A book.
A book is full of life.
A book is full of stories.
A book is full of poems.
A book is full of plays.
A paper is full of news.
A magazine is full of fiction and non-fiction.
A book can be a novel.
What is a book about?
A book is about love.
A book is about hate.
Difference books cover different subjects, you can read them forever and a day.
There can be more than a thousand subjects that can cover one book, less or more. 20.8.1999
Life seems worthless.
I don't have anything in mind to wish for.
When I sleep I dream about the love I used to have.
I can't dream about anything that is happening now because there's nothing happening.
My world seems empty, my head feels full of pain and I don't know what to make of this life I have now.
I don't know what will make me happy now.
I am not saying I am not happy but I can't think about what I want in life.
To me everything is new.
I don't know what to do until a new day comes my way.
Some days I feel happy.
On other days I feel sad.
Most days I could laugh.
On other days I could cry.
On other days I could have anger.
On other days I could be mad.
I mostly have my days of anger when I am by myself because I feel so mixed up in my mind.
I want one thing one day another the next. 20.8.1999
I don't have anything in mind to wish for.
When I sleep I dream about the love I used to have.
I can't dream about anything that is happening now because there's nothing happening.
My world seems empty, my head feels full of pain and I don't know what to make of this life I have now.
I don't know what will make me happy now.
I am not saying I am not happy but I can't think about what I want in life.
To me everything is new.
I don't know what to do until a new day comes my way.
Some days I feel happy.
On other days I feel sad.
Most days I could laugh.
On other days I could cry.
On other days I could have anger.
On other days I could be mad.
I mostly have my days of anger when I am by myself because I feel so mixed up in my mind.
I want one thing one day another the next. 20.8.1999
Think about the 1914 - 1918 war.
A lot of young men 18 - 35 had lost their lives in the 1914 - 1918 war.
The men who are alive are mostly wounded for life.
Some men have become disabled for the rest of their lives.
Some men are blind, through bombs.
Other men have lost arms, others have lost legs.
Some men have even lost their feet.
Other men have lost eyes, ears, noses, and months.
What on earth is life about?
In every town, there were street sweepers sweeping the streets.
Grass covered in mud men's boots sank deep.
Smoking cigarettes because they felt down and depressed.
Walking and hiding from in the fog.
Falling into the muddy bog.
Frighting for one's life. 2.1.2000
Reasons why I write poems.
The reason why I write poems is to show the person I love.
To be able to tell them how much I think of them when I do.
How much I miss them when I don't see them.
That someone is you but I don't get to you a lot but I do I enjoy my time with you.
To be able to let out pain when I feel pain. 21.8.2000
A lot of young men 18 - 35 had lost their lives in the 1914 - 1918 war.
The men who are alive are mostly wounded for life.
Some men have become disabled for the rest of their lives.
Some men are blind, through bombs.
Other men have lost arms, others have lost legs.
Some men have even lost their feet.
Other men have lost eyes, ears, noses, and months.
What on earth is life about?
In every town, there were street sweepers sweeping the streets.
Grass covered in mud men's boots sank deep.
Smoking cigarettes because they felt down and depressed.
Walking and hiding from in the fog.
Falling into the muddy bog.
Frighting for one's life. 2.1.2000
Reasons why I write poems.
The reason why I write poems is to show the person I love.
To be able to tell them how much I think of them when I do.
How much I miss them when I don't see them.
That someone is you but I don't get to you a lot but I do I enjoy my time with you.
To be able to let out pain when I feel pain. 21.8.2000
Spring is on its way.
It should not be long until the daffodils are in the garden.
Pancake day is in March instead of February.
It is not just a new this year but a new century.
Easter eggs, lambs, and bunny rabbits come out to play.
All things jumping around all day. 26.2.2000
You were my lover.
You were my lover and best friend too.
You felt everything to me but not what I would think you would be.
Why did it ever end between us?
We had one another then we lost one another, it was a love I would never forget.
You broke my heart but I don't hate you because I still love you so much.
I can't help but forgive you for what you have done to me.
I was only young but two years older than you, you were younger too.
You broke my heart and I broke yours, I guess we have a lot to regret.
Now it's over I understand that you won't have me back.
For me, there's no looking back because I know I can not accept you to believe that I have changed a lot from what I used to be.
In some cases, it's really true that you always hurt the one you really love.
The one I really love is you. 24.2.2000
It should not be long until the daffodils are in the garden.
Pancake day is in March instead of February.
It is not just a new this year but a new century.
Easter eggs, lambs, and bunny rabbits come out to play.
All things jumping around all day. 26.2.2000
You were my lover.
You were my lover and best friend too.
You felt everything to me but not what I would think you would be.
Why did it ever end between us?
We had one another then we lost one another, it was a love I would never forget.
You broke my heart but I don't hate you because I still love you so much.
I can't help but forgive you for what you have done to me.
I was only young but two years older than you, you were younger too.
You broke my heart and I broke yours, I guess we have a lot to regret.
Now it's over I understand that you won't have me back.
For me, there's no looking back because I know I can not accept you to believe that I have changed a lot from what I used to be.
In some cases, it's really true that you always hurt the one you really love.
The one I really love is you. 24.2.2000
Unlucky child.
If you were a child in the nineteenth century your school days would have ended at the age of twelve.
What do you do next?
In the poor dull days, they gave you far too much work to do.
Working in the coal mines, chimney sweeping, warehouses, cooking in the kitchens, and many more.2000 onwards
I love you and I know you love me.
I love you and I know you love me.
I have a lovely happy feeling you and I are meant to be.
It's so sad that I don't see enough of you to make how I feel about you clear to you.
You are the love who is worth seeing.
You are so special to me. 26.6.2000
If you were a child in the nineteenth century your school days would have ended at the age of twelve.
What do you do next?
In the poor dull days, they gave you far too much work to do.
Working in the coal mines, chimney sweeping, warehouses, cooking in the kitchens, and many more.2000 onwards
I love you and I know you love me.
I love you and I know you love me.
I have a lovely happy feeling you and I are meant to be.
It's so sad that I don't see enough of you to make how I feel about you clear to you.
You are the love who is worth seeing.
You are so special to me. 26.6.2000
Sometimes the world is unkind.
Sometimes you will find the world is unkind.
I am speaking for each and every person that including people who are disabled and with a learning disability.
Why do people look at people with these problems as if they are not human?
As if we do have not got brains.
We are just a bit slow that's all.
At the end of the day, we are just as clever as you but in different ways.
The fact that we are slow learners makes us do a better job of things but society is in too much of a rush.
When we can do things in our own time and be our bosses, we do a lot better.
We still need to be accepted in society a lot better than we are.
What is so sad jobs are hard to find for everyone today not just us.
There is far too much crime in the world today.
Looking on the bright side I have found as I have gotten old I have been getting better.
I have been working in the library for three years now so I am going to stay there until I get to the next step of my career.
I hope the library will set me to the career I want which is writing.
I hope all these years of hard work will help me to become a writer.
I won't give up in any way at all. 8.7.2000
Sometimes you will find the world is unkind.
I am speaking for each and every person that including people who are disabled and with a learning disability.
Why do people look at people with these problems as if they are not human?
As if we do have not got brains.
We are just a bit slow that's all.
At the end of the day, we are just as clever as you but in different ways.
The fact that we are slow learners makes us do a better job of things but society is in too much of a rush.
When we can do things in our own time and be our bosses, we do a lot better.
We still need to be accepted in society a lot better than we are.
What is so sad jobs are hard to find for everyone today not just us.
There is far too much crime in the world today.
Looking on the bright side I have found as I have gotten old I have been getting better.
I have been working in the library for three years now so I am going to stay there until I get to the next step of my career.
I hope the library will set me to the career I want which is writing.
I hope all these years of hard work will help me to become a writer.
I won't give up in any way at all. 8.7.2000
My male friend.
I still love you with all my heart.
When you left me my life became hard.
My loving feelings will be here for you for life, however, you feel about me.
You are my best caring male friend.
I mean every word I say, my dear.
I still care and worry about you a lot.
If you don't feel the same way I will accept that.
I don't want to come between your happiness.
I must carry on accepting whatever happens in the future.
I must be happy with my life.
Deep down the memory of you is not forgotten by me. 26.2.2000
My sweet male love.
To my handsome sweet male love, I love you so much.
Your eyes are like stars that shine in the sky.
My heart is so full of love.
Your heart is full of passion and love.
Lay your head upon my breast, then you may sleep on my chest.
I will love you at my best. Late 20th century to early 21st century
I still love you with all my heart.
When you left me my life became hard.
My loving feelings will be here for you for life, however, you feel about me.
You are my best caring male friend.
I mean every word I say, my dear.
I still care and worry about you a lot.
If you don't feel the same way I will accept that.
I don't want to come between your happiness.
I must carry on accepting whatever happens in the future.
I must be happy with my life.
Deep down the memory of you is not forgotten by me. 26.2.2000
My sweet male love.
To my handsome sweet male love, I love you so much.
Your eyes are like stars that shine in the sky.
My heart is so full of love.
Your heart is full of passion and love.
Lay your head upon my breast, then you may sleep on my chest.
I will love you at my best. Late 20th century to early 21st century
My love for humankind.
My sister Holly Wood is the artist of my poems and storybooks.
My life-like all people have a book inside them.
All about my family who bought me up.
My Goddaughter Stevie Bea is my baby love.
The lover I love, I will always love. Late 20th century to early 21st century.
I dream of sunshine.
I dream of sunshine with wild red roses to brighten up my life.
My love life seems such a dream if you see what I mean.
On the whole, men have been very mean to me.
Many times my heart has broken.
My lover's lips are red enough for me.
My lover's looks are handsome enough.
My lover has lovely bright blond hair.
My lover's love is very strong.
He can be such a nightmare when he drinks himself almost to death.
Antonio was not the man for me. Late 20th century to early 21st century.
My sister Holly Wood is the artist of my poems and storybooks.
My life-like all people have a book inside them.
All about my family who bought me up.
My Goddaughter Stevie Bea is my baby love.
The lover I love, I will always love. Late 20th century to early 21st century.
I dream of sunshine.
I dream of sunshine with wild red roses to brighten up my life.
My love life seems such a dream if you see what I mean.
On the whole, men have been very mean to me.
Many times my heart has broken.
My lover's lips are red enough for me.
My lover's looks are handsome enough.
My lover has lovely bright blond hair.
My lover's love is very strong.
He can be such a nightmare when he drinks himself almost to death.
Antonio was not the man for me. Late 20th century to early 21st century.
I love your smile.
Your smile runs out a mile.
Those lovely blue eyes smile a mile.
You really do make me feel as if you are mine.
Let's hope happiness is yours and mine until the end of time.
Please never forget that you are the love of my life. Late 20th to early 21st century
You gave me pain.
You were not the first to make my heartache and break.
I hope you will be the last to make my ache and break.
Nothing in this world will make me feel the same now.
Even now I still can't sleep.
Even now I still can't eat.
I need to keep my mind busy to stop myself from thinking about you.
I still drink more and eat less. 20th to 21st century
Your smile runs out a mile.
Those lovely blue eyes smile a mile.
You really do make me feel as if you are mine.
Let's hope happiness is yours and mine until the end of time.
Please never forget that you are the love of my life. Late 20th to early 21st century
You gave me pain.
You were not the first to make my heartache and break.
I hope you will be the last to make my ache and break.
Nothing in this world will make me feel the same now.
Even now I still can't sleep.
Even now I still can't eat.
I need to keep my mind busy to stop myself from thinking about you.
I still drink more and eat less. 20th to 21st century
Hot and cold Britain.
Why can't the weather make up its mind?
One minute it's cold the next minute it's hot.
The answer to that is we just want the weather to be warm.
(Why?) warm weather makes us feel good.
What do we wear?
We don't know until we get outside.
We lead such rushing lives.
We haven't forgotten the times when we knew what to wear.
Sometimes you have not got time to rush home to get a jumper if you wearing a tee shirt.
You either roast or freeze. 2000 onwards.
Beautiful.
Green mountains on hot summer's day in Wales.
Bright yellow sunshine and deep blue sky.
Flowers are everywhere to be seen. 2000 onwards.
Why can't the weather make up its mind?
One minute it's cold the next minute it's hot.
The answer to that is we just want the weather to be warm.
(Why?) warm weather makes us feel good.
What do we wear?
We don't know until we get outside.
We lead such rushing lives.
We haven't forgotten the times when we knew what to wear.
Sometimes you have not got time to rush home to get a jumper if you wearing a tee shirt.
You either roast or freeze. 2000 onwards.
Beautiful.
Green mountains on hot summer's day in Wales.
Bright yellow sunshine and deep blue sky.
Flowers are everywhere to be seen. 2000 onwards.
Epilepsy.
This may not be epilepsy, if not what is it?
Why come back after twenty years?
Why haven't felt well for the last month?
Headaches shakes and the room moves round and round.
The tablets cure one thing and bring another thing on.
I feel shaky and tired.
I am not looking forward to a brain scan, flashing lights, and electric stick glue wires in my hair.
It's like a big storm inside my head.
It causes your nerves to be bad mainly when you have to wait to see if you pass or fail.2001 onwards.
This may not be epilepsy, if not what is it?
Why come back after twenty years?
Why haven't felt well for the last month?
Headaches shakes and the room moves round and round.
The tablets cure one thing and bring another thing on.
I feel shaky and tired.
I am not looking forward to a brain scan, flashing lights, and electric stick glue wires in my hair.
It's like a big storm inside my head.
It causes your nerves to be bad mainly when you have to wait to see if you pass or fail.2001 onwards.
