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Poems I am unsure whether or not I have typed.

I guess you are all confused what I am writing about a lot of my poems are about all different experiences my life not only in mine but other peoples as well plus things I have watched, listened to and read.

Guilt and regret.

I will just prepare myself for the worst.
I only have myself to blame.
From now I will leave you alone.
I will never forget the love I loved.
I will forget the love I hurt and lost.
No matter what happens now I will never love a love like you.
Where I will end up next is unknown but I will never forget.
Thank you for giving me the love you gave me.
You may disbelieve me but I may have misunderstood.
Only my loss not yours.
How did you really feel about me?
I guess you didn't love me as strong as I love you.
It's natural not to believe how our love ended.
I must have been a coward to walk away because one person in a crowd.
May be I have gone the wrong of letting you know how I feel.
I shouldn't have turned up, I shouldn't have said a word. 16. 5.2012

There's no going back.

I love you so I will leave you alone.
I will let you go where you want to go.
I know there's no looking back on what has been done even though how I felt still stands.
May be you will never read this poem and good job you won't hear me begging like a dog.
My guess is that my regret stays with me forever.
Time to move on but where I don't know.
I guess this is the end of our love that was.
How I feel doesn't matter because I am in the wrong.
How you feel is more important sorry you had to be victim of my love, I shouldn't have taken out on you what I have been through myself.
I never meant to hurt you if only I knew what was going to happen, if only I knew what was going through your mind.
If only I could be with you again but it's no good trying to mend what has been broken.
The way I hurt you I really believe it's over, I don't I will ever hurt anyone the way I hurt you but I also don't believe ever love anyone like I love you. 16.5.2012


Don't worry.

Don't worry I will stay out you way.
Drink myself to death writing poetry.
May be I can shown my love to you but I will show it in poetry.
The world is too much to bear, I must be on my way to the next world without any regrets and mistakes to make.
It feels like everything I touch I break, now I will say good bye to the world, which I will never come back.
I find it hard to believe I will be happy again, I can't remember when.
This isn't down to you but it is for to me. 16.5.2012

If only.

If only I could love you without upsetting, now I blown everything we had together.
Nevertheless you are still special to me, yes I know I only have myself to blame.
I believe without poetry I wouldn't get by without you.
Whatever the future brings I will never forget you.
I will never forgive myself for letting one person upset our love.
Whether you know this or not my love for you is still sercert, even though it won't happen anymore.
You will never know my feelings but for what I did wrong you wouldn't believe my feeling still stand the same as when I first got with you. 18.5.2012


 Even though you have gone.

Even though you have gone my love is still there for you.
If you don't know how I feel I can't be disappointed.
I can't blame for hating me with what happened.
I won't text or phone you, I won't see you anymore but I will always think about you.
I will let you go because I love you so much and I don't want to make life harder for you than I already have done.
I will make a life for myself and somehow you won't be forgotten. 18.5.2012

You gave me happiness.

You gave me happiness and light in my life until you brighten my night.
Time seemed to last forever yet not long enough before I knew it I saw heaven.
Sorry I blew you away like the wind without even thinking about.
The love bet-ween us gets quieter and quieter.
Even the sun is dull without you with tears feeling like rain as they come out my eyes.
We are both looking that very special someone in our lives but that special someone to me is you, I don't want to let you slip put my fingers but then I don't want to force you to stay with me if you can't or don't want to.
Words just can't explain my regret, how much I love you, how much I miss you and how much I now find it hard to face you.
You have no idea how sorry I am, I understand that it's far too late to love you again now.  18.2.2012

Female time.

Female time is time to a female's self or and other females.
The body is changing all the time but not always the mind.
Feelings are unknown to why we feel like we do however we do.
It can be unknown to how long the feelings we have last.
How feelings affect relationships with different people, which can all vary.
Is what we say we want in life to do with how our bodies change rather than what we really want in life?
Some things may or may not be the case of getting in touch with our female side. 17.4.2014

So long ago.

It's been so long ago since I went on the beach.
Just lost interest in the world around me now.
Now I don't want to go back to dirty old England.
American seems to have less stress.
In England you spent so much time living your life to please others rather than yourself.
I need to find a way somehow to see my nephew Jadien. 17,4,2014


Art.
Coffee on the train to Manhattan New York.
Walk along the City Of York.
Line up for the cruise ship sail around the sea to see the sites on water.
The sun rises on the ship.
My love is there for New York.
My shape of a heart is art. 18.4.2014

Some old poems that may be missing.

Hard not to hope.

