Learning disability.
World blind.
You say black.
I say white.
No one is wrong or right.
There's just a misunderstanding of one and the other's minds.
That misunderstanding can cause sadness that can take away ones' choice.
Ones' choice of being left out of the rest of the world.
You can do what you want safely without answering anyone.
You don't feel useless.
You don't feel like hard work to other people.
Despite the world being blind to me, I'm learning something new every day.
Maybe I need more help to learn but I'm not blind in everything.
I still learn the same but different from you. 31.12.2011
Misunderstanding.
Hello, are you there?
Am I speaking to a person?
Can you speak?
No reply, why?
This is never a human?
I can take a while to speak, it may take a while for me to take in what you have just said.
Ok, you think I am rather strange.
You must be strange not to give me time to speak.
What are we on about, we have known one another all our lives?
We still can't communicate.
I know I'm your family member, we have known one another since we were born.
We still don't know or understand one another. 31.12.2011
Hello, are you there?
Am I speaking to a person?
Can you speak?
No reply, why?
This is never a human?
I can take a while to speak, it may take a while for me to take in what you have just said.
Ok, you think I am rather strange.
You must be strange not to give me time to speak.
What are we on about, we have known one another all our lives?
We still can't communicate.
I know I'm your family member, we have known one another since we were born.
We still don't know or understand one another. 31.12.2011
You have walked on me.
I am the path.
I am the sand.
I am the sea.
You walk on me or swim inside me.
I am your water to cool you down.
I'm in the middle, you are all around me.
Lying on me.
Standing on me.
You all make the world a bigger place than it seems to be.
You are all overcrowding me.
I can't breathe.
It's like I can't join or fit in.
You will make fun of me because I can't join in with you all. 31. 12. 2011
I am the path.
I am the sand.
I am the sea.
You walk on me or swim inside me.
I am your water to cool you down.
I'm in the middle, you are all around me.
Lying on me.
Standing on me.
You all make the world a bigger place than it seems to be.
You are all overcrowding me.
I can't breathe.
It's like I can't join or fit in.
You will make fun of me because I can't join in with you all. 31. 12. 2011
I will be on my own.
I will be on my own.
My company isn't good enough for you.
I am hard work for you.
I need more help than other people.
When no one is there your wonder why I'm alone.
When people are there your wonder why they bother with me in case I am hard work for them.
With the limits of what I can do in my life, it's as if I shouldn't have been born.
As if I shouldn't be on this earth.
As if life isn't worth living.
That's where your wrong when I have my creative talents.
What am I doing now?
I am putting my feelings in poetry and words. 31 . 12. 2011
Someone, something behind me.
Someone, something behind me.
You move faster than me.
I'm trying to move as fast as I can to your speed.
Something, someone that seems nasty getting closer and closer to me.
Ok, sorry I am taking up your space.
I have no warnings or reasons why.
Here I am made to feel guilty about putting traps in your lives. 31.12.2011
I will be on my own.
My company isn't good enough for you.
I am hard work for you.
I need more help than other people.
When no one is there your wonder why I'm alone.
When people are there your wonder why they bother with me in case I am hard work for them.
With the limits of what I can do in my life, it's as if I shouldn't have been born.
As if I shouldn't be on this earth.
As if life isn't worth living.
That's where your wrong when I have my creative talents.
What am I doing now?
I am putting my feelings in poetry and words. 31 . 12. 2011
Someone, something behind me.
Someone, something behind me.
You move faster than me.
I'm trying to move as fast as I can to your speed.
Something, someone that seems nasty getting closer and closer to me.
Ok, sorry I am taking up your space.
I have no warnings or reasons why.
Here I am made to feel guilty about putting traps in your lives. 31.12.2011
Change.
Now it's a new year.
I guess changes need to be made.
Changes are big when they are new, even if they are right and happy when they happen.
The old for so long is hard to let go of.
Nice to see the new, which can be sometimes hard to get used to.
Some things seem like the end of the world whether they are good or bad changes.
Other things seem like a good idea at the time but bad in the end.
Nothing is known unless it's tried.
Everything seems scary but maybe fun when change is happening.
Some changes don't seem as bad when they have changed.
Tomorrow is unknown.
Wait until tomorrow is here!
The more aware you are the more you think yet shock is too sudden for you.
Surprise is happy for you. 31. 12. 2011
Keeping safe.
Everyone is looking at me strangely.
The red man hasn't changed to the green man.
I'm still standing there in case I'm not quick enough to cross.
People look at me any way they want.
Not everyone goes by the law.
Some people like taking very risky risks.
No one knows everyone.
Trust is a hard thing in people you don't know. 31. 12 .2011
Now it's a new year.
I guess changes need to be made.
Changes are big when they are new, even if they are right and happy when they happen.
The old for so long is hard to let go of.
Nice to see the new, which can be sometimes hard to get used to.
Some things seem like the end of the world whether they are good or bad changes.
Other things seem like a good idea at the time but bad in the end.
Nothing is known unless it's tried.
Everything seems scary but maybe fun when change is happening.
Some changes don't seem as bad when they have changed.
Tomorrow is unknown.
Wait until tomorrow is here!
The more aware you are the more you think yet shock is too sudden for you.
Surprise is happy for you. 31. 12. 2011
Keeping safe.
Everyone is looking at me strangely.
The red man hasn't changed to the green man.
I'm still standing there in case I'm not quick enough to cross.
People look at me any way they want.
Not everyone goes by the law.
Some people like taking very risky risks.
No one knows everyone.
Trust is a hard thing in people you don't know. 31. 12 .2011
Anxiety.
Everything seems worse than what it might be.
Something on the mind until it's all over one way or the other.
Some things never are over.
It seems like forever, it all builds up inside like an animal trying to get out of a cage.
You can't sleep at night.
What seems easy for you to deal with isn't for me.
Yes I know that I am not alone, my thoughts are for others like me and worse off than me.
It may not be a worry in the end but the build-up is just too much.
No matter how hard you try to control your anxiety, it's just not easy.
Stress is a killer on its own but even more of a killer for people who have stress within them without it.
People with disabilities and health problems find stress to cope with because our health problems and disabilities are stressful for us as it is.
Without writing and art, I would have got myself misunderstood, even more, I may have done harm to myself or other people without meaning.
Anger is hard to control due to Anxiety. 31. 12. 2011
Everything seems worse than what it might be.
Something on the mind until it's all over one way or the other.
Some things never are over.
It seems like forever, it all builds up inside like an animal trying to get out of a cage.
You can't sleep at night.
What seems easy for you to deal with isn't for me.
Yes I know that I am not alone, my thoughts are for others like me and worse off than me.
It may not be a worry in the end but the build-up is just too much.
No matter how hard you try to control your anxiety, it's just not easy.
Stress is a killer on its own but even more of a killer for people who have stress within them without it.
People with disabilities and health problems find stress to cope with because our health problems and disabilities are stressful for us as it is.
Without writing and art, I would have got myself misunderstood, even more, I may have done harm to myself or other people without meaning.
Anger is hard to control due to Anxiety. 31. 12. 2011
I'm just me.
I'm not a clever person.
Words just come into my mind.
I just write about what I think.
I'm just me, there's only one of me.
Like you are you, there is only just one of you.
I'm a human being with a career and a life.
I'm nothing and no one special.
I cope alone but I also have the world watching over me. 31. 12 .2011
You are so wrong.
You think I don't care about your feelings but I do.
I just find feelings hard to show.
The world has too many people and places are hard for me to cope with.
Coping with myself is hard enough.
I never meant to shut you off.
I don't appear what I show.
I appear to hate everyone but I love everyone.
We all need to learn to understand one another a bit more. 31 . 12 .2011
I'm not a clever person.
Words just come into my mind.
I just write about what I think.
I'm just me, there's only one of me.
Like you are you, there is only just one of you.
I'm a human being with a career and a life.
I'm nothing and no one special.
I cope alone but I also have the world watching over me. 31. 12 .2011
You are so wrong.
You think I don't care about your feelings but I do.
I just find feelings hard to show.
The world has too many people and places are hard for me to cope with.
Coping with myself is hard enough.
I never meant to shut you off.
I don't appear what I show.
I appear to hate everyone but I love everyone.
We all need to learn to understand one another a bit more. 31 . 12 .2011
Fears.
People fear how other people are going to be towards them.
It's so easy to say and do things that come out wrong.
It's so easy to be unaware of what we say and do.
People don't like the way we seem and sound.
Our words come wrong so unplanned to our thoughts.
People aren't our friends because we seem what we are not.
We always feel bad if or and when we have realised we have or may have upset someone.
Not everything is down to our disabilities we are also our own people just like you are but most of our disabilities make us the people we don't want to be. 31. 12. 2011
2011
Lack of
Communication
Hard to speak ones' mind.
Society controls the mind.
Your month speaks quicker than your mind.
Your pen writes quicker than your mind.
Being unheard and misunderstood is wrong.
You haven't achieved what you were hoping to.
What you said wasn't understood.
Everyone makes fun of what you said and how it appears to them.
You know what you mean they don't. 31 .12. 2011
Zombie
I'm like a Zombie.
I'm in a dream.
I'm in a world of my own.
I can see a world of people overcrowding me.
I feel like a puppet on a string.
Everyone seems to be having a good time.
No worries, I will find my way of having a good time on my own.
I'm just in a dream world.
Where are the people I know?
Left, right, or straight on, which way shall I turn?
There are far too many people I don't know.
Too much noise, too many people talking at once.
The world is buzzing around but you are in the middle of crowded people as it is in a crowded place. 31. 12. 2011
Nowhere to run nowhere to hide.
There's nowhere to run and there's nowhere to hide.
Someone or something is always out to get me.
They don't mean to hurt me, they just want to move faster than me.
It feels like pain even though it's not meant to be.
They are too unaware of my life and too involved in their own.
They move so fast that they are unaware that I'm around. 31 .12. 2011
I'm like a Zombie.
I'm in a dream.
I'm in a world of my own.
I can see a world of people overcrowding me.
I feel like a puppet on a string.
Everyone seems to be having a good time.
No worries, I will find my way of having a good time on my own.
I'm just in a dream world.
Where are the people I know?
Left, right, or straight on, which way shall I turn?
There are far too many people I don't know.
Too much noise, too many people talking at once.
The world is buzzing around but you are in the middle of crowded people as it is in a crowded place. 31. 12. 2011
Nowhere to run nowhere to hide.
There's nowhere to run and there's nowhere to hide.
Someone or something is always out to get me.
They don't mean to hurt me, they just want to move faster than me.
It feels like pain even though it's not meant to be.
They are too unaware of my life and too involved in their own.
They move so fast that they are unaware that I'm around. 31 .12. 2011
Mirror mind.
Mirror mind.
Mirror writing.
When I look in the mirror I see the world, words, and letters upside down.
Times are hard money-wise.
Most Dyslexia people if not all see everything upside down like the painter who painted Mona Lisa.
No jobs and no money.
Broad out of ones' mind.
Nothing to keep the mind busy.
That's why there's so much anger and crime.
Walking around town window shopping.
We can look but we can't touch.
Looking through shop windows is like looking at ourselves through mirrors.
If the government doesn't wake up to life, we will be all be mentally ill, and we'll be all going out of our minds. 31 .12. 2011
Mirror mind.
Mirror writing.
When I look in the mirror I see the world, words, and letters upside down.
Times are hard money-wise.
Most Dyslexia people if not all see everything upside down like the painter who painted Mona Lisa.
No jobs and no money.
Broad out of ones' mind.
Nothing to keep the mind busy.
That's why there's so much anger and crime.
Walking around town window shopping.
We can look but we can't touch.
Looking through shop windows is like looking at ourselves through mirrors.
If the government doesn't wake up to life, we will be all be mentally ill, and we'll be all going out of our minds. 31 .12. 2011
Happy New Year 2012.
The 20th century is my 21st century is my century.
Like all people, I'm not getting younger.
Time should stay forward but age should go back so we keep on getting younger.
Never mind many of us stay forever young.
One glass of Champagne is like a bottle of Champagne.
The hangover takes so long to go but New Year is unforgotten. 1. 1. 2012
Look at me!
Look at me!
What do you see?
Mirror writing, painting, drawing, short stories, and poetry.
The future is hard to see.
We are looking through the darkness all the time.
We can only think about how things will be if they carry on like this.
No money in the world.
Where's the next generation going to be?
It's bad enough now. 2 . 1 . 2012
The 20th century is my 21st century is my century.
Like all people, I'm not getting younger.
Time should stay forward but age should go back so we keep on getting younger.
Never mind many of us stay forever young.
One glass of Champagne is like a bottle of Champagne.
The hangover takes so long to go but New Year is unforgotten. 1. 1. 2012
Look at me!
Look at me!
What do you see?
Mirror writing, painting, drawing, short stories, and poetry.
The future is hard to see.
We are looking through the darkness all the time.
We can only think about how things will be if they carry on like this.
No money in the world.
Where's the next generation going to be?
It's bad enough now. 2 . 1 . 2012
Everyone is looking at me.
I can only guess what you all think.
I seem but do not look very different to you.
Most of may think I have gone mad.
Others may see me as their best friend.
Others just think I'm ok.
I don't mean to be the person I appear to be.
I mean to sound rude or not interested in what's going on around me.
What I do and say may be hard to understand for you even though I don't mean to be the person you see.
Sorry if I seem nuts, which may not seem very human to you.
I seem stub, dumb and thick to a lot of people but I'm not.
If you don't know me it's hard to understand me.
It can take a long time to get to know me.
Sometimes I can shy away in case I'm misunderstood as a human being.
I'm having to learn not to care what people think and say, which isn't always easy.
I even get things wrong too, I may misunderstand what you think about me.
I may not speak because I'm scared of saying and doing the wrong things to your mind, it won't mean that I mean to be rude to you.
The world is too big for me and too many people, this is where I find it hard to communicate in any way at all with them.
My problem is finding it hard to cope with too many things at once. 3 . 1 . 2012
I can only guess what you all think.