Too much greed in the world.
There is far too much greed in the world today.
We just tend to pick one another more and more.
Too many debates over different subjects.
Why not have your own point of view and keep them to yourself.
Why do we have a problem with each other?
As long as no one is hurt anyone, what is the problem?
What can we expect?
Not a perfect world.
For goodness sake we all make mistakes.
Every we come across it's about money, why?
People say about peace, where is peace?
Everything seems to be a problem, there are so many of them for everyone than ever before.
The world is just war, I think always has been and always will be. 21st century.
What's wrong with the world today?
Why can't we walk down the street without worrying about danger?
What has happened to manners and respect?
At one time you could leave your doors and windows open but not anyone.
No one could come in unless they asked you.
It is now a change for the worse, now we have to accept that but not every change is a bad change. 21st century
There is far too much greed in the world today.
We just tend to pick one another more and more.
Too many debates over different subjects.
Why not have your own point of view and keep them to yourself.
Why do we have a problem with each other?
As long as no one is hurt anyone, what is the problem?
What can we expect?
Not a perfect world.
For goodness sake we all make mistakes.
Every we come across it's about money, why?
People say about peace, where is peace?
Everything seems to be a problem, there are so many of them for everyone than ever before.
The world is just war, I think always has been and always will be. 21st century.
What's wrong with the world today?
Why can't we walk down the street without worrying about danger?
What has happened to manners and respect?
At one time you could leave your doors and windows open but not anyone.
No one could come in unless they asked you.
It is now a change for the worse, now we have to accept that but not every change is a bad change. 21st century
Chewing gum.
I remember the old school rule, no chewing gum in class.
No sticking the gum to your school desks.
When I look back the rule made sense.
Someone would throw in your hair, then it would be sticky.
As you walk across it was always there until the person to blame got the cane.
It would even stick to your shoes and clothes.21st century
I live near a wood.
I live near a wood.
At night I walk through the wood as I walk from the bus stop.
You keep me safe when I walk home at night.
I feel as if you are walking with me.
Nobody believes your there but I do to keep myself strong.
Not many people walk through the woods at night. 21st century
I remember the old school rule, no chewing gum in class.
No sticking the gum to your school desks.
When I look back the rule made sense.
Someone would throw in your hair, then it would be sticky.
As you walk across it was always there until the person to blame got the cane.
It would even stick to your shoes and clothes.21st century
I live near a wood.
I live near a wood.
At night I walk through the wood as I walk from the bus stop.
You keep me safe when I walk home at night.
I feel as if you are walking with me.
Nobody believes your there but I do to keep myself strong.
Not many people walk through the woods at night. 21st century
You're out there somewhere.
You took the blanket off the bed.
You put the blanket back on the bed.
You even made the bed for me.
I feel your fingers running down my spine.
You are never out of my mind.
You never go away.
I still wish I met you all the same.
The world must think I am insane. 21st century
Parents.
Parents mess your heads up without meaning to.
They take their histories of their own family lives on you.
They never mean to give you childhood like theirs but little is sometimes there.
There are times they are fed up with their own lives, it gets taken out on them.
Never bring another generation, your own child will always spot something you like.
No matter how hard you try not to, you always let your kids down somehow.
Just be yourself, you can't hurt anyone then but then again some people in the world have kept the world going round. 21st century.
You took the blanket off the bed.
You put the blanket back on the bed.
You even made the bed for me.
I feel your fingers running down my spine.
You are never out of my mind.
You never go away.
I still wish I met you all the same.
The world must think I am insane. 21st century
Parents.
Parents mess your heads up without meaning to.
They take their histories of their own family lives on you.
They never mean to give you childhood like theirs but little is sometimes there.
There are times they are fed up with their own lives, it gets taken out on them.
Never bring another generation, your own child will always spot something you like.
No matter how hard you try not to, you always let your kids down somehow.
Just be yourself, you can't hurt anyone then but then again some people in the world have kept the world going round. 21st century.
Childhood.
Some of us have good children others have a bad yet you could have a mixed one.
Adults tell you that school days are the best years of your life just to get you to school.
That's a load of rubbish in my case.
In my case like many children, I was bullied in school so school days were the worse days of my life.
You listen to the sound of the wind.
It's like a birds wing's flapping in the wings.
Water rushing like the stream river and sea.
I once believed the big bad woof was in the wardrobe.
I once believed that the troll was under the bridge.
I once believed there were Father Christmas, rain deers, and elves.
Maybe there might be some truth in fairy tales after all.
Watch out for the big bad wolf.
Watch who is outside your doors these days.
Maybe we should believe in fairy tales after all.
Maybe the people who wrote these fairy tales saw dangerous futures for us all.
If that's the case they are right.
Don't let it keep you awake at night.
Live life how you like.
Be strong and be aware of what's around you.
I am not trying to frighten you, I am just telling the truth.
Some of us have good children others have a bad yet you could have a mixed one.
Adults tell you that school days are the best years of your life just to get you to school.
That's a load of rubbish in my case.
In my case like many children, I was bullied in school so school days were the worse days of my life.
You listen to the sound of the wind.
It's like a birds wing's flapping in the wings.
Water rushing like the stream river and sea.
I once believed the big bad woof was in the wardrobe.
I once believed that the troll was under the bridge.
I once believed there were Father Christmas, rain deers, and elves.
Maybe there might be some truth in fairy tales after all.
Watch out for the big bad wolf.
Watch who is outside your doors these days.
Maybe we should believe in fairy tales after all.
Maybe the people who wrote these fairy tales saw dangerous futures for us all.
If that's the case they are right.
Don't let it keep you awake at night.
Live life how you like.
Be strong and be aware of what's around you.
I am not trying to frighten you, I am just telling the truth.
I once believed that snowmen could walk through the snow.
I once believed that the fairies gave me money for my teeth so I hope they did but never gave me money for my earrings.
I lost so many pairs of earrings by putting them under my pillow.
You are a skeleton who swims in the sea.
Watch you don't get an electric shock!
Every part of your body comes apart and back together again like plugs coming in and out of sockets.
Is there more water in heaven than there is on earth? 2000 onwards.
I once believed that the fairies gave me money for my teeth so I hope they did but never gave me money for my earrings.
I lost so many pairs of earrings by putting them under my pillow.
You are a skeleton who swims in the sea.
Watch you don't get an electric shock!
Every part of your body comes apart and back together again like plugs coming in and out of sockets.
Is there more water in heaven than there is on earth? 2000 onwards.
Forgotten.
I have a good memory but I have forgotten.
I know it does not make sense.
What is your name? I have forgotten, don't tell me.
I don't want to remember if I don't have to.
What did you look like?
Does it really matter if I may have had a dream or a nightmare?
Did you kiss me?
So what, why and who is my question?
I know even know who I am talking to and what I am talking about.
So why did I ask in the first place then?
Were we in love or just friends?
Are you male or female?
It may have been a mistake. 2000 onwards
So I am not bothered.
Last I heard he was married.
Good to her, I'd rather her than me.
I only used to dream that you were close to me.
You are not real, are you?
I did not really go with you, did I?
If so I must have had a nightmare then.
I have forgotten what you used to say to me because you used to lie so often.
I was so happy when you went off with her because you played behind my back anyway. 2000 onwards.
I have a good memory but I have forgotten.
I know it does not make sense.
What is your name? I have forgotten, don't tell me.
I don't want to remember if I don't have to.
What did you look like?
Does it really matter if I may have had a dream or a nightmare?
Did you kiss me?
So what, why and who is my question?
I know even know who I am talking to and what I am talking about.
So why did I ask in the first place then?
Were we in love or just friends?
Are you male or female?
It may have been a mistake. 2000 onwards
So I am not bothered.
Last I heard he was married.
Good to her, I'd rather her than me.
I only used to dream that you were close to me.
You are not real, are you?
I did not really go with you, did I?
If so I must have had a nightmare then.
I have forgotten what you used to say to me because you used to lie so often.
I was so happy when you went off with her because you played behind my back anyway. 2000 onwards.
The sun's heat.
On a very summer's day, every leaf is green.
Everything is all the colors should be.
Sometimes the heat of the hot sun is far too hot.
There's not enough air, cool down with cold drinks.
Dive into a pool then have a shower.
The heat makes it very hard to sleep.
Too many restless nights. 2000 onwards
You are a ghost.
Maybe it's hard to see in the dark unless you eat carrots.
Your name is unknown to a lot of people.
It's still not known if you were real or not, I think you are just a character in my mind.
I dream how life would have been if you were real. 2000 onwards.
On a very summer's day, every leaf is green.
Everything is all the colors should be.
Sometimes the heat of the hot sun is far too hot.
There's not enough air, cool down with cold drinks.
Dive into a pool then have a shower.
The heat makes it very hard to sleep.
Too many restless nights. 2000 onwards
You are a ghost.
Maybe it's hard to see in the dark unless you eat carrots.
Your name is unknown to a lot of people.
It's still not known if you were real or not, I think you are just a character in my mind.
I dream how life would have been if you were real. 2000 onwards.
Life alone.
Outside I may well have friends.
When I get home I face the tablet, the chair, the television, and the computer.
My sink, my toaster, my fridge, cooker, and the mic.
My toilet, sink, bath, and shower.
My bed, wardrobe, and dressing tablet. 2000 onwards.
Yesterday has gone.
Yesterday has gone, live for today and tomorrow is another day.
Yesterday may have been a bad day, think of today as a good and tomorrow be an even better day.
There's no perfect life otherwise life would be boring.
Just start all over again tomorrow.
Always think forward never think back.
Always think good never though bad.
Enjoy the good times but be strong during the bad times. 2000 onwards
Outside I may well have friends.
When I get home I face the tablet, the chair, the television, and the computer.
My sink, my toaster, my fridge, cooker, and the mic.
My toilet, sink, bath, and shower.
My bed, wardrobe, and dressing tablet. 2000 onwards.
Yesterday has gone.
Yesterday has gone, live for today and tomorrow is another day.
Yesterday may have been a bad day, think of today as a good and tomorrow be an even better day.
There's no perfect life otherwise life would be boring.
Just start all over again tomorrow.
Always think forward never think back.
Always think good never though bad.
Enjoy the good times but be strong during the bad times. 2000 onwards
What it would be like to see no one.
It would be a lonely world to see no one.
No one to talk to, no one to help, no to ask a question or give an answer to.
It's so dark when you are allowed but then there's no one to tell you anything that you don't want to hear.
You may need to hear some things whether you like to hear them or not because they could be words of truth. 2000 onwards.
When we first got together.
When I first saw you I knew I wanted you.
Butterflies flew through my stomach.
How it broke my heart we both broke up.
I could not help missing you so much.
I could not believe you could leave me for her.
I hated her so much but I loved you so much, I still feel that way now. 2000 onwards.
It would be a lonely world to see no one.
No one to talk to, no one to help, no to ask a question or give an answer to.
It's so dark when you are allowed but then there's no one to tell you anything that you don't want to hear.
You may need to hear some things whether you like to hear them or not because they could be words of truth. 2000 onwards.
When we first got together.
When I first saw you I knew I wanted you.
Butterflies flew through my stomach.
How it broke my heart we both broke up.
I could not help missing you so much.
I could not believe you could leave me for her.
I hated her so much but I loved you so much, I still feel that way now. 2000 onwards.
The future
The future is no one's guess.
No one can say what is going to happen.
No one can say how long or short we are going to live.
No one can say whether or not we get what we dream of but most of the time we need to live in the real world which is the truth.
There's no harm in laughing and joking but we need to be serious too, get the balance between the two.
Most things don't stay the same they do change but there are some things not many things stay the same.
It's too easy to think the person we love is going to be like the last, let's forget the past.
We all make mistakes but most of us learn from the others who do not.
Some things we can't change but others we can. 2000 onwards.
The future is no one's guess.
No one can say what is going to happen.
No one can say how long or short we are going to live.
No one can say whether or not we get what we dream of but most of the time we need to live in the real world which is the truth.
There's no harm in laughing and joking but we need to be serious too, get the balance between the two.
Most things don't stay the same they do change but there are some things not many things stay the same.
It's too easy to think the person we love is going to be like the last, let's forget the past.
We all make mistakes but most of us learn from the others who do not.
Some things we can't change but others we can. 2000 onwards.
I am here for you if you want me to.
If you want to be another chance to love you again, I am here for you if you want me to.
If you don't want to give me another chance I understand that too, I don't blame you for what I put you through.
If you want a woman lover or a loving friend, I am here for you if you want me to.
If something or someone is bothering you, I am here for you if you feel you need and want a woman to talk to.
You are welcome to cry on me if you want to if you need a woman close to you, I am here for you.
Whatever you want from me, I am here for you if you want me to.
You have love from me, cry on and if you are someone to talk to if you want me to, I am here for you too.
Feel free friendship or lovers it's up to you.
I don't mind as long as something is going on between us. 2.1.2000
If you want to be another chance to love you again, I am here for you if you want me to.
If you don't want to give me another chance I understand that too, I don't blame you for what I put you through.
If you want a woman lover or a loving friend, I am here for you if you want me to.
If something or someone is bothering you, I am here for you if you feel you need and want a woman to talk to.
You are welcome to cry on me if you want to if you need a woman close to you, I am here for you.
Whatever you want from me, I am here for you if you want me to.
You have love from me, cry on and if you are someone to talk to if you want me to, I am here for you too.
Feel free friendship or lovers it's up to you.
I don't mind as long as something is going on between us. 2.1.2000
I can live without you if I have to live without you.
If I have to live without your love, I will live without your love.
