a tiny bit more of you.
I just want to make it clear to you that my feelings are very strong towards you.
I hope we are right for one another.
To me you are a love waiting for; I hope I am right in thinking that.
You are very special to me.
No other male has made me feel like you do. 26.6.2000
You and me.
Ups and downs may well happen time after time but good and bad is accepted to be.
At the end of the day we are strong for one another.
There's not a day goes by that we don't think of one another. 2000 - 2001
I can't live with or without love.
Why don't I see you, I miss you badly.
Go back to work, I'm only joking.
When I am without you I miss you so much as much as it hurts.
When I am with you I can't leave you alone.
Never the less the more I don't see the stronger our love is. 2000 – 2001
Flashes of lighting.
The clack of lighting flashing of white sparks.
Rain running and rushing so fast in the middle of the night faster than water running out the tap.
Wet hair and clothes. 8.9.2002
I had time to heel.
I cried my eyes out that cold winter's night when you left.
It seemed so long I thought it was good.
When you walked back in my life on that hot summer's night that was when I saw the light.
We loved for so long yet we had so long apart.
After you had been gone for so long I thought you'd stop loving me for good.
I found myself in the end putting a brave face on just to show I was strong. 20.1.2002
nothing stops me.
I am feeling tired and unwell but nothing stops me from enjoying life.
Now I accept the turns I have that is part of my life.
I love studying, working, writing and being with the man I love so much.
I love going out drinking every now and then. 20.1.2002
my mind is blank.
My mind is blank.
My eyes are tired but I can't sleep.
I want to write but I don't know what to write.
Its winter time, it's so cold and I want you to keep me warm.
I feel lazy to do anything, please keep me warm. 20.1.2002
The clack of lighting flashing of white sparks.
Rain running and rushing so fast in the middle of the night faster than water running out the tap.
Wet hair and clothes. 8.9.2002
I had time to heel.
I cried my eyes out that cold winter's night when you left.
It seemed so long I thought it was good.
When you walked back in my life on that hot summer's night that was when I saw the light.
We loved for so long yet we had so long apart.
After you had been gone for so long I thought you'd stop loving me for good.
I found myself in the end putting a brave face on just to show I was strong. 20.1.2002
nothing stops me.
I am feeling tired and unwell but nothing stops me from enjoying life.
Now I accept the turns I have that is part of my life.
I love studying, working, writing and being with the man I love so much.
I love going out drinking every now and then. 20.1.2002
my mind is blank.
My mind is blank.
My eyes are tired but I can't sleep.
I want to write but I don't know what to write.
Its winter time, it's so cold and I want you to keep me warm.
I feel lazy to do anything, please keep me warm. 20.1.2002
Advice in poetry.
Absence makes the heart grow founder.
If you see too much of one another you fall apart.
Longer time a part: longer time together.
Action speaks louder than words.
Never promise what you can't do.
Never say one thing than do another.
Always let someone know if you change your mind.
An apple a day keeps the doctor away.
Eat something healthy every day.
Eat fruit, meat vegetables or fish.
Have at least a little exercise is the main thing.
What makes a man healthy and wise, as long as you keep yourself alive?
As you get older you should get wiser.
Why worry about having not enough money when you just have enough to live on?
Why ask for too much when some people have nothing at all?
Little bit of what you fancy does not do you any harm.
As you make your bed you can lie in it.
If you have a chance in life takes it.
Don't play around; one can only stand so much.
You won't be left off the hook forever.
A bird in hand is worth two in the brush.
Be happy with what you have got, you don't need any more.
One love is enough don't be greedy!
Don't date someone and promise to date another at the same time.
You can't always get what you want.
If you learn to live with not getting what you want, you will get what you want.
It comes to those who wait.
Early to bed: early to rise.
When you go to bed: you should wake up full of life.
20.1.2002
Absence makes the heart grow founder.
If you see too much of one another you fall apart.
Longer time a part: longer time together.
Action speaks louder than words.
Never promise what you can't do.
Never say one thing than do another.
Always let someone know if you change your mind.
An apple a day keeps the doctor away.
Eat something healthy every day.
Eat fruit, meat vegetables or fish.
Have at least a little exercise is the main thing.
What makes a man healthy and wise, as long as you keep yourself alive?
As you get older you should get wiser.
Why worry about having not enough money when you just have enough to live on?
Why ask for too much when some people have nothing at all?
Little bit of what you fancy does not do you any harm.
As you make your bed you can lie in it.
If you have a chance in life takes it.
Don't play around; one can only stand so much.
You won't be left off the hook forever.
A bird in hand is worth two in the brush.
Be happy with what you have got, you don't need any more.
One love is enough don't be greedy!
Don't date someone and promise to date another at the same time.
You can't always get what you want.
If you learn to live with not getting what you want, you will get what you want.
It comes to those who wait.
Early to bed: early to rise.
When you go to bed: you should wake up full of life.
20.1.2002
Lying to rest.
Long lasting love on earth.
May be that kind of love will be in heaven.
Love is here in memory.
Rest in peace.
No arms to hold one tight.
Keep each other warm on the winter nights.
You can get out cooling down in the summer.
Love over heats in summer.
To be brave.
To died for us.
Without you we would not be born. 8.9.2002
how lucky we are.
We have a home to live.
We may have a family.
We may be lucky to education and a job.
We must not depend on families all the while.
We must fly the nest ; our families have bought us up. 29.5.2002
Verse one.
Never leave what you can do.
One reason or another there are people the streets begging for money.
How we tell the people who really need money?
Are some people too lazy to get a job?
Life is what you make it 29.5.2002
Long lasting love on earth.
May be that kind of love will be in heaven.
Love is here in memory.
Rest in peace.
No arms to hold one tight.
Keep each other warm on the winter nights.
You can get out cooling down in the summer.
Love over heats in summer.
To be brave.
To died for us.
Without you we would not be born. 8.9.2002
how lucky we are.
We have a home to live.
We may have a family.
We may be lucky to education and a job.
We must not depend on families all the while.
We must fly the nest ; our families have bought us up. 29.5.2002
Verse one.
Never leave what you can do.
One reason or another there are people the streets begging for money.
How we tell the people who really need money?
Are some people too lazy to get a job?
Life is what you make it 29.5.2002
Get off the streets!
Get off the streets and find yourself a home, education and a job!
There's no need to be homeless.
Most of you have had normal lives in the past.
Why put your life on hold because you have had some disappointment?
If you look forward don't look back.
People will help you if you help them.
Never attention seek just for the sake of it, otherwise people will get fed of it if you them for money all the while.
No one likes feeling used but no one likes being misunderstood, it should not be all one sided.
There's no need to beg for money, wait for people to give you, it comes to those who wait.
That way you will gain more friends.
If you keep asking you don't get.
Most people don't have that much money themselves, they get fed up of been ask all the while.
If you have an education and job use it!
Help people who need more help.
People who are on the streets for disappointing reasons but some people are there to make they are because they don't want to work; we need to look out for the reasons why most people are. 29.5.2002
Outsiders.
It's cold outside, no bed to keep warm.
Saw logs off the tree get lighters and matches to light a fire.
Feel hungry so cook food on the fire.
The winter nights are dark and lonely.
You need someone to talk to.
You need a home.
The street floors are hard to sleep on.
You are lucky to get a cardboard box, which is as bad as the floors, a bed would be better. 29.5.2002
today is hard for families.
If you have the sense don't have children, it's an unkind world out there today.
Life is mostly unkind us without been unkind to others.
The future is worry for us let alone them.
If we are not allowed to teach our children right from wrong, what's the point?
Leaning did not do us any harm.
Children are lovely but they don't know what's right and wrong until they are taught.
How much worse can it get, if it's like this today what will it be like tomorrow?
We are just left with a load of crime and Anti - social behavior in today's society. 21.4.2002
Get off the streets and find yourself a home, education and a job!
There's no need to be homeless.
Most of you have had normal lives in the past.
Why put your life on hold because you have had some disappointment?
If you look forward don't look back.
People will help you if you help them.
Never attention seek just for the sake of it, otherwise people will get fed of it if you them for money all the while.
No one likes feeling used but no one likes being misunderstood, it should not be all one sided.
There's no need to beg for money, wait for people to give you, it comes to those who wait.
That way you will gain more friends.
If you keep asking you don't get.
Most people don't have that much money themselves, they get fed up of been ask all the while.
If you have an education and job use it!
Help people who need more help.
People who are on the streets for disappointing reasons but some people are there to make they are because they don't want to work; we need to look out for the reasons why most people are. 29.5.2002
Outsiders.
It's cold outside, no bed to keep warm.
Saw logs off the tree get lighters and matches to light a fire.
Feel hungry so cook food on the fire.
The winter nights are dark and lonely.
You need someone to talk to.
You need a home.
The street floors are hard to sleep on.
You are lucky to get a cardboard box, which is as bad as the floors, a bed would be better. 29.5.2002
today is hard for families.
If you have the sense don't have children, it's an unkind world out there today.
Life is mostly unkind us without been unkind to others.
The future is worry for us let alone them.
If we are not allowed to teach our children right from wrong, what's the point?
Leaning did not do us any harm.
Children are lovely but they don't know what's right and wrong until they are taught.
How much worse can it get, if it's like this today what will it be like tomorrow?
We are just left with a load of crime and Anti - social behavior in today's society. 21.4.2002
Today's society.
Never be too kind to people.
They will want off you all the time.
Always turn your head to see who is behind you.
Be careful: never be too careful.
Enjoy your life: you only have one life.
Don't live in fear but always be on your guide. 21.4.2002
Children are not children, they grow up.
Cutting teeth, having colds, growing pains, tears, happiness broken hearts, relationships, friends and lovers letting them down, worrying about their safety in today's cruel world mainly in society, hoping and wishing them to enjoy their live safely.
Are you going to have children?
They are a worry and a heart all their lives and yours.
This makes this society very scary.
It would be lovely to be able to say your only on this earth once so make the most of it, it's not easy to enjoy yourself today in this cruel and unsafe society.
You can never be too careful, life goes on.
Never let it stop you from living a life, you'd be locking yourself behind closed doors otherwise.
Children are not children, they grow up too fast.
As soon as you turn round, they have lives of their own.
Make the most of children they are not children for long.
Children grow even faster now than before in this fast world.
Every day, every hour, every mouth and every week and every year keeps ticking away from us.
There should be love, care and tenderness.
Never wait until it's too late.
Every child achieves an award in his or her own way.
Every child gives you ups and downs in their own way.
There should be always something every day in different ways.
Every human being has a heart of gold in different ways.
When children grow up some built nests and become parents themselves.
Sometimes life gets too much, families can care for us so much it's hard for them to let go.
Never be too kind to people.
They will want off you all the time.
Always turn your head to see who is behind you.
Be careful: never be too careful.
Enjoy your life: you only have one life.
Don't live in fear but always be on your guide. 21.4.2002
Children are not children, they grow up.
Cutting teeth, having colds, growing pains, tears, happiness broken hearts, relationships, friends and lovers letting them down, worrying about their safety in today's cruel world mainly in society, hoping and wishing them to enjoy their live safely.
Are you going to have children?
They are a worry and a heart all their lives and yours.
This makes this society very scary.
It would be lovely to be able to say your only on this earth once so make the most of it, it's not easy to enjoy yourself today in this cruel and unsafe society.
You can never be too careful, life goes on.
Never let it stop you from living a life, you'd be locking yourself behind closed doors otherwise.
Children are not children, they grow up too fast.
As soon as you turn round, they have lives of their own.
Make the most of children they are not children for long.
Children grow even faster now than before in this fast world.
Every day, every hour, every mouth and every week and every year keeps ticking away from us.
There should be love, care and tenderness.
Never wait until it's too late.
Every child achieves an award in his or her own way.
Every child gives you ups and downs in their own way.
There should be always something every day in different ways.
Every human being has a heart of gold in different ways.
When children grow up some built nests and become parents themselves.
Sometimes life gets too much, families can care for us so much it's hard for them to let go.
10.
12. 2001
You only have one life.
You only live on this earth once.
Within reason you can do what you want.
You can only get one chance in life so don't blow it!
If you live twice you come back as a different person or even an animal.
Make the most of life because it sails so fast before you know it.
Try not to do anything to regret in later life.
Never think you can turn back the clock because you can't.
Think very carefully before you do anything.
If you get another chance to take anything again, take that chance don't blow it!
Try not to make the same mistake loads of times over.
You’re a fool if you don't take a chance for anything while you can. 10.12.2001
Find my work when I am dead and gone.
My work is here to read.
What you think of my work is up to you.
If money comes it will go to my family, lovers and friends.
I must take no notice of the press, I must write for my readers.
When I am dead and gone, have what you want of mine.
If anyone is interested in my work, you are more than welcome.
I just enjoy putting pen to paper; I just help for it to be understood and to make sense.
The words I write on paper come to my mind. 5.12.2001
the days of hard times.
No homes for the poor.
Millions of people living on the streets.
No work to earn money.
People were eating food they could find.
Millions of people's lives have lived and died through been homeless.
Children were going down chimneys sweeps to earn money.
Young men were breathing the coal mines to earn money for their wives and families.
Some things may have got better but nothing is completely right. 5.12.2001
You only live on this earth once.
Within reason you can do what you want.
You can only get one chance in life so don't blow it!
If you live twice you come back as a different person or even an animal.
Make the most of life because it sails so fast before you know it.
Try not to do anything to regret in later life.
Never think you can turn back the clock because you can't.
Think very carefully before you do anything.
If you get another chance to take anything again, take that chance don't blow it!
Try not to make the same mistake loads of times over.
You’re a fool if you don't take a chance for anything while you can. 10.12.2001
Find my work when I am dead and gone.
My work is here to read.
What you think of my work is up to you.
If money comes it will go to my family, lovers and friends.
I must take no notice of the press, I must write for my readers.
When I am dead and gone, have what you want of mine.
If anyone is interested in my work, you are more than welcome.
I just enjoy putting pen to paper; I just help for it to be understood and to make sense.
The words I write on paper come to my mind. 5.12.2001
the days of hard times.
No homes for the poor.
Millions of people living on the streets.
No work to earn money.
People were eating food they could find.
Millions of people's lives have lived and died through been homeless.
Children were going down chimneys sweeps to earn money.
Young men were breathing the coal mines to earn money for their wives and families.
Some things may have got better but nothing is completely right. 5.12.2001
Quiet.
Now it's quiet at midnight and I can write.
Millions of people sleeping on the street as I write sitting in my home.
The wind is blowing a storm, there's nothing quiet about that when the people living on the street are trying to sleep.
I will just put anything down on paper about the storm.
I must turn on my lamb to give me the light.
I will sleep until the morning light.
As a student I will study in the day light.
To write on a winter's night is anything that comes to mind. 5.12.2001
Now it's quiet at midnight and I can write.
Millions of people sleeping on the street as I write sitting in my home.
The wind is blowing a storm, there's nothing quiet about that when the people living on the street are trying to sleep.
I will just put anything down on paper about the storm.
I must turn on my lamb to give me the light.
I will sleep until the morning light.
As a student I will study in the day light.
To write on a winter's night is anything that comes to mind. 5.12.2001
Stacey from ' THE HAPPY SOCIETY (she was!)
Stacey was full of life and free to do what she wanted.
Stacey had so many friends and so many people to see.
Stacey shared the same birthday as me October 24th, she wrote poetry just like me and she had Autism like me.
Every year my birthday comes round I think of Stacey.
The sad thing is that I never saw any of her poems and Stacey never any of mine.
I don't know what kind of poems she wrote and she did not know what kind of poems I write and wrote in the case may.
In my eyes a poet never dies: a poet's work lives on.
Poets who live in heaven look down on you while you read their work.
Stacey is still with us even though she's in heaven.
I believe Stacey is watching me write poetry.
There will be plenty of young and new poets to be but not like Stacey, Stacey is my best friend.
Little do we know how short life is until it's gone.
Stacey had so much in common with me even though she was and still is in my eyes about twelve younger than me.
I am so much older than Stacey was; she was only her early 20s.
I am so lucky to reach my 30s.
Stacey had plenty of male and female friends; she was friends with you if you were friends with her.
Stacey made you laugh; she made the Happy Society the Happy Society.
Everyone looked forward to going to the Happy Society when Stacey was there.
Stacey was too young to go to heaven; the Happy Society became Sad Society without Stacey.
Why Stacey, why not me she was younger than me?
She went to college in London for her poetry lessons.
Stacey had such a string of boyfriends, no one could count them. 26.5.2002
Stacey was full of life and free to do what she wanted.
Stacey had so many friends and so many people to see.
Stacey shared the same birthday as me October 24th, she wrote poetry just like me and she had Autism like me.
Every year my birthday comes round I think of Stacey.
The sad thing is that I never saw any of her poems and Stacey never any of mine.
I don't know what kind of poems she wrote and she did not know what kind of poems I write and wrote in the case may.
In my eyes a poet never dies: a poet's work lives on.
Poets who live in heaven look down on you while you read their work.
Stacey is still with us even though she's in heaven.
I believe Stacey is watching me write poetry.
There will be plenty of young and new poets to be but not like Stacey, Stacey is my best friend.
Little do we know how short life is until it's gone.
Stacey had so much in common with me even though she was and still is in my eyes about twelve younger than me.
I am so much older than Stacey was; she was only her early 20s.
I am so lucky to reach my 30s.
Stacey had plenty of male and female friends; she was friends with you if you were friends with her.
Stacey made you laugh; she made the Happy Society the Happy Society.
Everyone looked forward to going to the Happy Society when Stacey was there.
Stacey was too young to go to heaven; the Happy Society became Sad Society without Stacey.
Why Stacey, why not me she was younger than me?
She went to college in London for her poetry lessons.
Stacey had such a string of boyfriends, no one could count them. 26.5.2002
Memory to remember.
One hundred English people had been killed in the America war.
As you may image that everyone was angry and upset.
There was such nasty damage to America a lovely country.
Two brothers were aboard hijacked Untied 175, which crashed in into word trade.
Some people even died pentagon. 12.9.2002
One hundred English people had been killed in the America war.
As you may image that everyone was angry and upset.
There was such nasty damage to America a lovely country.
Two brothers were aboard hijacked Untied 175, which crashed in into word trade.
Some people even died pentagon. 12.9.2002
Life
is war.
Life is war from the day you are born.
All because life is full of problems one way or another.
Money and children seem to be the most important problems to deal with.
Education, getting work, driving and etc.
why am I worrying?
In today's world everyone is in the same boat part from I don't have children and don't drive.
Far too much traffic on the roads.
The world is too dangerous to live in for adults as well as children.
People who have passed exams can't get jobs.
What will be left of us, I don't know.
What it will be in the next generation I dread to think.
I am glad I am not here in the next century.
That we will never know. 2000 onwards.
What do we really want in life?
There are times we want to just get away from Britain.
Very often there's a reason why we can't leave Britain.
There are times that I know I want to make the most of my life like we all do.
You only live once. 2000 onwards.
Life is war from the day you are born.
All because life is full of problems one way or another.
Money and children seem to be the most important problems to deal with.
Education, getting work, driving and etc.
why am I worrying?
In today's world everyone is in the same boat part from I don't have children and don't drive.
Far too much traffic on the roads.
The world is too dangerous to live in for adults as well as children.
People who have passed exams can't get jobs.
What will be left of us, I don't know.
What it will be in the next generation I dread to think.
I am glad I am not here in the next century.
That we will never know. 2000 onwards.
What do we really want in life?
There are times we want to just get away from Britain.
Very often there's a reason why we can't leave Britain.
There are times that I know I want to make the most of my life like we all do.
You only live once. 2000 onwards.
I
remember.
I remember Queen the 2nd's Silver Jubilee 1977.
I was just seven and a half years old.
Jubilee parties were all along the streets, it was also shown television.
So many years later in 1981, the Queen's Prince Charles married Lady Dianna. 2000 onwards.
Does anyone know and understand why we are here?
Asking what we are doing on this planet is a silly question that no one knows the answer to.
Are we here for a reason or did it just happen?
May be there is or is not a reason.
What we do know is that we are born to two people male and female.
Whether we are planned or not is another matter.
How we are made and are known to all of us.
How we are born is never known unless we are told.
The kind of people we are normally counts.
The unanswered questions of why the world is here in the first place are a wonder to us all. 2000 onwards.
I remember Queen the 2nd's Silver Jubilee 1977.
I was just seven and a half years old.
Jubilee parties were all along the streets, it was also shown television.
So many years later in 1981, the Queen's Prince Charles married Lady Dianna. 2000 onwards.
Does anyone know and understand why we are here?
Asking what we are doing on this planet is a silly question that no one knows the answer to.
Are we here for a reason or did it just happen?
May be there is or is not a reason.
What we do know is that we are born to two people male and female.
Whether we are planned or not is another matter.
How we are made and are known to all of us.
How we are born is never known unless we are told.
The kind of people we are normally counts.
The unanswered questions of why the world is here in the first place are a wonder to us all. 2000 onwards.
Rain
I don't like.
I don't like the cold rain.
I don't like the cold wind.
The wind and rain together is even worse.
The rain at night washes the moon and the stars away.
It's far too wet for the birds to fly.
I can't wait for the sunshine to rise again.
We should have very little rain when the sun shines. 2000 onwards.
Not enough hours in the day.
So much to do but very little time to do it.
So many things that need doing that don't get done.
Life is far too short to waist.
Life may look like a long piece of string but it is not long enough spread our wings.
The years have gone long before your very eyes.
If you want something to happen, it's up to you to make it happen.
It does not happen if you do nothing.
Time goes too slow if you don't do anything but too fast if you do.
When you least except it something happens not when you’re looking for it therefore you do except it.
Things don't happen the way I said every single time but that's how it happens most of the time. 2000 onwards.
I don't like the cold rain.
I don't like the cold wind.
The wind and rain together is even worse.
The rain at night washes the moon and the stars away.
It's far too wet for the birds to fly.
I can't wait for the sunshine to rise again.
We should have very little rain when the sun shines. 2000 onwards.
Not enough hours in the day.
So much to do but very little time to do it.
So many things that need doing that don't get done.
Life is far too short to waist.
Life may look like a long piece of string but it is not long enough spread our wings.
The years have gone long before your very eyes.
If you want something to happen, it's up to you to make it happen.
It does not happen if you do nothing.
Time goes too slow if you don't do anything but too fast if you do.
When you least except it something happens not when you’re looking for it therefore you do except it.
Things don't happen the way I said every single time but that's how it happens most of the time. 2000 onwards.
You’re out
there.
There's a bright star in the sky at night.
That bright star is you up there.
The stars are good people like you who we miss in heaven.
That includes the full and half moon.
I never understood where it all came from. 2000 onwards.
Keep the clocks running fast?
The clock runs very slow if you are sitting at home staring into space.
If you have things to do like I do, you'd be surprised how quickly time will go.
I can never understand people who won't do anything.
I do what I can do because there's a limit what I can do. 2000 onwards.
The bus station.
Britain has a mixed raise.
Too many people knocking into one another.
Too much nose, drugs, bad manners and disrespect.
Britain is living in a depression state; the 21st century could be the worst of all.
I am only glad I won't here to see the 22nd century. 2000 onwards.
I know it would be good for us to spread our wings.
Stuck in the same places day after day.
You just feel as if you are in prison all the while.
This is all because of very little money from the dole on things that are too much money.
I guess we should be glad for what we have got otherwise it's all or nothing.
The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer.
We are not free in this society anyway. 2000 onwards.
Rain.