I seem but do not look very different to you.
Most of may think I have gone mad.
Others may see me as their best friend.
Others just think I'm ok.
I don't mean to be the person I appear to be.
I mean to sound rude or not interested in what's going on around me.
What I do and say may be hard to understand for you even though I don't mean to be the person you see.
Sorry if I seem nuts, which may not seem very human to you.
I seem stub, dumb and thick to a lot of people but I'm not.
If you don't know me it's hard to understand me.
It can take a long time to get to know me.
Sometimes I can shy away in case I'm misunderstood as a human being.
I'm having to learn not to care what people think and say, which isn't always easy.
I even get things wrong too, I may misunderstand what you think about me.
I may not speak because I'm scared of saying and doing the wrong things to your mind, it won't mean that I mean to be rude to you.
The world is too big for me and too many people, this is where I find it hard to communicate in any way at all with them.
My problem is finding it hard to cope with too many things at once. 3 . 1 . 2012
Turned away.
Turned away from school, I felt like running away from school.
It was all a waste of time I wasn't learning a thing.
Turned away from college, no I learned in no time at all.
Turned away from work, yes I was too slow I couldn't do the jobs right.
Turned away from people, yes and no some were okay some weren't.
It was hard to know what was going through their minds because I seemed so different to them but not to look at.
My slowness made them think I wasn't right in the head when really I'm righter in the head than they would ever be.
I prove nothing to them I prove to myself, that I'm creative in putting my thoughts, feelings and etc down on paper. 3 . 1 . 2012
VALENTINE POEMS 2012.
It's hard to cope not to hope.
Most of the time what you love and want isn't good for you.
Hope can give you pain.
Chasing and wishing to have something or someone you can't have is just a dream.
Just be yourself.
Just get to know yourself all over again.
Learn to like yourself.
Learn to love yourself.
Never give up on what you want and who you love.
Never hope too much, let whatever or whoever comes to you.
Have your space.
Surprises may come if you don't think and hope.
Discover the world around you.
Be faithful, loyal, and true.
Even if your hard work has failed never give up on moving on.
Never work too hard to please someone!
Still, be the same person as you are.
Never chase anything or anyone.
No matter how much you love and want, still never hope.
It's better to miss someone than lose someone or something who and or want is special to you. 12.2.2012
Turned away from school, I felt like running away from school.
It was all a waste of time I wasn't learning a thing.
Turned away from college, no I learned in no time at all.
Turned away from work, yes I was too slow I couldn't do the jobs right.
Turned away from people, yes and no some were okay some weren't.
It was hard to know what was going through their minds because I seemed so different to them but not to look at.
My slowness made them think I wasn't right in the head when really I'm righter in the head than they would ever be.
I prove nothing to them I prove to myself, that I'm creative in putting my thoughts, feelings and etc down on paper. 3 . 1 . 2012
VALENTINE POEMS 2012.
It's hard to cope not to hope.
Most of the time what you love and want isn't good for you.
Hope can give you pain.
Chasing and wishing to have something or someone you can't have is just a dream.
Just be yourself.
Just get to know yourself all over again.
Learn to like yourself.
Learn to love yourself.
Never give up on what you want and who you love.
Never hope too much, let whatever or whoever comes to you.
Have your space.
Surprises may come if you don't think and hope.
Discover the world around you.
Be faithful, loyal, and true.
Even if your hard work has failed never give up on moving on.
Never work too hard to please someone!
Still, be the same person as you are.
Never chase anything or anyone.
No matter how much you love and want, still never hope.
It's better to miss someone than lose someone or something who and or want is special to you. 12.2.2012
So near so far.
Time is so near yet so far.
Time together is so short.
Time apart is so long that it seems like forever.
No matter how long or short, I love you too much to give up.
Time apart may well be too long but I enjoy every moment I spent with you when I see you.
It doesn't matter how long or short it takes to see you again. 12.2.2012
Forever friends.
Forever friends with love.
Never hope for too much.
I'm here as long as you want me.
I will cope without seeing as long as I have to.
I will be faithful, loyal, and true to you. 12.2.2012
Love teaches you as many things as life does.
The mistakes I have made have got far too close to you all those years.
The person I loved so much who I thought loved me so much.
I used to find it to be without you now I can't stand to be in the same room as you.
Now I have learned to be myself again.
I don't give up on my life to please you or anyone anymore.
I spend so many years living your life instead of my own.
Little did I realize how blind I was.
I know no one asks you to live someone's life but love can be so hard to control when the feelings are there for someone
Now we have gone from love to like to hate.
I will try my best to not make the same mistake again. 12.2.2012
Time is so near yet so far.
Time together is so short.
Time apart is so long that it seems like forever.
No matter how long or short, I love you too much to give up.
Time apart may well be too long but I enjoy every moment I spent with you when I see you.
It doesn't matter how long or short it takes to see you again. 12.2.2012
Forever friends.
Forever friends with love.
Never hope for too much.
I'm here as long as you want me.
I will cope without seeing as long as I have to.
I will be faithful, loyal, and true to you. 12.2.2012
Love teaches you as many things as life does.
The mistakes I have made have got far too close to you all those years.
The person I loved so much who I thought loved me so much.
I used to find it to be without you now I can't stand to be in the same room as you.
Now I have learned to be myself again.
I don't give up on my life to please you or anyone anymore.
I spend so many years living your life instead of my own.
Little did I realize how blind I was.
I know no one asks you to live someone's life but love can be so hard to control when the feelings are there for someone
Now we have gone from love to like to hate.
I will try my best to not make the same mistake again. 12.2.2012
Time without you.
Even when the sun shines life still seems dull until I see you.
When you shine, you shine brighter than any lights.
I just wait until you brighten and turn on the light to brighten up my night again.
In the meantime, my thoughts about you are inside my mind non-stop. 12.2.2010
Love is
Love is like a plant.
Love is like a flower.
Love is like a tree.
Love lasts as long as it's going to unless it's to be.
Until it drys, dies, and needs watering again.
Never give up hope just because love has never lasted before.
Never trust hope because nothing is promised.
Never fear love otherwise you will fear everything.
If you fear everything you will never have a life. 12.2.2012
Even when the sun shines life still seems dull until I see you.
When you shine, you shine brighter than any lights.
I just wait until you brighten and turn on the light to brighten up my night again.
In the meantime, my thoughts about you are inside my mind non-stop. 12.2.2010
Love is
Love is like a plant.
Love is like a flower.
Love is like a tree.
Love lasts as long as it's going to unless it's to be.
Until it drys, dies, and needs watering again.
Never give up hope just because love has never lasted before.
Never trust hope because nothing is promised.
Never fear love otherwise you will fear everything.
If you fear everything you will never have a life. 12.2.2012
Time.
Time seems like a life without you.
However long time is that's how long it's meant to be for you and me.
I hope any amount of time is good for you like it is for me.
When the time comes we will enjoy our love even more.
When I think about your time can't come slow or quick enough.
When I am about to see you the night is very unknown.
My thoughts are mixed but I never give up because private time together is just a matter of any time.
My feelings don't change no matter what the situations are. 12.2.2012
Now I can see through you.
You may not have loved me as much as I loved you.
How blind was I to love you?
You may not have loved me at all.
You may have strung me along all these years.
We were both very young.
I may have been too blind to see that your love towards me may have been a lie.
You know I had friends who could see I was making the biggest mistake of my life.
These friends knew how much I really loved you.
This relationship may have been to please them and keep them quiet not to please me.
My friends warned me so many times that you were the wrong man for me.
I was far too blind to see.
I was too much in love with you to know what I was letting myself in for.
In the end, you hurt me badly.
As years went on I learned to stop loving you, I even tried to be your friend but then the friendship turned to hate. 12.2.2012
Time seems like a life without you.
However long time is that's how long it's meant to be for you and me.
I hope any amount of time is good for you like it is for me.
When the time comes we will enjoy our love even more.
When I think about your time can't come slow or quick enough.
When I am about to see you the night is very unknown.
My thoughts are mixed but I never give up because private time together is just a matter of any time.
My feelings don't change no matter what the situations are. 12.2.2012
Now I can see through you.
You may not have loved me as much as I loved you.
How blind was I to love you?
You may not have loved me at all.
You may have strung me along all these years.
We were both very young.
I may have been too blind to see that your love towards me may have been a lie.
You know I had friends who could see I was making the biggest mistake of my life.
These friends knew how much I really loved you.
This relationship may have been to please them and keep them quiet not to please me.
My friends warned me so many times that you were the wrong man for me.
I was far too blind to see.
I was too much in love with you to know what I was letting myself in for.
In the end, you hurt me badly.
As years went on I learned to stop loving you, I even tried to be your friend but then the friendship turned to hate. 12.2.2012
So many things are so unknown.
Not everything is certain.
There could be so many unknown things you have kept from me all these years.
Yet again I have been far too blind to see.
Rest your case, I may be wrong but I still could be blind.
The door may be closed on the two of us, which I am glad now.
It has taken me so long to realize what a bad man you really are.
What's even worse is that you may have kept so much from me that I should have known a long time ago.
I may still don't know and may never know.
Private calls you made in front of my face, I heard every word but never said a word to you.
Texts you send and got back while you had your arm around me.
Only trying to love me when you were drunk.
Building my hopes up that you loved me again when you didn't.
Telling me the next day that you did not mean a word you said to me the night before.
In the end, I heard the word sorry too many times to carry on loving you.
I knew if I carried on any longer you weren't going to change, you would just carry on hurting me then saying.
" Sorry sorry sorry."
This relationship was based on a drunk lie.
I can't believe I was so mad to love someone whose love was based on lies.
I guess I won't be the first and I won't be the last to put myself in that trap.
Now I am out of that trap moving on with my life. 12.2.2012
Not everything is certain.
There could be so many unknown things you have kept from me all these years.
Yet again I have been far too blind to see.
Rest your case, I may be wrong but I still could be blind.
The door may be closed on the two of us, which I am glad now.
It has taken me so long to realize what a bad man you really are.
What's even worse is that you may have kept so much from me that I should have known a long time ago.
I may still don't know and may never know.
Private calls you made in front of my face, I heard every word but never said a word to you.
Texts you send and got back while you had your arm around me.
Only trying to love me when you were drunk.
Building my hopes up that you loved me again when you didn't.
Telling me the next day that you did not mean a word you said to me the night before.
In the end, I heard the word sorry too many times to carry on loving you.
I knew if I carried on any longer you weren't going to change, you would just carry on hurting me then saying.
" Sorry sorry sorry."
This relationship was based on a drunk lie.
I can't believe I was so mad to love someone whose love was based on lies.
I guess I won't be the first and I won't be the last to put myself in that trap.
Now I am out of that trap moving on with my life. 12.2.2012
Unknown
I look at you know how I feel about you and how you feel about me.
Not be able to say a word in front of anyone.
Only you and I know.
At the end of the night is unknown whether we spend private time together.
Now time isn't there, I miss you twice as much.
When the time is there I enjoy it however long or short it lasts. 12.2.2012
In between lovers and friends.
It may well be a strange friendship.
It may well be a strange relationship.
It gives us time to get to know ourselves as well as each other all over again.
Time apart seems like forever.
Time together seems like freedom but not long enough.
Time together is worth waiting for however long or short it takes. 12.2.2012
I look at you know how I feel about you and how you feel about me.
Not be able to say a word in front of anyone.
Only you and I know.
At the end of the night is unknown whether we spend private time together.
Now time isn't there, I miss you twice as much.
When the time is there I enjoy it however long or short it lasts. 12.2.2012
In between lovers and friends.
It may well be a strange friendship.
It may well be a strange relationship.
It gives us time to get to know ourselves as well as each other all over again.
Time apart seems like forever.
Time together seems like freedom but not long enough.
Time together is worth waiting for however long or short it takes. 12.2.2012
You kept on changing your mind.
Your mind games stopped me from loving you after I loved you for so long.
One minute you wanted me next minute you did not, I took that for far too many years.
As the years went on you only seemed to have wanted me when you were drunk.
The next night you were telling me that you didn't mean what you said the night before.
I was sick of you building my hopes up.
I loved you so much but you hurt me too much to love you anymore.
If I still loved you now you would have played with my mind like you did before, you wouldn't have loved me at all.
You just love me because you know I don't love you anymore.
You have treated me as your victim, not your lover all the years you were with me, I was too blind to see.
All these years your feelings have changed far quick, when I think you never have loved me, you just played games with my mind.
You don't hurt me like you used to because I don't love you no more.
It hurt me too bad to know that the man I loved so much hurt me so much because you didn't love me as much as I thought in fact I don't think you ever loved me at all.
No way do I fall for your games anymore because I don't love any more.
It's far too late for you to change your mind now.
You said that you love me and the drink isn't talking, I don't fall for that anymore.
I don't go along with your change of feelings anymore.
My feelings for you stayed the same for years, then they change three years ago so they will stay the same forever.
I have now moved on with my life in my own time, I don't need you anymore.
Why did I ever love you, I should have known I didn't need you? 3.3.2012
Your mind games stopped me from loving you after I loved you for so long.
One minute you wanted me next minute you did not, I took that for far too many years.
As the years went on you only seemed to have wanted me when you were drunk.
The next night you were telling me that you didn't mean what you said the night before.
I was sick of you building my hopes up.
I loved you so much but you hurt me too much to love you anymore.
If I still loved you now you would have played with my mind like you did before, you wouldn't have loved me at all.
You just love me because you know I don't love you anymore.
You have treated me as your victim, not your lover all the years you were with me, I was too blind to see.
All these years your feelings have changed far quick, when I think you never have loved me, you just played games with my mind.
You don't hurt me like you used to because I don't love you no more.
It hurt me too bad to know that the man I loved so much hurt me so much because you didn't love me as much as I thought in fact I don't think you ever loved me at all.
No way do I fall for your games anymore because I don't love any more.
It's far too late for you to change your mind now.
You said that you love me and the drink isn't talking, I don't fall for that anymore.
I don't go along with your change of feelings anymore.