It's hard not to hope for what you want.
Most for what you hope for can only you pain in the end.
It's no good chasing, wishing and dreaming.
Have your own space.
Learn to know yourself.
Learn to like yourself.
Learn to love yourself.
Never give up the unexpected may happen what you never though of wanting.
Be faithful, be loyal and be true to yourself then you will have more chance of being the same to others.
Keep going, never give up even if you hard work hasn't worked out.
Don't try too hard.
Still be the same person, be yourself! 12.2.2012


So near so far.

Time so near yet so far.
Time together is so short.
Time apart is so long.
What is next is unknown.
No matter what I don't give up hope but I don't hope too much either.
Time apart may be too long but time together is to be looked forward to.
It doesn't matter how long and how short, it's better than nothing at all.
 12. 2. 2012

Forever friends.

Forever friends with love.
Never hope for much.
Here I am as long as you want me here.
I will cope with not seeing you.
I will be faithful, loyal and true to you. 12.2.2012


Love teaches me about life.

Mistakes have been made not only in love but in life.
It's hard not to get too close and not too hope for too much.
People who we thought who loved us have let us down, therefore that's no love at all.
In time we learn to be ourselves.
Not to give up but live our own lives.
Not to spend so many years living someone else's life.
No one should except you to live someone else's life.
Love can be hard to control when you feel it towards someone.
You try your best to never make the same mistake again. 12.2.2012

Time without you.

Even when the sun shines it's dull until I see you.
When I see you the sun shines like a light so bright even at night.
I just can't wait for that light to turn on again, life is so dark without you.
In the mean time my thoughts about you are in my mind. 12. 2. 2012


Love is.

Love is like a plant.
Love is like a flower.
Love is like a tree, well pineapple tree.
Love lasts as long as it's going to unless it's meant to be.
Never give up hope but don't hope too much because nothing is ever really promised.
Never live in fear otherwise you will fear everything, balance your thoughts. 12. 2. 2012


Time.

Time seems like forever yet it's so short.
However long or short time it's meant to be.
When the time comes you will be more than loved by me.
When I think of you time can't come slow or quick enough.
When I am about to see you my thoughts are mixed because it's unknown how our night is going to be.
Private time to together is a matter of time.
Feelings don't change no matter what the situations are. 12,2,2012

Now I can see through you.

You may not have loved me as much as I loved you.
How blind was I not to that you didn't felt same way when you told me you did?
All I can say is that I believed lies without knowing or working they were lies, which makes me feel thick that I was your vulnerable victim of love.
You may have sting me all years but not anymore.
We were both very young when we met.
I have been blind realize that your love towards me was just a lie.
Some people saw you were wrong for me others didn't.
You put your false charm to make people think you couldn't do a thing wrong as if butter wouldn't melt in your month.
The people who could work you out told me enough times you weren't right for me but I regret not listening to them.
You were very good at hiding your faults and making out to people you weren't in the wrong and I always was, little did you realize that some people were clever could work you out.
I took no notice because I thought you'd change for the better and never me again, how wrong was I, which I should have seen when you hurt me the first time round.
I was just too much love with you to walking but my strength is getting closer enough to be strong enough walk out your life completely for good and never see you again so you will never see me again.
It hurt me to start to walk away when I still loved but now I don't love anymore it's becoming easier to walk away altogether, I don't think it will be long.
Now that strong love I had for you has gone, I don't care how you feel because you didn't care how I felt when you left me for someone else, all I feel for now is anger and hate.  12.2.2012


So many things so unknown.

Not everything is certain.
There could be so may unknown sercerts you had kept from me.
Okay I can't prove anything but the way you were behavioring before and even after we slip I can't help wondering.
How strange it was with my Nan's death my mind at the time I slipped out by mistake that we were finished to find out you weren't bothered but I felt guilty at the time and I shouldn't have done because I don't feel for you now like I did then.
When I said sorry to you, you told me I couldn't go back on my word because I already said it, that hurt me at the time but I am glad we are slip now,
Rest your case, I may be wrong but I could be still blind to your love not.
The door is close on you which is good.
What could be bad is, there could much I needed know that you could be hiding from me yet proof either way, which was the same with texts.
The private calls you made and gone, I heard but said nothing about at the time.
Believing you when you wanted me back, then you told me you didn't the next day because you were drunk the night before.
Our realtionship was based on a drunk lie.
I can't believe I was so mad to love someone whose love towards me was one big lie. 12.2.2012



Unknown

I look at you knowing how I feel about you.
Not been to say certain things in-frond others is hard but that's the way it is but then no don't have a problem with it because we wouldn't everyone to know everything away.
Only you as well as me know.
The end of the night is unknown to ourselves.
I can spend private time with you.
When the time isn't there I miss you twice as much.
When the time is there we make the most of every minute we have got to spare whether it's short or long. 12 . 2 . 2012



In-between lovers and friends.