Why worry about the rain when it's warm other than being wet.
You may need to cool down after a hot day but the rain can go on good many days and nights.
Why not sing in the rain when it's raining anyway?
If the rain is deep, why not swim, bath, shower and wash your hair in it.
It would be cleaner to have a shower and stand up in the rain.
Don't do a Gene Kelly holding the umbrella `SINGING IN THE RAIN. 2000 onwards
your in heaven.
I know I can't see you but maybe there is a place called Heaven.
May be the trees and clouds cover you up so you can't be seen?
Heaven is your paradise.
Earth is the place and the truth of mess.
Let's face facts, the truth hurts but it's what really goes on.
The good things are either here or there, they are most lies, just dreams and things that don't really happen. 2000 onwards.
Friends.
People say that friends are there for you forever but that's never always the case.
Some people are still there for you others are not.
I have only had one friendship in school that has lasted 30 odd years.
Most people come and go out of your life.
Some people don't want to know you at all. 2000 onwards.
Good friends.
If you treat your friends with respect you will get the same respect back.
I have had many happy times with my friend Molly; we have known one since we were four to six years of age.
Every now and then we still see one another after 30 odd yrs.
we both talk about the childhood years we spend together and how life is today.
We went to birthday parties together, had tea at each other houses after school, played games and with our toys together. 2000 onwards.
My very good friend Stacey.
My very good friend Stacey, you were so good to me.
I can only wish I could return the favour back but it's too late now.
I only clashed one fag to her, she crashed me loads.
Stacey was such a great laugh.
She was so kind her bough people load of drinks. 2000 onwards.
No one will replace you.
When we slit I never felt the same when I moved on to love someone else.
I wanted you back with me.
I'd been with you far too long to be without you.
Now I am brave enough to be without you because I am used to it.
I don't love you anymore like I did before.
That does not mean I want to hurt you, I just want to get with my new life.
Don't change your mind now because you wanted me out of your life! Late 1998 - 2001.
Own times have changed.
I thought school was bad enough for me, until I heard on the news about today's children killing the teachers.
Has it been worth my while?
I have spent so man night and days missing you and thinking about you.
What have I done wrong other than liking you in a very special way?
If you like me in this way, you'd be honest with me and tell me what's going.
Sorry if I'm making a fuss for no reason.
Lately
the world is not perfect but what happened to learning right from wrong?
In my school days we had bullies which were bad enough but children who murder.
Today adults can't punish like they used to.
Where are children finding guns and knives?
I know it is not all down to children but this is why it's become a dangerous world or have we just woken up to the real world?
Yesterday's children played cowboys and Indians but we did not grow to murder, if so very few did like Mary Bell in the 1960s. 2000 onwards.
My long time lover.
You’re always on my mind.
I am always dreaming about you at night and thinking about you in the day.
I am always wishing you are right beside me.
The engagement ring you put on my finger means a lot to me, even though you may not love me anymore.
Please believe that I still love you though.
We have been together on and off for twelve years.
We have been through the hard times just like all people.
May be one day I will have the chance to show my love for you again, only when I know that you love me. 2006
Society.
I am a single person who can't stand stopping in at night.
I see people round the Wolverhampton who seem fed of life.
Life is how it is, there are good and bad people everywhere.
Some people are kind and other people are very strange.
Too many people sitting on streets begging for money and cigarettes.
If they are strangers to you, never give them anything.
Some people may have had hard times but others may just give you hard times.
You can't tell what people are like if you don't know them. 2000 onwards.
Parents.
Parents can mess you head up, most of them don't mean and other do it in a nice way.
We must remember that parents are human too and they are someone's children too.
They have childhood histories just like we do.
With some parents what they went through they put on to you but other parents don't do that.
Many parents stop together too long when they are not getting on.
Love can be hard to break even when there's a lot of hate.
Not all parents are the same but don't bring the next generation!
We are only human beings we can't please our kids all the time.
That's one of the reasons I have not got any kids, I would not be good at it and I would not please no matter hard I try.
See the world of freedom.
Think how many times you can have freedom without been tied down.
To be fare like every human being.
Today is a dangerous world without any punishment by the rules of the law.
You can't tell who is a good and bad parent because no one can put their child on the right track without been punished by the law.
Society is allowing today's children to go as wild as they want to. 2000 onwards.
Time goes by.
We have been together twelve years on and off.
Ok, we fell apart and got bad together like fools.
At the end of the day we love and care for one another.
People may well think we are mad.
We may well be wrong for one another but love keeps us hanging on together.2006
Love.
Love can happen when you don't except it.
When you look for love you can't find but it can come when you’re not looking.
Like other part of life, love can make you feel happy and sad but not always at the same time. 2000 onwards.
You may see a few of poems are written from my story ' Talking to the Graves.'
How unkind life is.
You should not be lying in a coffin, in a gravestone and graveyard.
You should be lying in a romance wood with me.
We should be eating lunch in the park on hot summer's day.
We should not been dead, as you are I must be too.
Not that there is much happiness in the world today anyway.
Not that I am dead but I don't feel the joys of spring.
This winter is too cold to give happiness. 20.11.2005
how can I remember, how can I forget?
Are you just lying looking at the lid of your coffin?
Is it cold, hot, just right or don't you feel it in heaven?
How can I forget seeing your face in the newspaper?
How can I remember you face to face?
I did not meet you or saw you but you saw me.
May be all this is a dream but you still have friends from earth talking to you.
You were taken from the world before I had chance to see you as a person, let alone getting to know you. 20.11.2005
I wish.
I wish I could touch your grave, and then you could come back alive.
If only you could move again, I wonder and who you could be?
Would you be an animal or a human being? Could even be both?
You could from animal to human or the other way round.
Would really matter as long as I see you?
I will never have a chance to see.
Why did you have to go? 19.11.2005
why did you have to go?
I did not know you.
I was only dreaming about you as my dream ghost.
You saw me but I did not see you until I screamed.
You because interested in me but I did not know you.
You went to war to save other lives.
You were far too young to die.
You had a life a head of you too.
I know I am so proud of you for saving disabled people.
You gave up your life for disabled people.
When your life was taken there's was save thank you so much.20.11.2005
back to truth I think.
It's getting closer to Freddie Mercury.
Put the beautiful flowers on your grave!
What would you like red roses?
You always seem full of romance, even when you sing your songs.
It's hard to believe that it's fifteen years to day without you.
You have broken so many hearts that miss you.
They would love to love you as well as kiss you.
Who can blame them?
You stood out so well. 19.11.2005
all change.
It does not seem as if it was a of looking at but it was at the time.
Five pound kept a family during the first and Second World War.
Children did not get a lot but they were happy.
The only sad losses were lives were lost of people they knew.
Bothers, Fathers, Uncles, sons, lovers, husbands and friends who were in both world wars.
Children’s' toys did not cost anything at all because they hardy got any toys.
Hide and seek and many more were games of all that children made up themselves.
Today they get a lot more but anything they get is never enough no matter how much.
It is true when they say to us, “You don't know you born."
We must be thanking for what we have got. 20.11.2005
when I write.
When I write I worry about spelling, grammar and whatever else is in English.
I know there is times that I miss words out of sentences due to me dyslexia.
Out of all that, when I get an idea to write something it takes me ages to stop.
I must get to a stage I don't interest people when I get carried away with my writing.
This is where I feel guilty because I ready want to interest my readers.
I just don't know when to stop when the mind gets thinking, the pen and key board get's writing and typing.
My fingers tap away and my mind get's carried away.
There are some days I feel sure of myself and that I write alright.
There also days I have nothing in my mind at all 2007 - 2008
been there and done.
Nothing surprises me anymore.
I have fallen down and got back up again.
I was born with lack of oxygen to the brain at birth.
I spent a lot of time after I was born in hospital because I was having a lot of fits.
I was bullied in school and many other things went on too.
My Appendixes popped when I was 13 years old.
I had Throat cancer when I was 23 year old.
I have bad luck with love of men that give me pain in the end.
Haven't we all been through these things?
Nothing surprises me good and bad anymore; I just take whatever life throws at me. 20.11.2005
under that lovely smile.
Under that lovely smile she must have felt lonely, even though she had love and marriage.
It must have been a blow to her when she lost her Father at the age of eight.
It must have a been hard for her husband Ted living with a wife who had gone through something that had affected her so much through her childhood.
She had such a short life with her children.
Oh Sliver why did you not hang on for your children’s' sake? 20.11.2005
Stress on women.
You are on your own feeling as if the whole world is getting at you.
The good news that no one owns you.
You don't want to belong to any but yourself when life feels it's getting on top of you.
You have a lot of love to give but you don't want to depend on men, well not all the time.
You either love or you don't.
Women should be strong enough to take what happens in life; well that's what a lot of men seem to think anyway, 20.11.2005.
It's not nice.
It's not nice when it's a foggy night, which make the nights even darker.
When it's foggy everywhere seems so far away.
You can't see a sole in the street even if there are loads of people.
Drivers have to drive very careful in the dark or night.
In the fog day looks like night but the night looks even darker in the fog.
Fog makes winter even colder than the snow mainly these days 20.11.2005.
When I feel close to you.
I feel close to you when I lye close to you.
You make me feel safe when you make me feel happy.
It would be lovely if you would stay a bit longer.
It would be lovely to stay a little longer early lye in together.
It's great when I open my eyes and you are right beside me.
I have learned to love you too long and too much I can't let go, even though you hurt me so. 2007
To the one I love.
You are the one I love so much.
You brighten up my day.
You make me feel happy but then you make me feel sad.
You guide me through that dark tunnel that I can't see.
We have been together so long that we share an everyday memory together.
Today I love more than yesterday, that's even more than before. 2007
How do I know if you love me or not if you don't tell me and show me?
You know I find it hard to stop loving you.
Can you disbelieve that I love you?
If that's the case, why am I still in your life? (You’re the love of my life.)
You are now saying that I don't show love towards you but you never show love towards me these days.
Why should I make the first move?
Why should I try with someone who does not love me anymore or who does not know what he wants?
You will have no problem showing your love towards me because you know I love you.
If you show me love I will show you love.
If you don't show me love, then I know my answer.
How long to do you except me to be mad enough to want you?
It's only because I love that I am just around you.
I just want you to let me know whether you want me to stay or go. 2007.
I am so hurt.
I sit back thinking about your everyday, wondering if you are faithful to me or not.
It's going to take a while until I can get my trust back in you.
I love you for you, which is everything about you.
What I don't like is your lies and changes of stories that you have told me.
I can never forget the way you cheated on me, you really did hurt me.
When you are drunk you scar me.
There are good and bad sides of you like in most of his but when you’re nice you’re really nice or you’re really nasty.
You can be very funny and make me laugh, handsome and romantic.
You are very romantic when you want to be. 2000 onwards.
My worse mistake.
I know I am such a mad fool.
For some reason I still love you.
Now that I am thirty I am frightened of not loving again.
May be now I am out of my twenties men have gone off me.
May be I am going to get less attractive the older I get.
Now I have left you I am not rushing into anything with anyone.
Being alone is better than being with a bad man like you.
You drink far too much on your tablets.
You go on and off with other woman behind my back.
You have tried to hit me when you have been drunk when no one was there.
For some reason I still love you but I can't put up with you. 9.1.2000
the way many men should their feelings.
Many men bottle their feelings up inside themselves.
They make out they don't get upset that easy but they really keep their hurt and pain to themselves.
The only time many men cope with pain is when they are hospital, this could be why men don't give birth.
The whole truth many men are big babies. 10.2.2000
I miss you forever more.
You were the best lover I ever had.
We were so long together but now so long apart.
You are always inside my heart.
Life has not been easy without you but by writing poetry helps me accept that we are apart.
I think about your everyday and dream about you every night.
I must be with you, no one else will do.
May be I will love again and get on with my life but maybe I won't love anymore. 2000 onwards.
I love someone but I hate him too.
I hate him when he tells lies and makes me cry.
I don't know why I seem to love the men who treat badly.
I dropped him like a ton of bricks because I could not take any more pain.
When he tells me he loves and cares about me, I think it's a lie.
Why does he hurt and upset me so much?
I wish he would have told me he's seeing another woman or other women.
I wish I could get this hurt and pain off my mind. 10.2.2000
Lucky.
I am thankful for everyday.
I know and accept that life can't be good all the time.
I am not saying I don't get angry and mad.
At the end of the day like everyone I have a life to live.
I am not alone; there are millions of people besides me who have problems.
There are worse people off than me; the grass is greener on the other side.
We must get on with life, the life the world is giving us the chance to have. 12.4.2000
what are you getting up to?
When you tell me you love me, do you tell me the truth or a lie?
Do you care about me or do you just want my company because you can't have her whoever she is?
If you don't love me, why don't you just good bye.
There are plenty more fish in the sea you know, you don't need to lie and cheat on me.
I feel sad, bitter and very hurt and I am not jealous of her whoever she is. (Why should I be jealous of her?)
If you respect me just leave me free to get on with my life but don't leave me with all your lies!
If you have anything to say, why don't you tell me straight away rather than cheating behind my back?
I can tell by the way you have been acting, you have been treating me like a piece of dirt. 10.2.2000
to clear up what one has done wrong.
To talk about it and get off one's chest is one way of getting it out in the open.
To be caring about each others' feelings.
To make up it up in the way they want.
To tell the truth about what one has done wrong? 10.2.2000
living with and without many men.
Without there would not be love then there would not be stress.
Without many men many women would be free but many would be lonely.
With many men there would give many women many tears.
With many men there would be many children.
Many little boys grow up like many men.
Many little girls grow up like many women.
Without many men many woman would not be ironing.
On there is some good things woman can do without men but also good things many of us women can do with many men?
There are many bad things that happen to many women with many men but some good.
We must really that many women treat many men good and bad too. 10.2.2000.
We are lovers.
We are lovers to me there's no other.
I hope you feel the same way too.
The door may well be closed at the moment but it will be open in two weeks.
Believe me I am home.
I know it's hard.
I can't blame you for not trusting.
Once hurt, it's not easy to trust again.
Give yourself time to get to know me first.
Believe me, it's the truth I won't let you down.
I will close my eyes in the sun and I will not stop thinking about you. 26.5.2000
Keep hold of me, you won't get hurt anymore.
I don't worry about getting hurt by you.
You can trust me too, you won't hurt me anymore.
You are not trapped by me and I am not trapped by you.
You don't own me, I don't own you.
Both of us must be careful though. 26.5.2000
when I am alone with you.
When I am alone with you, I really feel as if I belong to you.
When I am on the phone to you, I feel as if I belong to you.
It's a lovely feeling to be held tight and kissed right through the night.
You are the only person who has ever made me feel just right.
When I don't see you every night seems very lonely but I enjoy it when I do.
I miss you all the while but when I see you it feels worthwhile. 26.5.2000
now I am with you.
Now I am with you my whole life has changed for the better.
I can put my trust into you.
I should not have put trust in the others before you.
Even if you are mine, I am not trapped so let's take our time.
That does not mean I will hurt you because I won't.
It means that you can trust me not to go off with another man.
I'd love to feel your love and kisses right through the night.
I can't believe that this has happen to us, I miss you so much.
I understand that you don't get a lot of sleep as you work through the night.
Because I love you I can't accept that I don't see a lot of you.
I can only hope that there are hopes for you and me.
As long as we are together, it does not matter what we do. 4.8.2000.
Hello John
Hello John, I know you can hear me.
I keep knocking and calling your name out loud enough for you hear me.
Has anyone told you about me and your best mate James together?
Thank you Junior and Tracey.
I and James got together after you left us.
I am able to thank you even though I can hear you response.
When I go to the pubs in the town at night, I know you will keep me safe from heaven.
I wish you were here to keep an eye on people hurting me while James is at work at night.
I am sure James can trust you to do that.
All the same you will still look down from heaven to earth to us all. 4.8.2000
you’re not worth it.
You are just not worth it.
One day you will need help.
There will be no one around but your family.
How can you accept me to help and wait around for when you left me for another woman?
I am not sad anymore I have a new life.
Sometimes I don't know if I want to be your friend or not.
What I do know is that you are going to end up a lonely person with sadness and wishing you had not left me like you did.
You will be very lucky if someone else puts up with you like I did.
If you are lucky enough to meet someone nice and new please don't let me down again by letting her down.
I am not sure I know you anymore. 25.6.2000
what has been missing?
You make me feel angry because you were not around to be my Father from the start of my life.
That's what's missing out of my life we can't change or go back because it's the past.
I know there are so many people in the world who are in the shoes as me if not worse but shame on a Father who has missed on his children’s' childhood.
As far as relationships go I find it far too easy to fall in love not that I am looking for a Father figure.
When relationships end I break down and I go to pieces.
It can take me a long time to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It can take me a long to believe in myself that things will one day change for the better.
I am not as strong as I think I am.
I always think I never move on but I do.
If I was not writing poetry I would not cope with life like I do mainly when I go through bad times.
I know I have always had something missing out my life I don't what it is but whatever it is it's caused by you.
May be there is that person who will love me for me and make my life complete but I have not meet him yet but then again I may not.
He may or may not be out there. 4.7.2000
I am sure this love is for me.
I am sure this love is for me, the kindness one to be.
I will have to wait and see if it's to be.
I am sure he is the right man for me.
To me he's the best man I have ever known and seen.
He makes me feel happy and he makes me feel warm.
I can see that he loves and care about so much and I do about him too.
He loves me and protects me.
We listen to one another.
Our feelings are towards one another. 23.6.2000
Love.
Some people win the luck of love but others don't.
Most of us get pain and love others get pain and loneliness.
Who said life is perfect no one can accept it to be?
How boring it would be if life was perfect.
Hearts get broke and you feel as if you have been stabbed with a knife.
Loneliness can also be a painful thing.
We must not thing too bad because it may happen to you.
No one enjoys pain: everyone goes through disappointment.
Everyone has to keep strong in life.
No one wants to weak: any wants to get hurt that's life one does not go without the other.
It has to be bad to be good. 20.11.2005
not alone.
Why has it take me years to know that I am not alone in this world?
Why has it take years to know you are the wrong man for me but I love you?
Why are we living in a slow thinking world?
I am sorry I was not aware that others stiffer broken hearts too.
It's a closed world for everyone where we feel as if we have to keep our thoughts to ourselves.
I was so wrapped up in my own world.
I was not really aware of the world around me.
I did not feel guilty about it until now.
I am so sorry that I did not see the world like other people do. 20.11.2005
Time to put it behind me.
I love you but I will forget them.
Now that I am with you after all these years, please keep me warm for Christmas.
Now I will love you without fear forever.
I know we have had plenty of ups and downs: plenty of ups and downs to come.
We must stop hurting one another.
My love for you is far too strong to walk away.
Now I can forget about the rest of the men who I thought loved me for me.
I have been with you far too long not to love you. 2005 to 2006
Just to be together.
Would it not be nice to see the moon and stars together just like you and me?
I'd love to sit by sea to watch the tide go in and out.
I'd love to watch the flowers grow in the garden every single day.
I don't want to believe that there are witches mixing people in soup.
I want to believe the fairies are in the garden but they are not. 2005 - 2006.
I don't want much.
I don't want much, I just want you.
I just want your love.
I just want you to keep me warm.
I will give you space after Christmas time.
I just want to beside you.
I want to be with you when you want me. 20.11.2005
anything you do does not surprise me.
I have had to get used to the way you have always been all these years.
Nothing seems to be new about you but still you can't change a man so I am not going to change me either.
I don't think you have ever known what you wanted in all the years I have known you.
You don't know whether you want to be lovers, friends or what.
I just need to achieve what I need to do in life like leaving you, which I am not strong enough yet.
It's no good staying with a man who does not know whether he loves me or not.
I am now a woman getting towards 40, I am too old for your silly games and my career is coming along at last.
The young school girl went over twenty years ago, I have achieved more through adult life and school was no help at all.
How wrong was I to think I would not get by in life?
If only I knew then what I know now.
My career is my writing, which is getting.
By the way make up your mind whether you want to be my friend or lover again! 13.1.2009
the truth hurts.
Sleeping on the streets rough is no joke, there's nothing to do.
It's no joke when you’re asking for money and a smoke.
With this credit crunch money wise everyone is in the same boat.
Nothing to eat feeling very weak.
The days and nights are long and boring.
No one knows what the future holds; it does not seem to be getting any better.
Many children in care, most of them are not with their families.
There's so much terror in the world in each and every way: each and every day.
The world needs peace and love.
It's a sad fact that so many people young die through a lack of food due to a lack of money through the credit crunch and war.
How much more pain can the world take until it breaks?
They are so brave to stand the strain.
How can we heel their wounds when they cannot heel them on their own?
Having to cope with little money is war on its own. 2009
I don't give up on life because it's hard.
Love has killed me inside but I am still here.
Look what you may have done to me but I am strong!
Ribbed my insides out with pain.
You have made it hard for me to move on but I have left you anyway.
One day you will be sorry because there's no going back, I have forgiven you far too much in the past.
It's too late for you now, I can't take no more. 12.6.2009
I am here for you part two.
My feelings are mixed up with happiness and sadness.
I also feel a lot of guilt inside me wishing I had not let things go too far.
The kind of feeling that is hard to control is love.
I understand that times are hard for us both at the moment one way or the other.
I just hope we are here for one another; I'm here for you I won't be very far.
I am here for you any time you want me to.
No matter how long it takes I will be there for you.
I am here as long and short as you want me to be.
You said you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I can't say I will be great help but I will be here for you anyway. 12.6.2009
I have a long way to go but I will get there.
Here we go again but never will you put me through it.
The first time you hurt me, I never wanted to love again.
I thought there was not a light at the end of the tunnel, I was wrong.
There's no going back this time, you don't know what you want so it's too late if you do.
I don't think you ever do or did know what you want.
I have been up this road with you far too many times before, there's no reason for me to be there anymore.
I have hung around where I am not wanted for far too long.
I never thought I'd see the day I'd get used to you messing me around but I see why I have to face it anymore.
Now it's taught me to believe in myself and that I get my life back together again.
I can't say who I will love in future but it won't be you. 12.6.2009.
You confuse me.
I left you because you did not know how to feel about me.
I also left you because I had to stop feeling you as you did; you were hurting me too much.
You have completely confused me and used me.
I need to get over you, which is not easy to do.
You won't stop me loving again but it won't be you.
You won't beat me forever; I am too strong for you. 12.6.2009
Life goes on without you.
It may well be still dark in here but I believe on I am on my way to the light, one day I will get there.
I will find happiness in some way one day.
Life goes on without you.
You’re not the only man in the world.
How foolish was I to choose you.
I have no shame to hide from the world but shame on you.
You have bought all this pain and loss yourself.
Say hello to loneliness.
I will get through without you somehow.
I can think clearer without wondering where you are like I used to.
I know what I want more in life than you do.
Some people blame you for us but others blame me for us.
Silly me, I keep forgetting there's no us oh that's good.
A lot of people have asked about you but I am fed up with.
At the same time they think I should get on with my life as I doing.
I have not cried a tear over you this time but I haven't felt sadness.
I can live without your love. 13.6.2009
Open a new door.
Days are early and nights are young.
Pain is still but it will pass.
I'm very willing to move on.
You feel the same too.
We don't want to put our pain on one another but still willing to get to know one another.
We must not give one another our grief we have had from others. 14.6.2009
I miss you badly.
I am missing you badly but I am looking forward to the day I do.
My mind is all over the place bet weans happy and sad but I will get through.
It's wise of you to say that we need to get to know one another first.