My feelings for you stayed the same for years, then they change three years ago so they will stay the same forever.
I have now moved on with my life in my own time, I don't need you anymore.
Why did I ever love you, I should have known I didn't need you? 3.3.2012
Chocolate and love.
Any food is a passion if you love it.
Chocolate is my love.
If can help it I never have too much chocolate even though I love it.
Too much chocolate sends me dizzy with too much love.
I become greedy then I want more and more.
I'd rather wait until I get to eat chocolate, which tastes better if I don't eat with often. 10.3.2012
Nothing I love loves me.
Nothing I love loves me.
Chocolate
Curry
Men
Beer
When I eat too much curry I'm off to the loo every five minutes.
When I eat too much chocolate the taste is lovely but I go dizzy with a headache and it's bad for my teeth.
When I drink too much beer I get drunk it's fun, it's a hangover in the morning that hurts.
Men break my heart if I see them too much. 10.3.2012
Any food is a passion if you love it.
Chocolate is my love.
If can help it I never have too much chocolate even though I love it.
Too much chocolate sends me dizzy with too much love.
I become greedy then I want more and more.
I'd rather wait until I get to eat chocolate, which tastes better if I don't eat with often. 10.3.2012
Nothing I love loves me.
Nothing I love loves me.
Chocolate
Curry
Men
Beer
When I eat too much curry I'm off to the loo every five minutes.
When I eat too much chocolate the taste is lovely but I go dizzy with a headache and it's bad for my teeth.
When I drink too much beer I get drunk it's fun, it's a hangover in the morning that hurts.
Men break my heart if I see them too much. 10.3.2012
Most things you love aren't good for you.
Sugar and sweets are bad for your teeth.
Spice can give you the wind, which can smell everything and everybody away from you.
Time to go to the loo.
I hate going to the dentist as they poke around in your teeth and mouth.
I love a fried breakfast on a Saturday morning after a skin fall of drinks on a Friday night.
Too much of what you love does you no good.
11.3.2012
Badracue
I see Bardacue bangers on sticks, taste and smell so good.
I feel the hot sun tanning my back.
Now I feel the burning my back I need some cream to cool it down. 11.3.2012
Winter and hot meals.
When the cold days and nights are upon us.
There's nothing more warm and tasty than faggots, mushy peas, and a pint of beer.
It's so hard finding the best meal deals.11.3.2012
Sugar and sweets are bad for your teeth.
Spice can give you the wind, which can smell everything and everybody away from you.
Time to go to the loo.
I hate going to the dentist as they poke around in your teeth and mouth.
I love a fried breakfast on a Saturday morning after a skin fall of drinks on a Friday night.
Too much of what you love does you no good.
11.3.2012
Badracue
I see Bardacue bangers on sticks, taste and smell so good.
I feel the hot sun tanning my back.
Now I feel the burning my back I need some cream to cool it down. 11.3.2012
Winter and hot meals.
When the cold days and nights are upon us.
There's nothing more warm and tasty than faggots, mushy peas, and a pint of beer.
It's so hard finding the best meal deals.11.3.2012
Month watering.
What am I in the mood to eat today?
I wish the weather was sunny and hot.
I wish I could go to a bad acute with bangers on sticks and mouth-watering barbecue sauce.11.3.2012
What am I in the mood to eat today?
I wish the weather was sunny and hot.
I wish I could go to a bad acute with bangers on sticks and mouth-watering barbecue sauce.11.3.2012
Keep the mind busy.
Never do anything.
Boredom affects the mind.
Boredom makes you feel sad.
There's never any reason to do nothing.
Despite the country going down money-wise not everything costs in life, even though we don't enough to pay for what the country costs.
We must be thankful for what we have got.
I know some of us to have less than others but that's life.
One way or another we are all in the same boat.
Money helps but it's not all there is to life.
Life would be boring if it was all the same.
We would be to spoil and greedy if we all had our way.
There would be nothing left in the world then we'd be even sadder.
People who want everything all the time are boring and sad people.
People who want something for nothing need to get a life while there are people who loved to work but have good reasons not to.
Be happy for the good things and accept the bad things.
Life is what you make it, only you can make bad into good.
If you wait you will get more. 26.4.2012 - 18.6.2012
Never do anything.
Boredom affects the mind.
Boredom makes you feel sad.
There's never any reason to do nothing.
Despite the country going down money-wise not everything costs in life, even though we don't enough to pay for what the country costs.
We must be thankful for what we have got.
I know some of us to have less than others but that's life.
One way or another we are all in the same boat.
Money helps but it's not all there is to life.
Life would be boring if it was all the same.
We would be to spoil and greedy if we all had our way.
There would be nothing left in the world then we'd be even sadder.
People who want everything all the time are boring and sad people.
People who want something for nothing need to get a life while there are people who loved to work but have good reasons not to.
Be happy for the good things and accept the bad things.
Life is what you make it, only you can make bad into good.
If you wait you will get more. 26.4.2012 - 18.6.2012
Guilt and regret.
I just prepared myself for the worst.
What I regret is you have to see and hear my row with him.
I didn't want to create a row, I know it wasn't nice but I felt I had to speak my mind, I had no other way of telling him.
As weeks would have gone on I would have felt even more tense being in his company, this wouldn't have been fair on you and anyone else so I thought I say what I was going to say and not come again.
As much as you and I may miss one another, I thought it was far better I stopped going there rather than things getting worse because of me not liking him.
Some people I can accept if I don't like them depending on what I don't like about them.
He is one of the very few people I can't stand sitting in the same room with, otherwise, I wouldn't have said anything to him.
To me, he has such a dry sense of humor but sorry maybe it's just me.
I understand that it's caused us to see even less of one another but I haven't given up on you and me.
I'm so glad that you haven't given up on me and me either.
I will look forward to our time together whenever it will be.
Even if I just see you around for a chat, however short or long amount of time is good enough for me.
It's not just all about me it's about how you feel too.
Missing you may be painful but thinking about you is happiness.
No matter what happens I hear to stay, no matter how life is or will be or and maybe.
Even though I don't see a lot of you, loving feelings and thoughts inside me won't go away.
Thank you for being there for me whenever you can.
I hope you feel the same way about me too.
To prove how much I loved you, I will carry on accepting whatever life is.
If I had stopped coming without telling you a reason, you may have thought I have gone off with another man.
I love you far too much to love anyone else. 16.5.2012 - 18.6.2012
I just prepared myself for the worst.
What I regret is you have to see and hear my row with him.
I didn't want to create a row, I know it wasn't nice but I felt I had to speak my mind, I had no other way of telling him.
As weeks would have gone on I would have felt even more tense being in his company, this wouldn't have been fair on you and anyone else so I thought I say what I was going to say and not come again.
As much as you and I may miss one another, I thought it was far better I stopped going there rather than things getting worse because of me not liking him.
Some people I can accept if I don't like them depending on what I don't like about them.
He is one of the very few people I can't stand sitting in the same room with, otherwise, I wouldn't have said anything to him.
To me, he has such a dry sense of humor but sorry maybe it's just me.
I understand that it's caused us to see even less of one another but I haven't given up on you and me.
I'm so glad that you haven't given up on me and me either.
I will look forward to our time together whenever it will be.
Even if I just see you around for a chat, however short or long amount of time is good enough for me.
It's not just all about me it's about how you feel too.
Missing you may be painful but thinking about you is happiness.
No matter what happens I hear to stay, no matter how life is or will be or and maybe.
Even though I don't see a lot of you, loving feelings and thoughts inside me won't go away.
Thank you for being there for me whenever you can.
I hope you feel the same way about me too.
To prove how much I loved you, I will carry on accepting whatever life is.
If I had stopped coming without telling you a reason, you may have thought I have gone off with another man.
I love you far too much to love anyone else. 16.5.2012 - 18.6.2012
You give me happiness.
You give me happiness.
You give me light.
You brighten up my day and night when you turn on the light.
Time seemed like forever until I see you again.18.5.2012 - 18.6.2012
No greater feeling than love.
When you are happy in love you forget the sadness.
Too much love can be so happy that it can turn into sadness.
To know I have you the sun always sun shine.
When I don't see you the sun isn't bright enough.
It always rains without you. 18.5.2012 - 18.6.2012
You give me happiness.
You give me light.
You brighten up my day and night when you turn on the light.
Time seemed like forever until I see you again.18.5.2012 - 18.6.2012
No greater feeling than love.
When you are happy in love you forget the sadness.
Too much love can be so happy that it can turn into sadness.
To know I have you the sun always sun shine.
When I don't see you the sun isn't bright enough.
It always rains without you. 18.5.2012 - 18.6.2012
I thought you'd gone for good.
I was so surprised to see you that night.
You made my light.
How wrong was I to think your feelings had changed towards me because of him.
Please forgive me for worrying too much it's part of my disabilities and health problems.
I am glad to know that you still feel the same as I do.
I never thought you'd speak to me again let alone love me again.
I miss you so much but hopefully, I will see you next time. 2.6.2012 - 18.6.2012
I was so surprised to see you that night.
You made my light.
How wrong was I to think your feelings had changed towards me because of him.
Please forgive me for worrying too much it's part of my disabilities and health problems.
I am glad to know that you still feel the same as I do.
I never thought you'd speak to me again let alone love me again.
I miss you so much but hopefully, I will see you next time. 2.6.2012 - 18.6.2012
Looking in the mirror, what do I see?
When times are hard you seem to think they won't get easy but if you give it time some things will others won't.
Not everything can be the same.
You mustn't feel alone because you are not others go through not much different if not the same.
No one can tell you other than you how you think and feel.
They are so right you are so wrong but that's not always the case, there's a slim chance you could be right they could be wrong.
They know it all because they have all been there before.
The truth is unknown, the whole world is blind.
The truth hurts when that's how you don't want to see your life but if you accept something else will turn out better than what you had in the first place.
Feelings and thoughts are hard to control when you want something or someone.
No matter how wrong it may be you can't move until those feelings and thoughts have, the only way is to let go if you start to see that it isn't right, which is the hardest.
It won't get better if it's not working.
I never knew Keats was a poet.
I had never heard of Keats before.
I never knew his heart was broken just like mine but at a different time.
I never knew he'd inspire me to be a poet. I was stronger than I thought. I coped with exams, stress, studying, and depression.
As a twenty-seven-year-old English student, I walked along with the college library.
What did I see? All I I saw was Keats on a cover of a book looking at how I felt at the time.
I read his poetry of broken love, which inspired me because he faced near enough the same as me.
When times are hard you seem to think they won't get easy but if you give it time some things will others won't.
Not everything can be the same.
You mustn't feel alone because you are not others go through not much different if not the same.
No one can tell you other than you how you think and feel.
They are so right you are so wrong but that's not always the case, there's a slim chance you could be right they could be wrong.
They know it all because they have all been there before.
The truth is unknown, the whole world is blind.
The truth hurts when that's how you don't want to see your life but if you accept something else will turn out better than what you had in the first place.
Feelings and thoughts are hard to control when you want something or someone.
No matter how wrong it may be you can't move until those feelings and thoughts have, the only way is to let go if you start to see that it isn't right, which is the hardest.
It won't get better if it's not working.
I never knew Keats was a poet.
I had never heard of Keats before.
I never knew his heart was broken just like mine but at a different time.
I never knew he'd inspire me to be a poet. I was stronger than I thought. I coped with exams, stress, studying, and depression.
As a twenty-seven-year-old English student, I walked along with the college library.
What did I see? All I I saw was Keats on a cover of a book looking at how I felt at the time.
I read his poetry of broken love, which inspired me because he faced near enough the same as me.
I never knew he wrote about his feelings at that time.
When I look at the picture of him it was as if I saw myself in the mirror.
Until I read his work I had no idea that we had a poetry talent between us.
I was totally unaware of what book I was picking up and what to expect inside it.
Both of us lived in different times.
I never knew he shared the same subject as me, romance and broken romance.
That's when I knew I wasn't alone. He died of a broken heart,
I didn't but I once thought I was going to. If he hadn't inspired me,
I believe my talent would have been unknown.
Ode To A Nightingale' is my best poem by John Keats. 21.5.2012
It was a dark time.
Back in October 1996 - August 1997 I drank heavily.
Every time I drank I thought my problems would go away.
Problems were still there the next day.
I thought my loneliness would be there day after day for the rest of my life. I felt as if life wasn't worth living. I couldn't see the wood through the trees.
Near enough twelve months of sadness seemed like a lifetime for me.
One bright side of John Keats he inspired me to write. John Keats's work was the first poetry I came across in 1997 at the age of 27. 21.5.2012
When I look at the picture of him it was as if I saw myself in the mirror.
Until I read his work I had no idea that we had a poetry talent between us.
I was totally unaware of what book I was picking up and what to expect inside it.
Both of us lived in different times.
I never knew he shared the same subject as me, romance and broken romance.
That's when I knew I wasn't alone. He died of a broken heart,
I didn't but I once thought I was going to. If he hadn't inspired me,
I believe my talent would have been unknown.
Ode To A Nightingale' is my best poem by John Keats. 21.5.2012
It was a dark time.
Back in October 1996 - August 1997 I drank heavily.
Every time I drank I thought my problems would go away.
Problems were still there the next day.
I thought my loneliness would be there day after day for the rest of my life. I felt as if life wasn't worth living. I couldn't see the wood through the trees.
Near enough twelve months of sadness seemed like a lifetime for me.
One bright side of John Keats he inspired me to write. John Keats's work was the first poetry I came across in 1997 at the age of 27. 21.5.2012
Wake up.
Wake up, life would be boring there was happiest every morning.
Good and bad things can happen without a warning.
Do not dream, wish and hear things that don't happen.
You can't have your own way every day.
The truth is how it is whether you want to hear it or not. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Dyspraxia
I could never do up my buttons.
I could never do up my laces.
I could never clean my teeth how they should be cleaned.
My moth is too small with too many teeth, food just get's everywhere it always has but I love it.
Exercise is hard to access when you have Dyspraxia.
I can't catch or throw a ball.