I don't like living without your love, it hurts me very much but I am strong enough.
I miss you and your love so much but I can cope enough.
One thing I can say is that I have never cried my eyes out over anything or anyone like I have cried my eyes out over you.
Now can you see how much I really love you, I have always loved you and think I always will do. 29.12.1999
Have you changed the man I knew or even still know?
Please don't change the kind of man you are.
If you have changed, please change back into the man I once knew and fell in love with!
Please stay the same, no matter what that's why I still love you.
Please stay, you don't have to love me as long as you don't change.
You can have feelings and think any way you want about me.
I will still always love even if you don't love me and you don't have me back. 29.12.1999
You left me very lonely.
You left me very lonely.
You left me very sad.
No matter what you put me through I still love you very much.
People say I am sad and mad to ever want you back but I don't care about that.
Why can't people see it was not all your fault it was my fault too?
The relationship we had was not nothing to do with them.
I am all for giving you another chance because I love you so much if want me to.
I would like to start it off as loving friendships, then we could see whether it's worth getting back together or not. 2.1.2000
If you keep me, you won't get hurt anymore, I really do promise you.
Please try to worry in case I hurt because I won't.
I understand getting to know someone new is hard to do.
I know at this early stage that we are protecting ourselves and each other.
We are learning how to trust one another.
I know that I feel very sure that I can trust you and I think you can trust me too.
Only one day at a time will tell us about one another.
You are not trapped by me, I am not trapped by you.
I don't own you and you don't own me.
Just be careful in life, that's all I say. 26.5.2000
You left me very lonely.
You left me very sad.
No matter what you put me through I still love you very much.
People say I am sad and mad to ever want you back but I don't care about that.
Why can't people see it was not all your fault it was my fault too?
The relationship we had was not nothing to do with them.
I am all for giving you another chance because I love you so much if want me to.
I would like to start it off as loving friendships, then we could see whether it's worth getting back together or not. 2.1.2000
If you keep me, you won't get hurt anymore, I really do promise you.
Please try to worry in case I hurt because I won't.
I understand getting to know someone new is hard to do.
I know at this early stage that we are protecting ourselves and each other.
We are learning how to trust one another.
I know that I feel very sure that I can trust you and I think you can trust me too.
Only one day at a time will tell us about one another.
You are not trapped by me, I am not trapped by you.
I don't own you and you don't own me.
Just be careful in life, that's all I say. 26.5.2000
When I am alone with you.
When I am alone with you, I really feel as if I belong to you.
When I phone you I still feel as if we are together.
It's a lovely feeling between us even if we don't see a lot of one another.
The lovely feeling of being held and kissed.
You are the only person that has ever made me feel right.
When I don't see you every night feels like a lonely night.
I miss you all the while but it all seems very much worthwhile.
Times go slowly when I am waiting to see and speak to you.
When the moments come it all seems right and nice.
At night I always wish I could be with you because I love you so much.
In the daytime, I miss you so much.
Your job makes us miss one another so much.
I respect and think about you so much.
I can't stop thinking about you so much.
I wish I was in the love of your arms.
I wish you were holding me tight.
I wish you were kissing my lips, which feels just right. 26.5.2000
When I am alone with you, I really feel as if I belong to you.
When I phone you I still feel as if we are together.
It's a lovely feeling between us even if we don't see a lot of one another.
The lovely feeling of being held and kissed.
You are the only person that has ever made me feel right.
When I don't see you every night feels like a lonely night.
I miss you all the while but it all seems very much worthwhile.
Times go slowly when I am waiting to see and speak to you.
When the moments come it all seems right and nice.
At night I always wish I could be with you because I love you so much.
In the daytime, I miss you so much.
Your job makes us miss one another so much.
I respect and think about you so much.
I can't stop thinking about you so much.
I wish I was in the love of your arms.
I wish you were holding me tight.
I wish you were kissing my lips, which feels just right. 26.5.2000
I'd rather be with no one but you.
I know we don't know one another that well yet.
I know we have such a lot to learn about one another.
I understand things are not easy for either of us these days, through no fault of our own.
I know you will know that I don't enjoy these hard situations any more than you. I like you such a lot, as I have got older I have got a bit stronger in my mind and I hope will get even more stronger.
I will take whatever there is to take on board and I don't give up.
Through choice, there's no one I'd rather be with only you.
I miss you so much but I understand that nothing is yet possible or not at all.
I understand it's not all about how I feel, it's also about you because you have feelings too. 24.12.2009
I know we don't know one another that well yet.
I know we have such a lot to learn about one another.
I understand things are not easy for either of us these days, through no fault of our own.
I know you will know that I don't enjoy these hard situations any more than you. I like you such a lot, as I have got older I have got a bit stronger in my mind and I hope will get even more stronger.
I will take whatever there is to take on board and I don't give up.
Through choice, there's no one I'd rather be with only you.
I miss you so much but I understand that nothing is yet possible or not at all.
I understand it's not all about how I feel, it's also about you because you have feelings too. 24.12.2009
Sorry.
There's no way I want to cause stress on you, I like you a lot.
I am sorry for the way I feel like I do if that's too much.
I have to be honest I miss you so much.
I don't want to make life hard for you. 15.12,2009
I don't feel myself.
The weather is so cold.
I miss you so much.
I just feel so low, that I don't have any get up and go.
I understand that it's not all about what I want in life, you matter too.
I know it has not been easy for both of us to come to terms with the damaged failed relationships we have had. 15.12.2009
There's no way I want to cause stress on you, I like you a lot.
I am sorry for the way I feel like I do if that's too much.
I have to be honest I miss you so much.
I don't want to make life hard for you. 15.12,2009
I don't feel myself.
The weather is so cold.
I miss you so much.
I just feel so low, that I don't have any get up and go.
I understand that it's not all about what I want in life, you matter too.
I know it has not been easy for both of us to come to terms with the damaged failed relationships we have had. 15.12.2009
I can't sleep.
I can't sleep I have so much on my mind.
Twenty to three in the morning.
I just have so much stress that I don't want to put on you.
I am just not thinking straight at the moment.
The weather is even more cold and dark without you. 15.12.2009
I know it's hard.
The days and nights are long without you.
Hours and weeks are even longer.
Mondays and Tuesdays are really shorter, it does not seem as if we see one another for long.
Despite on how hard it is, I don't give up, I like you too much.
With the cold weather having kicked my depression has kicked inside.
All of us could do without Christmas, depression hits everyone this time of year.
Christmas makes me miss my Nan in heaven even more so. 15.12.2009
I can't sleep I have so much on my mind.
Twenty to three in the morning.
I just have so much stress that I don't want to put on you.
I am just not thinking straight at the moment.
The weather is even more cold and dark without you. 15.12.2009
I know it's hard.
The days and nights are long without you.
Hours and weeks are even longer.
Mondays and Tuesdays are really shorter, it does not seem as if we see one another for long.
Despite on how hard it is, I don't give up, I like you too much.
With the cold weather having kicked my depression has kicked inside.
All of us could do without Christmas, depression hits everyone this time of year.
Christmas makes me miss my Nan in heaven even more so. 15.12.2009
If YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON, WILL END UP IN HEAVEN.
Enjoy life to the full.
If you can't be good be careful.
Be naughty, enjoy but don't be too bad.
Try to be happy, not sad.
Be strong and brave in hard times.
Happiness will grow on earth.
Heaven will be a peaceful place when you get there if you believe it will.
There has to be something to keep us going in this life even if it's hard to believe what is true. 13.11.2001
Enjoy life to the full.
If you can't be good be careful.
Be naughty, enjoy but don't be too bad.
Try to be happy, not sad.
Be strong and brave in hard times.
Happiness will grow on earth.
Heaven will be a peaceful place when you get there if you believe it will.
There has to be something to keep us going in this life even if it's hard to believe what is true. 13.11.2001
Bad has turned into good.
The problems I had at birth, I am lucky to be alive.
I am very thankful for people's support even though living with my disability is hard for not only for me but my family too.
We are now used to me having a disability, we have lived with it for nearly forty years.
I have learned that I am not alone in the world although it felt like that way for many years of my life.
I am not the only person in the world with disabilities, a lot of my friends have disabilities too.
As a child, I felt like the odd one in the world as if everyone could do everything and I could do nothing.
Now I feel a part of everyone even though you always get some people who enjoy trying to make life unhappy for you, no one with a disability is alone there, people without disabilities have to live with it too.
I may be a bit slow but I am still a human being just like you.
What is normal at the end of the day?
No one is perfect.
No one is right all the time about anything.
It would be boring if everyone was right about everything and everybody.
It took me many years to believe that I am not alone, now that I know that I am a lot happier person.
I feel a lot better now I have got a career that I never thought I'd have. 2001 - 2009
The problems I had at birth, I am lucky to be alive.
I am very thankful for people's support even though living with my disability is hard for not only for me but my family too.
We are now used to me having a disability, we have lived with it for nearly forty years.
I have learned that I am not alone in the world although it felt like that way for many years of my life.
I am not the only person in the world with disabilities, a lot of my friends have disabilities too.
As a child, I felt like the odd one in the world as if everyone could do everything and I could do nothing.
Now I feel a part of everyone even though you always get some people who enjoy trying to make life unhappy for you, no one with a disability is alone there, people without disabilities have to live with it too.
I may be a bit slow but I am still a human being just like you.
What is normal at the end of the day?
No one is perfect.
No one is right all the time about anything.
It would be boring if everyone was right about everything and everybody.
It took me many years to believe that I am not alone, now that I know that I am a lot happier person.
I feel a lot better now I have got a career that I never thought I'd have. 2001 - 2009
I will never leave you.
I will never leave you like you left me.
My life would be dull and empty without you.
Losing you again is my biggest fear so I beg you not to let me.
I must be brave and hope for the best.
I must be mad to still love you and go back to you with the way you hurt me.
I must learn to be strong through the best times and enjoy the good.
Be thankful to you, my family, and my friends.
You must not hurt me again because I can only take so much and I would have to call it the end whether I still love you or not.
When I accept the bad the goodwill become better. 13.11.2001
Poems of love.
Someone picks up a live red rose.
One day a throne sadly kills that red rose and throws her away.
Another throne kisses her and she comes back to life.
This goes on and on until she meets the right throne but does she? 2001
I will never leave you like you left me.
My life would be dull and empty without you.
Losing you again is my biggest fear so I beg you not to let me.
I must be brave and hope for the best.
I must be mad to still love you and go back to you with the way you hurt me.
I must learn to be strong through the best times and enjoy the good.
Be thankful to you, my family, and my friends.
You must not hurt me again because I can only take so much and I would have to call it the end whether I still love you or not.
When I accept the bad the goodwill become better. 13.11.2001
Poems of love.
Someone picks up a live red rose.
One day a throne sadly kills that red rose and throws her away.
Another throne kisses her and she comes back to life.
This goes on and on until she meets the right throne but does she? 2001
Eddie dog.
Eddie's dog loves playing with his ball, well with anything soft, that includes human's soft objects.
Eddie is a naughty but funny and nice dog.
Eddie needs his headlock on when you take him out for a walk, he pulls you too hard.
Eddie is getting an old boy but it never seems like, he does not seem to slow down.
He still plays with anything and everything he can see.
He still messes with people's shoes and socks.
When he needs a long sleep, he will wake up for his dinner and walk. 2001
Eddie's dog loves playing with his ball, well with anything soft, that includes human's soft objects.
Eddie is a naughty but funny and nice dog.
Eddie needs his headlock on when you take him out for a walk, he pulls you too hard.
Eddie is getting an old boy but it never seems like, he does not seem to slow down.
He still plays with anything and everything he can see.
He still messes with people's shoes and socks.
When he needs a long sleep, he will wake up for his dinner and walk. 2001
Loverboy.
We have been together on and off since Monday 16th May 1994, it was a very cold and rainy day.
He's my lover and best friend right to the end.
We met in a bar, we never thought it would get very far.
After two and a half years he broke my heart.
For four years we were apart.
It gave me so many tears over those years.
In time I thought I'd stop loving him but my feelings of love came into such a bug if only I could.
One day we fell back in love, we never thought we could or would.
It was just one love life storybook.
If I write, you must take a look.
I hope he won't hurt me again, otherwise, I will have to leave him even if I do still love him to get over him.
That would be the end of a lover but he may still be my best friend. 2003 - 2004
My Life without you.
I think about you in my flat.
When I am with you it is great.
When I am without you I think about you where ever I am.
I look forward to seeing you when I see you. 2001
We have been together on and off since Monday 16th May 1994, it was a very cold and rainy day.
He's my lover and best friend right to the end.
We met in a bar, we never thought it would get very far.
After two and a half years he broke my heart.
For four years we were apart.
It gave me so many tears over those years.
In time I thought I'd stop loving him but my feelings of love came into such a bug if only I could.
One day we fell back in love, we never thought we could or would.
It was just one love life storybook.
If I write, you must take a look.
I hope he won't hurt me again, otherwise, I will have to leave him even if I do still love him to get over him.
That would be the end of a lover but he may still be my best friend. 2003 - 2004
My Life without you.
I think about you in my flat.
When I am with you it is great.
When I am without you I think about you where ever I am.
I look forward to seeing you when I see you. 2001
Poetry.
Poetry is like drawing and painting a picture.
Poetry is like building each block from the bottom to the top.
Just built the walk brick by brick.
Start from the yellow sand, the blue sea, the buckets, the spades, the blue sky, and the yellow Sun. 13.11.2001
Forgetting the past.
I hope we have learned from most of our mistakes.
I hope we can both make the most of life while we are still here.