Let's not rush into things.
The past takes far too long to get over.
I only wish I could cry but I can't.
At least when I cry it will get out my system.
May be it's best to write poetry to clear my mind instead.
Because I like you a lot, I know I was unsure at first, change is a new thing.
I will look forward to a new slow start.
I find it hard to eat and sleep.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I understand that I am not on my own; you have a past to get over too.
This is why it's wise not to rush into things.14.6.2009
whatever life throws at me.
I must be strong!
I must be brave!
I must be calm!
Heart breaks happen to us all.
Sara fall down and get back up again!
For the first time in your life, don't be weak! 12.7.2009
Feelings.
I still love you with all my heart.
When you left me life became rather hard.
It seems as if my loving feelings for you are there for a life time.
However you feel for me, how I feel for you stays.
You are my best caring male friend.
I mean every word I say.
I still care and worry about you a lot.
Please don't think about saying a lot.
I don't want to come bet wean happiness now, it's not just about what I want is it?
I must carry to accept whatever the future holds.
I must be happy with the life I have got.
Deep down the memories of you are not forgotten. 26.2.2000
Love's young dream.
I will kiss you until we get together.
It's time to have time apart.
We will miss one another when we leave.
When I see you again I will be happy again. Late 20th - Early 21st century.
Hoping to move on.
>Hope is a wishful thinking word.
Thinking can be very hard to do these days.
No jobs and no college courses until September.
It seems ages now wait for exam results but it won't be long now I hope.
Why do people go from education when jobs are so hard to find?
Where's the light at the end of the tunnel?
There just does not seem to be any spaces for any jobs mainly with a lot of companies closing down. Late 20th century onwards.
Your history.
You cheated on me.
You lied to me.
I finished with you because I would not put up with you for the rest of my life.
I need one big help to get over you.
It just takes pen and paper to get my anger and pain out then we are through.
I don't need to lie, you’re not worth it, and it’s true. Late 20th century onwards.
Sorry I am here.
I am sorry I am here.
I am sorry I was born.
Sorry for the grief I have caused the world.
I did not mean to cause hard work to you all.
Do I have any good in me at all?
I am a human being I make mistakes just all of you.
I am a disabled person society seems to put me down for making mistakes all the time.
Life does not seem to be worth living or dyeing if it's like that.
If that's the case why are we here? Late 20th century onwards.
There's only so low you can go.
We all accept that life can't be good to us all the time.
We know that there's no need to break down at the most little things.
There's only so low you can go.
Running and hiding is not going to change a thing but grief is another thing.
There's more than one person who has to cope with sadness, anger and pain.
It's more how we react to whatever we are going through. Late 20th century onwards.
You find it hard to believe.
You find it to believe that I still love you.
If I don't love you what am I still doing in your life?
You are still the love of my life.
If anyone loves you so much it's me.
Who will love you as long as I have done?
Who knows what the future brings?
If our love does not last a life time I may not love again. Late 20th century onwards.
Let's have a quiet night!
Let's stop in together, your place or mine?
Let's not see a sole.
Let's enjoy love and passion in our own way!
Sooner or later the dark nights are drawing in.
Put the heating on as both of us hug together.
Why not warm up like toast until we roast.
Today we have lost our old fashioned ways with the coal and electric fires doing homemade toast on the forks on the fires. Late 20th century onwards.
Summer.
>Good night sleep tight.
Too hot to sleep so count sheep.
If you can sleep please dream of me.
Tomorrow the sun will rise from the rain to make a rainbow.
Red sky at night shepherd's delight.
Good brave people lose their lives to keep us alive.
Too much war but hardy any peace in the world today. Late 20th century onwards.
I find it hard to show my love.
It's so hard to show love to one another every night of the week.
I know we spend too much time together.
I keep thinking to myself I must walk the streets alone but I never do it.
I do it to be strong to be without you.
I will have a mobile phone in case you want me at any point. 2001 - 2009
Thinking about you.
Here I am thinking about you, after twelve years together.
Ok, we slit up for four of those years but you were the still the one I loved.
Alright I met someone else so did you?
I know I don't show you how I feel but I am waiting for you to make the first move for love. 2001 onwards.
Relationships part two.
When we think of the word relationships we think of lovers.
Relationships are a way of getting knowing one another.
You have relationships with your family and friends but not in the same way as your lovers.
Friends are people who you saw in school, work, college out in the pub and etc.
Families who have raised you since birth. Late 20th century onwards.
Blank.
Do you go blank at a point you can't think?
You’re in a writing mood but you don't what to write.
When you are sitting at home for a long time, does your head in.
you either think too much or not at all.
Sitting in the house on a hot summer's day is a waste of life.
Take a walk to the library out in the fresh air.
Get some ideas together from different books. Late 20th century onwards.
Goodness knows why.
Goodness knows why I love you, called me mad but I do.
I would lie if I told you I did not love you.
You know you can be romantic if you want to.
You make me happy.
You make me sad.
You make me laugh.
You make me cry.
That's what love is goodness why.
All the time you’re always on my mind.
I can't help who I fall in love with.
That person happens to be you.
I can't believe I still feel the same about you after all these years. Late 20th century onwards.
Time to put things right.
Don't think I will put the blame on you forever.
You told me it was the silliest mistake you ever made.
When you left me for her I thought I was having a long nightmare.
You also told me that I drove you away, I am so sorry I was not aware that was the case.
We hurt one another really badly, I think it's time to put it behind and start again.
Let's try to enjoy our lives together and put the past behind us.
Life is full of bad and good. 2001 onwards.
Why do I love you?
I love your smile and laugh.
You cheer me up and make me laugh.
You then make me sad and mad.
I love you when you get close to me.
You can make me feel calm when I get fed up of this society.
I love you for what you give me in life.
I love you for your love and kisses.
I am here for you if you want me too.
Like everyone we get our good and bad times. Late 20th century onwards
forgotten.
I have a memory but I have forgotten.
It does not seem to make sense.
What is your name?
I forgot, don't tell me.
I don't want to remember.
What did you look like?
It does not matter I think I may have had a nightmare.
Did you kiss me as my month poured with blood?
So what, why did I ask that question?
Were we in love?
No it was just a big mistake.
Last I heard of you, you were married.
You ask me to marry you; I told you know but good luck to her.
It was only a dream that we were close.
I can never even remember the music you listened to.
It was only a nightmare that I woke up in tears to.
I have forgotten so much I am so glad you went off with her. 2000
The love of my life.
I know we need some time apart; I am trying to sort things out so I can give you some space.
The last thing I want is to lose you again.
I want to be able to miss you so I can put my arms around you when I do see you.
I want to be able to earn a bit more money in my pocket so I can give you space but finding work is hard.
College is off for the summer until September.
May be I am still living in those old fashioned ways waiting to see how the man I love feels about me.
I wonder if we will still love one another in twenty years time.
Will you still be mine? 2001 onwards.
It has not been easy.
Even though we sit up and fall out so often we love one another.
So many times I have cried over you.
We have so many wishes not hurting one another like we have done.
The loving nights we have had all these years together.
Why can't we bring them back?
You may not think so but my love gets strong all the time for you.
How we manage to love and hurt one another I don't know. 2001 onwards.
What does Valentine’s Day mean to me?
When it rains there's no love for me.
When sun is out I feel as if love is about.
When there is rain then there is sun love is on then it is off.
This is how feel on Valentine’s Day. Late 20th century onwards.
I wish I had not.
Why do I say things that I don't mean?
How much I wish I had not said what I said to you last night.
Why did I say I wanted a man to treat me bad?
May be there's no looking back on what I say to you.
I will be lucky if you forgive me.
I don't blame you if you tell me it's too late.
I should have shown my love for you.
I'm very lucky if I can show how I feel about you. Late 20th century onwards.
The next day.
I can't remember whether I drank or not.
I must have said a lot of bad things to you last night, I'm so sorry about that.
I wish last night had not have happened but it did.
I wish we could stop hurting one another so much as we love one another so much.
I never know or not whether you are in the mood for love.
I am frightened in case you feel I am doing what you don't want.
Whatever mood you’re in, I know you’re tired when you finish work. 2001 onwards.
Sometimes it's hard to forgive.
Even when you love someone it can be hard to forgive.
It can even be hard to not to forgive.
Sometimes it can be hard to love a person again.
Some people forgive others don't.
Some people feel love for others, others don't.
Now I just have set friends which are good. 2001 onwards.
I forgive you.
I forgive you what you did to me years ago.
Goodness knows why I do!
I forgive you because I love you.
May be I have forgiven but I have not forgotten.
May be I was partly to blame too; I may have driven you away.
I am trying hard to change so are you? 2001 onwards.
Never fall in love.
Never fall in love, once you get into love it's hard to get out of it's like a drug.
Love can also be hard to want to get out of.
I have loved so many times, you'd think I'd understand it but I don't.
When I was younger I thought I understood love: I thought I knew all but I did not.
Happiness starts then sadness ends until you love the same person again or someone new.
Love is a never ending story, the same feelings but different reasons for those feelings.
Very few people last forever.
Relationship break ups can cause depression and even loneliness.
Once that depression kicks it's hard to beat it.
Love is a strange that we can't live with or without. Late 20th century onwards.
I love poetry.
I love poetry it helps me get things out of my head.
I tend to feel a bit bad because poetry is not a lot of people's cup of tea, well its poetries.
It's hard to keep people interested because you can't help what goes on inside your head.
Poetry is my way of saying I felt good and bad about things.
I love you poetry you help me get by but bet wean do we interest our readers? Late 20th century onwards.
My writing helps my relationship.
My writing helps my relationship, gives me time to think alone.
All it takes is putting pen to paper and typing it on computer.
I write about more than just relationships.
I need a little job to earn enough money to save up for publishers. Late 20th century onwards.
My only love.
You may think I don't love you but you’re wrong.
You know how I feel about you as well as I do.
I have known twelve years too long to not love you.
What am I doing in your life if I don't love you?
Why do you let me in if you don't love me?
We are both pains in the backside in our own ways.
There are times when we get one another down but no one's eyes compares with yours.
If I could put more into this relationship I would.
There are so many things I find hard to explain. 2005 to 2006.
Why do we complain?
No money and no job.
To make more friends.
Never mind who knows what the future brings?
Why do we complain?
When we could have been born into a world of no food on the table and no education.
We could have been born into dirty places in many cases no places at all.
Rubbish left in bins.
Everyone has to live life we can't always avoid it no matter what happens. Late 20th century onwards.
You are worth my while?
I have spent so many nights and days missing you and thinking about you but you are worth my while.
I can't help but liking you in a special way?
You have been there for me when times are hard time, they still are, I thank you so much even though you situations are hard.
I have accepted your hard situation from the start.
May be it's hard for you to believe in me because of what you have been through with other women.
If you let me I will carrying on taking the situation on board, no matter what the situation is
I know how you feel I have been there before with men, trusting is a very hard thing.
I know you like me in a special way too.
This is a private poem to say what's going through my mind.
I know special bonds can fail but I am with you as long as you want me.
You paid interest in me, I wasn't sure at first.
It was a shock to know that someone was interested in me at that early stage of me having hard time with ex partner.
It took me a week or two to know that I am interested you after all.
I was in a bad state of mind at time, which I am still going through a hard time with my ex partner, I don't need any more stress. 29.6.10
it came when I wasn't looking?
I wouldn't have known any different if you hadn't have told me you felt this way towards me.
If I had liked you in a special way the same as I do without you telling me, I would have took it that you didn't feel the same way, then I would have moved on.
I wouldn't have told you if you hadn't of told me.
Was I dreaming, I'm sorry if I was dreaming?
I have taken everything there is to take on board.
I will go on taking the situation on board if you will let me.
I wouldn't go along with it if I wasn't keen on you.
I wouldn't say things I don't mean if I wasn't keen.
I don't lie, mess about or change my mind and I stick to my word.
I don't string men along.
I understand trust is hard for you so it is for me.
I'm not perfect is anyone? No!
I've done my best to not give you any stress so I will carry on trying to be the same.
I understand that nothing lasts forever but I'm here as long as you want me.
If you ever love someone else, I know you will tell me.
I will move on if I have to.
I know you won't leave me in the dark wondering what's going if you have anything to tell me.
I have trusted you with all my heart from the start; I will carry on doing so if you let me.
29.6.10
it needs to be time to go now.
It seems to be a good time to go now.
You told me last night my friendship and support isn't enough so there am no point me coming down.
Let's see if you strong enough?
Who cares if you not, you've only made life hard for yourself.
What goes around comes around.
You won't know who you have lost until you have lost me.
I can't through anymore with you and I don't have loving feelings for you anymore.
If you don't understand that I will have to go, you blew it yourself.
I have tried to be your friend but you want more out of that I haven't got the feelings to give anymore.
We rowing like this aren’t fair on your Mum.
You always get like this when you have too much to drink.
You’re such hard work whether you’re drunk or not.
You row with everyone. 4th July 2010
I'm getting away from you.
I've had enough; I'm getting away from you.
I think I have just waked up from a long nightmare.
The shock will come to you one day soon enough.
The lonely and lost change will come to you.
I understand what you are going through but you have only made things worse for yourself.
Why should I feel guilty and bad about leaving you like you hurt me three years ago and many times before that?
I have made too many chances, no more, what do you think about that.
I have taken you back so many times because I loved, I tried been your friend but you have now made me hate you.
After you upset me last night I don't even want to see you no more.
I'm taking no more.
You never loved me when I loved you, now you lie to me saying you love me now I don't love you.
May be things have turned round, I'm not going to change back to the soft person I was before.
You won't walk over me like a door mat anymore.
You have blown it all; soon I will be out the door.
You shouldn't play silly games.
You will never change you will always be the same.
I have put up with your silly games for too many years, no more.
We can't go on forever like this at least I can't. July 4th 2010
There's a bright star in the sky at night.
That bright star is you up there.
The stars are good people like you who we miss in heaven.
That includes the full and half moon.
I never understood where it all came from. 2000 onwards.
Keep the clocks running fast?
The clock runs very slow if you are sitting at home staring into space.
If you have things to do like I do, you'd be surprised how quickly time will go.
I can never understand people who won't do anything.
I do what I can do because there's a limit what I can do. 2000 onwards.
The bus station.
Britain has a mixed raise.
Too many people knocking into one another.
Too much nose, drugs, bad manners and disrespect.
Britain is living in a depression state; the 21st century could be the worst of all.
I am only glad I won't here to see the 22nd century. 2000 onwards.
I know it would be good for us to spread our wings.
Stuck in the same places day after day.
You just feel as if you are in prison all the while.
This is all because of very little money from the dole on things that are too much money.
I guess we should be glad for what we have got otherwise it's all or nothing.
The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer.
We are not free in this society anyway. 2000 onwards.
Rain.
Why worry about the rain when it's warm other than being wet.
You may need to cool down after a hot day but the rain can go on good many days and nights.
Why not sing in the rain when it's raining anyway?
If the rain is deep, why not swim, bath, shower and wash your hair in it.
It would be cleaner to have a shower and stand up in the rain.
Don't do a Gene Kelly holding the umbrella `SINGING IN THE RAIN. 2000 onwards
your in heaven.
I know I can't see you but maybe there is a place called Heaven.
May be the trees and clouds cover you up so you can't be seen?
Heaven is your paradise.
Earth is the place and the truth of mess.
Let's face facts, the truth hurts but it's what really goes on.
The good things are either here or there, they are most lies, just dreams and things that don't really happen. 2000 onwards.
Friends.
People say that friends are there for you forever but that's never always the case.
Some people are still there for you others are not.
I have only had one friendship in school that has lasted 30 odd years.
Most people come and go out of your life.
Some people don't want to know you at all. 2000 onwards.
Good friends.
If you treat your friends with respect you will get the same respect back.
I have had many happy times with my friend Molly; we have known one since we were four to six years of age.
Every now and then we still see one another after 30 odd yrs.
we both talk about the childhood years we spend together and how life is today.
We went to birthday parties together, had tea at each other houses after school, played games and with our toys together. 2000 onwards.
My very good friend Stacey.
My very good friend Stacey, you were so good to me.
I can only wish I could return the favour back but it's too late now.
I only clashed one fag to her, she crashed me loads.
Stacey was such a great laugh.
She was so kind her bough people load of drinks. 2000 onwards.
No one will replace you.
When we slit I never felt the same when I moved on to love someone else.
I wanted you back with me.
I'd been with you far too long to be without you.
Now I am brave enough to be without you because I am used to it.
I don't love you anymore like I did before.
That does not mean I want to hurt you, I just want to get with my new life.
Don't change your mind now because you wanted me out of your life! Late 1998 - 2001.
Own times have changed.
I thought school was bad enough for me, until I heard on the news about today's children killing the teachers.
Has it been worth my while?
I have spent so man night and days missing you and thinking about you.
What have I done wrong other than liking you in a very special way?
If you like me in this way, you'd be honest with me and tell me what's going.
Sorry if I'm making a fuss for no reason.
Lately
the world is not perfect but what happened to learning right from wrong?
In my school days we had bullies which were bad enough but children who murder.
Today adults can't punish like they used to.
Where are children finding guns and knives?
I know it is not all down to children but this is why it's become a dangerous world or have we just woken up to the real world?
Yesterday's children played cowboys and Indians but we did not grow to murder, if so very few did like Mary Bell in the 1960s. 2000 onwards.
My long time lover.
You’re always on my mind.
I am always dreaming about you at night and thinking about you in the day.
I am always wishing you are right beside me.
The engagement ring you put on my finger means a lot to me, even though you may not love me anymore.
Please believe that I still love you though.
We have been together on and off for twelve years.
We have been through the hard times just like all people.
May be one day I will have the chance to show my love for you again, only when I know that you love me. 2006
Society.
I am a single person who can't stand stopping in at night.
I see people round the Wolverhampton who seem fed of life.
Life is how it is, there are good and bad people everywhere.
Some people are kind and other people are very strange.
Too many people sitting on streets begging for money and cigarettes.
If they are strangers to you, never give them anything.
Some people may have had hard times but others may just give you hard times.
You can't tell what people are like if you don't know them. 2000 onwards.
Parents.
Parents can mess you head up, most of them don't mean and other do it in a nice way.
We must remember that parents are human too and they are someone's children too.
They have childhood histories just like we do.
With some parents what they went through they put on to you but other parents don't do that.
Many parents stop together too long when they are not getting on.
Love can be hard to break even when there's a lot of hate.
Not all parents are the same but don't bring the next generation!
We are only human beings we can't please our kids all the time.
That's one of the reasons I have not got any kids, I would not be good at it and I would not please no matter hard I try.
See the world of freedom.
Think how many times you can have freedom without been tied down.
To be fare like every human being.
Today is a dangerous world without any punishment by the rules of the law.
You can't tell who is a good and bad parent because no one can put their child on the right track without been punished by the law.
Society is allowing today's children to go as wild as they want to. 2000 onwards.
Time goes by.
We have been together twelve years on and off.
Ok, we fell apart and got bad together like fools.
At the end of the day we love and care for one another.
People may well think we are mad.
We may well be wrong for one another but love keeps us hanging on together.2006
Love.
Love can happen when you don't except it.
When you look for love you can't find but it can come when you’re not looking.
Like other part of life, love can make you feel happy and sad but not always at the same time. 2000 onwards.
You may see a few of poems are written from my story ' Talking to the Graves.'
How unkind life is.
You should not be lying in a coffin, in a gravestone and graveyard.
You should be lying in a romance wood with me.
We should be eating lunch in the park on hot summer's day.
We should not been dead, as you are I must be too.
Not that there is much happiness in the world today anyway.
Not that I am dead but I don't feel the joys of spring.
This winter is too cold to give happiness. 20.11.2005
how can I remember, how can I forget?
Are you just lying looking at the lid of your coffin?
Is it cold, hot, just right or don't you feel it in heaven?
How can I forget seeing your face in the newspaper?
How can I remember you face to face?
I did not meet you or saw you but you saw me.
May be all this is a dream but you still have friends from earth talking to you.
You were taken from the world before I had chance to see you as a person, let alone getting to know you. 20.11.2005
I wish.
I wish I could touch your grave, and then you could come back alive.
If only you could move again, I wonder and who you could be?
Would you be an animal or a human being? Could even be both?
You could from animal to human or the other way round.
Would really matter as long as I see you?
I will never have a chance to see.
Why did you have to go? 19.11.2005
why did you have to go?
I did not know you.
I was only dreaming about you as my dream ghost.
You saw me but I did not see you until I screamed.
You because interested in me but I did not know you.
You went to war to save other lives.
You were far too young to die.
You had a life a head of you too.
I know I am so proud of you for saving disabled people.
You gave up your life for disabled people.
When your life was taken there's was save thank you so much.20.11.2005
back to truth I think.
It's getting closer to Freddie Mercury.
Put the beautiful flowers on your grave!
What would you like red roses?
You always seem full of romance, even when you sing your songs.
It's hard to believe that it's fifteen years to day without you.
You have broken so many hearts that miss you.
They would love to love you as well as kiss you.
Who can blame them?
You stood out so well. 19.11.2005
all change.
It does not seem as if it was a of looking at but it was at the time.
Five pound kept a family during the first and Second World War.
Children did not get a lot but they were happy.
The only sad losses were lives were lost of people they knew.
Bothers, Fathers, Uncles, sons, lovers, husbands and friends who were in both world wars.
Children’s' toys did not cost anything at all because they hardy got any toys.
Hide and seek and many more were games of all that children made up themselves.
Today they get a lot more but anything they get is never enough no matter how much.
It is true when they say to us, “You don't know you born."
We must be thanking for what we have got. 20.11.2005
when I write.
When I write I worry about spelling, grammar and whatever else is in English.
I know there is times that I miss words out of sentences due to me dyslexia.
Out of all that, when I get an idea to write something it takes me ages to stop.
I must get to a stage I don't interest people when I get carried away with my writing.
This is where I feel guilty because I ready want to interest my readers.
I just don't know when to stop when the mind gets thinking, the pen and key board get's writing and typing.
My fingers tap away and my mind get's carried away.
There are some days I feel sure of myself and that I write alright.
There also days I have nothing in my mind at all 2007 - 2008
been there and done.
Nothing surprises me anymore.
I have fallen down and got back up again.
I was born with lack of oxygen to the brain at birth.
I spent a lot of time after I was born in hospital because I was having a lot of fits.
I was bullied in school and many other things went on too.
My Appendixes popped when I was 13 years old.
I had Throat cancer when I was 23 year old.
I have bad luck with love of men that give me pain in the end.
Haven't we all been through these things?
Nothing surprises me good and bad anymore; I just take whatever life throws at me. 20.11.2005
under that lovely smile.
Under that lovely smile she must have felt lonely, even though she had love and marriage.
It must have been a blow to her when she lost her Father at the age of eight.
It must have a been hard for her husband Ted living with a wife who had gone through something that had affected her so much through her childhood.
She had such a short life with her children.
Oh Sliver why did you not hang on for your children’s' sake? 20.11.2005
Stress on women.
You are on your own feeling as if the whole world is getting at you.
The good news that no one owns you.
You don't want to belong to any but yourself when life feels it's getting on top of you.
You have a lot of love to give but you don't want to depend on men, well not all the time.
You either love or you don't.
Women should be strong enough to take what happens in life; well that's what a lot of men seem to think anyway, 20.11.2005.
It's not nice.
It's not nice when it's a foggy night, which make the nights even darker.
When it's foggy everywhere seems so far away.
You can't see a sole in the street even if there are loads of people.