I couldn't even open a tin with a tin opener but then I discovered how to use the old-fashioned tin openers after.
I love going to the pub, I'm useless with money than I overspend.
I have never been very good at maths.
I am more could with English and words but I even get confused there because of my Dyslexia.
In a poem, I can express my disabilities in a poem better than I can to people.
I am more skilled with my writing and raising learning disability awareness than everyday living skills. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Wake up, life would be boring there was happiest every morning.
Good and bad things can happen without a warning.
Do not dream, wish and hear things that don't happen.
You can't have your own way every day.
The truth is how it is whether you want to hear it or not. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Dyspraxia
I could never do up my buttons.
I could never do up my laces.
I could never clean my teeth how they should be cleaned.
My moth is too small with too many teeth, food just get's everywhere it always has but I love it.
Exercise is hard to access when you have Dyspraxia.
I can't catch or throw a ball.
I couldn't even open a tin with a tin opener but then I discovered how to use the old-fashioned tin openers after.
I love going to the pub, I'm useless with money than I overspend.
I have never been very good at maths.
I am more could with English and words but I even get confused there because of my Dyslexia.
In a poem, I can express my disabilities in a poem better than I can to people.
I am more skilled with my writing and raising learning disability awareness than everyday living skills. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Wolverhampton City.
Either dead as a doornail or full of crime.
This city was once a lovely town.
I still see it as a town, it's too small to be a town in my eyes.
Beggars picking nub ends off the streets and begging people for money.
This shows how Britain is getting weak.
Britain is too overcrowded, we are spending money we can't affront.
What has happened to Great Britain that's just Britain?
The council has wasted money on a bus station that doesn't get used because not all the buses go there.
Most of the buses are messed around the town or should I say city?
It's hard to say what will the future of Britain will be.
Today's children don't know what's right from wrong, which causes crime, how will their children learn right from wrong?
Too many prisons are full up and too many people committing crimes.
Life should be the time for the crime.
There are computers, the internet, iPod s, and mobile phones and the world is not enough, or is it too much?
Maybe there's too much greed in the world.
There were more smiles on faces when we were just playing snakes and ladders. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Either dead as a doornail or full of crime.
This city was once a lovely town.
I still see it as a town, it's too small to be a town in my eyes.
Beggars picking nub ends off the streets and begging people for money.
This shows how Britain is getting weak.
Britain is too overcrowded, we are spending money we can't affront.
What has happened to Great Britain that's just Britain?
The council has wasted money on a bus station that doesn't get used because not all the buses go there.
Most of the buses are messed around the town or should I say city?
It's hard to say what will the future of Britain will be.
Today's children don't know what's right from wrong, which causes crime, how will their children learn right from wrong?
Too many prisons are full up and too many people committing crimes.
Life should be the time for the crime.
There are computers, the internet, iPod s, and mobile phones and the world is not enough, or is it too much?
Maybe there's too much greed in the world.
There were more smiles on faces when we were just playing snakes and ladders. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Moon Under Water.
Cheapest pub in Wolverhampton for food and drink.
More people yet very dead.
Maybe not having any music takes away the atmosphere.
I guess we get what we pay for.
Friday and Saturday nights busiest nights of all.
Young people talking loud, screaming, and knocking the shots back, maybe I am showing my age.13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Changes.
No central heating.
Cold in classrooms wears our coats in lessons.
Play outside build a snowman and throw snowballs.
Games of Snakes and Ladders, Ridley winks, and Frustration.
Get detention and lines if you were naughty.
The slap of the rulers didn't do us any harm.
Coal and gas fire.
Telephone boxes if no landlines.
Long walks in the snow to make phone calls.
Kids walk to school for miles whatever the weather.
Less traffic on the roads.
Prices were cheaper when looking back compared with today. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Cheapest pub in Wolverhampton for food and drink.
More people yet very dead.
Maybe not having any music takes away the atmosphere.
I guess we get what we pay for.
Friday and Saturday nights busiest nights of all.
Young people talking loud, screaming, and knocking the shots back, maybe I am showing my age.13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Changes.
No central heating.
Cold in classrooms wears our coats in lessons.
Play outside build a snowman and throw snowballs.
Games of Snakes and Ladders, Ridley winks, and Frustration.
Get detention and lines if you were naughty.
The slap of the rulers didn't do us any harm.
Coal and gas fire.
Telephone boxes if no landlines.
Long walks in the snow to make phone calls.
Kids walk to school for miles whatever the weather.
Less traffic on the roads.
Prices were cheaper when looking back compared with today. 13.8.2012 - 17.8.2012
Time to keep strong.
It's not just about my feelings, it's about your feelings too.
If enough is enough just let me know, even though I think so much of you I will leave you alone.
You don't have to give reasons why when I can work them out for myself, no one is in the wrong.
Sorry for what I have done.
I speak my mind and I speak the truth.
However, you feel I need to know so if your feelings don't match with mine I can get on with my life.
If only I knew what is going through your mind.
Don't be scared to tell me it's not as if I haven't been there before.
Sorry if things didn't work out if they haven't at least we tried.
Maybe things didn't work out to what we hoped.
As hard as it is I had to be honest to you, I couldn't have lied to you.
All I know is that I miss you so much. 12.10.12
It's not just about my feelings, it's about your feelings too.
If enough is enough just let me know, even though I think so much of you I will leave you alone.
You don't have to give reasons why when I can work them out for myself, no one is in the wrong.
Sorry for what I have done.
I speak my mind and I speak the truth.
However, you feel I need to know so if your feelings don't match with mine I can get on with my life.
If only I knew what is going through your mind.
Don't be scared to tell me it's not as if I haven't been there before.
Sorry if things didn't work out if they haven't at least we tried.
Maybe things didn't work out to what we hoped.
As hard as it is I had to be honest to you, I couldn't have lied to you.
All I know is that I miss you so much. 12.10.12
Need to know the reasons.
I know I told you in the text that I sent you that I wanted to know the reasons why we have to part.
I have tried to put the reasons out of my mind behind but I just can’t.
Sorry to say that I’m going out of my mind.
I need to know if I have done anything wrong, if so what?
I don't want to make you love me if you don't love me.
Somehow someway I need to move on.I need to know if I have done anything wrong, if so what?
I don't want to make you love me if you don't love me.
How long have you been fed up with me?
Didn't I show you enough love?
Wasn't I there when you wanted me to be there or was I there when you didn't want me to be there?
I don’t want to force you into another you don’t want to do.
I love and care for you too much to put stress on you I love you so much I will need to let you go, which is hard to do.
Didn't I show you enough love?
Wasn't I there when you wanted me to be there or was I there when you didn't want me to be there?
I don’t want to force you into another you don’t want to do.
I love and care for you too much to put stress on you I love you so much I will need to let you go, which is hard to do.
Even though I have a rough idea of the reason why I need to be sure I'm right in some cases I hope I'm wrong.
I may have done nothing wrong it may be something that's no one's fault.
I've always prepared myself for the worst because nothing has lasted for me in the past.
Take your time to tell me I will wait forever, I guess I only have myself to blame.
I feel as if I'm in a black hole, I feel so sad.
I know I have my conscience to fight.
All I need is peace of mind.
I can't believe I've hurt the one I love so much.
I know I won't get anyone better than you.
The next one will be like the rest of them therefore it won't last.
I want to move forward not back.
I've blown it with it right one, which is you.
I may have done nothing wrong it may be something that's no one's fault.
I've always prepared myself for the worst because nothing has lasted for me in the past.
Take your time to tell me I will wait forever, I guess I only have myself to blame.
I feel as if I'm in a black hole, I feel so sad.
I know I have my conscience to fight.
All I need is peace of mind.
I can't believe I've hurt the one I love so much.
I know I won't get anyone better than you.
The next one will be like the rest of them therefore it won't last.
I want to move forward not back.
I've blown it with it right one, which is you.
Didn't I treat you right?
Put me right on what I did wrong so I don't make the same mistake again.
Right now I'm going out of my mind.
Whether it's in my face, letter text, or phone please let me know.
My last love finished with me because I was around him too much.
Having learned from that mistake, I have tried so hard to be independent, or have I become too independent?
I thought you'd like your women independent, we never saw that much of one another anyway.
Please tell me how I can keep a man happy?
I know I washed my hands of him, which caused us to see even less of one another, but at least I saw you for a little while, how should that affect us when he didn't know about us?
If I hadn't turned up because of him, you may have thought I was cheating on you, that's what I wouldn't do. 16.10.2012
Put me right on what I did wrong so I don't make the same mistake again.
Right now I'm going out of my mind.
Whether it's in my face, letter text, or phone please let me know.
My last love finished with me because I was around him too much.
Having learned from that mistake, I have tried so hard to be independent, or have I become too independent?
I thought you'd like your women independent, we never saw that much of one another anyway.
Please tell me how I can keep a man happy?
I know I washed my hands of him, which caused us to see even less of one another, but at least I saw you for a little while, how should that affect us when he didn't know about us?
If I hadn't turned up because of him, you may have thought I was cheating on you, that's what I wouldn't do. 16.10.2012
Time to move on.
Now that you have gone for good the days and nights seem longer than before we parted.
Even though we spend little time together when we were together, it's as if a big part of my life is missing, I'm missing you a lot more.
Although I will see you again someday as just friends this will take some getting used to, it won't be the same as before.
It's good to know that there was no lying, falling out, and cheating.
Don't worry it's not a lot different than it was before after all, your secret is still safe with me, just the same as it was when we were together.
I need to write poetry to keep myself stable and help myself to move on.
I need to accept what you want.
I don't regret a single minute of time we spent together.
I understand why it had to end but I wouldn't lie to say I would love to go back to where it was again. 30.10.2012
Now that you have gone for good the days and nights seem longer than before we parted.
Even though we spend little time together when we were together, it's as if a big part of my life is missing, I'm missing you a lot more.
Although I will see you again someday as just friends this will take some getting used to, it won't be the same as before.
It's good to know that there was no lying, falling out, and cheating.
Don't worry it's not a lot different than it was before after all, your secret is still safe with me, just the same as it was when we were together.
I need to write poetry to keep myself stable and help myself to move on.
I need to accept what you want.
I don't regret a single minute of time we spent together.
I understand why it had to end but I wouldn't lie to say I would love to go back to where it was again. 30.10.2012
You turn on and off like a light.
I can take no more of your pain, your mind turns on and off like a light.
One minute your mind is rain then it shines.
I never know how long your mine,
If I take any more of your change of mind, I will blow the fuse and go out of my mind.
You change like the weather winter, summer and spring.
If the water catches wires it will pull out the fire.
If I let you carry on, I will blow a storm that will rise to fire, 30.10.2012
Winter is coming.
The winter is coming; the cold is coming without you.
Dark mornings and dark nights as the cold frost bites into the morning light.
The days are shorter and the nights are longer without you.
Six months of winter go on forever after the clocks go back.
Time seems late than it is because winter is so dark.
The cold is longer without you. 30.10.2012
Moving forward.
The door has closed but it's too cold yet for other doors to open.
It doesn't seem as if there are any more doors to open as I have walked through them all.
If there' are any more doors to open they will open in the spring ready for the summer.
Walk into Autumn doors will close for winter.
The future is an unknown world. 30.10.2012
I can take no more of your pain, your mind turns on and off like a light.
One minute your mind is rain then it shines.
I never know how long your mine,
If I take any more of your change of mind, I will blow the fuse and go out of my mind.
You change like the weather winter, summer and spring.
If the water catches wires it will pull out the fire.
If I let you carry on, I will blow a storm that will rise to fire, 30.10.2012
Winter is coming.
The winter is coming; the cold is coming without you.
Dark mornings and dark nights as the cold frost bites into the morning light.
The days are shorter and the nights are longer without you.
Six months of winter go on forever after the clocks go back.
Time seems late than it is because winter is so dark.
The cold is longer without you. 30.10.2012
Moving forward.
The door has closed but it's too cold yet for other doors to open.
It doesn't seem as if there are any more doors to open as I have walked through them all.
If there' are any more doors to open they will open in the spring ready for the summer.
Walk into Autumn doors will close for winter.
The future is an unknown world. 30.10.2012
The stormy sea.
The boats are sinking as the tide goes in and out as people shout floating about.
Most people dream of living near the sea you see.
The sea can be a nightmare as well as a dream you see.
It's not all it cuts out to be you see.
Furniture damage, power cuts and electrically going on and off.
As the sea stops rushing it will calm down in time.
The boats will peacefully float.
The sunset will rise as it shines surfing, slipping, and sliding. 30.10.2012
Washing machine.
It seems as if the world is a big washout.
The washing machine seemed to be going on forever.
The timer was only set for 30 minutes, as it went on longer.
It stooped just before I went to the shops.
The door took ages to open as the water came out like a shower onto the floor.
I grabbed anything I could to soak up the water quick as I could.
Strangely when I saw the news the same day, the Americans were up to their necks of Super Storm Sandy.
The stormy sea caused damage to homes, power cuts, and electrically going on and off.
Anything, everything, and everyone in sight the storm will fright to fight. 30.10.2012
Halloween and Bonfire Night.
Halloween and Bonfire night are so near together as Halloween gets ready for Bonfire Night.
It all happened on two very dark stormy nights, not a very nice sight nothing very bright.
The creatures were stirred into the witches' pots for soup on Halloween night ready for Bonfire Night.
Both nights were wet, rainy, and windy not a pretty sight.
Halloween night is when the witches bite as they fly on their broom and kite.
Witches don't give up without a fright to fight.
Bonfire Night is the night when the witches get burned alive on the bonfire. 1.11.2012
The boats are sinking as the tide goes in and out as people shout floating about.
Most people dream of living near the sea you see.
The sea can be a nightmare as well as a dream you see.
It's not all it cuts out to be you see.
Furniture damage, power cuts and electrically going on and off.
As the sea stops rushing it will calm down in time.
The boats will peacefully float.
The sunset will rise as it shines surfing, slipping, and sliding. 30.10.2012
Washing machine.
It seems as if the world is a big washout.