I hope I will get wiser as I get older.
I will never know whether to believe that there is an even or even earth or not.
We are told that heaven and earth are different worlds.
Some people tell you, you come back, I find it hard to believe that.
It's best to live your life to the full because you know what's to come.
Once you have gone, you have gone for good and you won't be seen again.
Some of us believe in ghosts but it's hard to tell which is and is not the truth in these things. 2001
Happiness.
Look forward to the future and take the happiness of what is out there for you.
Life may seem dull at first but give it the time it will brighten up.
You wonder what is happening, well wait your turn.
Surprises are out there for you. 2001
Poetry is like drawing and painting a picture.
Poetry is like building each block from the bottom to the top.
Just built the walk brick by brick.
Start from the yellow sand, the blue sea, the buckets, the spades, the blue sky, and the yellow Sun. 13.11.2001
Forgetting the past.
I hope we have learned from most of our mistakes.
I hope we can both make the most of life while we are still here.
I hope I will get wiser as I get older.
I will never know whether to believe that there is an even or even earth or not.
We are told that heaven and earth are different worlds.
Some people tell you, you come back, I find it hard to believe that.
It's best to live your life to the full because you know what's to come.
Once you have gone, you have gone for good and you won't be seen again.
Some of us believe in ghosts but it's hard to tell which is and is not the truth in these things. 2001
Happiness.
Look forward to the future and take the happiness of what is out there for you.
Life may seem dull at first but give it the time it will brighten up.
You wonder what is happening, well wait your turn.
Surprises are out there for you. 2001
Well, we all have something to live for.
Just tell yourself that there is a life out there for you.
If you think all sad, you won't get out there and you won't know what happiness is.
Come on, you can do better than that!
Show everyone that you can pull yourself together out of those bad times and look forward to the good.
How your life and future is, is up to you, it will have its ups and down's like everyones. 2001
Not all dreams come true.
Follow your heart and your head should, you should get what you want out of life.
Just let it all happen, go with the flow and happiness will come to you.
If you don't plan you should find true happiness.
Something or and someone will give happiness to you.
Who and what you don't have a clue. 2001
Hurry up spring.
Hurry up spring, let's put green leaves on the trees.
Birds hurry up to lay your eggs, have your babies, and sing.
Sheep hurry to have your lambs so they can jump and skip.
Lift up the grass with yellow daffodils!
Let's see more of the short green that's covered in yellow daffodils.
Let's just bring back the joys of spring in the air! 24.1.2001
Just tell yourself that there is a life out there for you.
If you think all sad, you won't get out there and you won't know what happiness is.
Come on, you can do better than that!
Show everyone that you can pull yourself together out of those bad times and look forward to the good.
How your life and future is, is up to you, it will have its ups and down's like everyones. 2001
Not all dreams come true.
Follow your heart and your head should, you should get what you want out of life.
Just let it all happen, go with the flow and happiness will come to you.
If you don't plan you should find true happiness.
Something or and someone will give happiness to you.
Who and what you don't have a clue. 2001
Hurry up spring.
Hurry up spring, let's put green leaves on the trees.
Birds hurry up to lay your eggs, have your babies, and sing.
Sheep hurry to have your lambs so they can jump and skip.
Lift up the grass with yellow daffodils!
Let's see more of the short green that's covered in yellow daffodils.
Let's just bring back the joys of spring in the air! 24.1.2001
Where are you, my love?
I am dreaming of you being with me.
I picture you inside my mind.
I think about you during the day.
I dream about you at night.
Sometimes I hear your voice on the telephone.
I miss you all the time.
Am I living in a fairy tale land or are you really mine? 24.1.2001
I am dreaming of you being with me.
I picture you inside my mind.
I think about you during the day.
I dream about you at night.
Sometimes I hear your voice on the telephone.
I miss you all the time.
Am I living in a fairy tale land or are you really mine? 24.1.2001
I know it's all over.
There's no such thing as the last kiss.
You did not seem to care whether I went or not.
You did not seem to care whether you never saw me again or not.
If only I did not care or loved you either.
You never let me know whether you were happy or sad to see me again.
Are you human, are you real or have I been having a strange dream all these years?
I just don't know why I am bothering to come back as there is nothing there for me.
I did not want to go or stay.
You don't love me so why am I here?
It does not feel that way.
Why am I hanging around where I am not wanted?
You are just a hard habit to break.
The worse thing is that you are unsure how you feel.
That does not help my feelings at all.
You have not done yourself any favors.
You have lied to yourself and to me.
Why do you have to leave it to me to find out what's going through your mind?
How can I help I am not a mind reader?
Without yourself knowing it, you have hurt the one you love yet again.
Oh, I forgot you don't know whether you love me or not.
It's hard to say what you want because you either won't tell me or you give me different answers.
It does not make it very easy for me to know whether I should stay or go.
My mind tells me that leaving you is the right thing to do but my heart is saying no.
There's no such thing as the last kiss.
You did not seem to care whether I went or not.
You did not seem to care whether you never saw me again or not.
If only I did not care or loved you either.
You never let me know whether you were happy or sad to see me again.
Are you human, are you real or have I been having a strange dream all these years?
I just don't know why I am bothering to come back as there is nothing there for me.
I did not want to go or stay.
You don't love me so why am I here?
It does not feel that way.
Why am I hanging around where I am not wanted?
You are just a hard habit to break.
The worse thing is that you are unsure how you feel.
That does not help my feelings at all.
You have not done yourself any favors.
You have lied to yourself and to me.
Why do you have to leave it to me to find out what's going through your mind?
How can I help I am not a mind reader?
Without yourself knowing it, you have hurt the one you love yet again.
Oh, I forgot you don't know whether you love me or not.
It's hard to say what you want because you either won't tell me or you give me different answers.
It does not make it very easy for me to know whether I should stay or go.
My mind tells me that leaving you is the right thing to do but my heart is saying no.
If you feel the same as I do, please send me a letter, text, or a call.
Please ask people we know in pubs if they have seen me.
Don't know why I bothered saying that, I have had enough of being messed around.
I am leaving you one day when I feel strong enough to.
Don't rush into thinking about it too hard Ant it may take forever.
There are plenty more fish in the sea, I just hope the next one knows what he wants in life.
I will get away from this confused man one day, I hope will find someone someday who knows his own mind.
Ant if you don't know what you want after nearly fourteen years, you never will.
Who knows I may never bother with men again but I know I will. Jan08 - Feb 09
Please ask people we know in pubs if they have seen me.
Don't know why I bothered saying that, I have had enough of being messed around.
I am leaving you one day when I feel strong enough to.
Don't rush into thinking about it too hard Ant it may take forever.
There are plenty more fish in the sea, I just hope the next one knows what he wants in life.
I will get away from this confused man one day, I hope will find someone someday who knows his own mind.
Ant if you don't know what you want after nearly fourteen years, you never will.
Who knows I may never bother with men again but I know I will. Jan08 - Feb 09
First serious love.
It feels as if no one will ever replace you but I don't want someone to replace you.
I want someone who loves me for me, which is more than I can say for you.
I want someone who knows what he wants in life.
You have known me fifteen yrs on and off but you don't know whether you love me or not.
It sounds as if you don't know what love is, I thought I may behave shown you that by now.
Yet you have had girlfriends before me, what a strange man you are.
You should know how I feel about you by now.
Even after all these years, you do not really understand how much you really mean to me.
You never now tell me whether you feel the same way towards me or not.
Did you ever love me?
You either loved me as much as you could or not at all.
I think I have wasted fifteen yrs loving a man who never loved me.
Your feelings turn on and off like a light.
I don't know why I still feel the same as I did when I first met you.
Come on Ant, that was a long time ago, if you don't know I am serious about you now, you never will.
I am so sorry that I can't stop loving you but I also understand how you feel too but then you don't know how you feel or what you want.
I wish I could help but I can't be someone who does not know what they want themselves.
I wish you did not change your feelings every five minutes, now stop playing with my feelings!
You know very well how I feel about you so you mess me around more.
The way things are I know one day I won't feel the same as I do today.
I will get away from you to make sure that I don't feel the same as I do today anymore.
It's no good changing how you feel then because it could be too late for you.
The more I love you and see you, the more you hurt me.
Maybe I am wrong but it feels as if you don't have the same feelings as me anymore.
I only wish I did not feel for you this way. 14.2.09
It feels as if no one will ever replace you but I don't want someone to replace you.
I want someone who loves me for me, which is more than I can say for you.
I want someone who knows what he wants in life.
You have known me fifteen yrs on and off but you don't know whether you love me or not.
It sounds as if you don't know what love is, I thought I may behave shown you that by now.
Yet you have had girlfriends before me, what a strange man you are.
You should know how I feel about you by now.
Even after all these years, you do not really understand how much you really mean to me.
You never now tell me whether you feel the same way towards me or not.
Did you ever love me?
You either loved me as much as you could or not at all.
I think I have wasted fifteen yrs loving a man who never loved me.
Your feelings turn on and off like a light.
I don't know why I still feel the same as I did when I first met you.
Come on Ant, that was a long time ago, if you don't know I am serious about you now, you never will.
I am so sorry that I can't stop loving you but I also understand how you feel too but then you don't know how you feel or what you want.
I wish I could help but I can't be someone who does not know what they want themselves.
I wish you did not change your feelings every five minutes, now stop playing with my feelings!
You know very well how I feel about you so you mess me around more.
The way things are I know one day I won't feel the same as I do today.
I will get away from you to make sure that I don't feel the same as I do today anymore.
It's no good changing how you feel then because it could be too late for you.
The more I love you and see you, the more you hurt me.
Maybe I am wrong but it feels as if you don't have the same feelings as me anymore.
I only wish I did not feel for you this way. 14.2.09
I must be mad.
For fifteen years now I have loved you for, despite the pain we have been through together.
In time we have become just friends and lovers on and off.
In that time I have written pages and pages of poetry about you, I have even written about you in my diaries.
No matter what happens I will always love you.
No matter what happens despite the way you feel about me, even though it's not the answer I want to hear. 14.2.2009
Valentines' day without love.
You feel alone in the world when you see couples walking down the street and holding hands.
You feel alone in the world when you see people with presents and cards.
Why am I bothered?
Valentines' day is waste of time and money mostly when the one you love does not love you anymore.
I write him poetry, a waste of pen and ink but I still write them.
Sara just gets on with life but it's even worse when valentine's day just hits you in the face. 14.2.2009
For fifteen years now I have loved you for, despite the pain we have been through together.
In time we have become just friends and lovers on and off.
In that time I have written pages and pages of poetry about you, I have even written about you in my diaries.
No matter what happens I will always love you.
No matter what happens despite the way you feel about me, even though it's not the answer I want to hear. 14.2.2009
Valentines' day without love.
You feel alone in the world when you see couples walking down the street and holding hands.
You feel alone in the world when you see people with presents and cards.
Why am I bothered?
Valentines' day is waste of time and money mostly when the one you love does not love you anymore.
I write him poetry, a waste of pen and ink but I still write them.
Sara just gets on with life but it's even worse when valentine's day just hits you in the face. 14.2.2009
New start.
It's hard to change completely but I must change most things.
Some things can change but others can't.
Some things we to change, others we don't.
There are other things we have no choice about, you may have to change or don't change or can't change at all.
Some things are easy to change others are not.
It would be a boring life if we were all the same.
There are so many things I should change but I won't let go like I need to let go of Anthony. Jan 08 - Feb 09
It's hard to change completely but I must change most things.
Some things can change but others can't.
Some things we to change, others we don't.
There are other things we have no choice about, you may have to change or don't change or can't change at all.
Some things are easy to change others are not.
It would be a boring life if we were all the same.
There are so many things I should change but I won't let go like I need to let go of Anthony. Jan 08 - Feb 09
I have been such a fool.
Whatever kind of person you are I have loved you for fifteen years.
I still feel the same to this day but I very soon hope that those feelings will go away.
I can accept friendship but the more I see you the more I love you, you hurt me more because I know you don't feel the same way.
Sometimes you pretend to love me to keep me happy then you tell me you don't to make me sad.
Maybe you do know what you want but you play me around to hurt me.
As for you, you don't know how you feel towards me so how am I to know?
There are two possible guesses if only I was a mind reader.
We have been through so many ups and downs together over the years but somehow I am still here for you even though we are just friends.
I have wasted so much time crying, days thinking about you, and losing sleep over you.
The headaches and heartaches are just too much, I can't say I know when but I think I will go one day, I have had enough.
I don't know why I hang around anymore, it feels as if you don't feel the same way anymore.
Maybe you did not feel the way I thought you did.
I must be a complete fool, I am so in love with you it hurts.
I have tried so hard to love others but it did not work.
Many people have thought I had been a fool to put up with you all these years, maybe they are right.
I don't know what else to do if I am not wanted in your life anymore.
Maybe one day I will be strong enough to walk away from you like you walked away from me. Jan 08 - Feb 09
Whatever kind of person you are I have loved you for fifteen years.
I still feel the same to this day but I very soon hope that those feelings will go away.
I can accept friendship but the more I see you the more I love you, you hurt me more because I know you don't feel the same way.
Sometimes you pretend to love me to keep me happy then you tell me you don't to make me sad.
Maybe you do know what you want but you play me around to hurt me.
As for you, you don't know how you feel towards me so how am I to know?
There are two possible guesses if only I was a mind reader.
We have been through so many ups and downs together over the years but somehow I am still here for you even though we are just friends.
I have wasted so much time crying, days thinking about you, and losing sleep over you.
The headaches and heartaches are just too much, I can't say I know when but I think I will go one day, I have had enough.