Drivers have to drive very careful in the dark or night.
In the fog day looks like night but the night looks even darker in the fog.
Fog makes winter even colder than the snow mainly these days 20.11.2005.
When I feel close to you.
I feel close to you when I lye close to you.
You make me feel safe when you make me feel happy.
It would be lovely if you would stay a bit longer.
It would be lovely to stay a little longer early lye in together.
It's great when I open my eyes and you are right beside me.
I have learned to love you too long and too much I can't let go, even though you hurt me so. 2007
To the one I love.
You are the one I love so much.
You brighten up my day.
You make me feel happy but then you make me feel sad.
You guide me through that dark tunnel that I can't see.
We have been together so long that we share an everyday memory together.
Today I love more than yesterday, that's even more than before. 2007
How do I know if you love me or not if you don't tell me and show me?
You know I find it hard to stop loving you.
Can you disbelieve that I love you?
If that's the case, why am I still in your life? (You’re the love of my life.)
You are now saying that I don't show love towards you but you never show love towards me these days.
Why should I make the first move?
Why should I try with someone who does not love me anymore or who does not know what he wants?
You will have no problem showing your love towards me because you know I love you.
If you show me love I will show you love.
If you don't show me love, then I know my answer.
How long to do you except me to be mad enough to want you?
It's only because I love that I am just around you.
I just want you to let me know whether you want me to stay or go. 2007.
I am so hurt.
I sit back thinking about your everyday, wondering if you are faithful to me or not.
It's going to take a while until I can get my trust back in you.
I love you for you, which is everything about you.
What I don't like is your lies and changes of stories that you have told me.
I can never forget the way you cheated on me, you really did hurt me.
When you are drunk you scar me.
There are good and bad sides of you like in most of his but when you’re nice you’re really nice or you’re really nasty.
You can be very funny and make me laugh, handsome and romantic.
You are very romantic when you want to be. 2000 onwards.
My worse mistake.
I know I am such a mad fool.
For some reason I still love you.
Now that I am thirty I am frightened of not loving again.
May be now I am out of my twenties men have gone off me.
May be I am going to get less attractive the older I get.
Now I have left you I am not rushing into anything with anyone.
Being alone is better than being with a bad man like you.
You drink far too much on your tablets.
You go on and off with other woman behind my back.
You have tried to hit me when you have been drunk when no one was there.
For some reason I still love you but I can't put up with you. 9.1.2000
the way many men should their feelings.
Many men bottle their feelings up inside themselves.
They make out they don't get upset that easy but they really keep their hurt and pain to themselves.
The only time many men cope with pain is when they are hospital, this could be why men don't give birth.
The whole truth many men are big babies. 10.2.2000
I miss you forever more.
You were the best lover I ever had.
We were so long together but now so long apart.
You are always inside my heart.
Life has not been easy without you but by writing poetry helps me accept that we are apart.
I think about your everyday and dream about you every night.
I must be with you, no one else will do.
May be I will love again and get on with my life but maybe I won't love anymore. 2000 onwards.
I love someone but I hate him too.
I hate him when he tells lies and makes me cry.
I don't know why I seem to love the men who treat badly.
I dropped him like a ton of bricks because I could not take any more pain.
When he tells me he loves and cares about me, I think it's a lie.
Why does he hurt and upset me so much?
I wish he would have told me he's seeing another woman or other women.
I wish I could get this hurt and pain off my mind. 10.2.2000
Lucky.
I am thankful for everyday.
I know and accept that life can't be good all the time.
I am not saying I don't get angry and mad.
At the end of the day like everyone I have a life to live.
I am not alone; there are millions of people besides me who have problems.
There are worse people off than me; the grass is greener on the other side.
We must get on with life, the life the world is giving us the chance to have. 12.4.2000
what are you getting up to?
When you tell me you love me, do you tell me the truth or a lie?
Do you care about me or do you just want my company because you can't have her whoever she is?
If you don't love me, why don't you just good bye.
There are plenty more fish in the sea you know, you don't need to lie and cheat on me.
I feel sad, bitter and very hurt and I am not jealous of her whoever she is. (Why should I be jealous of her?)
If you respect me just leave me free to get on with my life but don't leave me with all your lies!
If you have anything to say, why don't you tell me straight away rather than cheating behind my back?
I can tell by the way you have been acting, you have been treating me like a piece of dirt. 10.2.2000
to clear up what one has done wrong.
To talk about it and get off one's chest is one way of getting it out in the open.
To be caring about each others' feelings.
To make up it up in the way they want.
To tell the truth about what one has done wrong? 10.2.2000
living with and without many men.
Without there would not be love then there would not be stress.
Without many men many women would be free but many would be lonely.
With many men there would give many women many tears.
With many men there would be many children.
Many little boys grow up like many men.
Many little girls grow up like many women.
Without many men many woman would not be ironing.
On there is some good things woman can do without men but also good things many of us women can do with many men?
There are many bad things that happen to many women with many men but some good.
We must really that many women treat many men good and bad too. 10.2.2000.
We are lovers.
We are lovers to me there's no other.
I hope you feel the same way too.
The door may well be closed at the moment but it will be open in two weeks.
Believe me I am home.
I know it's hard.
I can't blame you for not trusting.
Once hurt, it's not easy to trust again.
Give yourself time to get to know me first.
Believe me, it's the truth I won't let you down.
I will close my eyes in the sun and I will not stop thinking about you. 26.5.2000
Keep hold of me, you won't get hurt anymore.
I don't worry about getting hurt by you.
You can trust me too, you won't hurt me anymore.
You are not trapped by me and I am not trapped by you.
You don't own me, I don't own you.
Both of us must be careful though. 26.5.2000
when I am alone with you.
When I am alone with you, I really feel as if I belong to you.
When I am on the phone to you, I feel as if I belong to you.
It's a lovely feeling to be held tight and kissed right through the night.
You are the only person who has ever made me feel just right.
When I don't see you every night seems very lonely but I enjoy it when I do.
I miss you all the while but when I see you it feels worthwhile. 26.5.2000
now I am with you.
Now I am with you my whole life has changed for the better.
I can put my trust into you.
I should not have put trust in the others before you.
Even if you are mine, I am not trapped so let's take our time.
That does not mean I will hurt you because I won't.
It means that you can trust me not to go off with another man.
I'd love to feel your love and kisses right through the night.
I can't believe that this has happen to us, I miss you so much.
I understand that you don't get a lot of sleep as you work through the night.
Because I love you I can't accept that I don't see a lot of you.
I can only hope that there are hopes for you and me.
As long as we are together, it does not matter what we do. 4.8.2000.
Hello John
Hello John, I know you can hear me.
I keep knocking and calling your name out loud enough for you hear me.
Has anyone told you about me and your best mate James together?
Thank you Junior and Tracey.
I and James got together after you left us.
I am able to thank you even though I can hear you response.
When I go to the pubs in the town at night, I know you will keep me safe from heaven.
I wish you were here to keep an eye on people hurting me while James is at work at night.
I am sure James can trust you to do that.
All the same you will still look down from heaven to earth to us all. 4.8.2000
you’re not worth it.
You are just not worth it.
One day you will need help.
There will be no one around but your family.
How can you accept me to help and wait around for when you left me for another woman?
I am not sad anymore I have a new life.
Sometimes I don't know if I want to be your friend or not.
What I do know is that you are going to end up a lonely person with sadness and wishing you had not left me like you did.
You will be very lucky if someone else puts up with you like I did.
If you are lucky enough to meet someone nice and new please don't let me down again by letting her down.
I am not sure I know you anymore. 25.6.2000
what has been missing?
You make me feel angry because you were not around to be my Father from the start of my life.
That's what's missing out of my life we can't change or go back because it's the past.
I know there are so many people in the world who are in the shoes as me if not worse but shame on a Father who has missed on his children’s' childhood.
As far as relationships go I find it far too easy to fall in love not that I am looking for a Father figure.
When relationships end I break down and I go to pieces.
It can take me a long time to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It can take me a long to believe in myself that things will one day change for the better.
I am not as strong as I think I am.
I always think I never move on but I do.
If I was not writing poetry I would not cope with life like I do mainly when I go through bad times.
I know I have always had something missing out my life I don't what it is but whatever it is it's caused by you.
May be there is that person who will love me for me and make my life complete but I have not meet him yet but then again I may not.
He may or may not be out there. 4.7.2000
I am sure this love is for me.
I am sure this love is for me, the kindness one to be.
I will have to wait and see if it's to be.
I am sure he is the right man for me.
To me he's the best man I have ever known and seen.
He makes me feel happy and he makes me feel warm.
I can see that he loves and care about so much and I do about him too.
He loves me and protects me.
We listen to one another.
Our feelings are towards one another. 23.6.2000
Love.
Some people win the luck of love but others don't.
Most of us get pain and love others get pain and loneliness.
Who said life is perfect no one can accept it to be?
How boring it would be if life was perfect.
Hearts get broke and you feel as if you have been stabbed with a knife.
Loneliness can also be a painful thing.
We must not thing too bad because it may happen to you.
No one enjoys pain: everyone goes through disappointment.
Everyone has to keep strong in life.
No one wants to weak: any wants to get hurt that's life one does not go without the other.
It has to be bad to be good. 20.11.2005
not alone.
Why has it take me years to know that I am not alone in this world?
Why has it take years to know you are the wrong man for me but I love you?
Why are we living in a slow thinking world?
I am sorry I was not aware that others stiffer broken hearts too.
It's a closed world for everyone where we feel as if we have to keep our thoughts to ourselves.
I was so wrapped up in my own world.
I was not really aware of the world around me.
I did not feel guilty about it until now.
I am so sorry that I did not see the world like other people do. 20.11.2005
Time to put it behind me.
I love you but I will forget them.
Now that I am with you after all these years, please keep me warm for Christmas.
Now I will love you without fear forever.
I know we have had plenty of ups and downs: plenty of ups and downs to come.
We must stop hurting one another.
My love for you is far too strong to walk away.
Now I can forget about the rest of the men who I thought loved me for me.
I have been with you far too long not to love you. 2005 to 2006
Just to be together.
Would it not be nice to see the moon and stars together just like you and me?
I'd love to sit by sea to watch the tide go in and out.
I'd love to watch the flowers grow in the garden every single day.
I don't want to believe that there are witches mixing people in soup.
I want to believe the fairies are in the garden but they are not. 2005 - 2006.
I don't want much.
I don't want much, I just want you.
I just want your love.
I just want you to keep me warm.
I will give you space after Christmas time.
I just want to beside you.
I want to be with you when you want me. 20.11.2005
anything you do does not surprise me.
I have had to get used to the way you have always been all these years.
Nothing seems to be new about you but still you can't change a man so I am not going to change me either.
I don't think you have ever known what you wanted in all the years I have known you.
You don't know whether you want to be lovers, friends or what.
I just need to achieve what I need to do in life like leaving you, which I am not strong enough yet.
It's no good staying with a man who does not know whether he loves me or not.
I am now a woman getting towards 40, I am too old for your silly games and my career is coming along at last.
The young school girl went over twenty years ago, I have achieved more through adult life and school was no help at all.
How wrong was I to think I would not get by in life?
If only I knew then what I know now.
My career is my writing, which is getting.
By the way make up your mind whether you want to be my friend or lover again! 13.1.2009
the truth hurts.
Sleeping on the streets rough is no joke, there's nothing to do.
It's no joke when you’re asking for money and a smoke.
With this credit crunch money wise everyone is in the same boat.
Nothing to eat feeling very weak.
The days and nights are long and boring.
No one knows what the future holds; it does not seem to be getting any better.
Many children in care, most of them are not with their families.
There's so much terror in the world in each and every way: each and every day.
The world needs peace and love.
It's a sad fact that so many people young die through a lack of food due to a lack of money through the credit crunch and war.
How much more pain can the world take until it breaks?
They are so brave to stand the strain.
How can we heel their wounds when they cannot heel them on their own?
Having to cope with little money is war on its own. 2009
I don't give up on life because it's hard.
Love has killed me inside but I am still here.
Look what you may have done to me but I am strong!
Ribbed my insides out with pain.
You have made it hard for me to move on but I have left you anyway.
One day you will be sorry because there's no going back, I have forgiven you far too much in the past.
It's too late for you now, I can't take no more. 12.6.2009
I am here for you part two.
My feelings are mixed up with happiness and sadness.
I also feel a lot of guilt inside me wishing I had not let things go too far.
The kind of feeling that is hard to control is love.
I understand that times are hard for us both at the moment one way or the other.
I just hope we are here for one another; I'm here for you I won't be very far.
I am here for you any time you want me to.
No matter how long it takes I will be there for you.
I am here as long and short as you want me to be.
You said you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I can't say I will be great help but I will be here for you anyway. 12.6.2009
I have a long way to go but I will get there.
Here we go again but never will you put me through it.
The first time you hurt me, I never wanted to love again.
I thought there was not a light at the end of the tunnel, I was wrong.
There's no going back this time, you don't know what you want so it's too late if you do.
I don't think you ever do or did know what you want.
I have been up this road with you far too many times before, there's no reason for me to be there anymore.
I have hung around where I am not wanted for far too long.
I never thought I'd see the day I'd get used to you messing me around but I see why I have to face it anymore.
Now it's taught me to believe in myself and that I get my life back together again.
I can't say who I will love in future but it won't be you. 12.6.2009.
You confuse me.
I left you because you did not know how to feel about me.
I also left you because I had to stop feeling you as you did; you were hurting me too much.
You have completely confused me and used me.
I need to get over you, which is not easy to do.
You won't stop me loving again but it won't be you.
You won't beat me forever; I am too strong for you. 12.6.2009
Life goes on without you.
It may well be still dark in here but I believe on I am on my way to the light, one day I will get there.
I will find happiness in some way one day.
Life goes on without you.
You’re not the only man in the world.
How foolish was I to choose you.
I have no shame to hide from the world but shame on you.
You have bought all this pain and loss yourself.
Say hello to loneliness.
I will get through without you somehow.
I can think clearer without wondering where you are like I used to.
I know what I want more in life than you do.
Some people blame you for us but others blame me for us.
Silly me, I keep forgetting there's no us oh that's good.
A lot of people have asked about you but I am fed up with.
At the same time they think I should get on with my life as I doing.
I have not cried a tear over you this time but I haven't felt sadness.
I can live without your love. 13.6.2009
Open a new door.
Days are early and nights are young.
Pain is still but it will pass.
I'm very willing to move on.
You feel the same too.
We don't want to put our pain on one another but still willing to get to know one another.
We must not give one another our grief we have had from others. 14.6.2009
I miss you badly.
I am missing you badly but I am looking forward to the day I do.
My mind is all over the place bet weans happy and sad but I will get through.
It's wise of you to say that we need to get to know one another first.
Let's not rush into things.
The past takes far too long to get over.
I only wish I could cry but I can't.
At least when I cry it will get out my system.
May be it's best to write poetry to clear my mind instead.
Because I like you a lot, I know I was unsure at first, change is a new thing.
I will look forward to a new slow start.
I find it hard to eat and sleep.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I understand that I am not on my own; you have a past to get over too.
This is why it's wise not to rush into things.14.6.2009
whatever life throws at me.
I must be strong!
I must be brave!
I must be calm!
Heart breaks happen to us all.
Sara fall down and get back up again!
For the first time in your life, don't be weak! 12.7.2009
Feelings.
I still love you with all my heart.
When you left me life became rather hard.
It seems as if my loving feelings for you are there for a life time.
However you feel for me, how I feel for you stays.
You are my best caring male friend.
I mean every word I say.
I still care and worry about you a lot.
Please don't think about saying a lot.
I don't want to come bet wean happiness now, it's not just about what I want is it?
I must carry to accept whatever the future holds.
I must be happy with the life I have got.
Deep down the memories of you are not forgotten. 26.2.2000
Love's young dream.
I will kiss you until we get together.
It's time to have time apart.
We will miss one another when we leave.
When I see you again I will be happy again. Late 20th - Early 21st century.
Hoping to move on.
>Hope is a wishful thinking word.
Thinking can be very hard to do these days.
No jobs and no college courses until September.
It seems ages now wait for exam results but it won't be long now I hope.
Why do people go from education when jobs are so hard to find?
Where's the light at the end of the tunnel?
There just does not seem to be any spaces for any jobs mainly with a lot of companies closing down. Late 20th century onwards.
Your history.
You cheated on me.
You lied to me.
I finished with you because I would not put up with you for the rest of my life.
I need one big help to get over you.
It just takes pen and paper to get my anger and pain out then we are through.
I don't need to lie, you’re not worth it, and it’s true. Late 20th century onwards.
Sorry I am here.
I am sorry I am here.
I am sorry I was born.
Sorry for the grief I have caused the world.
I did not mean to cause hard work to you all.
Do I have any good in me at all?
I am a human being I make mistakes just all of you.
I am a disabled person society seems to put me down for making mistakes all the time.
Life does not seem to be worth living or dyeing if it's like that.
If that's the case why are we here? Late 20th century onwards.
There's only so low you can go.
We all accept that life can't be good to us all the time.
We know that there's no need to break down at the most little things.
There's only so low you can go.
Running and hiding is not going to change a thing but grief is another thing.
There's more than one person who has to cope with sadness, anger and pain.
It's more how we react to whatever we are going through. Late 20th century onwards.
You find it hard to believe.
You find it to believe that I still love you.
If I don't love you what am I still doing in your life?
You are still the love of my life.
If anyone loves you so much it's me.
Who will love you as long as I have done?
Who knows what the future brings?
If our love does not last a life time I may not love again. Late 20th century onwards.
Let's have a quiet night!
Let's stop in together, your place or mine?
Let's not see a sole.
Let's enjoy love and passion in our own way!
Sooner or later the dark nights are drawing in.
Put the heating on as both of us hug together.
Why not warm up like toast until we roast.
Today we have lost our old fashioned ways with the coal and electric fires doing homemade toast on the forks on the fires. Late 20th century onwards.
Summer.
>Good night sleep tight.
Too hot to sleep so count sheep.
If you can sleep please dream of me.
Tomorrow the sun will rise from the rain to make a rainbow.
Red sky at night shepherd's delight.
Good brave people lose their lives to keep us alive.
Too much war but hardy any peace in the world today. Late 20th century onwards.
I find it hard to show my love.
It's so hard to show love to one another every night of the week.
I know we spend too much time together.
I keep thinking to myself I must walk the streets alone but I never do it.
I do it to be strong to be without you.
I will have a mobile phone in case you want me at any point. 2001 - 2009
Thinking about you.
Here I am thinking about you, after twelve years together.
Ok, we slit up for four of those years but you were the still the one I loved.
Alright I met someone else so did you?
I know I don't show you how I feel but I am waiting for you to make the first move for love. 2001 onwards.
Relationships part two.
When we think of the word relationships we think of lovers.
Relationships are a way of getting knowing one another.
You have relationships with your family and friends but not in the same way as your lovers.
Friends are people who you saw in school, work, college out in the pub and etc.
Families who have raised you since birth. Late 20th century onwards.
Blank.
Do you go blank at a point you can't think?
You’re in a writing mood but you don't what to write.
When you are sitting at home for a long time, does your head in.
you either think too much or not at all.
Sitting in the house on a hot summer's day is a waste of life.
Take a walk to the library out in the fresh air.
Get some ideas together from different books. Late 20th century onwards.
Goodness knows why.
Goodness knows why I love you, called me mad but I do.
I would lie if I told you I did not love you.
You know you can be romantic if you want to.
You make me happy.
You make me sad.
You make me laugh.
You make me cry.
That's what love is goodness why.
All the time you’re always on my mind.
I can't help who I fall in love with.
That person happens to be you.
I can't believe I still feel the same about you after all these years. Late 20th century onwards.
Time to put things right.
Don't think I will put the blame on you forever.
You told me it was the silliest mistake you ever made.
When you left me for her I thought I was having a long nightmare.
You also told me that I drove you away, I am so sorry I was not aware that was the case.
We hurt one another really badly, I think it's time to put it behind and start again.
Let's try to enjoy our lives together and put the past behind us.
Life is full of bad and good. 2001 onwards.
Why do I love you?
I love your smile and laugh.
You cheer me up and make me laugh.
You then make me sad and mad.
I love you when you get close to me.
You can make me feel calm when I get fed up of this society.
I love you for what you give me in life.
I love you for your love and kisses.
I am here for you if you want me too.
Like everyone we get our good and bad times. Late 20th century onwards
forgotten.
I have a memory but I have forgotten.
It does not seem to make sense.
What is your name?
I forgot, don't tell me.
I don't want to remember.
What did you look like?
It does not matter I think I may have had a nightmare.
Did you kiss me as my month poured with blood?
So what, why did I ask that question?
Were we in love?
No it was just a big mistake.
Last I heard of you, you were married.
You ask me to marry you; I told you know but good luck to her.
It was only a dream that we were close.
I can never even remember the music you listened to.
It was only a nightmare that I woke up in tears to.
I have forgotten so much I am so glad you went off with her. 2000
The love of my life.
I know we need some time apart; I am trying to sort things out so I can give you some space.
The last thing I want is to lose you again.
I want to be able to miss you so I can put my arms around you when I do see you.
I want to be able to earn a bit more money in my pocket so I can give you space but finding work is hard.
College is off for the summer until September.
May be I am still living in those old fashioned ways waiting to see how the man I love feels about me.
I wonder if we will still love one another in twenty years time.
Will you still be mine? 2001 onwards.
It has not been easy.
Even though we sit up and fall out so often we love one another.
So many times I have cried over you.
We have so many wishes not hurting one another like we have done.
The loving nights we have had all these years together.
Why can't we bring them back?
You may not think so but my love gets strong all the time for you.
How we manage to love and hurt one another I don't know. 2001 onwards.
What does Valentine’s Day mean to me?
When it rains there's no love for me.
When sun is out I feel as if love is about.
When there is rain then there is sun love is on then it is off.
This is how feel on Valentine’s Day. Late 20th century onwards.
I wish I had not.
Why do I say things that I don't mean?
How much I wish I had not said what I said to you last night.
Why did I say I wanted a man to treat me bad?
May be there's no looking back on what I say to you.
I will be lucky if you forgive me.
I don't blame you if you tell me it's too late.
I should have shown my love for you.
I'm very lucky if I can show how I feel about you. Late 20th century onwards.
The next day.
I can't remember whether I drank or not.
I must have said a lot of bad things to you last night, I'm so sorry about that.
I wish last night had not have happened but it did.
I wish we could stop hurting one another so much as we love one another so much.
I never know or not whether you are in the mood for love.
I am frightened in case you feel I am doing what you don't want.
Whatever mood you’re in, I know you’re tired when you finish work. 2001 onwards.
Sometimes it's hard to forgive.
Even when you love someone it can be hard to forgive.
It can even be hard to not to forgive.
Sometimes it can be hard to love a person again.
Some people forgive others don't.
Some people feel love for others, others don't.
Now I just have set friends which are good. 2001 onwards.
I forgive you.
I forgive you what you did to me years ago.
Goodness knows why I do!
I forgive you because I love you.
May be I have forgiven but I have not forgotten.
May be I was partly to blame too; I may have driven you away.
I am trying hard to change so are you? 2001 onwards.
Never fall in love.
Never fall in love, once you get into love it's hard to get out of it's like a drug.
Love can also be hard to want to get out of.
I have loved so many times, you'd think I'd understand it but I don't.
When I was younger I thought I understood love: I thought I knew all but I did not.
Happiness starts then sadness ends until you love the same person again or someone new.