The washing machine seemed to be going on forever.
The timer was only set for 30 minutes, as it went on longer.
It stooped just before I went to the shops.
The door took ages to open as the water came out like a shower onto the floor.
I grabbed anything I could to soak up the water quick as I could.
Strangely when I saw the news the same day, the Americans were up to their necks of Super Storm Sandy.
The stormy sea caused damage to homes, power cuts, and electrically going on and off.
Anything, everything, and everyone in sight the storm will fright to fight. 30.10.2012
Halloween and Bonfire Night.
Halloween and Bonfire night are so near together as Halloween gets ready for Bonfire Night.
It all happened on two very dark stormy nights, not a very nice sight nothing very bright.
The creatures were stirred into the witches' pots for soup on Halloween night ready for Bonfire Night.
Both nights were wet, rainy, and windy not a pretty sight.
Halloween night is when the witches bite as they fly on their broom and kite.
Witches don't give up without a fright to fight.
Bonfire Night is the night when the witches get burned alive on the bonfire. 1.11.2012
I know the truth hurts.
I know the truth hurts yet there's no one to blame, which is a good thing.
Nevertheless, the truth hurts to lose your love.
For non-blamed reasons, the feelings are hard to go away.
Just because I'm calm with you when I see you don't mean I don't hurt.
Maybe I'm wrong but all the same, I still have a lot of trust in you.
I still want to be your friend even though I can't be your love anymore.
How are you feeling, are you happy or sad to lose me?
I may not have cried or showed any signs of heartache but believe me it's all there.
I'm still strong but my emotions are there whether anyone can see them or not,
I'm coping alone because I've had so many heartaches before now.
All good things come to the end of our love.
To me, you were the best better than all the rest and you still are.
If only I knew what was going through your mind,
I wonder how long it's been since you have gone off me. 5.11.2012
I know the truth hurts yet there's no one to blame, which is a good thing.
Nevertheless, the truth hurts to lose your love.
For non-blamed reasons, the feelings are hard to go away.
Just because I'm calm with you when I see you don't mean I don't hurt.
Maybe I'm wrong but all the same, I still have a lot of trust in you.
I still want to be your friend even though I can't be your love anymore.
How are you feeling, are you happy or sad to lose me?
I may not have cried or showed any signs of heartache but believe me it's all there.
I'm still strong but my emotions are there whether anyone can see them or not,
I'm coping alone because I've had so many heartaches before now.
All good things come to the end of our love.
To me, you were the best better than all the rest and you still are.
If only I knew what was going through your mind,
I wonder how long it's been since you have gone off me. 5.11.2012
All good things come to the end.
Now it's all gone, there's no magic wand to bring us back together again.
I know nothing will be the same again.
Time to move on but the future is unknown.
Nothing has to go bitter.
Love doesn't have to happen for us to get along.
There must be ways of facing one another without thinking about how we once were.
I have so many things to say to you.
So many reasons could be unknown to me.
I may be I'm thinking you could be hiding something away from me, how do I know?
I can trust you but it's hard to know as I saw so little of you.
I may be wrong I just need to make sure.
What are your thoughts that are going through your mind?
Why did it take me to text you for me to find out it was over?
Now it's all gone, there's no magic wand to bring us back together again.
I know nothing will be the same again.
Time to move on but the future is unknown.
Nothing has to go bitter.
Love doesn't have to happen for us to get along.
There must be ways of facing one another without thinking about how we once were.
I have so many things to say to you.
So many reasons could be unknown to me.
I may be I'm thinking you could be hiding something away from me, how do I know?
I can trust you but it's hard to know as I saw so little of you.
I may be wrong I just need to make sure.
What are your thoughts that are going through your mind?
Why did it take me to text you for me to find out it was over?
Would you ever have told me if I hadn't texted you?
When would you have told me it was over?
How long has it been since you have wanted it to end or didn't you want it to end? 5.11.2012
No more.
I took on your world because I loved you.
The most hurtful thing is that I still love you.
Yes, I had the chance to say no to your world but I liked you so much.
It even hurts now to lose you but I know you had your reasons to do so.
As much as I want to accept that it's over it's not easy.
Writing these poems keeps me coping. 5.11.2012
I thought it was love.
I thought it was love but I guess it wasn't.
It was love that was just a dream if you know what I mean.
Whatever it was between us you were my secret lover and dream
The dream seemed good while lasted, why did it stop?
It all felt so good at the time.
With my luck, there seems to be no such word as love.
It's all just a dream love book.
Happiest is just a dream book.
Now it makes you wonder what life is all about.
If only I knew the truth of happiness of falling in love because to what I have discovered it's never happened.
It was all in my mind, a dream and I was in a world of my own. 5.11.2012
I took on your world because I loved you.
The most hurtful thing is that I still love you.
Yes, I had the chance to say no to your world but I liked you so much.
It even hurts now to lose you but I know you had your reasons to do so.
As much as I want to accept that it's over it's not easy.
Writing these poems keeps me coping. 5.11.2012
I thought it was love.
I thought it was love but I guess it wasn't.
It was love that was just a dream if you know what I mean.
Whatever it was between us you were my secret lover and dream
The dream seemed good while lasted, why did it stop?
It all felt so good at the time.
With my luck, there seems to be no such word as love.
It's all just a dream love book.
Happiest is just a dream book.
Now it makes you wonder what life is all about.
If only I knew the truth of happiness of falling in love because to what I have discovered it's never happened.
It was all in my mind, a dream and I was in a world of my own. 5.11.2012
Frozen.
The winter is frozen cold without your love.
Even though you saw me on my birthday, it was still not easy to see you again after the text message before my birthday.
Since then my world has been empty without you.
On the night of my birthday, I didn't know what to say to you as I froze.
Although I faced you, I felt hurt inside, even though you told me the reason why.
Even now my feelings towards you are still here my dear.
I want to accept what you want, I don't want to give you a hard time.
The hardest thing for me is to get you off my mind. 5.11.2012
Now what?
How can I forget you when I know I should?
If only I knew how you felt about me.
If only I knew how you'd react to my poems.
Where both of us are just a dream, if not why can't I get you out of my head?
Nothing seems to be happening now.
Was I just reading things when I read your text or was I just having a nightmare?
Something doesn't feel right inside of me.
Why do I feel so empty inside?
Nothing seems the same anymore, 5.11.2012
The winter is frozen cold without your love.
Even though you saw me on my birthday, it was still not easy to see you again after the text message before my birthday.
Since then my world has been empty without you.
On the night of my birthday, I didn't know what to say to you as I froze.
Although I faced you, I felt hurt inside, even though you told me the reason why.
Even now my feelings towards you are still here my dear.
I want to accept what you want, I don't want to give you a hard time.
The hardest thing for me is to get you off my mind. 5.11.2012
Now what?
How can I forget you when I know I should?
If only I knew how you felt about me.
If only I knew how you'd react to my poems.
Where both of us are just a dream, if not why can't I get you out of my head?
Nothing seems to be happening now.
Was I just reading things when I read your text or was I just having a nightmare?
Something doesn't feel right inside of me.
Why do I feel so empty inside?
Nothing seems the same anymore, 5.11.2012
How can I forget?
How can I forget when we first met.
I didn't have a thought in the world.
I never took great notice of you being there yet I was facing another heartache.
Even when I sat next to you for the first time the thought of love wasn't on my mind.
Little did I realize that I'd even get talking to you.
Little did I realize that I'd get like you like I still do now.
Little did I realize that you would become interested in me at the time.
Soon as I felt the same as you did, I never wanted it to end.
Suddenly you don't feel the same way anymore now this is what I find hard to get used to. 5.11.2012
The way you felt about me.
The way you felt about me, in the beginning, is different from how you feel now.
If only I didn't still love you like I do.
In time I will get through this just like I have had with others in my past life, it will just take its own time to get used to you not being mine anymore.
Both of us have gone through this pain alone.
Not really me when I can turn to my pen, paper, computer, and poetry. 6.11.2012
Maybe if I say nothing to you.
Maybe if I say nothing at all to you.
You won't know how I feel about the break-up.
Maybe if I don't take your thoughts and feelings into account either.
When we were together nothing was said to anyone.
I'm here to share your thoughts and feelings if you want in hopes we are here for one another just the same as we were.
Our love was a secret to the world so is our breakup. 6.11.2012
How can I forget when we first met.
I didn't have a thought in the world.
I never took great notice of you being there yet I was facing another heartache.
Even when I sat next to you for the first time the thought of love wasn't on my mind.
Little did I realize that I'd even get talking to you.
Little did I realize that I'd get like you like I still do now.
Little did I realize that you would become interested in me at the time.
Soon as I felt the same as you did, I never wanted it to end.
Suddenly you don't feel the same way anymore now this is what I find hard to get used to. 5.11.2012
The way you felt about me.
The way you felt about me, in the beginning, is different from how you feel now.
If only I didn't still love you like I do.
In time I will get through this just like I have had with others in my past life, it will just take its own time to get used to you not being mine anymore.
Both of us have gone through this pain alone.
Not really me when I can turn to my pen, paper, computer, and poetry. 6.11.2012
Maybe if I say nothing to you.
Maybe if I say nothing at all to you.
You won't know how I feel about the break-up.
Maybe if I don't take your thoughts and feelings into account either.
When we were together nothing was said to anyone.
I'm here to share your thoughts and feelings if you want in hopes we are here for one another just the same as we were.
Our love was a secret to the world so is our breakup. 6.11.2012
It was never to be.
I know I don't know what you are thinking.
The tears inside me I can't cry.
I know it hurts me to know that I'll never be yours again.
I thought you were the one for me but how wrong was I?
Where do I go now?
How do you think I should think and feel?
Maybe I shouldn't care less but the problem is that I do.
If only I could clear you out of my mind.
If only I could tell you how I think and feel with you thinking and feeling the same way. 6.11.2012
I feel so low.
I feel so low and empty without you.
How did I meet you?
How did I fall for you?
How did I get myself into this state?
Why did I build up my hopes that you were the one for me?
I remember I was going through heartache with someone else when I first met you.
Now feel the same now as I did then.
It never seems to end.
I don't want anyone but you.
Now I have told myself that in time I will meet someone new just as I had to when I broke up with all the other lovers.
This is hard to believe to how I feel now, 6.11.2012
I know I don't know what you are thinking.
The tears inside me I can't cry.
I know it hurts me to know that I'll never be yours again.
I thought you were the one for me but how wrong was I?
Where do I go now?
How do you think I should think and feel?
Maybe I shouldn't care less but the problem is that I do.
If only I could clear you out of my mind.
If only I could tell you how I think and feel with you thinking and feeling the same way. 6.11.2012
I feel so low.
I feel so low and empty without you.
How did I meet you?
How did I fall for you?
How did I get myself into this state?
Why did I build up my hopes that you were the one for me?
I remember I was going through heartache with someone else when I first met you.
Now feel the same now as I did then.
It never seems to end.
I don't want anyone but you.
Now I have told myself that in time I will meet someone new just as I had to when I broke up with all the other lovers.
This is hard to believe to how I feel now, 6.11.2012
Don't think because I'm alone.
Only because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm free to love anyone for a long time.
As far as your mind works, I'm not a free woman because you don't know I'm single.
I want to move forward not back in my life.
I don't need you to mess my head around anymore.
Now I'm staying away from you.
Don't think because I'm alone that I'm coming back into your life because I'm not.
I will make sure that you won't know whether I'm single or not.
I'm keeping away from you so you don't get your chance to love me to hurt me again.
Love, you don't even know what the word love means.
Maybe I am lonely but it's better than being with you to hurt me all over again like you have so many times before.
How many chances do you want?
If you think I am wasting the rest of my life on you, then the news is bad for you.
I'm not giving you any more chances for you to love me to hurt me again.
I find it hard to forgive and forget what you did to me.
Why should I forgive you at all?
I used to find it hard to stop loving now I find it hard to love again.
Why would I try to love you again after what you put me through?
Now I just have no trust in you yet once I believed in you so much.
Only because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm free to love anyone for a long time.
As far as your mind works, I'm not a free woman because you don't know I'm single.
I want to move forward not back in my life.
I don't need you to mess my head around anymore.
Now I'm staying away from you.
Don't think because I'm alone that I'm coming back into your life because I'm not.
I will make sure that you won't know whether I'm single or not.
I'm keeping away from you so you don't get your chance to love me to hurt me again.
Love, you don't even know what the word love means.
Maybe I am lonely but it's better than being with you to hurt me all over again like you have so many times before.
How many chances do you want?
If you think I am wasting the rest of my life on you, then the news is bad for you.
I'm not giving you any more chances for you to love me to hurt me again.
I find it hard to forgive and forget what you did to me.
Why should I forgive you at all?
I used to find it hard to stop loving now I find it hard to love again.
Why would I try to love you again after what you put me through?
Now I just have no trust in you yet once I believed in you so much.
I should never have gone back to you, I should have known better than giving you another chance.
I may well now be single, which could be for a long time but not forever, I believe I will meet someone better than you one day.
The longer I am single the more he will be worth the wait as well as the date.
I don't want to love you for you to hurt me again.
You confused my mind and messed with my head with your silly mind games not knowing whether you wanted me or not.
I want someone who knows what and who he wants.
Now you have lost your chance to love me again.
You knew I used to love you so much that you played with my head.
After losing you it took a long time to get my life back together again.
Little did I realize that I was better off without you, how blind was I?
Every day I used to hope that you'd change but you just got worse.
Just because I'm alone doesn't mean you can touch me because I feel nothing for you.
Nothing at all.
You may laugh now because I'm alone, it may be a long time but I'm more than willing to get back on my feet again so I won't be alone forever.
You don't break me anymore.
I have got my life back together before, I will do it again.
I feel nothing for you anymore.
You never loved me and cared for me as much as I did for you.
You didn't love me as much as I thought you did.
You didn't love me at all.
I can't believe I loved a man for 13 and a half years on and off who didn't love me.
Our relationship was based on you lying about your feelings towards me.
I was too blind to disbelieve you.