It may well be a strange friendship but it give us time to be ourselves as well as one another.
I know time apart can feel like forever but it's worth waiting for.
Nothing interferes with my love for you.
I will wait however long or short it takes to love you again.
Nothing interferes with the way I feel about you because those thoughts are in my head.
I love you and my home is private time to be.
In the mean time my feelings just come out from pen and paper about you. 12 . 2 . 2012


How time has gone by.

It only seems like yesterday since I met you three years ago.
When I saw you thoughts never crossed my mind because I was having a hard time with my ex.
I was trying to walk away from him and I was trying to start a new life.
It's unknown how long we would have lasted if you and me could have got together propley and how much time we would have spent together.
Your situation has always been alright with me because I think it's good to have time apart but your right risky at the same time.
Don't get me wrong I do miss you so much but sadly I know there's no chance of us being a proper couple as sad as it is accept it because of how strong I feel about you.
I know you will let it go one day but only for both our safety nothing to do with us personally or how we feel about one another. 12. 2. 2012

Most things you love aren't good.

Sugar and sweets are bad for your teeth.
Bad toothache, I hate the dentist who keeps poking around inside my month
Spice can give you wind and it all smells everyone out.
Time to go to loo.
I loved fried breakfast on a Saturday mid morning to afternoon after a skinful on a Friday night.
Too much of what you love isn't good for you and that includes most people too, 11.3.2012

Talk to myself.

Talk to myself in my mind with my pen on paper.
Who cares if people think I am going mad and I heard voices talking to me but voices that I write down!
The words just come out on paper any old how.
Nothing done and said can please everyone.
People are people their own world.
Some things some times are better not said.
Good or bad people think what they think.
Some things are better to be said to load off the mind.
No one can answer back other than the reader. 16. 5. 2012

Poetry is great.

Poetry is a great way of saying things without been answered back unless your a reader and or publisher.
Only published poetry isn't private thoughts but then no it can be put into art poetry, a way that isn't known as private.
Best to stay out of fame otherwise everyone knows everything about you.
Open up to talent to things that aren't private to you.
Show the world there's more to you than just you. 16.5.2012


What must you think of me?

The spoken of mind lost me everything.
May be you would rather me not be there and not say why.
Yes I know it's far too late now.
Little did I know one person could cause me so much damage in my life.
I guess you don't see me as a woman but an easy target you can knock down, pick up, blame and shame.
I took what I could take on board.
I would have waited forever if that's what it took.
Sorry I hurt the one I love.
Sorry to disappoint you and sorry you saw a different side of me.
There's no going back, I know I let you down even though I didn't mean to.
I've let myself down too.
I am not not going to lie I was in the wrong and I am angry with myself.
However' I am not going to put with who I  don't like.
You may think just because I hate him I except everyone else to, no that's not the case.
I hate for him is strong but so is my love for you.
Take no notice of me, I'm just writing the rest of my feelings down in poetry.
You think what you want to think of me.
I'm the one that's silly but feelings and emotions just can't be helped.
May be both of us see different things in different ways, which would look so different to one another in the mirror.
For every wrong I have done the mirror will break. 16.5.2012



 
 

Life is too short.

Sorry this is not a very good picture but the only picture I really have of Paul.

This young man meant a lot to me but my regret is that I found it hard to show it while I had a chance. To be honest so many things happened in his life that troubled Paul, just because he's not with us anymore that doesn't give me the right to say what was private to Paul. 

However' due to a broken down realtionship I wish I would have given myself time to get over before I started seeing Paul. Sorry if I am going off the topic but I hadn't long started seeing Paul and two people had been making up lies that I was sensitive to at the time because I was still getting over my last realtionship at that point. These two people old me that they told him something and Paul desided to end it with me, which wasn't true but then I didn't know at the time. Both of us were very young and to what they said they told I thought he was angry with me but then I found some years later they hadn't said anything to start with but they told me they had. This was rather hard for Paul at the time because he had gone through a numbers things that affected him and I believe at that time he was rather looking forward to like I was a new start together our lives. At the time he must have thought I just blanked him because remember a friend his asking me if I was interested still seeing Paul. I told his friend I was but I then didn't see Paul for long time to say what really happened.

So many years after that we gave another go to find he couldn't keep it going due to the certain things that had been troubling him in his life.

Paul was a happy go lucky kind of guy, a player due to certain troubles he went through but also he liked a good laugh. 

His death was very unknown, no one really seems to know anything about it. However' even though I didn't know his family I respect their wishes to wanting to keep is private. All someone told me that his wallet was on the floor and broad day light but where no one knows. Someone else said he may be murdered. 

As much as I have got on with other things and he was long my ex before he still means as much to me after his death as before.