Love is a never ending story, the same feelings but different reasons for those feelings.
Very few people last forever.
Relationship break ups can cause depression and even loneliness.
Once that depression kicks it's hard to beat it.
Love is a strange that we can't live with or without. Late 20th century onwards.
I love poetry.
I love poetry it helps me get things out of my head.
I tend to feel a bit bad because poetry is not a lot of people's cup of tea, well its poetries.
It's hard to keep people interested because you can't help what goes on inside your head.
Poetry is my way of saying I felt good and bad about things.
I love you poetry you help me get by but bet wean do we interest our readers? Late 20th century onwards.
My writing helps my relationship.
My writing helps my relationship, gives me time to think alone.
All it takes is putting pen to paper and typing it on computer.
I write about more than just relationships.
I need a little job to earn enough money to save up for publishers. Late 20th century onwards.
My only love.
You may think I don't love you but you’re wrong.
You know how I feel about you as well as I do.
I have known twelve years too long to not love you.
What am I doing in your life if I don't love you?
Why do you let me in if you don't love me?
We are both pains in the backside in our own ways.
There are times when we get one another down but no one's eyes compares with yours.
If I could put more into this relationship I would.
There are so many things I find hard to explain. 2005 to 2006.
Why do we complain?
No money and no job.
To make more friends.
Never mind who knows what the future brings?
Why do we complain?
When we could have been born into a world of no food on the table and no education.
We could have been born into dirty places in many cases no places at all.
Rubbish left in bins.
Everyone has to live life we can't always avoid it no matter what happens. Late 20th century onwards.
You are worth my while?
I have spent so many nights and days missing you and thinking about you but you are worth my while.
I can't help but liking you in a special way?
You have been there for me when times are hard time, they still are, I thank you so much even though you situations are hard.
I have accepted your hard situation from the start.
May be it's hard for you to believe in me because of what you have been through with other women.
If you let me I will carrying on taking the situation on board, no matter what the situation is
I know how you feel I have been there before with men, trusting is a very hard thing.
I know you like me in a special way too.
This is a private poem to say what's going through my mind.
I know special bonds can fail but I am with you as long as you want me.
You paid interest in me, I wasn't sure at first.
It was a shock to know that someone was interested in me at that early stage of me having hard time with ex partner.
It took me a week or two to know that I am interested you after all.
I was in a bad state of mind at time, which I am still going through a hard time with my ex partner, I don't need any more stress. 29.6.10
it came when I wasn't looking?
I wouldn't have known any different if you hadn't have told me you felt this way towards me.
If I had liked you in a special way the same as I do without you telling me, I would have took it that you didn't feel the same way, then I would have moved on.
I wouldn't have told you if you hadn't of told me.
Was I dreaming, I'm sorry if I was dreaming?
I have taken everything there is to take on board.
I will go on taking the situation on board if you will let me.
I wouldn't go along with it if I wasn't keen on you.
I wouldn't say things I don't mean if I wasn't keen.
I don't lie, mess about or change my mind and I stick to my word.
I don't string men along.
I understand trust is hard for you so it is for me.
I'm not perfect is anyone? No!
I've done my best to not give you any stress so I will carry on trying to be the same.
I understand that nothing lasts forever but I'm here as long as you want me.
If you ever love someone else, I know you will tell me.
I will move on if I have to.
I know you won't leave me in the dark wondering what's going if you have anything to tell me.
I have trusted you with all my heart from the start; I will carry on doing so if you let me.
29.6.10
it needs to be time to go now.
It seems to be a good time to go now.
You told me last night my friendship and support isn't enough so there am no point me coming down.
Let's see if you strong enough?
Who cares if you not, you've only made life hard for yourself.
What goes around comes around.
You won't know who you have lost until you have lost me.
I can't through anymore with you and I don't have loving feelings for you anymore.
If you don't understand that I will have to go, you blew it yourself.
I have tried to be your friend but you want more out of that I haven't got the feelings to give anymore.
We rowing like this aren’t fair on your Mum.
You always get like this when you have too much to drink.
You’re such hard work whether you’re drunk or not.
You row with everyone. 4th July 2010
I'm getting away from you.
I've had enough; I'm getting away from you.
I think I have just waked up from a long nightmare.
The shock will come to you one day soon enough.
The lonely and lost change will come to you.
I understand what you are going through but you have only made things worse for yourself.
Why should I feel guilty and bad about leaving you like you hurt me three years ago and many times before that?
I have made too many chances, no more, what do you think about that.
I have taken you back so many times because I loved, I tried been your friend but you have now made me hate you.
After you upset me last night I don't even want to see you no more.
I'm taking no more.
You never loved me when I loved you, now you lie to me saying you love me now I don't love you.
May be things have turned round, I'm not going to change back to the soft person I was before.
You won't walk over me like a door mat anymore.
You have blown it all; soon I will be out the door.
You shouldn't play silly games.
You will never change you will always be the same.
I have put up with your silly games for too many years, no more.
We can't go on forever like this at least I can't. July 4th 2010
Hello everybody
This Day in
History
Life one.
I hope you have not got a crush me.
I am very fond of you as a friend.
I don't want us to hurt one another.
You have plenty of time to find happiness, you are so young.
You are fifteen years younger than me.
Age may not matter but it's your future you need to think about in a grown up manner.
You may not understand what I mean because you are so you but you will one day.
I was young like you once, I used to have these feeling towards people but I got over it.
Love does not always happen how you want it to be, we live miles apart in life and age.
When you get to my age you will know what it's all about.
You will live and learn, you never stop learning right from wrong through adult life then you get older and wiser, and this works well for most of us anyway. 9.5.2002
Don't get me wrong.
It's very flattering to be fancied by someone as lovely as you.
Don't take it the wrong way; I am about fifteen years older than you.
I'd get done for going with very young boys like you; I know you are nearly a young man.
I am almost a middle age woman even though I may look as young as you.
A woman of my age should know better.
You may think that I could teach you a few things, believe me you could end up teaching me a few things, you will learn faster than me through everyday life.
You make mistakes in life then learn from them, at least most of us do.
Some of us make the same mistake loads of times like I have done so what could I teach you?
I have just had to learn without no computers, mobile phones but everyday life.
You have mobile phones, computers, everyday live and etc to learn from.
I think will learn better without me, I have made too many of own mistakes, what do I know if I can't get things right myself?
Without you knowing it, you know more about life than I do.
You most likely be teaching me more so than I would be teaching you.
It just does not feel right someone young teaching someone old.
I have been around far too longer than you, I should know more than you but that's not always the case. 9.8.2002
Homeless old people.
No one to talk.
No children, no Grand children, no Great Grand children.
Far too cold, there needs to be warm.
Nowhere to cool down from the hot sun when you’re near enough passing out.
Not knowing what tomorrow is going to bring. 29.5.2002
It's very flattering to be fancied by someone as lovely as you.
Don't take it the wrong way; I am about fifteen years older than you.
I'd get done for going with very young boys like you; I know you are nearly a young man.
I am almost a middle age woman even though I may look as young as you.
A woman of my age should know better.
You may think that I could teach you a few things, believe me you could end up teaching me a few things, you will learn faster than me through everyday life.
You make mistakes in life then learn from them, at least most of us do.
Some of us make the same mistake loads of times like I have done so what could I teach you?
I have just had to learn without no computers, mobile phones but everyday life.
You have mobile phones, computers, everyday live and etc to learn from.
I think will learn better without me, I have made too many of own mistakes, what do I know if I can't get things right myself?
Without you knowing it, you know more about life than I do.
You most likely be teaching me more so than I would be teaching you.
It just does not feel right someone young teaching someone old.
I have been around far too longer than you, I should know more than you but that's not always the case. 9.8.2002
Homeless old people.
No one to talk.
No children, no Grand children, no Great Grand children.
Far too cold, there needs to be warm.
Nowhere to cool down from the hot sun when you’re near enough passing out.
Not knowing what tomorrow is going to bring. 29.5.2002
We are all together.
Getting together for a drink and a talk.
People finding out from one another how they got on the streets in the place.
How are they going a normal life?
How are they going to live through the world of the four seasons in one?
Winter cold, snow, rain, sleet, hale and sun.
Autumn cold winds blowing leaves as they change colours
off the trees on to the ground.
Spring is meant to be warm not cold but it does not seem to be the case anymore.
There are very few leaves on the trees that are green but it happens bit by bit until the summer on sun baying hot days.
More green leaves on the trees and a lovely garden life homeless people may talk about. 9.5.2002
I am so sorry it can't happen my friend.
I hope I have not lost your friendship.
I hope I have not hurt you.
I still care about you and look out for you.
You’re so young and I am old enough to be your Mum.
It would not be fare on either of us if we got together.
I am sure you would get fed of me one day anyway.
One day you will find someone more special, I am not special at all only special needs.
I am just too old to look at. 9.5.2002
Getting together for a drink and a talk.
People finding out from one another how they got on the streets in the place.
How are they going a normal life?
How are they going to live through the world of the four seasons in one?
Winter cold, snow, rain, sleet, hale and sun.
Autumn cold winds blowing leaves as they change colours
off the trees on to the ground.
Spring is meant to be warm not cold but it does not seem to be the case anymore.
There are very few leaves on the trees that are green but it happens bit by bit until the summer on sun baying hot days.
More green leaves on the trees and a lovely garden life homeless people may talk about. 9.5.2002
I am so sorry it can't happen my friend.
I hope I have not lost your friendship.
I hope I have not hurt you.
I still care about you and look out for you.
You’re so young and I am old enough to be your Mum.
It would not be fare on either of us if we got together.
I am sure you would get fed of me one day anyway.
One day you will find someone more special, I am not special at all only special needs.
I am just too old to look at. 9.5.2002
Memory of Eddie dog.
He was so fluffy.
He was so soft.
He was only nasty if anyone hurt us.
I and my family were the people who knew him and loved him.
He went to another home where he's well looked after, we are just too busy with our lives to look after him.
He loved to play ball.
He loved to go out for walks.
He loved to run across the park.
He hated been on a lead because he was a country and farm dog.
He would pull you around so hard and fast when he had his lead on.
He would only attack if he saw strangers.
Eddie, where have you gone?
I understand why you left us; we could not give you the happiness you wanted.
We are so sorry to let you down, I hope you are happy now.
Never forget us for the happiness we gave, we hope we gave some happiness.
We are always thinking about you, you are a lovely dog. 25.1.2002 - 12.9.2002
the America war.
It was the day I never forget.
On September 11th 2001, I think everyone thought the world was over.
It was 9.00am in UK and 3.00am in US time or the other way round.
It hit New York and Washington.
It was a dramatic explosion that hit nine people pulled out alive.
A fireman had been on the 38rd floor of one of the towers of New York. 12.9.2002
my feelings.
The war of America did not sink into me at first.
When my Father told me on the phone, I thought I was hearing things and I thought I was having a nightmare.
I put on the news on the television, watch those two towers full down turned my stomach over just watching them and I felt sick.
I found it very hard to write anything down at first.
I know there have been bad wars before but I would say that's the first one I have seen in my life time.
I could not talk; I could not stop thinking about it. 12.9.2002
He was so fluffy.
He was so soft.
He was only nasty if anyone hurt us.
I and my family were the people who knew him and loved him.
He went to another home where he's well looked after, we are just too busy with our lives to look after him.
He loved to play ball.
He loved to go out for walks.
He loved to run across the park.
He hated been on a lead because he was a country and farm dog.
He would pull you around so hard and fast when he had his lead on.
He would only attack if he saw strangers.
Eddie, where have you gone?
I understand why you left us; we could not give you the happiness you wanted.
We are so sorry to let you down, I hope you are happy now.
Never forget us for the happiness we gave, we hope we gave some happiness.
We are always thinking about you, you are a lovely dog. 25.1.2002 - 12.9.2002
the America war.
It was the day I never forget.
On September 11th 2001, I think everyone thought the world was over.
It was 9.00am in UK and 3.00am in US time or the other way round.
It hit New York and Washington.
It was a dramatic explosion that hit nine people pulled out alive.
A fireman had been on the 38rd floor of one of the towers of New York. 12.9.2002
my feelings.
The war of America did not sink into me at first.
When my Father told me on the phone, I thought I was hearing things and I thought I was having a nightmare.
I put on the news on the television, watch those two towers full down turned my stomach over just watching them and I felt sick.
I found it very hard to write anything down at first.
I know there have been bad wars before but I would say that's the first one I have seen in my life time.
I could not talk; I could not stop thinking about it. 12.9.2002
What a mess.
The two towers of New York had gone through bombing planes.
They were very tall towers, I am sure those towers must have taken a long time to build.
I feel sorry for whomever it was know who worked so hard to build those towers.
There was not just 1000s of lives lost, a lot of homes had been broken and smashed. 12.9.2002
what happened?
A fireman had been rolling down the stairwell floor by floor.
The whole building collapsed.
Five other fire fighters and police officers near enough lost their lives. 12.9.2002
sometimes hurtful things happen for the best.
Life is here to enjoy but sometimes all good things have to come to an end.
You have plenty to look forward to buy happiness may take it's time to come back.
Sadly we can't get by without making mistakes and learning from them but how many of us do?
We are only human: no one is perfect.
It may take a long time while we want to get but most of us get there in the end.
At least once if not more in our lives something will happen what we don't like, that's life for everyone.
So long down the line I hope I will be right that some disappointing things happen for the best.
Most pain can turns into happiness.
I hope you will be glad of my advice one day, I hope I will be right in some things if I am not right in all.
It will be hard for us to understand that I was once your age.
I had strong feelings towards people that I have had to learn to accept what I wanted was not possible.
When you get as old as me, you will understand that disappointing things can happen for a good reason.
The reason is you may like me a lot now but you may not like me at all in ten years time, you could get fed up of looking at an old woman like me.
This could save us quite a lot of hurt and pain.
You don't need to be tied down to someone like me. 20.8.2002
The two towers of New York had gone through bombing planes.
They were very tall towers, I am sure those towers must have taken a long time to build.
I feel sorry for whomever it was know who worked so hard to build those towers.
There was not just 1000s of lives lost, a lot of homes had been broken and smashed. 12.9.2002
what happened?
A fireman had been rolling down the stairwell floor by floor.
The whole building collapsed.
Five other fire fighters and police officers near enough lost their lives. 12.9.2002
sometimes hurtful things happen for the best.
Life is here to enjoy but sometimes all good things have to come to an end.
You have plenty to look forward to buy happiness may take it's time to come back.
Sadly we can't get by without making mistakes and learning from them but how many of us do?
We are only human: no one is perfect.
It may take a long time while we want to get but most of us get there in the end.
At least once if not more in our lives something will happen what we don't like, that's life for everyone.
So long down the line I hope I will be right that some disappointing things happen for the best.
Most pain can turns into happiness.
I hope you will be glad of my advice one day, I hope I will be right in some things if I am not right in all.
It will be hard for us to understand that I was once your age.
I had strong feelings towards people that I have had to learn to accept what I wanted was not possible.
When you get as old as me, you will understand that disappointing things can happen for a good reason.
The reason is you may like me a lot now but you may not like me at all in ten years time, you could get fed up of looking at an old woman like me.
This could save us quite a lot of hurt and pain.
You don't need to be tied down to someone like me. 20.8.2002
Studying poetry.
I am studying to remind myself how I can interest my readers.
Sometimes I can think of a subject others times I can't.
I don't except everyone to be interested in what I write as long some people are. 8.9.2002
I dream to be a poet.
I dream to be mostly a romantic poet.
I dream to write fiction and nonfiction.
I dream to be a poet of all or many subjects.
I dream to write poetry of good and bad in life.
I dream to understand the minds of animals and human beings.
I dream to put down what goes through my mind from pen onto paper. 8.9.2002
I love the sun, sand and sea.
The hot summer not cold winter.
Not too hot just warm.
Blue sky, blue sea and yellow sand.
That says it all. 8.9.2002
I am studying to remind myself how I can interest my readers.
Sometimes I can think of a subject others times I can't.
I don't except everyone to be interested in what I write as long some people are. 8.9.2002
I dream to be a poet.
I dream to be mostly a romantic poet.
I dream to write fiction and nonfiction.
I dream to be a poet of all or many subjects.
I dream to write poetry of good and bad in life.
I dream to understand the minds of animals and human beings.
I dream to put down what goes through my mind from pen onto paper. 8.9.2002
I love the sun, sand and sea.
The hot summer not cold winter.
Not too hot just warm.
Blue sky, blue sea and yellow sand.
That says it all. 8.9.2002
Lovers part two.
Two hearts.
Four arms.
Two lips to kiss. 8.9.2002
What do I see?
In my 30s still young: not getting any younger.
A few lines under my eyes.
Not looking bad but not good either.
Trying to look the best I can.
We all getting older but not younger.
There's no good and bad in getting older only wishing we could turn back the clock and do things more different than we did but its good going back to things it's too late to do anything about.
Sometimes life gives you another chance but other times it does not, it may teach many of us to become not just older but wiser. 8.9.2002
the winter.
The snow may look white and pretty but it's cold outside.
The evenings become gray and short: the nights become dark and long.
Dark early mornings that look like night. 8.9.2002
in bet weans the lines.
In-between the lines we live a life that could fit into poetry.
In-between the lines we live a life that we could write into stories.
In life things don't happen the same; there's could be good and bad in life, which makes our writing more interesting. 8.9.2002
the nightingale.
The nightingale the bird of love and romance.
The turtle dove who sings sweet romance songs of love.
The poet's dream is the art of love.
No broken heart: heart of love.
Passion is another way of love. 8.9.2002
In my 30s still young: not getting any younger.
A few lines under my eyes.
Not looking bad but not good either.
Trying to look the best I can.
We all getting older but not younger.
There's no good and bad in getting older only wishing we could turn back the clock and do things more different than we did but its good going back to things it's too late to do anything about.
Sometimes life gives you another chance but other times it does not, it may teach many of us to become not just older but wiser. 8.9.2002
the winter.
The snow may look white and pretty but it's cold outside.
The evenings become gray and short: the nights become dark and long.
Dark early mornings that look like night. 8.9.2002
in bet weans the lines.
In-between the lines we live a life that could fit into poetry.
In-between the lines we live a life that we could write into stories.
In life things don't happen the same; there's could be good and bad in life, which makes our writing more interesting. 8.9.2002
the nightingale.
The nightingale the bird of love and romance.
The turtle dove who sings sweet romance songs of love.
The poet's dream is the art of love.
No broken heart: heart of love.
Passion is another way of love. 8.9.2002
The rose of love.
The red rose is the sign of romance.
To hear the song of love.
To dream about romance. 8.9.2002
Love verse.
To love to kiss one another.
To look is not always to touch one another.
To look in to each other’s eyes to know it right or not right in the case may be.
To sleep and dream of happiness.
For each heart to feel love.
To love on a warm sunny day under trees.
To cool down in the stream on a hot summer's day.
To love in darkness.
To enjoy the body of love.
To get close to make love.
Love is not everything to life.
You don't have to involve making love.
The main thing loves the person for them.
You should not get just anything you want out of them.
Love, freedom and trust are important.
I like a man not too cheeky and not too shy.
I like him to talk to.
I don't like a man who thinks he knows everything.
Show off, cheat, he tells lies and he's too big for his boots those are the men I hate.10.12.2001 - 8.9.2002
Future of child.
Coping without a Father.
Mother bringing up a child or children in this unkind world.
To have family and friends to support.
Is a child strong enough to face this unkind world of fear and no enjoyment? 8.9.2002
The red rose is the sign of romance.
To hear the song of love.
To dream about romance. 8.9.2002
Love verse.
To love to kiss one another.
To look is not always to touch one another.
To look in to each other’s eyes to know it right or not right in the case may be.
To sleep and dream of happiness.
For each heart to feel love.
To love on a warm sunny day under trees.
To cool down in the stream on a hot summer's day.
To love in darkness.
To enjoy the body of love.
To get close to make love.
Love is not everything to life.
You don't have to involve making love.
The main thing loves the person for them.
You should not get just anything you want out of them.
Love, freedom and trust are important.
I like a man not too cheeky and not too shy.
I like him to talk to.
I don't like a man who thinks he knows everything.
Show off, cheat, he tells lies and he's too big for his boots those are the men I hate.10.12.2001 - 8.9.2002
Future of child.
Coping without a Father.
Mother bringing up a child or children in this unkind world.
To have family and friends to support.
Is a child strong enough to face this unkind world of fear and no enjoyment? 8.9.2002
Hope.
From heaven we are looking down to earth.
We make another life in another world work.
We become another person or an animal.
That's if you believe heaven is another world.
Life goes on.
No more crying.
Love again.
Be happy, we only live one. 8.9.2002
Animals.
Do you believe that you will come back as an animal?
For most people memories live on.
Do you believe that you come back as a human being if you’re an animal and an animal if you’re human? 8.9.2002
End of war.
Loving arms round the man you love.
No weeping and crying unless your love is not alive.
Living at peace and love at last.
The future to think about and look forward to.7.9.2002
War verse.
Feeling the future in sin and alone.
Death and live is so cruel.
Blood and burns is what you saw.
It was not all sad times.
Happiness, dancing, sing and having a good time to hide the sadness of the war away with the hurts and losses of life.
Memories of love.
Tears of the future and past.
The wounded survivors.
Cradle the war babies to sleep.
Feel angry about the war. 8.9.2002
From heaven we are looking down to earth.
We make another life in another world work.
We become another person or an animal.
That's if you believe heaven is another world.
Life goes on.
No more crying.
Love again.
Be happy, we only live one. 8.9.2002
Animals.
Do you believe that you will come back as an animal?
For most people memories live on.
Do you believe that you come back as a human being if you’re an animal and an animal if you’re human? 8.9.2002
End of war.
Loving arms round the man you love.
No weeping and crying unless your love is not alive.
Living at peace and love at last.
The future to think about and look forward to.7.9.2002
War verse.
Feeling the future in sin and alone.
Death and live is so cruel.
Blood and burns is what you saw.
It was not all sad times.
Happiness, dancing, sing and having a good time to hide the sadness of the war away with the hurts and losses of life.
Memories of love.
Tears of the future and past.
The wounded survivors.
Cradle the war babies to sleep.
Feel angry about the war. 8.9.2002
Freedom at last.
Sleep in peace.
What a horror of war.
What emptiness without love.
Life goes on, it hurts, and we will get by.
Lucky for the ones who have the men they love. 7.9.2002
Poets.
We are poets.
We see you.
We hear you.
We feel you.
We smell you.
We taste you.
We touch you.
None of these things you don't do to us.
Keats, Wordsworth, Thomas, Eliot and many more.
They may not be here: there work still lives on.
In memory and love, they will always be here with us. 8.9.2002
lets let words flow.
If the words rhyme, they rhyme.
If the words don't rhyme, they don't rhyme.
As long as words make sense that's the mail thing. 8.9.2002
Lucky.
Lucky to be alive.
We go through good and bad through life.
Lucky enough not to suffer: lucky enough to live through whatever happens in life. 8.9.2002
Sleep in peace.
What a horror of war.
What emptiness without love.
Life goes on, it hurts, and we will get by.
Lucky for the ones who have the men they love. 7.9.2002
Poets.
We are poets.
We see you.
We hear you.
We feel you.
We smell you.
We taste you.
We touch you.
None of these things you don't do to us.
Keats, Wordsworth, Thomas, Eliot and many more.
They may not be here: there work still lives on.
In memory and love, they will always be here with us. 8.9.2002
lets let words flow.