Time to move on.
It's time for me to stop turning up on your doorstep. 5.11.2012 -
18.11.2012
Percy Bysshe Shelly.
I may well now be single, which could be for a long time but not forever, I believe I will meet someone better than you one day.
The longer I am single the more he will be worth the wait as well as the date.
I don't want to love you for you to hurt me again.
You confused my mind and messed with my head with your silly mind games not knowing whether you wanted me or not.
I want someone who knows what and who he wants.
Now you have lost your chance to love me again.
You knew I used to love you so much that you played with my head.
After losing you it took a long time to get my life back together again.
Little did I realize that I was better off without you, how blind was I?
Every day I used to hope that you'd change but you just got worse.
Just because I'm alone doesn't mean you can touch me because I feel nothing for you.
Nothing at all.
You may laugh now because I'm alone, it may be a long time but I'm more than willing to get back on my feet again so I won't be alone forever.
You don't break me anymore.
I have got my life back together before, I will do it again.
I feel nothing for you anymore.
You never loved me and cared for me as much as I did for you.
You didn't love me as much as I thought you did.
You didn't love me at all.
I can't believe I loved a man for 13 and a half years on and off who didn't love me.
Our relationship was based on you lying about your feelings towards me.
I was too blind to disbelieve you.
Time to move on.
It's time for me to stop turning up on your doorstep. 5.11.2012 -
18.11.2012
Percy Bysshe Shelly.
Shelly loved the water yet he married Mary Shelly who wrote Frankincense.
It's hard to think about Frankinsine coming out of water.
How strange to know that Shelly ended his life drowning in the water yet his body was buried underground with his ashes all over him.
Maybe Shelly's body may have gone to sea with his wife Mary if she didn't lay next to Frankincense. 9.12.2012
Hiding pain with a smile.
Sometimes the world can know too much about you.
Sometimes we should be free to have our secrets and cope alone with whatever goes wrong.
Drinking may not be the answer but tears are too locked in the eyes to cry.
Keeping ones' self busy is keeping ones' self going.
Now it's too easy to fear the future.
Not wanting to be alone but not having to deal with disappointed ended love.
It's hard to know what you do and don't want letting alone what's going to happen.
Try not to think about it, just get on with it with a smile.
Maybe it's easy to smile but hard to stop thinking about you.
No matter how I try I find my feelings for you are hard to go. 9.12.2012
It's hard to think about Frankinsine coming out of water.
How strange to know that Shelly ended his life drowning in the water yet his body was buried underground with his ashes all over him.
Maybe Shelly's body may have gone to sea with his wife Mary if she didn't lay next to Frankincense. 9.12.2012
Hiding pain with a smile.
Sometimes the world can know too much about you.
Sometimes we should be free to have our secrets and cope alone with whatever goes wrong.
Drinking may not be the answer but tears are too locked in the eyes to cry.
Keeping ones' self busy is keeping ones' self going.
Now it's too easy to fear the future.
Not wanting to be alone but not having to deal with disappointed ended love.
It's hard to know what you do and don't want letting alone what's going to happen.
Try not to think about it, just get on with it with a smile.
Maybe it's easy to smile but hard to stop thinking about you.
No matter how I try I find my feelings for you are hard to go. 9.12.2012
Time is passing by.
When I look at the world everyone is in love but not everyone.
Now I realize I'm like a ticking clock tricking so fast years are racing by yet I try not to wait for things to happen because they take too long.
It's easy to understand why every middle age person feels alone.
It's too easy to think this is the end of you when it's not.
It's too easy to feel alone when the world is full of young love.
You are never too old, you just forget that you were young in love once but never thought about the older ones alone.
The future is hard to see but your life isn't over yet, it just takes longer to mend when broken than it used to. 9.12.2012
When everyone knows.
When everyone knows nothing and no one is your own.
They think you only care about yourself, which is not true.
This can make you so misunderstood.
When everyone knows everything of yours nothing and no one is your own, it's there for everyone and everything.
We should all have the right to have something or someone on our own. 9. 12.2012
When I look at the world everyone is in love but not everyone.
Now I realize I'm like a ticking clock tricking so fast years are racing by yet I try not to wait for things to happen because they take too long.
It's easy to understand why every middle age person feels alone.
It's too easy to think this is the end of you when it's not.
It's too easy to feel alone when the world is full of young love.
You are never too old, you just forget that you were young in love once but never thought about the older ones alone.
The future is hard to see but your life isn't over yet, it just takes longer to mend when broken than it used to. 9.12.2012
When everyone knows.
When everyone knows nothing and no one is your own.
They think you only care about yourself, which is not true.
This can make you so misunderstood.
When everyone knows everything of yours nothing and no one is your own, it's there for everyone and everything.
We should all have the right to have something or someone on our own. 9. 12.2012
A brave face.
Step into the world to show them you are there.
Show them no fear even though you may have fear.
You are more than a stranger to them what they think.
You may worry more than you should.
The world may seem worse than it is.
Once you have taken one step you can take another one.
Nothing lost nothing gained.
Many things happen for the right reasons even if they seem wrong. 9.12.2012
It's hard but I will get by.
Not that you don't feel to same about me as you used to.
I feel more lonely than I did before.
Don't worry, don't feel bad.
Who am I, I know I am no one special at all?
Of course, you are going to love again one day so will I.
He's out there somewhere but I don't know where.
I guess I won't meet him for a long time to come.
I believe he'll be just as nice as you but it's not fair to say better.
Maybe I live in fear of being alone but in fear of losing disappointed love again.
I guess I just accept too much without meaning to.
Maybe I should except to be loved or live in fear of love.
This could be why every relationship has failed.
I should stop feeling sorry for myself, I know I'm not alone.
Maybe loneliness isn't my problem, maybe it's the thought of getting old.
Then old age isn't a problem I hope I get wiser.
No rush to love again, I will take my time, and won't be easy to get next time around.
Why should I go back to a bad boy after losing a good boy, maybe I will get a better boy next time. 9.12.2012
Step into the world to show them you are there.
Show them no fear even though you may have fear.
You are more than a stranger to them what they think.
You may worry more than you should.
The world may seem worse than it is.
Once you have taken one step you can take another one.
Nothing lost nothing gained.
Many things happen for the right reasons even if they seem wrong. 9.12.2012
It's hard but I will get by.
Not that you don't feel to same about me as you used to.
I feel more lonely than I did before.
Don't worry, don't feel bad.
Who am I, I know I am no one special at all?
Of course, you are going to love again one day so will I.
He's out there somewhere but I don't know where.
I guess I won't meet him for a long time to come.
I believe he'll be just as nice as you but it's not fair to say better.
Maybe I live in fear of being alone but in fear of losing disappointed love again.
I guess I just accept too much without meaning to.
Maybe I should except to be loved or live in fear of love.
This could be why every relationship has failed.
I should stop feeling sorry for myself, I know I'm not alone.
Maybe loneliness isn't my problem, maybe it's the thought of getting old.
Then old age isn't a problem I hope I get wiser.
No rush to love again, I will take my time, and won't be easy to get next time around.
Why should I go back to a bad boy after losing a good boy, maybe I will get a better boy next time. 9.12.2012
Too scared to talk.
Too scared of saying the wrong thing even though one may mean it.
It may not be nice but it may be the truth.
One can be scared of the truth in a good way as well as a bad but then the truth isn't always what we want heard then we do, it's no good living in a lie.
Not wanting to hurt the feelings of others.
Not wanting to fall out with others because they can't agree with you and you can't agree with them.
Everyone has the right to their own views.
Not everyone gets along: not everyone doesn't get along.
Right or wrong you can't make feelings go away until feelings want to.
We all make mistakes: not all are mistakes.
It's what we say and does that matters, thinking is just thoughts, not words. 9. 12. 2012
Too scared of saying the wrong thing even though one may mean it.
It may not be nice but it may be the truth.
One can be scared of the truth in a good way as well as a bad but then the truth isn't always what we want heard then we do, it's no good living in a lie.
Not wanting to hurt the feelings of others.
Not wanting to fall out with others because they can't agree with you and you can't agree with them.
Everyone has the right to their own views.
Not everyone gets along: not everyone doesn't get along.
Right or wrong you can't make feelings go away until feelings want to.
We all make mistakes: not all are mistakes.
It's what we say and does that matters, thinking is just thoughts, not words. 9. 12. 2012
Understanding people.
The only people who understand we are we.
Freedom is important without knowing it we control one another.
We are looked at as strange by strangers as if we have masks to cover as faces.
We are looked at as if we are wrong all the while.
We are looked at as if we are not human.
We looked as if we are nuts and out of our minds all the time.
There's a fear that we are watched all the time.
As if what we do and say is wrong all the time.
Fear of being bitten shouted at and hit because others don't see life like we do. 9.12.2012
Hard to trust.
To be able to trust is to know that there's faith that no one will judge you for what you do and say.
To be able to look at the world with ones' head up high without fear of strange looks.
It should be easy to believe in one's self and others. 9.12.2012
Loving too much.
If you love someone let them be themself.
Don't try to make them love you because you love them.
One day your feelings will match with someone.
Be careful because many pretend to love you when they don't.
Don't pretend to love someone when you don't because then that's lying in love.
Be yourself, others will respect you.
The secret is to not let them know you love them, let them work it out for themselves, even better unless you know for sure they love you.
They will hate you if you force their feelings to be the same as yours.
They will play with your feelings if they don't match theirs.
Be brave enough to take the pain there are plenty more that love you.
The best love takes a long time to find out about.
Don't rush feelings to go away.
The feeling will go away when they are going to. 9.12.12
The only people who understand we are we.
Freedom is important without knowing it we control one another.
We are looked at as strange by strangers as if we have masks to cover as faces.
We are looked at as if we are wrong all the while.
We are looked at as if we are not human.
We looked as if we are nuts and out of our minds all the time.
There's a fear that we are watched all the time.
As if what we do and say is wrong all the time.
Fear of being bitten shouted at and hit because others don't see life like we do. 9.12.2012
Hard to trust.
To be able to trust is to know that there's faith that no one will judge you for what you do and say.
To be able to look at the world with ones' head up high without fear of strange looks.
It should be easy to believe in one's self and others. 9.12.2012
Loving too much.
If you love someone let them be themself.
Don't try to make them love you because you love them.
One day your feelings will match with someone.
Be careful because many pretend to love you when they don't.
Don't pretend to love someone when you don't because then that's lying in love.
Be yourself, others will respect you.
The secret is to not let them know you love them, let them work it out for themselves, even better unless you know for sure they love you.
They will hate you if you force their feelings to be the same as yours.
They will play with your feelings if they don't match theirs.
Be brave enough to take the pain there are plenty more that love you.
The best love takes a long time to find out about.
Don't rush feelings to go away.
The feeling will go away when they are going to. 9.12.12
Failed love.
You may have given me pain but I gave you all the love I could.
The pain you gave me made me a stronger person in the end.
Never judge what you don't know.
You may have known me a long time but you don't know everything about me.
See what you see of me when the door is open but when it's closed the only person who knows me is me. 9.12.12
When I was awake I was asleep.
The voices I heard were shouting at me to wake me up as I was in my own world.
I think I was been asked questions that I didn't know the answers to.
The teachers wrote so much jargon on the board in school.
It seemed as if I never paid great attention to the world around me.
This is why I learned nothing in school nothing at all.
They moved my table and chair to the end of the class.
Let kids laugh at me and bully as hell outside on the playground.
They made me feel so thick and small that they all called me thick.
For all the tablets I took if I were still taking them my adulthood would have been distorted as well as my childhood.
Now kids and teachers I'm not the person I was, I've learned more since I left school.
In school, I learned nothing at all. 9.12.12
You may have given me pain but I gave you all the love I could.
The pain you gave me made me a stronger person in the end.
Never judge what you don't know.
You may have known me a long time but you don't know everything about me.
See what you see of me when the door is open but when it's closed the only person who knows me is me. 9.12.12
When I was awake I was asleep.
The voices I heard were shouting at me to wake me up as I was in my own world.
I think I was been asked questions that I didn't know the answers to.
The teachers wrote so much jargon on the board in school.
It seemed as if I never paid great attention to the world around me.
This is why I learned nothing in school nothing at all.
They moved my table and chair to the end of the class.
Let kids laugh at me and bully as hell outside on the playground.
They made me feel so thick and small that they all called me thick.
For all the tablets I took if I were still taking them my adulthood would have been distorted as well as my childhood.
Now kids and teachers I'm not the person I was, I've learned more since I left school.
In school, I learned nothing at all. 9.12.12
Why did you?
Why did you play with my mind?
Why did you make me cry?
You knew I told you I loved you that's why.
Now things have turned the other way round.
The only difference is that I mean what I say.
I don't feel the same towards you as I used to.
Your loss you never loved me when I did love you.
You only pretend to love me to keep me happy.
I can't believe I lived 13 and a half years with a lie.
Why should I care how you feel anymore because you never cared about my feelings when I had feelings for you. 9.12.12
Why did you play with my mind?
Why did you make me cry?
You knew I told you I loved you that's why.
Now things have turned the other way round.
The only difference is that I mean what I say.
I don't feel the same towards you as I used to.
Your loss you never loved me when I did love you.
You only pretend to love me to keep me happy.
I can't believe I lived 13 and a half years with a lie.
Why should I care how you feel anymore because you never cared about my feelings when I had feelings for you. 9.12.12
Feelings.
I meant everything I said to you.
I only wish I said nothing at all.
I wish I kept my thoughts to myself even though nothing has been said ever since.
Sorry, I said it at the wrong time.
I must move on to think that you don't feel the same as I do.
I know I got upset beforehand but I have a lot on my mind.
I bet you wonder why I feel this way all of a sudden.
I have shocked myself to think it's sudden for me to feel this way about someone at this point. 12.12.12 - 23.12.12
Out of all poems.
I bet you'd be shocked to read what I have to say to you in this poem.
I bet you wonder why I have written this poem all of a sudden.
Out of all poems, I have written, this has not been an easy poem to write.