I don't know why I hang around anymore, it feels as if you don't feel the same way anymore.
Maybe you did not feel the way I thought you did.
I must be a complete fool, I am so in love with you it hurts.
I have tried so hard to love others but it did not work.
Many people have thought I had been a fool to put up with you all these years, maybe they are right.
I don't know what else to do if I am not wanted in your life anymore.
Maybe one day I will be strong enough to walk away from you like you walked away from me. Jan 08 - Feb 09
Henry IIV.
Henry VIII was on Most Haunted one night.
To think he had six wives.
He carried on marrying until he had a son.
He finely had a son went he married Jane Seymour.
She died after their son was born.
He had another three wives after Jane Seymour.
With Henry IVV, you never know he could be a dark horse. 2000 onwards.
Henry VIII was on Most Haunted one night.
To think he had six wives.
He carried on marrying until he had a son.
He finely had a son went he married Jane Seymour.
She died after their son was born.
He had another three wives after Jane Seymour.
With Henry IVV, you never know he could be a dark horse. 2000 onwards.
There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
You may not think life is not living.
You feel blank.
You feel empty.
You are in a world of your own.
One day you feel life is ahead of you, the next day you don't.
That's what happened to me.
Wait and see, it takes its own time, it will happen to you.
You may not think you have a future.
It all seems dark as long as it seems dark but if there's anything I have learned once you get to the end of the tunnel there's a bright light.
You have Education, work and social life to think about. from 2000 onwards
Edgar Allan Poe.
There was once a poet I was not born to know.
His name was Edgar Allan Poe.
He used to write his poems on top of a tree.
Did he write a poem called Poe tree?
As the years went on spelling changed to poetry.
Take no notice of me, I am just playing around with words to write Poe tree. 31st March 2007
You may not think life is not living.
You feel blank.
You feel empty.
You are in a world of your own.
One day you feel life is ahead of you, the next day you don't.
That's what happened to me.
Wait and see, it takes its own time, it will happen to you.
You may not think you have a future.
It all seems dark as long as it seems dark but if there's anything I have learned once you get to the end of the tunnel there's a bright light.
You have Education, work and social life to think about. from 2000 onwards
Edgar Allan Poe.
There was once a poet I was not born to know.
His name was Edgar Allan Poe.
He used to write his poems on top of a tree.
Did he write a poem called Poe tree?
As the years went on spelling changed to poetry.
Take no notice of me, I am just playing around with words to write Poe tree. 31st March 2007
We can make it.
Life can't be perfect.
Don't give up!
Live life to the end no matter how good or bad.
Keep strong you will get through. 19.3.2004
What can be worse?
No peace,
No quiet,
No clothes,
Be thankful for what you have got if you have got anything at all.
Never feel sorry for yourself.
Nothing changes unless you change it yourself. 19.3.2004
We must get by.
No matter what we don't like, we must get by.
Don't let the bad things stop the good things in your life.
We only live once.
Why die sad when you can die happy.
More than anything give yourself a good time, you never know what's around the condor.19.3.2004
Life can't be perfect.
Don't give up!
Live life to the end no matter how good or bad.
Keep strong you will get through. 19.3.2004
What can be worse?
No peace,
No quiet,
No clothes,
Be thankful for what you have got if you have got anything at all.
Never feel sorry for yourself.
Nothing changes unless you change it yourself. 19.3.2004
We must get by.
No matter what we don't like, we must get by.
Don't let the bad things stop the good things in your life.
We only live once.
Why die sad when you can die happy.
More than anything give yourself a good time, you never know what's around the condor.19.3.2004
Talking to you.
When I talk to you, I find it hard to know what to say to you.
Before I talk to you, I have plenty of time to think about it but when I get on the phone I go blank.
It's nice to talk to you, it's so lovely to hear your voice.
You give me the news, then I will tell you what's been happening in my life.
I miss you so much, I wish I could see more of you.
I've also been interested in some men but they have not been interested in me.
Now I feel young and in my prime.
Not being able to make up my mind between two men who I love and they love me.
To be fair I can only choose one, which is very hard. 29.12.2003
Take life as it comes.
We accept that we can't have every perfect in this life but our lives could be better than they could be worse.
It does not matter how hard life is, don't let it get to you.
Sadly with a lot of things, there are not a lot of things we can do.
We must accept it, be brave, strong and get on with life.
It will only get worse if you let things get to you.
Beat the world before it beats you.29.12.2003
When I talk to you, I find it hard to know what to say to you.
Before I talk to you, I have plenty of time to think about it but when I get on the phone I go blank.
It's nice to talk to you, it's so lovely to hear your voice.
You give me the news, then I will tell you what's been happening in my life.
I miss you so much, I wish I could see more of you.
I've also been interested in some men but they have not been interested in me.
Now I feel young and in my prime.
Not being able to make up my mind between two men who I love and they love me.
To be fair I can only choose one, which is very hard. 29.12.2003
Take life as it comes.
We accept that we can't have every perfect in this life but our lives could be better than they could be worse.
It does not matter how hard life is, don't let it get to you.
Sadly with a lot of things, there are not a lot of things we can do.
We must accept it, be brave, strong and get on with life.
It will only get worse if you let things get to you.
Beat the world before it beats you.29.12.2003
Everything comes to life.
When I hear the wind blowing, it's as if the whole world has come to life.
The trees blow from side to side.
Fences come to life, full down, break up and die.
Litter runs down the road as fast as a flying kite.
Without wind, there will be only animals and human beings who and what will come to life. 19.3.2004
Life today.
Too much traffic on the road today, it makes it so hard to cross the road.
Ques in different places over a mile long.
People banging into one another.
No manners please and thank you.
Missing buses that come too early to what they say on the time tables but the wait is long enough for them to be late. 21.3.2004
When I hear the wind blowing, it's as if the whole world has come to life.
The trees blow from side to side.
Fences come to life, full down, break up and die.
Litter runs down the road as fast as a flying kite.
Without wind, there will be only animals and human beings who and what will come to life. 19.3.2004
Life today.
Too much traffic on the road today, it makes it so hard to cross the road.
Ques in different places over a mile long.
People banging into one another.
No manners please and thank you.
Missing buses that come too early to what they say on the time tables but the wait is long enough for them to be late. 21.3.2004
Childhood.
Living life without a care in the world.
Everything was taken care of by adults.
Skipping, playing games, going to the fair, and building sandcastles on the beach all seems such a long time ago.
When we are children we want to become adults but many adults want to be children again.
Suddenly we regret growing up so fast but just don't know what fun is when we are young until it's all gone. 21.3.2004
20th March 2003.
It has been a year today since the second Gulf war broke out.
We were told in May 2003 that the war was over but that's not true when soldiers are still even now getting killed.
There are more soldiers killed than there were before May 2003.
I don't think this war is over yet, why is our government telling us lies?
When I watch the news there seem to be bombs going off all over the world. 20.3.2004
Linked to 'TALKING TO THE GRAVES' there be some poems linked to ' TALKING TO THE GRAVES' I am hoping to create some love storylines between one of the ghosts and the live character.
Living life without a care in the world.
Everything was taken care of by adults.
Skipping, playing games, going to the fair, and building sandcastles on the beach all seems such a long time ago.
When we are children we want to become adults but many adults want to be children again.
Suddenly we regret growing up so fast but just don't know what fun is when we are young until it's all gone. 21.3.2004
20th March 2003.
It has been a year today since the second Gulf war broke out.
We were told in May 2003 that the war was over but that's not true when soldiers are still even now getting killed.
There are more soldiers killed than there were before May 2003.
I don't think this war is over yet, why is our government telling us lies?
When I watch the news there seem to be bombs going off all over the world. 20.3.2004
Linked to 'TALKING TO THE GRAVES' there be some poems linked to ' TALKING TO THE GRAVES' I am hoping to create some love storylines between one of the ghosts and the live character.
Bad luck.
In this story, I was looking forward to seeing you.
What did we do wrong, we were just about to fall in love?
Life goes on and I must find a way forward.
I will never stop loving you but now you are in another world so I must start again.
I am going to carry on this earth without you, I find it hard to believe you were really in the first place, you are just a character in one of my stories.
I just can't see you but maybe you can see me.
On the other hand, I can't put my life on hold, that does not mean I am not trying to build your character up but you face a character based on me.
I need to love a real person and for real, I can't hear or see you. 30.12.2003
Cruel world.
I am a church of England.
Why did the world take you away?
War has spoiled it for us both.
No memory and no fun.
Not even one thing to look forward to.
There's no chance to see who I should have seen.
Christmas, death day, and birthdays.
Darling I love you, God bless you. 30.12.2003
In this story, I was looking forward to seeing you.
What did we do wrong, we were just about to fall in love?
Life goes on and I must find a way forward.
I will never stop loving you but now you are in another world so I must start again.
I am going to carry on this earth without you, I find it hard to believe you were really in the first place, you are just a character in one of my stories.
I just can't see you but maybe you can see me.
On the other hand, I can't put my life on hold, that does not mean I am not trying to build your character up but you face a character based on me.
I need to love a real person and for real, I can't hear or see you. 30.12.2003
Cruel world.
I am a church of England.
Why did the world take you away?
War has spoiled it for us both.
No memory and no fun.
Not even one thing to look forward to.
There's no chance to see who I should have seen.
Christmas, death day, and birthdays.
Darling I love you, God bless you. 30.12.2003
Christmas time.
I think about you at Christmas day.
I dream about you on Christmas night.
I am wishing that you'd walk up to my door.
We would be having a lovely time together.
I can just picture us together around the coal roaring fire. 30.12.2003
I must talk to you.
You might be up in heaven.
I might be here on earth.
Any of us could be anywhere and everywhere.
Whatever life is like, it does not mean I have stopped loving you.
There are so many stars in the sky at night, any star could be you. 30.12.2003
Private love.
You may well be a ghost but I love you.
People think I am mad if they knew or know.
I don't care what people think of the way I think.
This helps me accept death as it is even if there may not be as such thing as ghosts but there might be.
Our love may not be seen but heard, as strange it sounds.
You may be over there and I might be over here but that does not stop us from being a loving pair.
I hope you are lying to rest.
I believe you never rested on the earth.
It's so hard to hold back the pain but try to be brave.
The truth is that when one rests in peace, the other wakes up.
Many people believe in people coming back as an animal or someone else.
Some say as one life is lost another life starts.
I don't know whether to believe in that or not but I wonder what has come back as if you have come?
Are you an animal or are you human?
Are female or male animals or human beings?
Who knows? 30.12.2003 - 1.6.2004
What happens?
What is it like to be in the world of heaven?
Do you have less stress than we do on earth?
There's no perfect world with no problems at all so maybe there are no two worlds heaven and earth.
Does your skin turn into bone?
Do you feel anything at all?
How on earth do people know?
Once you have gone, you have gone.
We never hear your voice again.
Are you ghosts really around or are you just nightmare fairy tales?
Are you really moving around?
I guess these questions are hard to answer.30.12.200 - 1.6.2004
I think about you at Christmas day.
I dream about you on Christmas night.
I am wishing that you'd walk up to my door.
We would be having a lovely time together.
I can just picture us together around the coal roaring fire. 30.12.2003
I must talk to you.
You might be up in heaven.
I might be here on earth.
Any of us could be anywhere and everywhere.
Whatever life is like, it does not mean I have stopped loving you.
There are so many stars in the sky at night, any star could be you. 30.12.2003
Private love.
You may well be a ghost but I love you.
People think I am mad if they knew or know.
I don't care what people think of the way I think.
This helps me accept death as it is even if there may not be as such thing as ghosts but there might be.
Our love may not be seen but heard, as strange it sounds.
You may be over there and I might be over here but that does not stop us from being a loving pair.
I hope you are lying to rest.
I believe you never rested on the earth.
It's so hard to hold back the pain but try to be brave.
The truth is that when one rests in peace, the other wakes up.
Many people believe in people coming back as an animal or someone else.
Some say as one life is lost another life starts.
I don't know whether to believe in that or not but I wonder what has come back as if you have come?
Are you an animal or are you human?
Are female or male animals or human beings?
Who knows? 30.12.2003 - 1.6.2004
What happens?
What is it like to be in the world of heaven?
Do you have less stress than we do on earth?
There's no perfect world with no problems at all so maybe there are no two worlds heaven and earth.
Does your skin turn into bone?
Do you feel anything at all?
How on earth do people know?
Once you have gone, you have gone.
We never hear your voice again.
Are you ghosts really around or are you just nightmare fairy tales?
Are you really moving around?
I guess these questions are hard to answer.30.12.200 - 1.6.2004
To me, you are Freddie Mercury.
To me you are the King Of Music like Elvis Presley is the King Of Rock and Roll and Micheal Jackson is the King Of Pop.
Pop, rock, rock and roll, and many others all you have done it all.
Freddie, you may be one of the stars in the sky.
You were more than just a hero to us fans, it was almost as if we had known you all our lives even though we did not.
You were everything rolled into one to us.
I wonder how the moon is for heaven as well as the earth.
There are too many questions hard to answer, most will never ever get answered.
2005 - 2006.
To me you are the King Of Music like Elvis Presley is the King Of Rock and Roll and Micheal Jackson is the King Of Pop.
Pop, rock, rock and roll, and many others all you have done it all.
Freddie, you may be one of the stars in the sky.
You were more than just a hero to us fans, it was almost as if we had known you all our lives even though we did not.
You were everything rolled into one to us.
I wonder how the moon is for heaven as well as the earth.
There are too many questions hard to answer, most will never ever get answered.
2005 - 2006.
Any way forward.