If the words rhyme, they rhyme.
If the words don't rhyme, they don't rhyme.
As long as words make sense that's the mail thing. 8.9.2002
Lucky.
Lucky to be alive.
We go through good and bad through life.
Lucky enough not to suffer: lucky enough to live through whatever happens in life. 8.9.2002
Write to tap words out on computer.
It's very hard to about words to write to tap to type on computer.
It can be hard to think about a subject to write about without having to research.
You can't always put pen to paper right away: sometimes you can.
Sometimes something going into your head to put down paper.
Sometimes it comes out wrong: other times it comes out right. 8.9.2002
Great Granny.
The Great Granny who loved me so much.
The Great Granny who never thought I could no wrong.
No memory of anything else other than her bonny body and bonny smiling face.
She wore those blue turned in glasses that she wore in the 1960s.
Why could not she live a few years later so I could remember her?
I would have at least would have known her a bit more than I did. 8.9.2002
Coal.
Men going down the coal mines.
Inhale dust and dirt.
Young children far too young.
Living on portage, bread and water.
Going to bed early at night and facing very early hours of the mornings.
Having been frightened of been stuck down the mines.
Young men and young boys risked their lives to feed their families, many of them did die.
Still they had to do the job to keep their families alive.
What a cruel life it was. 8.9.2002
drinking too much.
Enjoying drinking at the time.
Its fun and alright on the night.
Up and down to the toilet.
Feeling rough the next day.
Ringing work with a bad hang over.
Can't eat and frightened of being sick.
The after affects are not fun not like when you’re drinking at the time. 8.9.2002
why do I write?
I enjoy writing to put pen to paper.
Any subject that comes to mind.
I hope I interest my readers at the time. 8.9.2002
It's very hard to about words to write to tap to type on computer.
It can be hard to think about a subject to write about without having to research.
You can't always put pen to paper right away: sometimes you can.
Sometimes something going into your head to put down paper.
Sometimes it comes out wrong: other times it comes out right. 8.9.2002
Great Granny.
The Great Granny who loved me so much.
The Great Granny who never thought I could no wrong.
No memory of anything else other than her bonny body and bonny smiling face.
She wore those blue turned in glasses that she wore in the 1960s.
Why could not she live a few years later so I could remember her?
I would have at least would have known her a bit more than I did. 8.9.2002
Coal.
Men going down the coal mines.
Inhale dust and dirt.
Young children far too young.
Living on portage, bread and water.
Going to bed early at night and facing very early hours of the mornings.
Having been frightened of been stuck down the mines.
Young men and young boys risked their lives to feed their families, many of them did die.
Still they had to do the job to keep their families alive.
What a cruel life it was. 8.9.2002
drinking too much.
Enjoying drinking at the time.
Its fun and alright on the night.
Up and down to the toilet.
Feeling rough the next day.
Ringing work with a bad hang over.
Can't eat and frightened of being sick.
The after affects are not fun not like when you’re drinking at the time. 8.9.2002
why do I write?
I enjoy writing to put pen to paper.
Any subject that comes to mind.
I hope I interest my readers at the time. 8.9.2002
I want to help people.
I want to help people who are alone.
I want to talk to people who are worse off than me.
Each and every one of us has problems one way or the other: some people have problems than others.
Some people are homeless others are not.
I am very lucky, I want help people who want to be helped but if I can help.8.9.2002
Help.
Help get the homeless off the streets!
Help to stop the sunshine burning them!
Help to keep them out the cold on cold winter's night.8.9.2002
I want to help people who are alone.
I want to talk to people who are worse off than me.
Each and every one of us has problems one way or the other: some people have problems than others.
Some people are homeless others are not.
I am very lucky, I want help people who want to be helped but if I can help.8.9.2002
Help.
Help get the homeless off the streets!
Help to stop the sunshine burning them!
Help to keep them out the cold on cold winter's night.8.9.2002
Lonely.
I am so lonely without you.
I don't know anyone without you.
Just like you I have been put on this earth for a reason.
Where do I come from?
Who do I belong to?
Who am I?
Someone talk to me!
Someone help me get through this hard life? 29.5.2002
Time goes slow.
Time goes slow when nothing is going on.
Time goes slow when you are waiting for something to happen.
Still things to make you happy come to those who wait.
Nothing worth the wait comes quickly.
When you don't want anything to happen it happens too quickly.
I wish I could eat and sleep, it's taking so long.
I am tossing and turning in bed.
I love you so much, I can't wait to see you, and it’s not long until I do see you but it feels like forever as I love you so much.
I don't understand what's wrong with me.
Things to worry me or is it just inside my head?
I just need to wait until I see you tonight. 20.1.2002
I am so lonely without you.
I don't know anyone without you.
Just like you I have been put on this earth for a reason.
Where do I come from?
Who do I belong to?
Who am I?
Someone talk to me!
Someone help me get through this hard life? 29.5.2002
Time goes slow.
Time goes slow when nothing is going on.
Time goes slow when you are waiting for something to happen.
Still things to make you happy come to those who wait.
Nothing worth the wait comes quickly.
When you don't want anything to happen it happens too quickly.
I wish I could eat and sleep, it's taking so long.
I am tossing and turning in bed.
I love you so much, I can't wait to see you, and it’s not long until I do see you but it feels like forever as I love you so much.
I don't understand what's wrong with me.
Things to worry me or is it just inside my head?
I just need to wait until I see you tonight. 20.1.2002
Last chance.
I have given you your last chance to be.
I did not except to be loving you again, it just happened because I love you so much.
Your forgiven this once but hurt me again no matter how hard it hurt me to let you go, I will have to let you go.
How lucky you are to get me back, you have taken this chance.
Don't let me don't because there will be no going back.
You only live once; you will end up a lonely old man if you let me down again.
If you are not careful someone else could step into your shoes, you don't want that do you?
Whatever came over you to go off with her in the first place?
Whatever has got into me to go back to you?
The answer is that I love you.
What does it matter what happened in the past, now we will look to the future.
I look into your eyes; I knew too well that we knew each other so well.
Now that I am back in your loving arms, I hope that this is where I belong.
I hope you are here with me to stay otherwise you can go away.
My heart and mind can only write about whether our love is right or wrong.
This is how I feel about you, my love is strong enough for you but please be honest with me if you can't stay with me.
Sometimes action speaks louder than words.
When hurt me you told me how you felt at the time about me.
You made it very clear that you did not love me anymore.
You were the only man I loved, I still do.
You locked my heart now you have opened it back again.
I have always held the key for you, rightly or wrongly I always will but not if you hurt me and lock my heart again. 8.9.2002
I have given you your last chance to be.
I did not except to be loving you again, it just happened because I love you so much.
Your forgiven this once but hurt me again no matter how hard it hurt me to let you go, I will have to let you go.
How lucky you are to get me back, you have taken this chance.
Don't let me don't because there will be no going back.
You only live once; you will end up a lonely old man if you let me down again.
If you are not careful someone else could step into your shoes, you don't want that do you?
Whatever came over you to go off with her in the first place?
Whatever has got into me to go back to you?
The answer is that I love you.
What does it matter what happened in the past, now we will look to the future.
I look into your eyes; I knew too well that we knew each other so well.
Now that I am back in your loving arms, I hope that this is where I belong.
I hope you are here with me to stay otherwise you can go away.
My heart and mind can only write about whether our love is right or wrong.
This is how I feel about you, my love is strong enough for you but please be honest with me if you can't stay with me.
Sometimes action speaks louder than words.
When hurt me you told me how you felt at the time about me.
You made it very clear that you did not love me anymore.
You were the only man I loved, I still do.
You locked my heart now you have opened it back again.
I have always held the key for you, rightly or wrongly I always will but not if you hurt me and lock my heart again. 8.9.2002
Hunting horse.
Hunting horse of the night.
The birds flying at such a height.
The army running out to fright for their country and their lives.
Ships sailing on the rough sea on a rough windy night not a pretty site.
Hunting for food for children and wives. 8.9.2002
Life two.
Bare winter trees without leaves.
Summer starting and ending so quickly.
No flowers in a glass, just mud.
Loads of snow or no snow to make a snowman.
Birds not to be seen, only robins singing as they fly and flap their wings.
Other birds keep themselves warm hiding until the spring.
Children playing in the snow passing the days away into the Christmas holidays.
Christmas bells ringing and people singing for the white Christmas season.
Keep your eyes closed children Father Christmas is on his way to give your presents on Christmas day. 8.9.2002
putting on a brave face.
I used to sit with my head in my hands.
I wanted to hide away from the world.
I did not want to hear or seen the world anymore.
I felt like knocking my head on the brick wall.
When I lost the man I loved so much, I found it so hard to move on.
When people looked at me, I always thought I'd done something wrong. 25.1.2002
Hunting horse of the night.
The birds flying at such a height.
The army running out to fright for their country and their lives.
Ships sailing on the rough sea on a rough windy night not a pretty site.
Hunting for food for children and wives. 8.9.2002
Life two.
Bare winter trees without leaves.
Summer starting and ending so quickly.
No flowers in a glass, just mud.
Loads of snow or no snow to make a snowman.
Birds not to be seen, only robins singing as they fly and flap their wings.
Other birds keep themselves warm hiding until the spring.
Children playing in the snow passing the days away into the Christmas holidays.
Christmas bells ringing and people singing for the white Christmas season.
Keep your eyes closed children Father Christmas is on his way to give your presents on Christmas day. 8.9.2002
putting on a brave face.
I used to sit with my head in my hands.
I wanted to hide away from the world.
I did not want to hear or seen the world anymore.
I felt like knocking my head on the brick wall.
When I lost the man I loved so much, I found it so hard to move on.
When people looked at me, I always thought I'd done something wrong. 25.1.2002
The way to live.
Rest
food
breath
warmth
love 8.9.2002
picking myself up.
I felt as if the whole world was coming down on me.
I never thought I'd get used being with and without the one I love.
I never thought he's love me again.
It was hard to love someone else after loving him so long.
Deep down I knew I loved him.
He was so lucky to get me back, if I did not love him I would not have gone back.
It was hard to put a brave face on.
It's hard to stop loving him. 25.1.2002
You.
You bring me happiness.
You give me love.
You tell me wonderful things that I dream about every night.
You give me lovely thoughts to think about the day.
Hoping that our future lies together.
I hope our love will grow every day in every way.
To have fun and romance with you is all I want to do. 8.9.2002
Rest
food
breath
warmth
love 8.9.2002
picking myself up.
I felt as if the whole world was coming down on me.
I never thought I'd get used being with and without the one I love.
I never thought he's love me again.
It was hard to love someone else after loving him so long.
Deep down I knew I loved him.
He was so lucky to get me back, if I did not love him I would not have gone back.
It was hard to put a brave face on.
It's hard to stop loving him. 25.1.2002
You.
You bring me happiness.
You give me love.
You tell me wonderful things that I dream about every night.
You give me lovely thoughts to think about the day.
Hoping that our future lies together.
I hope our love will grow every day in every way.
To have fun and romance with you is all I want to do. 8.9.2002
Words.
To sound sweet music.
Resting by a warm fire.
Sleep to dream about nice things.
Riding a horse through the water on a hot summer's day.
Some dreams come true but others don't.
The cool warm air is so good for you.
In the winter the river is flowing dry through the cold, in the summer flows wet again.
Words could mean anything from the heart and mind.
Words can be said for and written down without thinking about it most of the time. 8.9.2002
the weather.
The sunshine
the blowing wind
the stars of the night
the voice that egos through the wild wind of the night.
Being sheltered under the hut from rain.
The gates blowing back and to from the wind.
No wild wind or rain, it's time to play.
I hear someone calling me.
Day light there's not a star in the sky but may be a cloud in the sky.
The shadow is following me.
Who could it be? 8.9.2002
to feel.
I need to feel I am next to you.
I love you.
You are mine to be.
I've known you far too long to stop loving you.
Your face is with me when I don't see you.
I remember you all the time. 8.9.2002
To sound sweet music.
Resting by a warm fire.
Sleep to dream about nice things.
Riding a horse through the water on a hot summer's day.
Some dreams come true but others don't.
The cool warm air is so good for you.
In the winter the river is flowing dry through the cold, in the summer flows wet again.
Words could mean anything from the heart and mind.
Words can be said for and written down without thinking about it most of the time. 8.9.2002
the weather.
The sunshine
the blowing wind
the stars of the night
the voice that egos through the wild wind of the night.
Being sheltered under the hut from rain.
The gates blowing back and to from the wind.
No wild wind or rain, it's time to play.
I hear someone calling me.
Day light there's not a star in the sky but may be a cloud in the sky.
The shadow is following me.
Who could it be? 8.9.2002
to feel.
I need to feel I am next to you.
I love you.
You are mine to be.
I've known you far too long to stop loving you.
Your face is with me when I don't see you.
I remember you all the time. 8.9.2002
Me.
Sometimes I feel alone.
I don't always feel happy.
This is not over I just don't feel well.
You can't be happy all the time but you can't be sad all the time.
I am happy with you. 8.9.2002
Time to sleep.
When it's time to sleep, I dream nice things about you.
I don't want a lot of money, just enough for food, clothes, etc and to be with you.9.4.2002
The Queen Mother.
Queen Mother of England's Mum, Granny, great Granny and friend to us all.
Most of us may not like the Royals; she was the mail lady to love in this generation.
She was a very special for us, who worked and lived through the two world wars.
In health and wealth, not many of us will live as long as she did.
There would not be this world without her.
It’s seemed strange without her but she lived to be a good age 1001.
I hope she will rest in peace.
She has earned her sleep.
She will be missed by us all. 9.4.2002
Children of today.
You can never bring your children up how you were bought up; you'd be breaking the law.
It's not easy because some children can push you over the edge.
What is the world coming to?
World war 3.
There's no respect for any of us. 2002 onwards.
Epilepsy.
If this is not epilepsy again, what is it?
Why have I not felt well for twelve months or so?
What's wrong with me?
My head is aching like someone has put a bomb inside it.
I keep getting electric shock, storms like water mixing with wires.
I have been feeling sick, dizzy, and shaky and my head feels heavy.
Flashing lights are worse and when the sun gets into my eyes.
When opening my eyes, it's like my eyes flicker at anything flashing as if I am going blind.
Loud knocks and fireworks scar the life out me; I jump out my skin on Bonfire night. 26.5.2002
my love.
My love is lost completely without you.
My future is nothing without you.
When I lost you it was true, I was having a nightmare.
I could never see what was going to happen.
I did not know where I was going to end up.
I can't get lost again: I have found you again.
I needed you more when you were not there but still your here now.
How did we find and lose one another in the first place?
Now that you are back I am very happy again.
How did we meet to love again?
It just happened, I am so glad it did.
I hope you are here to stay this time. 26.5.2002
Sometimes I feel alone.
I don't always feel happy.
This is not over I just don't feel well.
You can't be happy all the time but you can't be sad all the time.
I am happy with you. 8.9.2002
Time to sleep.
When it's time to sleep, I dream nice things about you.
I don't want a lot of money, just enough for food, clothes, etc and to be with you.9.4.2002
The Queen Mother.
Queen Mother of England's Mum, Granny, great Granny and friend to us all.
Most of us may not like the Royals; she was the mail lady to love in this generation.
She was a very special for us, who worked and lived through the two world wars.
In health and wealth, not many of us will live as long as she did.
There would not be this world without her.
It’s seemed strange without her but she lived to be a good age 1001.
I hope she will rest in peace.
She has earned her sleep.
She will be missed by us all. 9.4.2002
Children of today.
You can never bring your children up how you were bought up; you'd be breaking the law.
It's not easy because some children can push you over the edge.
What is the world coming to?
World war 3.
There's no respect for any of us. 2002 onwards.
Epilepsy.
If this is not epilepsy again, what is it?
Why have I not felt well for twelve months or so?
What's wrong with me?
My head is aching like someone has put a bomb inside it.
I keep getting electric shock, storms like water mixing with wires.
I have been feeling sick, dizzy, and shaky and my head feels heavy.
Flashing lights are worse and when the sun gets into my eyes.
When opening my eyes, it's like my eyes flicker at anything flashing as if I am going blind.
Loud knocks and fireworks scar the life out me; I jump out my skin on Bonfire night. 26.5.2002
my love.
My love is lost completely without you.
My future is nothing without you.
When I lost you it was true, I was having a nightmare.
I could never see what was going to happen.
I did not know where I was going to end up.
I can't get lost again: I have found you again.
I needed you more when you were not there but still your here now.
How did we find and lose one another in the first place?
Now that you are back I am very happy again.
How did we meet to love again?
It just happened, I am so glad it did.
I hope you are here to stay this time. 26.5.2002
Life three.
It makes you wonder why we were ever born.
It makes you wonder why there is a world.
Is there a god in this world, if so where is he?
He makes people then breaks people.
Why does he bother at all?
His just waists his own hard work.
I remember my childhood and teenage years as if it was yesterday.
Yesterday has gone, now it's today, its come and gone too quickly.
When I was twenty- three I started writing my life story.
It's taken me a long time to write one single line.
My memory and mind goes blank to know what to write all the time. 26.5.2002
It makes you wonder why we were ever born.
It makes you wonder why there is a world.
Is there a god in this world, if so where is he?
He makes people then breaks people.
Why does he bother at all?
His just waists his own hard work.
I remember my childhood and teenage years as if it was yesterday.
Yesterday has gone, now it's today, its come and gone too quickly.
When I was twenty- three I started writing my life story.
It's taken me a long time to write one single line.
My memory and mind goes blank to know what to write all the time. 26.5.2002
Cat and owner.
The cat smelled a tin of whiskers' Super meat' as he was eating it while his owner drank a pint of lager, faggots, chips and peas.
The cat stared at his owner as if to say.
“Your food looks better than mine."
When they had both finished their food, the owner of the cat took off his Docs off his as he put on his slippers as he sat in the chair and put his feet on the poof.
He sat the cat on his lap.
The smell of food from both of them was still around.
The cat got off his owner's lap as he heard a nose; he looked through the window, shot through the open window as he saw an angry dog with sharp teeth that attacked him.
The owner put his coat, shoes and went to the pub for another pint of larger.
The cat became very restless while he was out.
So Mr Owner took off his coat and jumper, suddenly he saw his cat in the pub with his fur covered with blood so he took his cat home and called the vet.
The morning he bought a parrot, who kept on telling him that he had too much beer. Mr Owner put his feet up, he had not shut the cage well enough so he peaking the slippers of Mr Owner's feet while he was a sleep.
He bought the cat some fish then put it in a dish so Mr Owner ended up eating fish and chips.
For reason at night time the cat was restless wanting to in and out. Mr Owner called him a pain.
The cat smelled a tin of whiskers' Super meat' as he was eating it while his owner drank a pint of lager, faggots, chips and peas.
The cat stared at his owner as if to say.
“Your food looks better than mine."
When they had both finished their food, the owner of the cat took off his Docs off his as he put on his slippers as he sat in the chair and put his feet on the poof.
He sat the cat on his lap.
The smell of food from both of them was still around.
The cat got off his owner's lap as he heard a nose; he looked through the window, shot through the open window as he saw an angry dog with sharp teeth that attacked him.
The owner put his coat, shoes and went to the pub for another pint of larger.
The cat became very restless while he was out.
So Mr Owner took off his coat and jumper, suddenly he saw his cat in the pub with his fur covered with blood so he took his cat home and called the vet.
The morning he bought a parrot, who kept on telling him that he had too much beer. Mr Owner put his feet up, he had not shut the cage well enough so he peaking the slippers of Mr Owner's feet while he was a sleep.
He bought the cat some fish then put it in a dish so Mr Owner ended up eating fish and chips.
For reason at night time the cat was restless wanting to in and out. Mr Owner called him a pain.
Up to date Cinderella.
Up to date Cinderella lived in a flat on Merry Hill, Warstones Wolverhampton, it was no castle. Up to date Cinderella always seemed to be in rags, she never seemed to have a fella. Her Mother always seemed to nag about doing the house work. That's all she did, she never seemed to have a life of her own. She never seemed to have any other clothes.
The up to date Fairy God Mother bought up to date Cinderella some very nice clothes, short tops, miniskirts, a black dress, black tights and a fur coat. It was a cold night so up to date Cinderella wore a black dress, tights and not forgetting black shoes.
" Where am I going up to date Fairy God Mother?"
" you’re going to the Wagons and Horses on the Cannock road."
" That's a bit common but it's better than no where at all."
" Like hell it is up date Cinderella, you will be travelling on the Travel West Midlands bus."
" Oh well that's nether polish or common?"
" Who will I be meeting by the way?"
" You will be able to get to know a group of people."
Up to date Cinderella caught the 6.00pm to the rough bus in Wolverhampton, then she was off on 6.30pm bus to the Cannock road. The up to date Fairly God Mother introduced up to date Cinderella to a lot of people but she saw Prince Spanish Antonio giving her the eye, she took no notice until he kissed at 11.40pm and took to the bus stop. She started to feel very merry at the end of the night.
Up to Date Cinderella’s Mother went mad when she saw the drunken state she was in.
The next morning up to date Cinderella went to town to do some shopping for her Mother. She saw the handsome man waving at her as he kindly bought her back her fur coat she left in the pub the night before because she rushed off for the last bus. He asked her out for a drink and he asked her for her mobile number as well.
It turned out they were together fifteen years on and off.
Up to date Cinderella lived in a flat on Merry Hill, Warstones Wolverhampton, it was no castle. Up to date Cinderella always seemed to be in rags, she never seemed to have a fella. Her Mother always seemed to nag about doing the house work. That's all she did, she never seemed to have a life of her own. She never seemed to have any other clothes.
The up to date Fairy God Mother bought up to date Cinderella some very nice clothes, short tops, miniskirts, a black dress, black tights and a fur coat. It was a cold night so up to date Cinderella wore a black dress, tights and not forgetting black shoes.
" Where am I going up to date Fairy God Mother?"
" you’re going to the Wagons and Horses on the Cannock road."
" That's a bit common but it's better than no where at all."
" Like hell it is up date Cinderella, you will be travelling on the Travel West Midlands bus."
" Oh well that's nether polish or common?"
" Who will I be meeting by the way?"
" You will be able to get to know a group of people."
Up to date Cinderella caught the 6.00pm to the rough bus in Wolverhampton, then she was off on 6.30pm bus to the Cannock road. The up to date Fairly God Mother introduced up to date Cinderella to a lot of people but she saw Prince Spanish Antonio giving her the eye, she took no notice until he kissed at 11.40pm and took to the bus stop. She started to feel very merry at the end of the night.
Up to Date Cinderella’s Mother went mad when she saw the drunken state she was in.
The next morning up to date Cinderella went to town to do some shopping for her Mother. She saw the handsome man waving at her as he kindly bought her back her fur coat she left in the pub the night before because she rushed off for the last bus. He asked her out for a drink and he asked her for her mobile number as well.
It turned out they were together fifteen years on and off.
The
future is anyone's guess.
No one can say who with and how you’re going to spend your old age with.
We should stop living in dream world and let life live and be.
Thinking that live is always going to be the same; we are just failing ourselves hoping for too much.
Never say never but if you do say never, never say never forever.
It's too easy to think the next person is going to be like the last but never think that.
Forgive if you can but start a fresh and forget the past.
If that forgiveness does not work start something fresh and new.
We all make mistakes but please try not to keep making the same mistakes 2000 onwards
when we first got together.
When I first looked at you I wanted you.
You knew I wanted you.
The butterflies flew through my stomach.