I have had to write a few poems to get to my point to accept the things I want and can't have in life.
Saying how I feel isn't easy otherwise I wouldn't have written this poem.
I have written this poem because I don't want to show you up in front of people in the pub. 12.12.12 - 23.12.12
I meant everything I said to you.
I only wish I said nothing at all.
I wish I kept my thoughts to myself even though nothing has been said ever since.
Sorry, I said it at the wrong time.
I must move on to think that you don't feel the same as I do.
I know I got upset beforehand but I have a lot on my mind.
I bet you wonder why I feel this way all of a sudden.
I have shocked myself to think it's sudden for me to feel this way about someone at this point. 12.12.12 - 23.12.12
Out of all poems.
I bet you'd be shocked to read what I have to say to you in this poem.
I bet you wonder why I have written this poem all of a sudden.
Out of all poems, I have written, this has not been an easy poem to write.
I have had to write a few poems to get to my point to accept the things I want and can't have in life.
Saying how I feel isn't easy otherwise I wouldn't have written this poem.
I have written this poem because I don't want to show you up in front of people in the pub. 12.12.12 - 23.12.12
It may not be as bad as I think.
Sorry, there's no easy way for me to tell you.
I never thought I'd feel this way about someone so quickly.
I feel so silly because I don't know you very well.
I can't bring myself to tell you because you may not speak to me again if I do.
I don't want to make life hard for you but I would be lying to myself and you if I said I don't feel this way.
I may be worrying about nothing.
I don't want to risk losing your friendship
I've tried so hard to block you out of my mind but it's no good.
I hope I don't find myself telling you one day.
I must learn to accept friendship again.
I don't want to spoil things in case you have someone special in your life.
Despite the way I feel about you, I must cope with it because I have so much respect for you. 12.12.12 - 23.12.12
Sorry, there's no easy way for me to tell you.
I never thought I'd feel this way about someone so quickly.
I feel so silly because I don't know you very well.
I can't bring myself to tell you because you may not speak to me again if I do.
In a way, I want to tell you but in another way I don't.
I don't want to make life hard for you but I would be lying to myself and you if I said I don't feel this way.
I may be worrying about nothing.
I don't want to risk losing your friendship
I've tried so hard to block you out of my mind but it's no good.
I hope I don't find myself telling you one day.
I must learn to accept friendship again.
I don't want to spoil things in case you have someone special in your life.
Despite the way I feel about you, I must cope with it because I have so much respect for you. 12.12.12 - 23.12.12
Finding it hard to trust you.
I shouldn't have trusted you from the start.
I'm so glad I didn't marry you.
Even now I'm not sure whether or not you were cheating on me.
Even now it's hard to say whether or not you were unfaithful.
What makes me think this is that you were texting a lot in front of me and getting texts back.
You made me feel very stressed and very uncomfortable that's why I won't have you back.
I kept on thinking this was a bad dream.
I may be wrong in what I thought but the texts you sent and the texts you had back went on far too long because I loved you so much. 13.12.12
Just because I haven't cried.
Just because I haven't cried it's going to be a wet Christmas without you.
Eating less affects my emotions.
The nasty things the others have put through the pain made me cry more.
The pain from you hurts more because there was no pain but it hurts more than things now won't be the same again.
To me you are so special I try to tell myself next time I will do even better.
May the best of love for me have gone.
I can't believe that there may well never be another you.
Maybe I shouldn't have written this poem, If I hadn't I still would have been your love. 23.12.12
I shouldn't have trusted you from the start.
I'm so glad I didn't marry you.
Even now I'm not sure whether or not you were cheating on me.
Even now it's hard to say whether or not you were unfaithful.
What makes me think this is that you were texting a lot in front of me and getting texts back.
You made me feel very stressed and very uncomfortable that's why I won't have you back.
I kept on thinking this was a bad dream.
I may be wrong in what I thought but the texts you sent and the texts you had back went on far too long because I loved you so much. 13.12.12
Just because I haven't cried.
Just because I haven't cried it's going to be a wet Christmas without you.
Eating less affects my emotions.
The nasty things the others have put through the pain made me cry more.
The pain from you hurts more because there was no pain but it hurts more than things now won't be the same again.
To me you are so special I try to tell myself next time I will do even better.
May the best of love for me have gone.
I can't believe that there may well never be another you.
Maybe I shouldn't have written this poem, If I hadn't I still would have been your love. 23.12.12
Scared of getting old and alone.
Maybe I shouldn't be scared of being old and alone.
Maybe I should be strong enough to take the not to love again.
Maybe the pain from others has made me stronger.
I must be weak to be scared to be old and alone.
Yet I'm ashamed to be weak. 23.12.12
I'm a lot more down than I show.
Although tears don't cry the pain is deep down inside.
No emotions cried out.
A smile might be on my face but the pain and feelings are deep down inside.
Losing weight has now been my way of showing my emotions even though I need to lose weight.
Eating less seems to be the way instead of crying.
If only I spend the time with you when you offered me to.
Even though our feelings are still there for one another it wouldn't be right knowing that things won't be the same again.
Whatever I would have done I would have felt so ashamed.
It was a no-win situation.
I didn't know what to do for the best. 23.12.12
When I first met you.
When I first met you to me you were just a friend.
I never thought I'd love you more than a friend.
Now that I have lost you I see no other lover.
Everything that was said between us we told no one else but ourselves.
Maybe I will love again but a long time to come or never at all.
It's hard to see the wood between the trees.
Take no notice of me I'm just so silly you see.
I'm just a middle-aged lady feeling sorry for ones' herself. 23.12.12
The future is unknown.
It's hard to believe that someone special has gone out of my life.
I didn't mean to make myself misunderstood.
How long will it take for me to get used to you not being mine anymore?
The future is so unknown.
After having been with someone as nice as you, it's hard to believe who could be nicer?
I may love again or never again.
Maybe I'm stronger and braver than I think to being alone.
The loneliness of getting old. 23.12.12
Maybe I shouldn't be scared of being old and alone.
Maybe I should be strong enough to take the not to love again.
Maybe the pain from others has made me stronger.
I must be weak to be scared to be old and alone.
Yet I'm ashamed to be weak. 23.12.12
I'm a lot more down than I show.
Although tears don't cry the pain is deep down inside.
No emotions cried out.
A smile might be on my face but the pain and feelings are deep down inside.
Losing weight has now been my way of showing my emotions even though I need to lose weight.
Eating less seems to be the way instead of crying.
If only I spend the time with you when you offered me to.
Even though our feelings are still there for one another it wouldn't be right knowing that things won't be the same again.
Whatever I would have done I would have felt so ashamed.
It was a no-win situation.
I didn't know what to do for the best. 23.12.12
When I first met you.
When I first met you to me you were just a friend.
I never thought I'd love you more than a friend.
Now that I have lost you I see no other lover.
Everything that was said between us we told no one else but ourselves.
Maybe I will love again but a long time to come or never at all.
It's hard to see the wood between the trees.
Take no notice of me I'm just so silly you see.
I'm just a middle-aged lady feeling sorry for ones' herself. 23.12.12
The future is unknown.
It's hard to believe that someone special has gone out of my life.
I didn't mean to make myself misunderstood.
How long will it take for me to get used to you not being mine anymore?
The future is so unknown.
After having been with someone as nice as you, it's hard to believe who could be nicer?
I may love again or never again.
Maybe I'm stronger and braver than I think to being alone.
The loneliness of getting old. 23.12.12
No going back.
No going back where we were.
Our love was always a secret so is our breakup.
I wonder who will be in my life next if anyone.
I wonder who will take on your world next.
Getting along with others without saying a word to the world.
How long will she take on your world?
For me, the situation wasn't a problem.
It was harder for me to know your feelings knowing I saw so little of you.
Yet longer time apart more to look forward to when we were together.
It was wrong to break when we had something going so special between us.
Maybe you think I'm better off with someone who can spend more time with me.
Yet why would I put up with someone all the while when I have done it before? 23.12.12
Not the same.
Feelings were far too strong but empty.
Thinking about you non-stop.
Trying to keep my mind busy to accept the fact what I want back I can't have back.
Not the same without your love.
Can't eat as much as normal. 24.12.12
No going back where we were.
Our love was always a secret so is our breakup.
I wonder who will be in my life next if anyone.
I wonder who will take on your world next.
Getting along with others without saying a word to the world.
How long will she take on your world?
For me, the situation wasn't a problem.
It was harder for me to know your feelings knowing I saw so little of you.
Yet longer time apart more to look forward to when we were together.
It was wrong to break when we had something going so special between us.
Maybe you think I'm better off with someone who can spend more time with me.
Yet why would I put up with someone all the while when I have done it before? 23.12.12
Not the same.
Feelings were far too strong but empty.
Thinking about you non-stop.
Trying to keep my mind busy to accept the fact what I want back I can't have back.
Not the same without your love.
Can't eat as much as normal. 24.12.12
Hard to believe.
Hard to believe that you are not mine anymore.
Hard to believe that I'm not yours anymore.
Yet our love is still there for one another.
Words I said I made myself misunderstood.
I just wanted to know if you still felt the same way about me as I do about you.
Why did you end our love knowing that we still love one another?
How much time together and apart didn't matter to me I loved you all the same as I still do.
Maybe it's you that can't cope with your own situation.24.12.12
If only I could stop myself from having feelings.
If only my heart would stop beating for you.
The more my heart beats the more it breaks for you.
I have to tell myself that we aren't together anymore.
Every time I am full of love it always fails.
Love is a feeling hard to control.
Feelings are something that you can't rush to go away.
Feelings take their own time to go away or stay with you for life.
At this point is unknown how long my feelings will last for you. 24.12.12
Hard to believe that you are not mine anymore.
Hard to believe that I'm not yours anymore.
Yet our love is still there for one another.
Words I said I made myself misunderstood.
I just wanted to know if you still felt the same way about me as I do about you.
Why did you end our love knowing that we still love one another?
How much time together and apart didn't matter to me I loved you all the same as I still do.
Maybe it's you that can't cope with your own situation.24.12.12
If only I could stop myself from having feelings.
If only my heart would stop beating for you.
The more my heart beats the more it breaks for you.
I have to tell myself that we aren't together anymore.
Every time I am full of love it always fails.
Love is a feeling hard to control.
Feelings are something that you can't rush to go away.
Feelings take their own time to go away or stay with you for life.
At this point is unknown how long my feelings will last for you. 24.12.12
Some things are better not said.
It's unknown when he will come along.
He will never know about you.
Now our love has gone there's nothing to tell.
Yet in our thoughts, our love is still there.
Thinking is different from speaking.
I will never cheat but I will never forget the love we had.
Our secret still stands as I said some things are better off not being said.
As wicked as the secret is it's kept a secret for safety reasons.
A private reason to protect ourselves and our people. 24.12.12
Mail and communication.
Times are changing all the while.
It's hard to know whether the communication is getting better or not.
From telegrams to letters to letters to texts from texts to emails not forgetting faxes.
Whatever is next to come.
Keep the clock ticking.
Keep the phones landlines and mobiles without a sound.
Turn the volume of people's when voices down when walking down the street.
When you heard strangers shout it seems like they are talking to you.
Keep the texts coming in without a sound but keep the emails coming free.
Bring back the call boxes but no heavy snow.
Bring back walking miles to the call boxes so that it cuts down the traffic on the roads.
Traffic costs too much to run is why the country's money is running out. 24.12.12
It's unknown when he will come along.
He will never know about you.
Now our love has gone there's nothing to tell.
Yet in our thoughts, our love is still there.
Thinking is different from speaking.
I will never cheat but I will never forget the love we had.
Our secret still stands as I said some things are better off not being said.
As wicked as the secret is it's kept a secret for safety reasons.
A private reason to protect ourselves and our people. 24.12.12
Mail and communication.
Times are changing all the while.
It's hard to know whether the communication is getting better or not.
From telegrams to letters to letters to texts from texts to emails not forgetting faxes.
Whatever is next to come.
Keep the clock ticking.
Keep the phones landlines and mobiles without a sound.
Turn the volume of people's when voices down when walking down the street.
When you heard strangers shout it seems like they are talking to you.
Keep the texts coming in without a sound but keep the emails coming free.
Bring back the call boxes but no heavy snow.
Bring back walking miles to the call boxes so that it cuts down the traffic on the roads.
Traffic costs too much to run is why the country's money is running out. 24.12.12
On heat hanging on the ceiling.
I sat under the light hanging on the ceiling.
The lampshade was shaking.
The heat was rising.
I was hanging.
The room spun round and round as if I had a good many drinks.
I saw stars on the ceiling spinning around with me.
I had a very bad hair day after I washed my hair.
It went from wet and curly to dry to fizzy as my hair felt the heat.
I tried everything I could to make it dry and curly but it was no good.
This was just me chasing dreams of freedom. 28.12.12
Bunny rabbit.
I'm a bunny rabbit.
I have stickie-out teeth.
I live in a hutch.
I eat carrots.
I can see in the dark.
I get so bored inside my hutch that I run wild when I am out of it. 28.12.12
I sat under the light hanging on the ceiling.
The lampshade was shaking.
The heat was rising.
I was hanging.
The room spun round and round as if I had a good many drinks.
I saw stars on the ceiling spinning around with me.
I had a very bad hair day after I washed my hair.
It went from wet and curly to dry to fizzy as my hair felt the heat.
I tried everything I could to make it dry and curly but it was no good.
This was just me chasing dreams of freedom. 28.12.12
Bunny rabbit.
I'm a bunny rabbit.
I have stickie-out teeth.
I live in a hutch.
I eat carrots.
I can see in the dark.
I get so bored inside my hutch that I run wild when I am out of it. 28.12.12
Treatment.
Living on medication isn't fun.
Feeling dizzy and in another world.
You can miss what's going on around you.
It's hard to keep up with the rest of the world around you.
Many medications don't treat you like they should.
Some medications that right you right bright something else on.
If life is like this then what are we here, what is life all about? 28.12.12
Freedom of speech.