It all seems so dark.
It's hard to know what is going to happen without you.
It's hard to believe you have gone fifteen years, it's hard to believe you have gone at all.
It's hard to believe that you are never coming back to give more music.
I grew up watching you sing, those happy memories have not gone.
I remember watching it on Live Aid when I was fifteen years old.
I even used to hope that I'd meet you one day but no chance of that Freddie Mercury.
Now it's far too late for all that.
Never mind not everything goes everyone's way. 2003 - 2006
Why you?
I could not believe it when you had gone but let's believe your spirit is still here!
The night I found out the world had lost you, I cried my eyes out in my bedroom all night long.
Your art and music still live on.
Nearly fifteen years on and even now the news has not sunk in. 2003 - 2006.
It all seems so dark.
It's hard to know what is going to happen without you.
It's hard to believe you have gone fifteen years, it's hard to believe you have gone at all.
It's hard to believe that you are never coming back to give more music.
I grew up watching you sing, those happy memories have not gone.
I remember watching it on Live Aid when I was fifteen years old.
I even used to hope that I'd meet you one day but no chance of that Freddie Mercury.
Now it's far too late for all that.
Never mind not everything goes everyone's way. 2003 - 2006
Why you?
I could not believe it when you had gone but let's believe your spirit is still here!
The night I found out the world had lost you, I cried my eyes out in my bedroom all night long.
Your art and music still live on.
Nearly fifteen years on and even now the news has not sunk in. 2003 - 2006.
Is there a god?
Have you ever seen God or a god?
If yes is the case, do you get on with him?
Is god the boss of heaven?
Should we believe in him or not?
Will he send you to hell if you do bad but heaven if you do good?
Do we really need help from god or do we help ourselves?
Is god the boss of heaven? 6.1.2004
Wondering minds.
It must be lovely to sleep and never wake up.
It is death forever sleeping.
Maybe you can't sleep at all.
Maybe you live the same life in heaven as you did on earthwork, sleep, and social life.
It's just like a dark tunnel, you feel trapped and you must get out.
Do you feel things or not?
Do you get some sleep and wake up? 6.1.2004
Have you ever seen God or a god?
If yes is the case, do you get on with him?
Is god the boss of heaven?
Should we believe in him or not?
Will he send you to hell if you do bad but heaven if you do good?
Do we really need help from god or do we help ourselves?
Is god the boss of heaven? 6.1.2004
Wondering minds.
It must be lovely to sleep and never wake up.
It is death forever sleeping.
Maybe you can't sleep at all.
Maybe you live the same life in heaven as you did on earthwork, sleep, and social life.
It's just like a dark tunnel, you feel trapped and you must get out.
Do you feel things or not?
Do you get some sleep and wake up? 6.1.2004
What's the weather like in heaven?
Does it get cold in heaven?
Does it get hot in heaven?
Can it go hot and cold in heaven like it does on earth?
Does it all stay the same?
Do you have snow?
Do you have rain?
Does it change?
Maybe for people in heaven life stays the same.
Is there a future in heaven, is there any life at all?
Maybe only if there is a past and a present. 2003 - 2006
Does it get cold in heaven?
Does it get hot in heaven?
Can it go hot and cold in heaven like it does on earth?
Does it all stay the same?
Do you have snow?
Do you have rain?
Does it change?
Maybe for people in heaven life stays the same.
Is there a future in heaven, is there any life at all?
Maybe only if there is a past and a present. 2003 - 2006
I am writing a silly verse, does it get any worse?
I am writing a silly poem, this poem is worth knowing.
I wish I could write my poems more like Lenard Cohen.
Is Lenard Cohen worth knowing, does he do sewing?
We sat to kiss but there was so much mist.
He's written my name on his love list.
He's a boy who gives me so much joy.
It was a peaceful night,
read before I turned the light.
I could not sleep because there was a fight.
There was once a verse about an empty purse.
I don't know who found the purse first.
I think it was a man named thrust.
The man who stool it was the crust.
This is your friend until the end.
This the end, you not my friend.
I swam in the sea,
I saw Lee drinking a cup of tea,
there was no tea for me.
I need some fresh air.
The sweets we should share.
In this world, there's some care.
I am writing a silly poem, this poem is worth knowing.
I wish I could write my poems more like Lenard Cohen.
Is Lenard Cohen worth knowing, does he do sewing?
We sat to kiss but there was so much mist.
He's written my name on his love list.
He's a boy who gives me so much joy.
It was a peaceful night,
read before I turned the light.
I could not sleep because there was a fight.
There was once a verse about an empty purse.
I don't know who found the purse first.
I think it was a man named thrust.
The man who stool it was the crust.
This is your friend until the end.
This the end, you not my friend.
I swam in the sea,
I saw Lee drinking a cup of tea,
there was no tea for me.
I need some fresh air.
The sweets we should share.
In this world, there's some care.
Today I feel so much sorrow, may be I will be happy tomorrow.
When I see you tomorrow I will follow.
The man who spend his long life with his wife,
in the end he killed with a knife because was a nightmare of his life.
He paid a big price when he killed his long lasting wife. 2003 -2006
Sound.
I can hear the sound of music in my flat.
It's the sound of Queen Freddie Mercury has such a great voice.
Other than the sound of music I can hear silence. 2003 - 2006
Dripping tap.
A dripping tap can get you down if it drips too much.
All you can hear is drip drop.
If the drip drops long enough, water can cost too much, turn the tap off. 2003 -2006
How do you feel?
You don't seem to love me as much as you used to do.
Sometimes I wonder if you ever did love me.
What have I done so wrong to you?
Sometimes I think I should walk out the door but my love for you is too strong.
I just don't feel as if I belong. 2003 - 2006
That's Life.
In life everyone, I makes mistakes.
Promises that I make self I break, I carry on making mistakes.
That's what we are all like as a human race, that's very often the case.
Sometimes it's too late to mend the mistake, never ,end what's already broken.
Mistakes are the main things in life that the human race hates to face.
Sometimes we can be lucky to find with some mistakes it's never too late to try to make something again but it is because the same things happens again. 2003 - 2006
What's a matter with you?
You look at me.
I look at you.
I tried to think what to do because I know you don't know what you want to do.
The problem is that I love you but you are acting as if you don't love me.
Yes, it's true no matter what I say, and do you seem so blue, you are making me feel that way too.
Follow you, heart, then you may know what you want in life.
No more tears, fear, and everything will be clear.
You will find your mind, you are always on my mind.
I love you,
do you love me.
Our love is meant to be.
You don't very often anymore give me a hug.
What's wrong with our love?
People must think I am mad loving you after what you put me through.
How many times do I have to say I love you.
Why don't you tell me how you feel?
Why look so blue?
Over the years I have traveled to see you whatever the weather to be with you.
Rain, hail, wind, sun, and snow I love to see you.
If you love me show love. 2003 - 2006
Is life that bad?
Do you feel sad when it rains on the window pane?
On rainy days do you see me sad?
Does it make you sad?
When the clouds are black and gray that is a rainy day.
When the sky is blue, it's a yellow sunny day we should be in a happy way but we may well be sad inside ourselves.
Now that I have heard what goes through your head now listen to what goes through my head.
You never go away, I never stop thinking about you.
The way you were makes me feel happy, the way you now make me feel sad. 1.6.2004
Cheer up.
When I see you tomorrow I will follow.
The man who spend his long life with his wife,
in the end he killed with a knife because was a nightmare of his life.
He paid a big price when he killed his long lasting wife. 2003 -2006
Sound.
I can hear the sound of music in my flat.
It's the sound of Queen Freddie Mercury has such a great voice.
Other than the sound of music I can hear silence. 2003 - 2006
Dripping tap.
A dripping tap can get you down if it drips too much.
All you can hear is drip drop.
If the drip drops long enough, water can cost too much, turn the tap off. 2003 -2006
How do you feel?
You don't seem to love me as much as you used to do.
Sometimes I wonder if you ever did love me.
What have I done so wrong to you?
Sometimes I think I should walk out the door but my love for you is too strong.
I just don't feel as if I belong. 2003 - 2006
That's Life.
In life everyone, I makes mistakes.
Promises that I make self I break, I carry on making mistakes.
That's what we are all like as a human race, that's very often the case.
Sometimes it's too late to mend the mistake, never ,end what's already broken.
Mistakes are the main things in life that the human race hates to face.
Sometimes we can be lucky to find with some mistakes it's never too late to try to make something again but it is because the same things happens again. 2003 - 2006
What's a matter with you?
You look at me.
I look at you.
I tried to think what to do because I know you don't know what you want to do.
The problem is that I love you but you are acting as if you don't love me.
Yes, it's true no matter what I say, and do you seem so blue, you are making me feel that way too.
Follow you, heart, then you may know what you want in life.
No more tears, fear, and everything will be clear.
You will find your mind, you are always on my mind.
I love you,
do you love me.
Our love is meant to be.
You don't very often anymore give me a hug.
What's wrong with our love?
People must think I am mad loving you after what you put me through.
How many times do I have to say I love you.
Why don't you tell me how you feel?
Why look so blue?
Over the years I have traveled to see you whatever the weather to be with you.
Rain, hail, wind, sun, and snow I love to see you.
If you love me show love. 2003 - 2006
Is life that bad?
Do you feel sad when it rains on the window pane?
On rainy days do you see me sad?
Does it make you sad?
When the clouds are black and gray that is a rainy day.
When the sky is blue, it's a yellow sunny day we should be in a happy way but we may well be sad inside ourselves.
Now that I have heard what goes through your head now listen to what goes through my head.
You never go away, I never stop thinking about you.
The way you were makes me feel happy, the way you now make me feel sad. 1.6.2004
Cheer up.
Let's go out together under the shade today.
Let's talk it through.
Let's be ourselves and do what we want.
Now tell me what is really going on.
Tell me what is going to happen between us.
I love you from the bottom of my heart I hope we will never part.
The sun is shining in the sky to give us romance.
Give me passion, and desire and set me on fire. 2003 - 2006
Starting again.
I love you and need you.
I just hope you still feel the same way.
I want to know that it lasts between us, I am fed up of making mistakes.
Let's learn from what we did wrong in the past.
Let's not rush into it so fast.
Forget the past.
Move on to the future.
Let's stop wasting time!
It's time to make up our minds.
If you don't know your own mind at thirty - five you may not have much time.
We must learn to be one and two of the kind. 2003 - 2006.
It was me.
Let's talk it through.
Let's be ourselves and do what we want.
Now tell me what is really going on.
Tell me what is going to happen between us.
I love you from the bottom of my heart I hope we will never part.
The sun is shining in the sky to give us romance.
Give me passion, and desire and set me on fire. 2003 - 2006
Starting again.
I love you and need you.
I just hope you still feel the same way.
I want to know that it lasts between us, I am fed up of making mistakes.
Let's learn from what we did wrong in the past.
Let's not rush into it so fast.
Forget the past.
Move on to the future.
Let's stop wasting time!
It's time to make up our minds.
If you don't know your own mind at thirty - five you may not have much time.
We must learn to be one and two of the kind. 2003 - 2006.
It was me.
I looked alright but I did not feel alright.
I have always had the parts of my body I need.
My mind was blank all through childhood due heavy dose of tablets.
I could not cope with my school work but I coped with my college work better.
School teachers thought I was lazy.
I was also bullied.
When I got home at night, I felt school was a waste of time.
It seemed as If I was never liked in school.
Everything I said and done was wrong, I felt as if I could not please anyone not even myself. 2000 onwards.
Think about.
Think about the good and bad in this world.
Drugs bring shame to this world, which causes people to create crimes.
The greatest thing in the world is love that brings the best to us all.
Love can support one another through the bad times in life.
Love is not just through a partner but family and friends but in different ways.
You can't have good news all the while but there's too much bad news in the world today.
Why do we moan?
What do we moan about?
Do we stop to think about that there are always a lot of people worse off than ourselves?
The kind of people who have nothing to wear, eat, and nowhere to sleep.
Why are we sad when we know we have families, friends, and homes?
Why are the worse-off people happier than us? 30.12.2003
Anger.
There's nothing more than helping you get your feelings out, even though anger is not nice.
It does not do for you to bottle things inside yourself.
Now over the years, I have accepted the skills I can't manage the anger gets less and less.
It's upsetting when you can't cope with things.
You feel as if no one understands you, I am not sure whether people understand me now.
I don't think I will ever understand myself, I don't think I ever will.
That's why you are a child with a broken heart. 2000 onwards
How hard it is to care about people who find it hard to care about themselves.
Don't people understand?
It's hard to care about people when you have problems caring for yourself.
When deep down you care about people but it's hard to show.
One day you will show those feelings.
I am still working on myself slowly.
I can show care a lot better than I used to.
What do we do right and wrong?
Do we really understand what's right and wrong? 30.12.2003
I have always had the parts of my body I need.
My mind was blank all through childhood due heavy dose of tablets.
I could not cope with my school work but I coped with my college work better.
School teachers thought I was lazy.
I was also bullied.
When I got home at night, I felt school was a waste of time.
It seemed as If I was never liked in school.
Everything I said and done was wrong, I felt as if I could not please anyone not even myself. 2000 onwards.
Think about.
Think about the good and bad in this world.
Drugs bring shame to this world, which causes people to create crimes.
The greatest thing in the world is love that brings the best to us all.
Love can support one another through the bad times in life.
Love is not just through a partner but family and friends but in different ways.
You can't have good news all the while but there's too much bad news in the world today.
Why do we moan?
What do we moan about?
Do we stop to think about that there are always a lot of people worse off than ourselves?