How it broke my heart when we broke up.
I missed you so much.
When I saw you with her our love turned to hate.
Everyone must have thought I was mad loving you as much as I did.
I madly took you back because I missed you so much. 2001
No one can say who with and how you’re going to spend your old age with.
We should stop living in dream world and let life live and be.
Thinking that live is always going to be the same; we are just failing ourselves hoping for too much.
Never say never but if you do say never, never say never forever.
It's too easy to think the next person is going to be like the last but never think that.
Forgive if you can but start a fresh and forget the past.
If that forgiveness does not work start something fresh and new.
We all make mistakes but please try not to keep making the same mistakes 2000 onwards
when we first got together.
When I first looked at you I wanted you.
You knew I wanted you.
The butterflies flew through my stomach.
How it broke my heart when we broke up.
I missed you so much.
When I saw you with her our love turned to hate.
Everyone must have thought I was mad loving you as much as I did.
I madly took you back because I missed you so much. 2001
Yesterday
was another day.
Yesterday was another so just forget what happened if it was a bad day?
Today is what counts so dust yourself down and start all over again.
Tomorrow could be good or bad so just get through today.
There are plenty of days to come but make the most of the good days because they don't last forever. 2000.
Life alone.
You are my friend when I get home my table, chair, radio, computer and television.
My sink, cupboards, toaster, fridge, cooker, microwave and food.
Toilet, sink, bath and shower.
Bed, dressing table, bed side lamp, book, clock, television and wardrobe. 2000 onwards
What would it be like to see nobody?
It would be a lonely world to see nothing and nobody.
The thing is though that you will have nobody to answer you back.
The bad thing is that there will be no one to talk to.
It's dark when you are alone.
Sometimes you do more on your own.
Other times you need help in life. 2000 onwards
Yesterday was another so just forget what happened if it was a bad day?
Today is what counts so dust yourself down and start all over again.
Tomorrow could be good or bad so just get through today.
There are plenty of days to come but make the most of the good days because they don't last forever. 2000.
Life alone.
You are my friend when I get home my table, chair, radio, computer and television.
My sink, cupboards, toaster, fridge, cooker, microwave and food.
Toilet, sink, bath and shower.
Bed, dressing table, bed side lamp, book, clock, television and wardrobe. 2000 onwards
What would it be like to see nobody?
It would be a lonely world to see nothing and nobody.
The thing is though that you will have nobody to answer you back.
The bad thing is that there will be no one to talk to.
It's dark when you are alone.
Sometimes you do more on your own.
Other times you need help in life. 2000 onwards
Nobody
ever goes away.
You sleep beside me.
You move around my bed.
You keep me strong no matter what happens in my life.
Where would I be without you?
Just let me think your there even if you may not.
I need to be strong to get through in life.
You may not be anyone but when I don't want people to answer me back you don't.
You are not anyone, you just my voice be heard.
I talk to myself; people may think I am mad so what?
I only talk to myself about the things that don't get agreed with. 2000 onwards.
You sleep beside me.
You move around my bed.
You keep me strong no matter what happens in my life.
Where would I be without you?
Just let me think your there even if you may not.
I need to be strong to get through in life.
You may not be anyone but when I don't want people to answer me back you don't.
You are not anyone, you just my voice be heard.
I talk to myself; people may think I am mad so what?
I only talk to myself about the things that don't get agreed with. 2000 onwards.
Life
it's self.
Whatever you have got good keep hold of it.
Take chances that are good that you don't very often get.
Try not to do anything bad that you wish you had not.
Think very carefully before you do anything, it may seem good at the time but turn out a bad idea in the end. 2000 onwards.
Whatever you have got good keep hold of it.
Take chances that are good that you don't very often get.
Try not to do anything bad that you wish you had not.
Think very carefully before you do anything, it may seem good at the time but turn out a bad idea in the end. 2000 onwards.
Old
life.
It's a sad case living on the streets?
Who are they and how did they get there in the first place?
Why are they on the streets?
Most people are sitting outside shops asking for money.
Blankets and getting drunk to keep warm.
Asking for money for food and drink outside cafes. 2000 onwards.
Too much to drink.
You can't remember a thing.
You can't remember what you had said or done.
When people tell you the next day, with some people you don't know whether they are telling you the truth or not.
How do you know whether you have good friends or not? 2000 onwards.
The writing office.
To be able to choose your own hours would be a great idea.
Nice and warm but costly.
Just work in the quiet.
Make your own free time and see people you know.
Write poems, stories and study.
Become self employed.
Only answer to the publishers. 2000 onwards.
It's a sad case living on the streets?
Who are they and how did they get there in the first place?
Why are they on the streets?
Most people are sitting outside shops asking for money.
Blankets and getting drunk to keep warm.
Asking for money for food and drink outside cafes. 2000 onwards.
Too much to drink.
You can't remember a thing.
You can't remember what you had said or done.
When people tell you the next day, with some people you don't know whether they are telling you the truth or not.
How do you know whether you have good friends or not? 2000 onwards.
The writing office.
To be able to choose your own hours would be a great idea.
Nice and warm but costly.
Just work in the quiet.
Make your own free time and see people you know.
Write poems, stories and study.
Become self employed.
Only answer to the publishers. 2000 onwards.
How
can you think when you drink?
How can you think when you’re drunk, it beats me?
How can you write when you are drunk other than feeling drunk?
You could write about feeling drunk.
Start work again when you are sober.
Anyone writing when they are drunk can't think, write and walk straight.
I have a job thinking when I am sober let alone when I am drunk. 2000 onwards.
How drinking can wreck your life.
Drinking can wreck your family.
Drinking can wreck you as a person.
Drinking can wreck marriages, relationship and friendships.
Drinking can wreck jobs and careers.
May be just having one night in a while to get drunk. 2000 onwards.
How can you think when you’re drunk, it beats me?
How can you write when you are drunk other than feeling drunk?
You could write about feeling drunk.
Start work again when you are sober.
Anyone writing when they are drunk can't think, write and walk straight.
I have a job thinking when I am sober let alone when I am drunk. 2000 onwards.
How drinking can wreck your life.
Drinking can wreck your family.
Drinking can wreck you as a person.
Drinking can wreck marriages, relationship and friendships.
Drinking can wreck jobs and careers.
May be just having one night in a while to get drunk. 2000 onwards.
Drinking.
A lot of people like a drink but drinking too much are not good for anyone.
Once in a blue moon have a heavy night out.
As long as you’re not drunk every night of the week.
The effects of drinking are not worth it.
Bad head, bad leg, being and feeling sick.
You can pay the price for a long while for being drunk.
Problems are still there the next day but drained away with drink at the time. 2000 onwards.
It happens.
When you meet someone you could fall in love.
When you break up one's heart breaks another.
You seem to think the person who has hurt you has not got any feelings at all but that are not always a case if there's a good reason for the break up.
Some people feel guilty when they hurt people if they love them, it just so happens it's not always to be.
The most common reasons for ended love are that you may not have given one another a great deal of time to get to know one another.
It's also agreed that most people don't feel any guilt at all.2000 onwards.
I am no one special.
I should think no one not even my family know how to take me.
I am not very bright but most of the time I can think of things to write.
I know I need to be strong enough not to care about what people think about me. 2000 onwards.
A lot of people like a drink but drinking too much are not good for anyone.
Once in a blue moon have a heavy night out.
As long as you’re not drunk every night of the week.
The effects of drinking are not worth it.
Bad head, bad leg, being and feeling sick.
You can pay the price for a long while for being drunk.
Problems are still there the next day but drained away with drink at the time. 2000 onwards.
It happens.
When you meet someone you could fall in love.
When you break up one's heart breaks another.
You seem to think the person who has hurt you has not got any feelings at all but that are not always a case if there's a good reason for the break up.
Some people feel guilty when they hurt people if they love them, it just so happens it's not always to be.
The most common reasons for ended love are that you may not have given one another a great deal of time to get to know one another.
It's also agreed that most people don't feel any guilt at all.2000 onwards.
I am no one special.
I should think no one not even my family know how to take me.
I am not very bright but most of the time I can think of things to write.
I know I need to be strong enough not to care about what people think about me. 2000 onwards.
Not
everyone is lucky enough.
Not everyone is lucky to be famous or see themselves famous.
Being famous is not always lucky enough because it's not all what it cuts out to be.
These people have a lot of money but it does not mean they have enough time to spend it because they spend two hours working.
I can't say I will be famous but if I don't see my world shown to the world then my money will go to my family.
My work is not that good I can’t see myself been famous but never says ever.
I say the same about my career as I do for loving someone, never build my hopes up but never say never. 2000 onwards.
I love you.
I love you for you, don't you forget I do.
I would like you to think that you love me for me too.
You should not love a person for what you can get out them.
I will help you if you help me.
I want you to understand me like I understand you.
I want you to bring me up not bring me down.
I want to find more friends to go out with so you can go out with your friends.
I want to change the kind of person I am but it just takes time.
We must listen to one another.
We must stop hurting one another! 2000 onwards
Not everyone is lucky to be famous or see themselves famous.
Being famous is not always lucky enough because it's not all what it cuts out to be.
These people have a lot of money but it does not mean they have enough time to spend it because they spend two hours working.
I can't say I will be famous but if I don't see my world shown to the world then my money will go to my family.
My work is not that good I can’t see myself been famous but never says ever.
I say the same about my career as I do for loving someone, never build my hopes up but never say never. 2000 onwards.
I love you.
I love you for you, don't you forget I do.
I would like you to think that you love me for me too.
You should not love a person for what you can get out them.
I will help you if you help me.
I want you to understand me like I understand you.
I want you to bring me up not bring me down.
I want to find more friends to go out with so you can go out with your friends.
I want to change the kind of person I am but it just takes time.
We must listen to one another.
We must stop hurting one another! 2000 onwards
Some or all poems
at all different times.
My early piece of
work. These poems were
written at different times in my life, which started with words coming out of
my mind of how I was feeling those different times. A lot of the time, my mind
was all over the place. A lot of these thoughts I don't have any more.
Joyful happy love.
I hope forever love.
We went everywhere together.
We should have loved forever.
I don't think he will now love me never.
Joy and peace for life.
Without one another my happiness has end so it will never mend.
To be lonely is not me.
To love one another even through sadness and shame.
I will love someone one day for the birds to sing in the sky in the spring.
I should be able to hear the voice of love right over hear.
Sing out about love clear!
1998.
I must say sorry to how my mind was working back then. This was a time I thought love would forever.
Heart of gold.
A heart of gold is a heart of love.
To be a good woman and good man.
To show your love to one another in the best possible way until you dyeing day.
Eternal love did not last at all.
Eternal love towards engagement and marriage forever more. 1989.
Joyful happy love.
I hope forever love.
We went everywhere together.
We should have loved forever.
I don't think he will now love me never.
Joy and peace for life.
Without one another my happiness has end so it will never mend.
To be lonely is not me.
To love one another even through sadness and shame.
I will love someone one day for the birds to sing in the sky in the spring.
I should be able to hear the voice of love right over hear.
Sing out about love clear!
1998.
I must say sorry to how my mind was working back then. This was a time I thought love would forever.
Heart of gold.
A heart of gold is a heart of love.
To be a good woman and good man.
To show your love to one another in the best possible way until you dyeing day.
Eternal love did not last at all.
Eternal love towards engagement and marriage forever more. 1989.
Words.
Words that go through your mind.
Words could mean anything at all.
When I am a long words go through my head.
Some words can't wait to be said so they have to be written.
Sometimes words don't want to be said.
Some words can be frightened to be said. Mid 20th century to 21st century.
I am finding it hard to come to terms that you have gone to heaven.
I wish you peace in heaven because you did not have any peace on earth.
You were and always be a very special Grandmother to me.
It has not been the same since you have gone but life goes on.
I know you would not want us to live in sadness but in happiness.
My future is my career, love and friendship to be.
It does not mean think that the family does not think about but we understand now you want peace from the pain you had. 25.8.2007
Words that go through your mind.
Words could mean anything at all.
When I am a long words go through my head.
Some words can't wait to be said so they have to be written.
Sometimes words don't want to be said.
Some words can be frightened to be said. Mid 20th century to 21st century.
I am finding it hard to come to terms that you have gone to heaven.
I wish you peace in heaven because you did not have any peace on earth.
You were and always be a very special Grandmother to me.
It has not been the same since you have gone but life goes on.
I know you would not want us to live in sadness but in happiness.
My future is my career, love and friendship to be.
It does not mean think that the family does not think about but we understand now you want peace from the pain you had. 25.8.2007
To my lovely Nan.
It was such a delight to have you around in my life.
The first memory I can remember have been with you, was when you took me to the caravan in Wales.
Uncle David only drove as far as the Victoria hotel in Wolverhampton, I asked.
" Are we nearly there?"
I am so sorry that I was such hard work for you.
Thank you for looking after me.
Even now I feel as if you are still looking after me.
I will treasure you and the memories I had with you with love.
You have always been and always will be a very special Nan.
Why do I have to let you know how I feel when it's too late?
You never know who and what you have lost until you have lost them or it.
You are my special Nan because you were there from when I was born.
It was hard to believe that one day you would have to say good bye, now that you have I miss you every day.
You were more than special, you were bright.
It's hard to believe that this is the first Christmas and your first birthday that I won't be seeing you. 25.8.2007
It was such a delight to have you around in my life.
The first memory I can remember have been with you, was when you took me to the caravan in Wales.
Uncle David only drove as far as the Victoria hotel in Wolverhampton, I asked.
" Are we nearly there?"
I am so sorry that I was such hard work for you.
Thank you for looking after me.
Even now I feel as if you are still looking after me.
I will treasure you and the memories I had with you with love.
You have always been and always will be a very special Nan.
Why do I have to let you know how I feel when it's too late?
You never know who and what you have lost until you have lost them or it.
You are my special Nan because you were there from when I was born.
It was hard to believe that one day you would have to say good bye, now that you have I miss you every day.
You were more than special, you were bright.
It's hard to believe that this is the first Christmas and your first birthday that I won't be seeing you. 25.8.2007
I hope your pain has gone.
I hope your pain has gone now Nan.
I hope heaven is more peaceful for you than earth was.
All your friends and family have very special thoughts for you.
We all miss you here on earth.
Life is not the same without you Nan.
Nothing more has made me feel sad other than knowing that I miss you not being here.
I will never forget you but it's time to move on because I know I will never see you here like I used to.
As much as I miss you, I hope your pain has gone. 25.8.2007
People says I look young.
People say I look young, if I do Nan it's all down to you.
A majority of people say I look like you.
If I do look like you, I am the happiest woman in the world Nan.
You have always been the best Nan in the world and always will.25.8.2007
I hope your pain has gone now Nan.
I hope heaven is more peaceful for you than earth was.
All your friends and family have very special thoughts for you.
We all miss you here on earth.
Life is not the same without you Nan.
Nothing more has made me feel sad other than knowing that I miss you not being here.
I will never forget you but it's time to move on because I know I will never see you here like I used to.
As much as I miss you, I hope your pain has gone. 25.8.2007
People says I look young.
People say I look young, if I do Nan it's all down to you.
A majority of people say I look like you.
If I do look like you, I am the happiest woman in the world Nan.
You have always been the best Nan in the world and always will.25.8.2007
No one kinder than Nan.
There is no one kinder than you, Nan.
I am so lucky to have such a lovely Nan.
Now that you are at peace, there are no words to explain how much I miss you.
Thank you for giving me the happiest times of all. 25.8.2007.
Everything will be a crime.
The way the world is going now, everything does and say will be a crime.
Even picking ones' nose will be a crime, it may be a bad thing but it should not be a crime.
Once a upon a time, yes we had rules but we also had a three country.
Now it's just non - stop rules in the country.
Now there does not seem to be any freedom in the country.
The government cuts like a knife.
This sick government is killing us all.
No wonder people like Jim Hendrix's killed himself.
Life was bad enough then but worse now. 1997 to 2009
Why don't you come down to mine often?
You don't come down to mine in the pouring rain.
Come down when the sun starts to shine!
There is no one kinder than you, Nan.
I am so lucky to have such a lovely Nan.
Now that you are at peace, there are no words to explain how much I miss you.
Thank you for giving me the happiest times of all. 25.8.2007.
Everything will be a crime.
The way the world is going now, everything does and say will be a crime.
Even picking ones' nose will be a crime, it may be a bad thing but it should not be a crime.
Once a upon a time, yes we had rules but we also had a three country.
Now it's just non - stop rules in the country.
Now there does not seem to be any freedom in the country.
The government cuts like a knife.
This sick government is killing us all.
No wonder people like Jim Hendrix's killed himself.
Life was bad enough then but worse now. 1997 to 2009
Why don't you come down to mine often?
You don't come down to mine in the pouring rain.
Come down when the sun starts to shine!
Why
not make a night in my private home?
You can sleep and dream until the morning light. 2001 to 2007.
Looking forward not back.
I must look forward not back.
I must not hang around looking at the past.
I must stand on my feet not where I am not wanted.
I should be just fine to look after my new lover and friend in a friendship and hopefully relationship that will never end. 1997 -2000
You can sleep and dream until the morning light. 2001 to 2007.
Looking forward not back.
I must look forward not back.
I must not hang around looking at the past.
I must stand on my feet not where I am not wanted.
I should be just fine to look after my new lover and friend in a friendship and hopefully relationship that will never end. 1997 -2000
I'm frightened to love but frightened of losing love.
I am so frightened to love again.
I have had so many guys that have messed up my head.
I will be brave one day to love again; you’re the only man that makes me feel love again.
I have always had hope at the back of my mind that you will mine.
I can't help the way I feel about you, I think I am falling towards you.
Please don't play on the way I feel about you because I have had too guys who have done that before.
Please don't treat me like a bouncing ball because I am human like you!
I know I am not wonder woman but I will do anything I can for you.
Can we please slow this relationship down?
We have only known one another five minutes.
With any luck we might make it. 1997 - 2000
I wish love was forever.
I wish love was forever on earth and in heaven.
I was so wrong to think love is forever.
I was so wrong to wish love is forever.
I must be strong enough to accept that love is not forever. 1997
I am so frightened to love again.
I have had so many guys that have messed up my head.
I will be brave one day to love again; you’re the only man that makes me feel love again.
I have always had hope at the back of my mind that you will mine.
I can't help the way I feel about you, I think I am falling towards you.
Please don't play on the way I feel about you because I have had too guys who have done that before.
Please don't treat me like a bouncing ball because I am human like you!
I know I am not wonder woman but I will do anything I can for you.
Can we please slow this relationship down?
We have only known one another five minutes.
With any luck we might make it. 1997 - 2000
I wish love was forever.
I wish love was forever on earth and in heaven.
I was so wrong to think love is forever.
I was so wrong to wish love is forever.
I must be strong enough to accept that love is not forever. 1997
Will you stay with me?
Will you stay with me, and then everything is mine and yours to share?
Please stay with me; I love you more than just a true friend!
All my life I have been going round in circles.
Men have driven me round the bend.
I need someone to stay with me until the end.
Please don't cheat on me like many of the others, I have had enough!
He was such a loser going off with another woman.
He's off his head, what earth does he see in her?
Please don't rush into a relationship with me?
So many men have played with my feelings. 1997 - 2000
My worries are over.
My worries are over!
What am I thinking about?
I am now with you, only you I have to think about.
Stress from my ex lovers I have got my anger out.
No more talking about my ex lovers.
Just say hello and good bye when they walk passed.
I will close the door on bad rubbish.
I have no worries no more. 22.8.2000
Will you stay with me, and then everything is mine and yours to share?
Please stay with me; I love you more than just a true friend!
All my life I have been going round in circles.
Men have driven me round the bend.
I need someone to stay with me until the end.
Please don't cheat on me like many of the others, I have had enough!
He was such a loser going off with another woman.
He's off his head, what earth does he see in her?
Please don't rush into a relationship with me?
So many men have played with my feelings. 1997 - 2000
My worries are over.
My worries are over!
What am I thinking about?
I am now with you, only you I have to think about.
Stress from my ex lovers I have got my anger out.
No more talking about my ex lovers.
Just say hello and good bye when they walk passed.
I will close the door on bad rubbish.
I have no worries no more. 22.8.2000
The way of love.
You can change your mind as many times as you change your socks.
You have given me so much love yet so much hate.
It would nice to have someone who loves me for me, not someone who messes my head with dirt and rubbish.
Now I should move on and see what's round the condor from me. 1997
Love has been blind.
Love has been blind too many times.
Many times for me, love has been thrown in the bin.
I thought you were the man of dreams.
You don't love me as I thought you did.
I thought I was lucky enough to have a love like you but I was so wrong. 1997
Sheep.
Old Sheep was a Rough Coolly dog brought for my sister Holly Wood.
Sheep was a very good pet dog.
He was a lot older than the Rough Coolly we had before, his name was Baez.
Baez was just a baby; we needed to calm him down. 2000 onwards.
I can't help the way that I feel.
I am so sorry but I can't help the way that I feel about you.
I am sorry that I don't how you feel; I wish you could make up your mind what you want in life.
I am sorry I don't show my love for you but you don't show your love to me.
I am sorry about getting upset so easy; you hurt me so I hurt you.
Most of all of I am ashamed to be in love with you.
May be it would be better to finish after, it sounds as if that's what you want. 2007
Where are you going Nan?
I hope you are going to a peaceful place Nan.
You may even see the Airlie’s.
I remember Uncle Chris telling me that great Gran had gone to live with Jesus when I was little; I really believed that Jesus' house was on earth.
I remember wondering why no one would take me to see great gram.
As the years had gone by, I learned that she had gone for life.
Now life is too short to waist but it will be too long to be without you. 2007
You can change your mind as many times as you change your socks.
You have given me so much love yet so much hate.
It would nice to have someone who loves me for me, not someone who messes my head with dirt and rubbish.
Now I should move on and see what's round the condor from me. 1997
Love has been blind.
Love has been blind too many times.
Many times for me, love has been thrown in the bin.
I thought you were the man of dreams.
You don't love me as I thought you did.
I thought I was lucky enough to have a love like you but I was so wrong. 1997
Sheep.
Old Sheep was a Rough Coolly dog brought for my sister Holly Wood.
Sheep was a very good pet dog.
He was a lot older than the Rough Coolly we had before, his name was Baez.
Baez was just a baby; we needed to calm him down. 2000 onwards.
I can't help the way that I feel.
I am so sorry but I can't help the way that I feel about you.
I am sorry that I don't how you feel; I wish you could make up your mind what you want in life.
I am sorry I don't show my love for you but you don't show your love to me.
I am sorry about getting upset so easy; you hurt me so I hurt you.
Most of all of I am ashamed to be in love with you.
May be it would be better to finish after, it sounds as if that's what you want. 2007
Where are you going Nan?
I hope you are going to a peaceful place Nan.
You may even see the Airlie’s.
I remember Uncle Chris telling me that great Gran had gone to live with Jesus when I was little; I really believed that Jesus' house was on earth.
I remember wondering why no one would take me to see great gram.
As the years had gone by, I learned that she had gone for life.
Now life is too short to waist but it will be too long to be without you. 2007
Life.
Life can be full of beauty and love.
We must live for the stars above.
Flowers romance and love.
The night can be dark but the day can be, that is the ups and downs of love.
Here comes the morning light when things are going good.
Here are the dark nights when things go bad.
We see beauty of flowers by the sunlight.
The love of a bright red rose that becomes far too close.
To forget lost love forever more is not always easy to do.
The law of love and beauty.