You are born alone.
You die alone.
The world is nice to you when you are born.
You have a lot to learn.
You have a lot of good and bad to face.
Not all rights are your own.
Self is belief.
What you think isn't always what others think.
What you say isn't what others agree with.
No one likes the same.
You don't always have the freedom of speech. 28.12.12
Living on medication isn't fun.
Feeling dizzy and in another world.
You can miss what's going on around you.
It's hard to keep up with the rest of the world around you.
Many medications don't treat you like they should.
Some medications that right you right bright something else on.
If life is like this then what are we here, what is life all about? 28.12.12
Freedom of speech.
You are born alone.
You die alone.
The world is nice to you when you are born.
You have a lot to learn.
You have a lot of good and bad to face.
Not all rights are your own.
Self is belief.
What you think isn't always what others think.
What you say isn't what others agree with.
No one likes the same.
You don't always have the freedom of speech. 28.12.12
How humans can change.
Childhood is unknown to you but known to the rest of the world.
Everything is so new.
Welcome to the adult world.
There's so much to learn.
You know even less when you spend years in school not learning at all.
Society has told you you'd never get anywhere in life.
You believe others around because you are a child.
You are misunderstood so you feel very bad inside.
Your past haunts you so bad that you have to find your own way to express yourself to be understood.
Only then does society realizes there's something about you, after all, that is talent.
No matter who we are all good at something just most of us take longer to get there. 28.12.12
Unknown world.
Everyone around you is speaking but you are not hearing a thing.
No sound to be heard but people are making movements around you.
Not everyone understands everything about you.
You don't understand everything about them. 28.12.12
Childhood is unknown to you but known to the rest of the world.
Everything is so new.
Welcome to the adult world.
There's so much to learn.
You know even less when you spend years in school not learning at all.
Society has told you you'd never get anywhere in life.
You believe others around because you are a child.
You are misunderstood so you feel very bad inside.
Your past haunts you so bad that you have to find your own way to express yourself to be understood.
Only then does society realizes there's something about you, after all, that is talent.
No matter who we are all good at something just most of us take longer to get there. 28.12.12
Unknown world.
Everyone around you is speaking but you are not hearing a thing.
No sound to be heard but people are making movements around you.
Not everyone understands everything about you.
You don't understand everything about them. 28.12.12
Dark world.
Nothing is seen in the world around you.
Sounds are heard everywhere you go.
You don't know when you are going to feel anything and what you are going to feel.
You don't know what's going on when it's going to begin and end.
You don't how it's going to begin and end. 28.12.12
What is to come?
What is to come?
The future is hard to tell wait until tomorrow comes.
Maybe I will travel again when I am old.
I haven't worked hard enough yet.
Maybe I will be old when I see the sun.
For now, my career comes first.
My career has been slow to come.
Now I am over 40 life is too short to waste.
You have spent your life fighting for your career.
It was never a career you thought of yet it's a career for you.
It took so long that you thought you'd be good for nothing and no one. 29.12.12
Nothing is seen in the world around you.
Sounds are heard everywhere you go.
You don't know when you are going to feel anything and what you are going to feel.
You don't know what's going on when it's going to begin and end.
You don't how it's going to begin and end. 28.12.12
What is to come?
What is to come?
The future is hard to tell wait until tomorrow comes.
Maybe I will travel again when I am old.
I haven't worked hard enough yet.
Maybe I will be old when I see the sun.
For now, my career comes first.
My career has been slow to come.
Now I am over 40 life is too short to waste.
You have spent your life fighting for your career.
It was never a career you thought of yet it's a career for you.
It took so long that you thought you'd be good for nothing and no one. 29.12.12
What next?
I have tears I need to cry that haven't yet.
One day I will cry over you but I don't know when.
The new year is not long to come so is that sparking champaign.
Spring should be on its way but they tell us we have a long cold winter to come.
The sunshine seems a long time to come if ever at all 29.12.12
See what tomorrow brings.
No one can say for sure what tomorrow is going to bring.
The future is hard to tell until tomorrow is here.
Sometimes we are right and other times we are wrong about life.
Like the weather people are not always right or wrong.
Look out the window to see what the weather is like when you get up tomorrow.
They say the world is going to end cause of the weather therefore we will either freeze or burn to death by sun or ice.
Worry and Stress is the worst killer of all.
We think we have the whole world on our shoulders when we are young.
As we get old we worry less.
I can still hear much older people say when I was young.
" Worrying get's you in your grave."
At the time I never understood that saying.
Now I see the truth in that saying because I just live my life day by day. 29.12.12
I have tears I need to cry that haven't yet.
One day I will cry over you but I don't know when.
The new year is not long to come so is that sparking champaign.
Spring should be on its way but they tell us we have a long cold winter to come.
The sunshine seems a long time to come if ever at all 29.12.12
See what tomorrow brings.
No one can say for sure what tomorrow is going to bring.
The future is hard to tell until tomorrow is here.
Sometimes we are right and other times we are wrong about life.
Like the weather people are not always right or wrong.
Look out the window to see what the weather is like when you get up tomorrow.
They say the world is going to end cause of the weather therefore we will either freeze or burn to death by sun or ice.
Worry and Stress is the worst killer of all.
We think we have the whole world on our shoulders when we are young.
As we get old we worry less.
I can still hear much older people say when I was young.
" Worrying get's you in your grave."
At the time I never understood that saying.
Now I see the truth in that saying because I just live my life day by day. 29.12.12
Poetry, Anxiety, and depression.
It's poetry that helps me accept life as it is.
As long as I keep my mind busy.
As long as I live my life busy.
Like us all as long as I have something to look forward to I can cope with life.
I am down if I have nothing at all.
I can't fight Anxiety and depression without poetry.
I can't cope in life with nothing.
I get sad and angry if I sit all the time bored.
Helping others helps me along.
Poetry helps me let out my thoughts. 29.12.12
Without poetry.
Without poetry, life would be more painful than it is.
Without poetry, I would look and feel silly for being down for no reason.
Poetry makes lifeless as bad as it is.
Poetry makes me see life differently from what I'd be without poetry.
Without poetry I would never feel good about myself, I would be angry about myself.
When seeing the good in yourself you see the good in others.
Life is what you make it in one way but not in another.
Each and every one of us I believe have something inside us.
We just cope with good and bad in life in different ways.
Most of us think thoughts too much, this is where poetry comes in.
I'm a person who has a lot of thoughts that have for many years put into poetry.
Without poetry, I would have held too much back. 29.12.12
It's poetry that helps me accept life as it is.
As long as I keep my mind busy.
As long as I live my life busy.
Like us all as long as I have something to look forward to I can cope with life.
I am down if I have nothing at all.
I can't fight Anxiety and depression without poetry.
I can't cope in life with nothing.
I get sad and angry if I sit all the time bored.
Helping others helps me along.
Poetry helps me let out my thoughts. 29.12.12
Without poetry.
Without poetry, life would be more painful than it is.
Without poetry, I would look and feel silly for being down for no reason.
Poetry makes lifeless as bad as it is.
Poetry makes me see life differently from what I'd be without poetry.
Without poetry I would never feel good about myself, I would be angry about myself.
When seeing the good in yourself you see the good in others.
Life is what you make it in one way but not in another.
Each and every one of us I believe have something inside us.
We just cope with good and bad in life in different ways.
Most of us think thoughts too much, this is where poetry comes in.
I'm a person who has a lot of thoughts that have for many years put into poetry.
Without poetry, I would have held too much back. 29.12.12
When I feel anger.
When I feel the anger I don't want to live.
When I feel anger I feel stressed and tense.
There are too many thoughts going through my head to the point I want to write poetry.
I need to stop myself from getting angry and depressed mainly when it's for no reason but sometimes there are reasons.
I need to stop myself from doing and saying things I regret. 29.12.12
The Mind.
This is unknown to think what we are going to think.
Unknown to why we think what we think when we think.
Most thoughts seem odd to others yet unknown why to the person who thinks those thoughts.
Yet many thoughts seem odd to the person who thought them in time to come.
Thoughts can be unknown like feelings can be unknown.
Some thoughts and feelings may last for life others may only last for a certain amount of time which either be short or long.
The thoughts we think can't please everyone.
What a boring world it would be if we were right and good all the time.
Not everyone is bad all the time even though a lot of us think we are. 29.12.12
Learning.
Learning is a good thing about life.
Without knowing it we learn something new every day.
Some of us learn quicker than others.
Some of us learn slower than others.
As life is ending we haven't learned enough but are better going through life learning nothing at all. 29.12.12
When I feel the anger I don't want to live.
When I feel anger I feel stressed and tense.
There are too many thoughts going through my head to the point I want to write poetry.
I need to stop myself from getting angry and depressed mainly when it's for no reason but sometimes there are reasons.
I need to stop myself from doing and saying things I regret. 29.12.12
The Mind.
This is unknown to think what we are going to think.
Unknown to why we think what we think when we think.
Most thoughts seem odd to others yet unknown why to the person who thinks those thoughts.
Yet many thoughts seem odd to the person who thought them in time to come.
Thoughts can be unknown like feelings can be unknown.
Some thoughts and feelings may last for life others may only last for a certain amount of time which either be short or long.
The thoughts we think can't please everyone.
What a boring world it would be if we were right and good all the time.
Not everyone is bad all the time even though a lot of us think we are. 29.12.12
Learning.
Learning is a good thing about life.
Without knowing it we learn something new every day.
Some of us learn quicker than others.
Some of us learn slower than others.
As life is ending we haven't learned enough but are better going through life learning nothing at all. 29.12.12
Too much to cope with in life.
The head spins round and round.
Everyone makes out no one knows anything at all about anything at all.
Too many people say different things to one thing.
There can't be millions of answers to one question can there?
Too many things happen at once or nothing at all.
They want you in too many places at once.
Too many people talk to you at once.
At times life is just too much at once. 29.12.12
I am what I am as well as who I am.
I am what I am as well as who I am.
What I was born to be is what I was to be as well as who I was born to be.
Who I was born to be is me.
I learned to be strong-minded with not a great deal of choice in life due to my abilities.
Yet the change in me I don't think anyone or myself would be.
The person as a child and the person as an adult are two different mes.
It was hard for me to believe in myself because others found it hard to see the good in me.
Now I have learned a lot in adulthood even though there's a limit to what I can do. 29.12.12
The head spins round and round.
Everyone makes out no one knows anything at all about anything at all.
Too many people say different things to one thing.
There can't be millions of answers to one question can there?
Too many things happen at once or nothing at all.
They want you in too many places at once.
Too many people talk to you at once.
At times life is just too much at once. 29.12.12
I am what I am as well as who I am.
I am what I am as well as who I am.
What I was born to be is what I was to be as well as who I was born to be.
Who I was born to be is me.
I learned to be strong-minded with not a great deal of choice in life due to my abilities.
Yet the change in me I don't think anyone or myself would be.
The person as a child and the person as an adult are two different mes.
It was hard for me to believe in myself because others found it hard to see the good in me.
Now I have learned a lot in adulthood even though there's a limit to what I can do. 29.12.12
I think now the end has come.
It's too easy to think your life is over when being over 40.
A lot of breakups of marriages and relationships have the late 30s to early 40s.
You stand and look in the mirror to see what has changed in you not only the person you are in looks.
Too easy to think love has gone forever when you middle aged.
You tend to think this is the end but it's not in everyone.
That doesn't mean I am right because the truth is unknown to everyone.
It's hard to think of yourself growing old alone. 29.12.12
I try not to think about it.
I try not to think about being lonely.
I try not to think about who walks into my life next if anyone at all.
Men have come and gone out of my life, I guess they will carry as they always have done.
Thinking more of moving on.
Thinking more of getting strong.
Thinking more of accepting as it is and however it's going to be.
Time is so unknown anything could happen at the time at all. 29.12.12
It's too easy to think your life is over when being over 40.
A lot of breakups of marriages and relationships have the late 30s to early 40s.
You stand and look in the mirror to see what has changed in you not only the person you are in looks.
Too easy to think love has gone forever when you middle aged.
You tend to think this is the end but it's not in everyone.
That doesn't mean I am right because the truth is unknown to everyone.
It's hard to think of yourself growing old alone. 29.12.12
I try not to think about it.
I try not to think about being lonely.
I try not to think about who walks into my life next if anyone at all.
Men have come and gone out of my life, I guess they will carry as they always have done.
Thinking more of moving on.
Thinking more of getting strong.
Thinking more of accepting as it is and however it's going to be.
Time is so unknown anything could happen at the time at all. 29.12.12
I think now the end has come.
It's too easy to think your life is over when being over 40.
A lot of breakups of marriages and relationships have the late 30s to early 40s.
You stand and look in the mirror to see what has changed in you not only the person you are in looks.
Too easy to think love has gone forever when you are middle-aged.
You tend to think this is the end but it's not in everyone.
That doesn't mean I am right because the truth is unknown to everyone.
It's hard to think of yourself growing old alone. 29.12.12
I try not to think about it.
I try not to think about being lonely.
I try not to think about who walks into my life next if anyone at all.
Men have come and gone out of my life, I guess they will carry as they always have done.
Thinking more of moving on.
Thinking more of getting strong.
Thinking more of accepting as it is and however it's going to be.
Time is so unknown anything could happen at the time at all. 29.12.12
It's too easy to think your life is over when being over 40.
A lot of breakups of marriages and relationships have the late 30s to early 40s.
You stand and look in the mirror to see what has changed in you not only the person you are in looks.
Too easy to think love has gone forever when you are middle-aged.
You tend to think this is the end but it's not in everyone.
That doesn't mean I am right because the truth is unknown to everyone.
It's hard to think of yourself growing old alone. 29.12.12
I try not to think about it.
I try not to think about being lonely.
I try not to think about who walks into my life next if anyone at all.
Men have come and gone out of my life, I guess they will carry as they always have done.
Thinking more of moving on.
Thinking more of getting strong.
Thinking more of accepting as it is and however it's going to be.
Time is so unknown anything could happen at the time at all. 29.12.12
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