The kind of people who have nothing to wear, eat, and nowhere to sleep.
Why are we sad when we know we have families, friends, and homes?
Why are the worse-off people happier than us? 30.12.2003
Anger.
There's nothing more than helping you get your feelings out, even though anger is not nice.
It does not do for you to bottle things inside yourself.
Now over the years, I have accepted the skills I can't manage the anger gets less and less.
It's upsetting when you can't cope with things.
You feel as if no one understands you, I am not sure whether people understand me now.
I don't think I will ever understand myself, I don't think I ever will.
That's why you are a child with a broken heart. 2000 onwards
How hard it is to care about people who find it hard to care about themselves.
Don't people understand?
It's hard to care about people when you have problems caring for yourself.
When deep down you care about people but it's hard to show.
One day you will show those feelings.
I am still working on myself slowly.
I can show care a lot better than I used to.
What do we do right and wrong?
Do we really understand what's right and wrong? 30.12.2003
Animals are loving to us.
Not everyone is kind to animals like most people are.
If you hurt them or you are strange to them they may hurt you.
Some people can not be like you and me.
That's their problem, not ours. 30.12.2003
You are misunderstood.
You are misunderstood because people don't understand you as a person with a disability.
A lot of people don't understand themselves even but we understand how they work.
We understand that they are trying to block us out.
We are too slow and we are too much hard work to teach in the eyes of society. 30.12.2003
Not everyone is kind to animals like most people are.
If you hurt them or you are strange to them they may hurt you.
Some people can not be like you and me.
That's their problem, not ours. 30.12.2003
You are misunderstood.
You are misunderstood because people don't understand you as a person with a disability.
A lot of people don't understand themselves even but we understand how they work.
We understand that they are trying to block us out.
We are too slow and we are too much hard work to teach in the eyes of society. 30.12.2003
How you left us.
You all battled for your country.
You lost your life to save disabled people.
You and many others lost your lives to save us all.
Without you guys, we would not have had a future but then you all should have had a future too.
Thank you all. 1.6.2004
I love you.
I hope you like flowers.
Trying to cry is hard but then you may not want me to cry.
If I cry, it will be hard to control because my tears won't stop.
I will always love you, you will be in my thoughts and dreams but with no memories. 1.6.2004
You all battled for your country.
You lost your life to save disabled people.
You and many others lost your lives to save us all.
Without you guys, we would not have had a future but then you all should have had a future too.
Thank you all. 1.6.2004
I love you.
I hope you like flowers.
Trying to cry is hard but then you may not want me to cry.
If I cry, it will be hard to control because my tears won't stop.
I will always love you, you will be in my thoughts and dreams but with no memories. 1.6.2004
Love can be dangerous.
What kind of person am I?
Do you like the person I am?
Is it fair to say I love the two of you?
Oh, love can be so dangerous I don't know what to do.
I don't want to be dangerous I just want to love one of you.
I find it hard to win because I don't want to hurt any of you.
Whatever I do I feel as if I am hurting someone.
What does it matter chose one or no one at all?
Be friends with the others.
My feelings are hard to control and I am knocking my head on brick walls.
Oh, love can be a dangerous game to play.
I am not the woman I used to be or the woman I would like to be.
I intend to be faithful that's why I can't cope when I have strong feelings for two people.
I never thought my feelings would make life so hard.
I hate putting myself in the wrong when life puts me in a hard spot.
Love can be a dangerous game to play.
I either have too much choice or no choice at all.
It's a good job I only have the choice of two of you but that's hard enough to make that choice. 1.6.2004
What kind of person am I?
Do you like the person I am?
Is it fair to say I love the two of you?
Oh, love can be so dangerous I don't know what to do.
I don't want to be dangerous I just want to love one of you.
I find it hard to win because I don't want to hurt any of you.
Whatever I do I feel as if I am hurting someone.
What does it matter chose one or no one at all?
Be friends with the others.
My feelings are hard to control and I am knocking my head on brick walls.
Oh, love can be a dangerous game to play.
I am not the woman I used to be or the woman I would like to be.
I intend to be faithful that's why I can't cope when I have strong feelings for two people.
I never thought my feelings would make life so hard.
I hate putting myself in the wrong when life puts me in a hard spot.
Love can be a dangerous game to play.
I either have too much choice or no choice at all.
It's a good job I only have the choice of two of you but that's hard enough to make that choice. 1.6.2004
My worse nightmare.
Where were you when my life started?
You left me with my family, without them where would I be?
Nowhere.
You left me out in the cold to find out by my Mother about you.
It was hard at the age of five to understand why my father was not with me.
I had to get used to knowing that.
Asking my family and myself questions in my mind.
You just went off without a care in the world.
Why didn't you find me, why did I have to find you?
I always contact you, you very rarely contact me.
What are you scared of?
The things we could have done together have been lost, it's no good turning back the clock.
It's no good remarking on every boyfriend I have when you cause hurt yourself.
Maybe it's because you have never been able to cope with my disability.
Maybe that's not true because you have two children in care already.
It's almost as if you have no feelings or any understanding of how children feel from .2000 onwards
Where were you when my life started?
You left me with my family, without them where would I be?
Nowhere.
You left me out in the cold to find out by my Mother about you.
It was hard at the age of five to understand why my father was not with me.
I had to get used to knowing that.
Asking my family and myself questions in my mind.
You just went off without a care in the world.
Why didn't you find me, why did I have to find you?
I always contact you, you very rarely contact me.
What are you scared of?
The things we could have done together have been lost, it's no good turning back the clock.
It's no good remarking on every boyfriend I have when you cause hurt yourself.
Maybe it's because you have never been able to cope with my disability.
Maybe that's not true because you have two children in care already.
It's almost as if you have no feelings or any understanding of how children feel from .2000 onwards
When I am with you.
When I am with you, it all seems so true.
When I am without you I feel blue.
If only you knew how much I love you, I have told you enough times.
Please tell me why you lied?
I would sooner die.
When I look into your eyes, you give me so much pride.
Hay, please don't make me cry with all your lies.2000
What is our future life?
I know something is on your mind.
You keep trying to avoid me, why?
Is there something I should know?
Should me your pride!
Please don't tell me lies.
Please tell me what's on your mind?
Most of the time you can be very kind.
Without you in my life, time will be slow.
In the future, I wonder what I will find.
I'd very much like to be your bride but in plenty of time. 2000
When I am with you, it all seems so true.
When I am without you I feel blue.
If only you knew how much I love you, I have told you enough times.
Please tell me why you lied?
I would sooner die.
When I look into your eyes, you give me so much pride.
Hay, please don't make me cry with all your lies.2000
What is our future life?
I know something is on your mind.
You keep trying to avoid me, why?
Is there something I should know?
Should me your pride!
Please don't tell me lies.
Please tell me what's on your mind?
Most of the time you can be very kind.
Without you in my life, time will be slow.
In the future, I wonder what I will find.
I'd very much like to be your bride but in plenty of time. 2000
remember when our love ended.
You couldn't make up your mind what you wanted.
You drove me mad all the time.
I told you, you could have her because I know you did not want to stay with me.
I may be sad and blue but I still love you.
Good, bad, happy, and sad.
For some reason, I must be so mad. 2001 onwards
I love you but you hurt me so.
Every day for four years, it all seemed dull and dark.
I found it so hard to move on.
I cried my eyes out when you left me.
I remember the day you met me.
I hope you won't leave me, anyone, if you do I am out the door.
I won't ever come back anymore.
So don't give me a call.
I'll miss you again but I will have to stop myself from getting hurt.
I hope one day I will meet someone who loves me for me and doesn't hurt me. 2001 onwards.
You couldn't make up your mind what you wanted.
You drove me mad all the time.
I told you, you could have her because I know you did not want to stay with me.
I may be sad and blue but I still love you.
Good, bad, happy, and sad.
For some reason, I must be so mad. 2001 onwards
I love you but you hurt me so.
Every day for four years, it all seemed dull and dark.
I found it so hard to move on.
I cried my eyes out when you left me.
I remember the day you met me.
I hope you won't leave me, anyone, if you do I am out the door.
I won't ever come back anymore.
So don't give me a call.
I'll miss you again but I will have to stop myself from getting hurt.
I hope one day I will meet someone who loves me for me and doesn't hurt me. 2001 onwards.
Heat.
Please remain that old flame.
Please don't give me the main blame.
Now the cards have been laid on the table, our love has failed.2000
School days.
There was a child, who always got the blame and the cane.
Every time he walked down the bus lanes.
Years later he become tame, though the number of times he had been caned. 2000 onwards
It's time.
It's time to make up my mind.
It's time to live my life to make up my time.
It's time to empty my mind.
I am yours and you are mine.
Now let's have a great time.
Time to go away, I will be back in a few days. 2000 onwards
Please remain that old flame.
Please don't give me the main blame.
Now the cards have been laid on the table, our love has failed.2000
School days.
There was a child, who always got the blame and the cane.
Every time he walked down the bus lanes.
Years later he become tame, though the number of times he had been caned. 2000 onwards
It's time.
It's time to make up my mind.
It's time to live my life to make up my time.
It's time to empty my mind.
I am yours and you are mine.
Now let's have a great time.
Time to go away, I will be back in a few days. 2000 onwards
You will always find.
I think about you all the time.
You are always on my mind.
Every single time.
This a long song
bong bong.
Our love is with us here forever my dear.2000 onwards.
You were there, you'd gone, now you have come back.
We were far too young, we fell in love far too young.
We looked at each other and we knew it was love.
Two and a year was long for me to feel as if I belonged to you.
Four years of sadness and falling in love with someone who I did not even love.
We need to act like adults instead of children.
The door was closed for so long, that we never thought the door would open again.
We never thought we'd let one another in again.
We suddenly knew that we had loved one another too long to let go of one another. 26.5.2002
I think about you all the time.
You are always on my mind.
Every single time.
This a long song
bong bong.
Our love is with us here forever my dear.2000 onwards.
You were there, you'd gone, now you have come back.
We were far too young, we fell in love far too young.
We looked at each other and we knew it was love.
Two and a year was long for me to feel as if I belonged to you.
Four years of sadness and falling in love with someone who I did not even love.
We need to act like adults instead of children.
The door was closed for so long, that we never thought the door would open again.
We never thought we'd let one another in again.
We suddenly knew that we had loved one another too long to let go of one another. 26.5.2002
I never felt the same without you.
Walking around the town getting bored out of my head.
I used to think to go to pubs getting drunk out my head, I could not even stand on my own two feet I was that drunk, you broke my heart so much.
I told your Mum that I would have stopped coming down, it was hard facing you in the same room knowing that you did not love me anymore and that you were with her.
your Mum told me to take no notice of you even though you were biting my head off. I could not stand it anymore.
If it had not been for your Mum telling me not to stop coming you won't have seen me again let alone get back together.
As much as I like your Mum, has her advice made me a stronger person or not?
I know she likes me but I know we are always going to be on and off until things go bang!
Your Mum told me not to let you get to me, even though you were biting my head off.
At the time I was going out of my mind I could not stand to be alive.
I think I had a very bad breakdown, you have gone off with her and hurt me so much.
I must be mad to have you back but I love you so much.
I should not go back to you really but I love you too much not to.
Slowly I knew you will hurt me and break my heart again.
Walking around the town getting bored out of my head.
I used to think to go to pubs getting drunk out my head, I could not even stand on my own two feet I was that drunk, you broke my heart so much.
I told your Mum that I would have stopped coming down, it was hard facing you in the same room knowing that you did not love me anymore and that you were with her.
your Mum told me to take no notice of you even though you were biting my head off. I could not stand it anymore.
If it had not been for your Mum telling me not to stop coming you won't have seen me again let alone get back together.
As much as I like your Mum, has her advice made me a stronger person or not?
I know she likes me but I know we are always going to be on and off until things go bang!
Your Mum told me not to let you get to me, even though you were biting my head off.
At the time I was going out of my mind I could not stand to be alive.
I think I had a very bad breakdown, you have gone off with her and hurt me so much.
I must be mad to have you back but I love you so much.
I should not go back to you really but I love you too much not to.
Slowly I knew you will hurt me and break my heart again.
I and your family tried to tell you, that going with her was a big mistake but you knew it all, you would not listen.
When you saw me, you had no interest in me whatsoever.
When I walked out of your Mum's door I felt so small.
Now you love me again, I hope the pain has gone forever and for good.
Keep hold of me, there may come a day I may not love you anymore, I may not feel the same towards you as I do now, it's only love that has bought me back to you!
What goes around comes around, I treat you like you treat me. 26.5.2002
Stronger love.
I can trust that you won't hurt me again.
Our love is stronger whatever goes on.
I don't enjoy having epilepsy, it makes it hard for me to lead my life but I manage somehow.
I don't let my condition put a hold on my life.
My condition may have bought us close together but then I hope it does not slit us apart.
I don't want to lose you again.
At the end of the day, we always get on great.
When you saw me, you had no interest in me whatsoever.
When I walked out of your Mum's door I felt so small.
Now you love me again, I hope the pain has gone forever and for good.
Keep hold of me, there may come a day I may not love you anymore, I may not feel the same towards you as I do now, it's only love that has bought me back to you!
What goes around comes around, I treat you like you treat me. 26.5.2002
Stronger love.
I can trust that you won't hurt me again.
Our love is stronger whatever goes on.
I don't enjoy having epilepsy, it makes it hard for me to lead my life but I manage somehow.
I don't let my condition put a hold on my life.
My condition may have bought us close together but then I hope it does not slit us apart.
I don't want to lose you again.
At the end of the day, we always get on great.
You are my best friend as well as my lover.