Now I won't love again as I can't love you. 1997.
Life can be full of beauty and love.
We must live for the stars above.
Flowers romance and love.
The night can be dark but the day can be, that is the ups and downs of love.
Here comes the morning light when things are going good.
Here are the dark nights when things go bad.
We see beauty of flowers by the sunlight.
The love of a bright red rose that becomes far too close.
To forget lost love forever more is not always easy to do.
The law of love and beauty.
Now I won't love again as I can't love you. 1997.
Happiest is what we want.
To want happiest is to get happiest.
Happiest starts to want inside your mind.
When happiest comes it does not always last, make the most of that.
Sadness does not last either.
There are so many changes in life from happy to sad. 1997.
Poems for the year 1998.
In 1998 to love with faith.
To started a career after love falling into a garden gate.
To love someone who loves me for me.
To make more friends.
To move on.
To enjoy life and stay forever young.
To be strong to ups and downs. 1997 - 1998.
Up to date poem.
Mobile phones
Text messages
Missed calls
Computers
Download
Save to disc
and so the list goes on.
This is what you call 21st century English.
This is the way it must be, goodness knows in future centuries what we won't see. 2007.
In 1998 to love with faith.
To started a career after love falling into a garden gate.
To love someone who loves me for me.
To make more friends.
To move on.
To enjoy life and stay forever young.
To be strong to ups and downs. 1997 - 1998.
Up to date poem.
Mobile phones
Text messages
Missed calls
Computers
Download
Save to disc
and so the list goes on.
This is what you call 21st century English.
This is the way it must be, goodness knows in future centuries what we won't see. 2007.
May be we are strange.
May be we are strange people living in a strange country, full stop.
We can't help the way we are nor can we?
We have very strange weather, rain and shine in five minutes time.
We are the weather that can't make up its mind.
Now you can't make up your mind.
May be I am as bad, what are we like?
STRANGE!
That does me to say that I am confused only because you are but you are confusing me. 2007.
Lucy.
Lucy had her kittens under the kitchen table.
What a black and white fluffy family.
They all had lovely fur. 2007.
Baz.
I remember Rough Collie Baz.
He was a wild running lad.
I used to run along the garden with him so fast.2007
May be we are strange people living in a strange country, full stop.
We can't help the way we are nor can we?
We have very strange weather, rain and shine in five minutes time.
We are the weather that can't make up its mind.
Now you can't make up your mind.
May be I am as bad, what are we like?
STRANGE!
That does me to say that I am confused only because you are but you are confusing me. 2007.
Lucy.
Lucy had her kittens under the kitchen table.
What a black and white fluffy family.
They all had lovely fur. 2007.
Baz.
I remember Rough Collie Baz.
He was a wild running lad.
I used to run along the garden with him so fast.2007
Letty.
I use to have a black cat named Letty but she had white under her chin.
Her eyes were dark green.
I don't seem to have a memory of her attacking me; she must have been very calm pus for a young child to play with.
I feel so guilty; I must have pulled her tail not understanding that I might have hurt her. 2007
Stay forever young.
Never let anything worry you.
Everything will come into place.
Let others help you!
Never let people put on you.
Climb the ladder step by step.
You will get where you want to get in the end.
Everyone will have a true friend in you.
Keep your hands and feet busy.
You will stay forever young and complete. 22.8.2000
I use to have a black cat named Letty but she had white under her chin.
Her eyes were dark green.
I don't seem to have a memory of her attacking me; she must have been very calm pus for a young child to play with.
I feel so guilty; I must have pulled her tail not understanding that I might have hurt her. 2007
Stay forever young.
Never let anything worry you.
Everything will come into place.
Let others help you!
Never let people put on you.
Climb the ladder step by step.
You will get where you want to get in the end.
Everyone will have a true friend in you.
Keep your hands and feet busy.
You will stay forever young and complete. 22.8.2000
I hate it when the clocks stop.
I hate it when the clocks have to stop but they can't go on forever.
I never know how long it is waiting for the bus.
I never whether I have missed the bus.
May be I have not got there right on time.
What if I have an appointment, will I be late for that?
Well thank goodness for batteries but not the clocks going forward and back.
I will worry about the right time when it comes. 2007
Hot Summer.
I do not mind the hot sunny days but not when it gets too hot.
If the weather is too hot it does not agree with me.
It's not easy to fall asleep in the hot weather but it can be too easy to fall asleep in the sun.
Don't forget the sun cream!
Let's protect ourselves from getting burn but let's go lovely and brown!
Let's cool down with drinking water and on our bodies!
I hate the insects that bit us in the day and night; they fly round in doors by the food.
Its causes such nasty germs.
It's nice to eat outside in the summer but not when the insects are around.
2007
I hate it when the clocks have to stop but they can't go on forever.
I never know how long it is waiting for the bus.
I never whether I have missed the bus.
May be I have not got there right on time.
What if I have an appointment, will I be late for that?
Well thank goodness for batteries but not the clocks going forward and back.
I will worry about the right time when it comes. 2007
Hot Summer.
I do not mind the hot sunny days but not when it gets too hot.
If the weather is too hot it does not agree with me.
It's not easy to fall asleep in the hot weather but it can be too easy to fall asleep in the sun.
Don't forget the sun cream!
Let's protect ourselves from getting burn but let's go lovely and brown!
Let's cool down with drinking water and on our bodies!
I hate the insects that bit us in the day and night; they fly round in doors by the food.
Its causes such nasty germs.
It's nice to eat outside in the summer but not when the insects are around.
2007
Spring is here never fear.
Today spring is not spring like summer is not summer.
We have four seasons in one day Britain.
It's been a good many years since we used to get the straight seasons we used to get.
The good thing about the spring that the birds sing and lay their eggs.
The lambs are born to jump around.
Everyone seems happy on warm spring days, which is very rare today.
I love frogs that jump around in the rain. 2007
The four seasons.
Spring
Summer
Autumn
and
winter.
One
Whole
Year
of
Days
and
Nights.2007
Today spring is not spring like summer is not summer.
We have four seasons in one day Britain.
It's been a good many years since we used to get the straight seasons we used to get.
The good thing about the spring that the birds sing and lay their eggs.
The lambs are born to jump around.
Everyone seems happy on warm spring days, which is very rare today.
I love frogs that jump around in the rain. 2007
The four seasons.
Spring
Summer
Autumn
and
winter.
One
Whole
Year
of
Days
and
Nights.2007
We should show love for one another.
It's not very often we show love for one another.
When love happens it really happens.
These days our love is so rare, I wonder if anything is anymore there.
If you don't love me anymore, please just say!
There's plenty fish in the sea I am sure.
If you still love me then let me know and show me more otherwise I will be out the door.
I'm a woman; I am frightened of making a fool of myself in case you don't have the same feelings as I do.
If you have stopped loving me, then I should be ashamed of feeling the way I do towards you.
I have no control of how I feel towards you.
I'm just so sorry that I can't do the right thing.
I find it hard to let go of you after all those years been on and off with you. 2007
It's not very often we show love for one another.
When love happens it really happens.
These days our love is so rare, I wonder if anything is anymore there.
If you don't love me anymore, please just say!
There's plenty fish in the sea I am sure.
If you still love me then let me know and show me more otherwise I will be out the door.
I'm a woman; I am frightened of making a fool of myself in case you don't have the same feelings as I do.
If you have stopped loving me, then I should be ashamed of feeling the way I do towards you.
I have no control of how I feel towards you.
I'm just so sorry that I can't do the right thing.
I find it hard to let go of you after all those years been on and off with you. 2007
The text message.
Why am I hoping that everything is alright between us when it's not?
Why am I bothering with you?
Why don't you like me, saying I love you in a text message?
Why do you act strange are you up to something?
Why are you sending and getting texts every five minutes?
Why do I feel this way about you?
Why can't I just walk out on you what you are putting me through?
Do you want me to feel this way about you?
All I know is that I am so foolish still being in love with you.
I don't know why I love you but I do.
Don't you love me anymore?
Just tell me if you don't love me anymore!
Don't mess me around in and out of a text message!
It most likely cost too much to say you love me in a text but you send enough texts out and get many back in a short amount of time.
Oh I am sorry I have said the wrong thing yet again.
There's no pleasing in you, is there?
You know I love you so much, and then you play on it.
I have a good mine to send this poem to you in a text but I don't want to encourage us to fall out again.
Sometimes you can be such hard work but as mad as it sounds I still love you. September 2007 - May 2009
Why am I hoping that everything is alright between us when it's not?
Why am I bothering with you?
Why don't you like me, saying I love you in a text message?
Why do you act strange are you up to something?
Why are you sending and getting texts every five minutes?
Why do I feel this way about you?
Why can't I just walk out on you what you are putting me through?
Do you want me to feel this way about you?
All I know is that I am so foolish still being in love with you.
I don't know why I love you but I do.
Don't you love me anymore?
Just tell me if you don't love me anymore!
Don't mess me around in and out of a text message!
It most likely cost too much to say you love me in a text but you send enough texts out and get many back in a short amount of time.
Oh I am sorry I have said the wrong thing yet again.
There's no pleasing in you, is there?
You know I love you so much, and then you play on it.
I have a good mine to send this poem to you in a text but I don't want to encourage us to fall out again.
Sometimes you can be such hard work but as mad as it sounds I still love you. September 2007 - May 2009
What will be will be?
Don't ask or hope for anything.
Just stay put.
Don't think about what to do or what not to do.
What happens?
Come on you have known him long enough.
Don't be surprised or shocked about anything or anybody.
Why don't you get out before it's too late?
Long love is too much of a drug.
Why stay where you are if you are not loved and wanted?
It's not easy to be strong enough when you have been there too long.
Come on you must be strong. September 2007 - May 2009
Don't ask or hope for anything.
Just stay put.
Don't think about what to do or what not to do.
What happens?
Come on you have known him long enough.
Don't be surprised or shocked about anything or anybody.
Why don't you get out before it's too late?
Long love is too much of a drug.
Why stay where you are if you are not loved and wanted?
It's not easy to be strong enough when you have been there too long.
Come on you must be strong. September 2007 - May 2009
We parted over a misunderstanding.
You must have known how I felt that cold Saturday September evening, when my family dug my Nan’s ashes to the ground.
Thank you very much for your support, you dumped me and I thought you loved me but I was wrong.
You must have known I was not thinking straight when I said what I said.
You must have known I did not mean what I said.
I know you will never forgive me for what I said.
You must have known that I did not mean to hurt you when I was upset myself.
You must have known very well that I still love you.
In your eyes there's no going back on what I said it's too late for everything.
What not look forward rather than going back, start a fresh.
Why do you have to be so sad?
Like I said to you I must accept what you want, it should not come as any shock or surprise to me. September 2007 - May 2009
You must have known how I felt that cold Saturday September evening, when my family dug my Nan’s ashes to the ground.
Thank you very much for your support, you dumped me and I thought you loved me but I was wrong.
You must have known I was not thinking straight when I said what I said.
You must have known I did not mean what I said.
I know you will never forgive me for what I said.
You must have known that I did not mean to hurt you when I was upset myself.
You must have known very well that I still love you.
In your eyes there's no going back on what I said it's too late for everything.
What not look forward rather than going back, start a fresh.
Why do you have to be so sad?
Like I said to you I must accept what you want, it should not come as any shock or surprise to me. September 2007 - May 2009
May be we can take it slow.
I weep so much when I don't see you, I feel so low what you put me.
I am upset over my regret; I should not have said what I said otherwise we would have been still together.
It's no good me building my hope about anything or anyone.
If you are willing to take it slow who knows what the future brings?
Don't hang me on a piece of string!
I feel so much anger inside as if someone has put a knife through me; I wish you would not do this to me! September 2007 - May 2009
No change.
I hate the cold winter time of the year, sleet, hale, snow and rain.
Christmas season costing too much again. 2007
On an autumn’s day.
I remember the leaves all over the floor as you opened the door.
You would walk through the leaves as you when to school.
I remember feeling the leaves under my feet as they touched the ground.
The trees blew in the wind from side to side as the leaves hit the ground. 2007
I weep so much when I don't see you, I feel so low what you put me.
I am upset over my regret; I should not have said what I said otherwise we would have been still together.
It's no good me building my hope about anything or anyone.
If you are willing to take it slow who knows what the future brings?
Don't hang me on a piece of string!
I feel so much anger inside as if someone has put a knife through me; I wish you would not do this to me! September 2007 - May 2009
No change.
I hate the cold winter time of the year, sleet, hale, snow and rain.
Christmas season costing too much again. 2007
On an autumn’s day.
I remember the leaves all over the floor as you opened the door.
You would walk through the leaves as you when to school.
I remember feeling the leaves under my feet as they touched the ground.
The trees blew in the wind from side to side as the leaves hit the ground. 2007
How did we get here?
Was living in this unkind life meant to be?
The way the world is going, is it worth the world carrying standing?
Society is so wrong to introduce crime to the world.
We all know that there is not any perfect world but it's getting worse.
The way it's going, people won't be able to enjoy life. 2000 - 2003
Freedom.
Today freedom is not a word that is promised.
Everyone understands Britain's rule's are over the top.
At one time people were free in Britain but not anymore.
Now we hear about too much killing and shooting on the news.
That's not what you call freedom.
Let's face it folks there's no freedom to be.
It makes us wonder why we are here at all.
There no answer to why we are here and why there is a world. 2003 onwards
new year 2003 - 2004.
Thank god Christmas is over; it costs too much for one day.
Another year to look forward to.
What's going on is anyone's guess.
I hope this a year for all of us.
I hope there will be peace not war for Iraqi.
Life will be easy and hard for us all as always.
Life does not stay the same otherwise it would be boring.
Was living in this unkind life meant to be?
The way the world is going, is it worth the world carrying standing?
Society is so wrong to introduce crime to the world.
We all know that there is not any perfect world but it's getting worse.
The way it's going, people won't be able to enjoy life. 2000 - 2003
Freedom.
Today freedom is not a word that is promised.
Everyone understands Britain's rule's are over the top.
At one time people were free in Britain but not anymore.
Now we hear about too much killing and shooting on the news.
That's not what you call freedom.
Let's face it folks there's no freedom to be.
It makes us wonder why we are here at all.
There no answer to why we are here and why there is a world. 2003 onwards
new year 2003 - 2004.
Thank god Christmas is over; it costs too much for one day.
Another year to look forward to.
What's going on is anyone's guess.
I hope this a year for all of us.
I hope there will be peace not war for Iraqi.
Life will be easy and hard for us all as always.
Life does not stay the same otherwise it would be boring.
The
hardest part is spending too much money for Christmas.
Trying to build money back up again is hard. 31, 12.2oo3
Reasons why I wrote poems.
To let you know how much I love you.
To let you know how much I miss you.
To let you know how much I think about you.
To let you know how much more I'd like to see of you.
To let you know how lovely it is to hear your voice on the telephone.
To let you know that I understand your life style.
To let you know that I am not trying to make life hard for you.
I love you; I would never say a bad word about you. 2000 – 2001
Trying to build money back up again is hard. 31, 12.2oo3
Reasons why I wrote poems.
To let you know how much I love you.
To let you know how much I miss you.
To let you know how much I think about you.
To let you know how much more I'd like to see of you.
To let you know how lovely it is to hear your voice on the telephone.
To let you know that I understand your life style.
To let you know that I am not trying to make life hard for you.
I love you; I would never say a bad word about you. 2000 – 2001
Poems of love.
When you fall in, it's like a bright red rose.
When love ends, the petal of the flower dies and falls off every day.
You move on to make a fresh start.
One kiss brings love back to life.
Yet again love becomes alive.
Is anyone right for anyone?
It's not very often love lasts forever these days.
Not many have been as lucky as us. 30.12.2003.
I think I have failed your love.
Why did I let you go?
I know there's no looking back.
There's no way of going back.
May be I thought it would not work out between us.
I had no reason to have done what I did.
I don't know what got over me.
May be I thought I stopped loving you.
The truth is that I still do love you but what's bad on my part that I love someone else too.
I must make up my mind what I want in life.
I know it's so wrong, I am so sorry I have the same feelings for two of you.
I am stuck bet ween the two of you, I just don't know what to do.
I don't want to hurt either of you but I can't help the way I feel about you both.
I must make up my mind sooner than later.
It's no one's fault but my own. 29.12.2003
When you fall in, it's like a bright red rose.
When love ends, the petal of the flower dies and falls off every day.
You move on to make a fresh start.
One kiss brings love back to life.
Yet again love becomes alive.
Is anyone right for anyone?
It's not very often love lasts forever these days.
Not many have been as lucky as us. 30.12.2003.
I think I have failed your love.
Why did I let you go?
I know there's no looking back.
There's no way of going back.
May be I thought it would not work out between us.
I had no reason to have done what I did.
I don't know what got over me.
May be I thought I stopped loving you.
The truth is that I still do love you but what's bad on my part that I love someone else too.
I must make up my mind what I want in life.
I know it's so wrong, I am so sorry I have the same feelings for two of you.
I am stuck bet ween the two of you, I just don't know what to do.
I don't want to hurt either of you but I can't help the way I feel about you both.
I must make up my mind sooner than later.
It's no one's fault but my own. 29.12.2003
The memory of love.
The memory of love gives me happiest and joy.
The loneliness of your love gives me sadness and sorrow.
When you kissed me it was such a joy.
Your passion was like a sudden dream that seemed never ending.
Now you’re not with me anymore, I must have had a nightmare.1997
when I look out of my window.
I see the sky going from dull to bright.
I see the sky so dark it turns into a storm.
What strange weather we Brits have.
I don't know if I am right or wrong but I am still living in this old fashioned world.
I still need to get used to the new world. 2007
The memory of love gives me happiest and joy.
The loneliness of your love gives me sadness and sorrow.
When you kissed me it was such a joy.
Your passion was like a sudden dream that seemed never ending.
Now you’re not with me anymore, I must have had a nightmare.1997
when I look out of my window.
I see the sky going from dull to bright.
I see the sky so dark it turns into a storm.
What strange weather we Brits have.
I don't know if I am right or wrong but I am still living in this old fashioned world.
I still need to get used to the new world. 2007
Am I just in your life for company?
You know that I love you.
Do you love me?
Why don't you show me that you love me if you do?
Why are you over me when you’re drunk?
Do you still love someone from your past or do you love someone new?
Have I lost it all I had in my twenties?
May be I am becoming boring as I am getting towards forty.
I must have lost it in myself.
May be I don't attract you anymore. 2007 to 2009
It all changes.
The figure has now gone.
Lines are now under my eyes.
I am not as fit as I used to be.
I don't feel good, I feel like a wreck.
Only positive thing is my education and work.
I am trying everything I can to make a difference to the lives of people with disabilities.
Don't you know how much I love you?
I know you broke my heart but I forgive you.
It may seem as love is not the same as it used to be 2007 – 2009
You know that I love you.
Do you love me?
Why don't you show me that you love me if you do?
Why are you over me when you’re drunk?
Do you still love someone from your past or do you love someone new?
Have I lost it all I had in my twenties?
May be I am becoming boring as I am getting towards forty.
I must have lost it in myself.
May be I don't attract you anymore. 2007 to 2009
It all changes.
The figure has now gone.
Lines are now under my eyes.
I am not as fit as I used to be.
I don't feel good, I feel like a wreck.
Only positive thing is my education and work.
I am trying everything I can to make a difference to the lives of people with disabilities.
Don't you know how much I love you?
I know you broke my heart but I forgive you.
It may seem as love is not the same as it used to be 2007 – 2009
Love has been blind all my life.
You may have been heard of but you won't be found.
You had the chance to carry on loving me.
It's now far too late if you want to love me again.
I have taken my freedom to love someone better than you.
Now that I have flown my wings I hope this love will be right for me but plenty more fish in the sea if not.
You can huff and puff as much as you like but you won't blow my house down.
I missed you when you had gone but not anymore, I have moved on. 1996 to 1997.
Long time love.
I and you will now be without one another.
Three years ago we fell apart.
No other man could have been for me but you, how wrong were I to think so?
Your smiles when his face goes red.
Your laughs like the bright yellow sun.
Your brown eye gives me so much surprise.
What you don't see to begin with you don't know.
After a time you find out that love is blind.
You did not turn out to be the man I was hoping for.
You hurt me so much.
I still love you but you'd hurt me again if I go back to you.
I don't know why I love you so much.
I only wish I knew why I do. 27.5.99
You may have been heard of but you won't be found.
You had the chance to carry on loving me.
It's now far too late if you want to love me again.
I have taken my freedom to love someone better than you.
Now that I have flown my wings I hope this love will be right for me but plenty more fish in the sea if not.
You can huff and puff as much as you like but you won't blow my house down.
I missed you when you had gone but not anymore, I have moved on. 1996 to 1997.
Long time love.
I and you will now be without one another.
Three years ago we fell apart.
No other man could have been for me but you, how wrong were I to think so?
Your smiles when his face goes red.
Your laughs like the bright yellow sun.
Your brown eye gives me so much surprise.
What you don't see to begin with you don't know.
After a time you find out that love is blind.
You did not turn out to be the man I was hoping for.
You hurt me so much.
I still love you but you'd hurt me again if I go back to you.
I don't know why I love you so much.
I only wish I knew why I do. 27.5.99
A friend in need is a friend indeed.
If you are helping a friend, they should help you in return.
If a friend helps you in return, which you are a friend in need.
To one another you are both friends indeed.
For helping one another as true friends indeed. 20.8.99
Loving friendship.
A friendship can love.
You can still have loving thoughts without been lovers.
You can just go with the flow.
Except the excepted and the unexpected.
What will be will be.
If it's not to be it won't be.
Keep in touch with one another but don't make plans about the future.
See each other when you see each other.
Keep your loving friend like that it has more chance of lasting.
A loving friendship may well help you forget the past.
A loving friendship may or may not help you love one day more than just good friends.
Just friendship does not mean that they don't love.
Having the opposite who is a true friend to you.
He or she will take care of you.
He or she will share with you.
He or she will be fair to you.
In return you must do the same for them too. 20.8.99
I don't have to be in love with you to love you.
I don't have to love you because you are a man.
I can love you as a friend.
You don't have to love me because I am a woman.
You can love me as a friend.
What don't you accept that?
I may well still love you but as a friend.
I am trying not to love you too strong.
You were my longest lover ever, why is it too hard for me to accept it?
For you I know I must accept that you don't love me. 27.5.99
If you are helping a friend, they should help you in return.
If a friend helps you in return, which you are a friend in need.
To one another you are both friends indeed.
For helping one another as true friends indeed. 20.8.99
Loving friendship.
A friendship can love.
You can still have loving thoughts without been lovers.
You can just go with the flow.
Except the excepted and the unexpected.
What will be will be.
If it's not to be it won't be.
Keep in touch with one another but don't make plans about the future.
See each other when you see each other.
Keep your loving friend like that it has more chance of lasting.
A loving friendship may well help you forget the past.
A loving friendship may or may not help you love one day more than just good friends.
Just friendship does not mean that they don't love.
Having the opposite who is a true friend to you.
He or she will take care of you.
He or she will share with you.
He or she will be fair to you.
In return you must do the same for them too. 20.8.99
I don't have to be in love with you to love you.
I don't have to love you because you are a man.
I can love you as a friend.
You don't have to love me because I am a woman.
You can love me as a friend.
What don't you accept that?
I may well still love you but as a friend.
I am trying not to love you too strong.
You were my longest lover ever, why is it too hard for me to accept it?
For you I know I must accept that you don't love me. 27.5.99
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