My darling let's work hard at this after we have both been through it already.
We will get through the good and bad together.26.5.2002
How lucky am I?
No dirty nappies to change.
No feeding, no bathing, no dressing, and putting to sleep.
No getting up in the night when they need looking after and when they are ill.
No having to put up with screaming and playing up.
No checking teenagers.
No being a Granny before my time.
It's such an unkind word to bring children.
You can love children without doing everything for them.
We were all children once that's what can be scary when you get a flash of yourself from the past when you were younger age.
I fear seeing myself in the mirror again when I was 8 yrs ago me in another person.
It seems wrong that you can't teach them right from wrong like we were taught as children.
It does not mean that I don't like children, it's nice to love them without the stress. 2000 onwards
My darling let's work hard at this after we have both been through it already.
We will get through the good and bad together.26.5.2002
How lucky am I?
No dirty nappies to change.
No feeding, no bathing, no dressing, and putting to sleep.
No getting up in the night when they need looking after and when they are ill.
No having to put up with screaming and playing up.
No checking teenagers.
No being a Granny before my time.
It's such an unkind word to bring children.
You can love children without doing everything for them.
We were all children once that's what can be scary when you get a flash of yourself from the past when you were younger age.
I fear seeing myself in the mirror again when I was 8 yrs ago me in another person.
It seems wrong that you can't teach them right from wrong like we were taught as children.
It does not mean that I don't like children, it's nice to love them without the stress. 2000 onwards
I felt like ending my life.
When you left me, I felt like ending my life.
I could not see my future life.
Apart from my family, I felt I had nothing to live for.
Most people make out they were friends but they were not in the end.
Friendship was all I needed after I lost you.
I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel.
No idea of the future and dreams, it was as if I had nothing to look forward to.
I could not see any happiness at all.
My mind seemed and blank and the world seemed black.
I never thought I'd be strong enough to stand anymore. 26.5.2002
Bonfire night.
Weeks before bonfire night, you hear the fireworks keep going off all night, it gives us such a fright.
The good thing about it is that they give nights plenty of light.
People practicing before bonfire night.
The flashing lights are so bright for your eyes. 26.5.2002
When you left me, I felt like ending my life.
I could not see my future life.
Apart from my family, I felt I had nothing to live for.
Most people make out they were friends but they were not in the end.
Friendship was all I needed after I lost you.
I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel.
No idea of the future and dreams, it was as if I had nothing to look forward to.
I could not see any happiness at all.
My mind seemed and blank and the world seemed black.
I never thought I'd be strong enough to stand anymore. 26.5.2002
Bonfire night.
Weeks before bonfire night, you hear the fireworks keep going off all night, it gives us such a fright.
The good thing about it is that they give nights plenty of light.
People practicing before bonfire night.
The flashing lights are so bright for your eyes. 26.5.2002
Verse
(How selfish life can be?) Christmas is a waste of money but the main thing is keeping the children happy.
I wish I could be this fare away.
I want to led my own life.
I know I was once a child who was naughty who grow into an adult who had to learn right from wrong.
Now you can't take the law.
Teaching your child to be good but your taking the law into your own hands which is wrong when you just want your children to grow up into nice adult.
I am disabled, I would not be able to cope kids anyway, I don't would want to with many of them these day they are too scary. 26.5.2002
The young.
Walking around day and night.
They don't have to do anything.
Food and drink is very hard to buy these days.
Kids either very little food and drink or too much.
The education is not as good as it you used to be or kids learn things they should not know.
As adults it can be too late for them to learn right from wrong.
They end up begging people for food, drink and drugs.
Some people are on the streets because they have stressed their families out too.
Others have been turned away from their families for no reason, it's hard to know the truth is.
Some people there through lack of attention just for the sake of begging off people.
Some people try to make people feel sorry for them.
The backgrounds of these people are hard to know the truth of.
People don't know whether to help or not. 29.5.2002
Dull, bright.
I woke up in the morning, it was a very dull day.
Nothing seemed to have gone my way.
Trying to smile was a work of art.
The future seemed blank.
What's up with me?
I have healed from my broken heart, and now I am glad to see you back again.
I became brave and strong without you: I am still brave enough to love you again.
One minute the weather was hot then it was cold, it just went from dull to bright and bright to dull.
Since you have come back into my life, I am so in love with you.
I can't eat and sleep.
Tossing and turning in bed with happiness.
When I lost you I went through crying and sadness.
If you promise not to hurt me again, you will be more than special to me throughout our life. 26.5.2002
I thought you had gone for good.
I thought about you all the time as tears came down my eyes.
I missed the man who made me laugh with his brown eyes and cheeky face.
You have got such lovely ways.
The pain you gave me cut me into like a knife going through me when you were not with me.
In time I had to get on with my life, I would have stopped alone not excepting you to come back.
I was not going to come back or wait for you otherwise I could have been waiting forever or never.
When I looked at you again, I knew I knew you too well.
I looked at that cheeky face.
I could not help but love you.
No matter how much you hurt me, I found it hard to hate you.
It seemed so long I thought you would come back.
I was more than surprised that you did. 26.5.2002
Mother and child.
I was an older child born to a mother so young.
She was too young to know about having a baby.
We both learned from one another.
My life started as a baby like all babies. 25.4.2002
Princess Die.
Die you were too young to die.
You were the people's friend until the end, in our eyes you still are and always will be.
You helped children so much.
You loved your children William and Harry.
Why did Charles hurt you so much?
You were one in a million as a person and the reward for the work you had done.
Society so did not know who it lost until it lost you.
I can take or leave royally but I don't understand why most people hated you so much.
Naturally, your sons loved you so much.
Your death must have left them with so much sadness.
You must be very much missed by them with the love of your sons. 26.5.2002
Why did we lose princess Die so young?
Why did Die and her boyfriend die so young?
It was so hurtful to think that the press was making their lives hell, I think the stress from the press caused both their deaths.
Dies new lover must have been better than Charles, he may have made her happier than Charles did, we would have never of known.
Now she will always be in rest and peace with the man she loved. 26.5.2002
Losing track of time.
When I last looked at the clock it was 11am.
Now I am writing poetry it's 1.05pm.
This is how time goes too fast.
If you are not doing anything time drags on. 26.5.2002
True love.
To love you too long and too strong.
To be apart for so long and not know why.
To not live with each other forever. 25.4.2002
To my lover and my best friend.
To love each other for each other.
To take things slowly.
To look at each other and know it's right. 25.4.2002
love verse.
To be happy together.
To go hot and cold.
To know that love is not a bed of roses.
To be able to talk to one another easily.
To keep things private between one another.
Talk about it if or and when you are ready to.
To have a very special bond together.
Not to care what people say.
No one can take it away from you other than yourselves.
Not to let people's points of view get in your way. 25.4.2002
Losing you.
When I lost you, it was hard to accept.
It took so long to get over you.
In time I accepted that there was no anymore me and you.
It took time to forget what happened.
To dwell and be alone thinking that you'd be the last man I'd have in my life.
In time you were history so I did move on.
I just took you how I saw and heard you.
Now you have become mine all over again, happy for how long? 25.4.2002
I loved you for far too long.
Our love is far long and too strong to let go of one another.
I have got to know you far too well.
When you broke my heart the pain hurt too hard to talk about.
I treasured the happy memories of having spent happy times together.
Now you are making me more happy than you did before.
I used to put on a brave face to show the world I was strong enough to be without you.26.4.2002
Life without you.
After having been apart from you so long.
I missed you so much and I have known you far too long to carry on being apart from you.
When I look at you very close, I know that I had been hiding my love for you so long. 26.4.2002
The weather.
Wet, windy, and stormy, this is so unfair until the mouth of May.
It's pouring down with rain.
Where is the sunshine again? 26.5.2002
Miss you.
I Miss you so much.
I keep on looking at the phone.
I am waiting to talk to you so much.
I keep waiting to see you so much.
Do you feel the same way?
I can't help but think I am letting you down, I don't mean that's only because I am not seeing you.
I can't stay at home alone because of my fits.
I do have not enough money to give me a life of my own.
I only wish I had enough money for a long night out at least once a week.
Just give me time to sort my life out, then I will stop going his.
If you can't live with this I will understand.
Love you so much,. 11.5.2008
(How selfish life can be?) Christmas is a waste of money but the main thing is keeping the children happy.
I wish I could be this fare away.
I want to led my own life.
I know I was once a child who was naughty who grow into an adult who had to learn right from wrong.
Now you can't take the law.
Teaching your child to be good but your taking the law into your own hands which is wrong when you just want your children to grow up into nice adult.
I am disabled, I would not be able to cope kids anyway, I don't would want to with many of them these day they are too scary. 26.5.2002
The young.
Walking around day and night.
They don't have to do anything.
Food and drink is very hard to buy these days.
Kids either very little food and drink or too much.
The education is not as good as it you used to be or kids learn things they should not know.
As adults it can be too late for them to learn right from wrong.
They end up begging people for food, drink and drugs.
Some people are on the streets because they have stressed their families out too.
Others have been turned away from their families for no reason, it's hard to know the truth is.
Some people there through lack of attention just for the sake of begging off people.
Some people try to make people feel sorry for them.
The backgrounds of these people are hard to know the truth of.
People don't know whether to help or not. 29.5.2002
Dull, bright.
I woke up in the morning, it was a very dull day.
Nothing seemed to have gone my way.
Trying to smile was a work of art.
The future seemed blank.
What's up with me?
I have healed from my broken heart, and now I am glad to see you back again.
I became brave and strong without you: I am still brave enough to love you again.
One minute the weather was hot then it was cold, it just went from dull to bright and bright to dull.
Since you have come back into my life, I am so in love with you.
I can't eat and sleep.
Tossing and turning in bed with happiness.
When I lost you I went through crying and sadness.
If you promise not to hurt me again, you will be more than special to me throughout our life. 26.5.2002
I thought you had gone for good.
I thought about you all the time as tears came down my eyes.
I missed the man who made me laugh with his brown eyes and cheeky face.
You have got such lovely ways.
The pain you gave me cut me into like a knife going through me when you were not with me.
In time I had to get on with my life, I would have stopped alone not excepting you to come back.
I was not going to come back or wait for you otherwise I could have been waiting forever or never.
When I looked at you again, I knew I knew you too well.
I looked at that cheeky face.
I could not help but love you.
No matter how much you hurt me, I found it hard to hate you.
It seemed so long I thought you would come back.
I was more than surprised that you did. 26.5.2002
Mother and child.
I was an older child born to a mother so young.
She was too young to know about having a baby.
We both learned from one another.
My life started as a baby like all babies. 25.4.2002
Princess Die.
Die you were too young to die.
You were the people's friend until the end, in our eyes you still are and always will be.
You helped children so much.
You loved your children William and Harry.
Why did Charles hurt you so much?
You were one in a million as a person and the reward for the work you had done.
Society so did not know who it lost until it lost you.
I can take or leave royally but I don't understand why most people hated you so much.
Naturally, your sons loved you so much.
Your death must have left them with so much sadness.
You must be very much missed by them with the love of your sons. 26.5.2002
Why did we lose princess Die so young?
Why did Die and her boyfriend die so young?
It was so hurtful to think that the press was making their lives hell, I think the stress from the press caused both their deaths.
Dies new lover must have been better than Charles, he may have made her happier than Charles did, we would have never of known.
Now she will always be in rest and peace with the man she loved. 26.5.2002
Losing track of time.
When I last looked at the clock it was 11am.
Now I am writing poetry it's 1.05pm.
This is how time goes too fast.
If you are not doing anything time drags on. 26.5.2002
True love.
To love you too long and too strong.
To be apart for so long and not know why.
To not live with each other forever. 25.4.2002
To my lover and my best friend.
To love each other for each other.
To take things slowly.
To look at each other and know it's right. 25.4.2002
love verse.
To be happy together.
To go hot and cold.
To know that love is not a bed of roses.
To be able to talk to one another easily.
To keep things private between one another.
Talk about it if or and when you are ready to.
To have a very special bond together.
Not to care what people say.
No one can take it away from you other than yourselves.
Not to let people's points of view get in your way. 25.4.2002
Losing you.
When I lost you, it was hard to accept.
It took so long to get over you.
In time I accepted that there was no anymore me and you.
It took time to forget what happened.
To dwell and be alone thinking that you'd be the last man I'd have in my life.
In time you were history so I did move on.
I just took you how I saw and heard you.
Now you have become mine all over again, happy for how long? 25.4.2002
I loved you for far too long.
Our love is far long and too strong to let go of one another.
I have got to know you far too well.
When you broke my heart the pain hurt too hard to talk about.
I treasured the happy memories of having spent happy times together.
Now you are making me more happy than you did before.
I used to put on a brave face to show the world I was strong enough to be without you.26.4.2002
Life without you.
After having been apart from you so long.
I missed you so much and I have known you far too long to carry on being apart from you.
When I look at you very close, I know that I had been hiding my love for you so long. 26.4.2002
The weather.
Wet, windy, and stormy, this is so unfair until the mouth of May.
It's pouring down with rain.
Where is the sunshine again? 26.5.2002
Miss you.
I Miss you so much.
I keep on looking at the phone.
I am waiting to talk to you so much.
I keep waiting to see you so much.
Do you feel the same way?
I can't help but think I am letting you down, I don't mean that's only because I am not seeing you.
I can't stay at home alone because of my fits.
I do have not enough money to give me a life of my own.
I only wish I had enough money for a long night out at least once a week.
Just give me time to sort my life out, then I will stop going his.
If you can't live with this I will understand.
Love you so much,. 11.5.2008
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