Friendship poetry.

Close friends.Although our love is ended can we please be very close friends?
Even thought we have caused one another so much pain, why can't we be close friends.
The tears I have cried are very hard to explain but it's time to move on to be with the people we really love and be happy.
One must bare the pain the best way because things will never be the same again.
Why make ourselves unhappy by bringing things back how were because we won't win?
We have tried so hard to love one another as lovers it just has not worked the way we wanted it to.
My ring will be on my finger until the day I die.
Heaven will be the place I love again.
Close friends is how you and I will stay forever more. Written September 1997.


How I remember you.You used to have a heart.
I had your heart.
Now you don't have a heart anymore.
Now you don't love me anymore.
I don't think you ever will love me now. Written September 1997.

Can you and I be good friends.No matter what we have put each other through when we were lovers, why can't we be best of friends?
I still love you but as a best male friend.
I can never forget the pain we put one another through.
Life is too short to full out and carry on feeling sad, I am willing to look you in the eye and forget the past.
No matter what happened I find it hard to hate you.
Even if we broke each others' hearts, there's no hard feelings on my part.
All I want us to be is best of friends, is that far too much to ask?
Through all the time I've known you I have always loved you in anyway you wanted me to.
I was once your lover now we know that it did not work, may be we will be better off as best of friends. 27.2.1999

Friendship.We would be willing to keep private information quiet.
To us you protect us.
To the people who you knew you always protect them and even now you have the strong power of god in you.
To us you took your own life and gave us ours.
We all love you for the person we know of you so far.
We do and always will miss your friendship and love.
You can see us but we can't see you.
You can hear us but we can't hear you.
To think you were going to be twenty - one the second mouth of the first year of the 21st century. 10.2.2000

My male friend.I still love you with all my heart.
When you left me my life became hard.
My loving feelings will be here for you for life, however you feel about me.

You are my best caring male friend.
I mean every word I say my dear.
I still care and worry about you a lot.
If you don't feel the same way I will accept that.
I don't want to come bet ween your happiness.
I must carry on accepting whatever happens in the future.
I must be happy with my life.
Deep down the memory of you is not forgotten by me. 26.2.2000

My sweet male love.To my handsome sweet male love, I love you so much.
Your eyes are like stars that shine in the sky.
My heart is so full of love.
Your heart is full of passion and love.
Lay your head upon my breast, then you may sleep on my chest.
I will love you at my best. Late 20th century to early 21st century.

Friendship.

A loving friendship bet ween a man and woman not a heavy relationship at least while getting to know one another.

Companionship is a loving feeling towards a friend, when two people love one another.

They care about one another.

They worry about one another.

To give what's missing out of life without being too serious.

To love in friendship as much as if relationship.

To learn if you can trust one another in a friendship in order to have a relationship.

To love one another very much without rushing into a relationship.

For a man and woman full in love in friendship with accepting whether it turns into a relationship or not. 1997 onwards

GOOD FRIENDSHIP.

This may be only friendly love, but to me it is good enough.
I don't think you need a boyfriend and girlfriend to love.
Male and female can still share a friendship to love.
My friendship will be here with you for however long you want me to be close to you.
I will never go away from you, unless you want me to.
I know we have been through the same thing, I know what you are going through.
Trying to move on from the people you love or loved is very hard to do, but somehow we must get on with our lives and get through.
We must try and see a future for ourselves the best way we can, but believe me I do understand that is very hard to do but all the same we must get through. 1999 to 2001

THIS IS THE REAL WORLD, NOT A DREAM WORLD.

In fairly-tale stories they say you have to kiss a good many ugly frogs to find your handsome Prince.
In my case I believe I have kissed handsome princes who have turned into ugly frogs.
Believe me, believe me not, I think my days of kissing handsome princes have gone.
Because I fear every handsome prince I kiss will turn into an ugly frog.

All the lovely things I used to dream, I thought would come true.
Now I am unhappy that everything I ever wanted hasn't happened to me and no chance will it be.
I blame myself, I fell in love far too young.
Little did I know everything was going to turn out wrong.
Now I can't love at all, because I am frightened of getting hurt again.
A male and female friendship forever more.
I must keep away from those ugly frogs. 1999 to 2001

possible missing poetry.

Change of feelings.

So I loved you so long ago.

It took years to stop feeling in love with you.

For the time we were together I thought it would never end.

I haven't felt that strong for anyone yet.

I want someone who loves me for me and who will never hurt me at all like you did. 18. 4.2014 - 14.8.2015

I missed you.

I missed you but you broke my heart.

You built my hopes up to think it would never end between us.

I have accepted the disappointment now and it's time to move on. 

I'm never going back to find in time that you would break my heart again. 

How can I honesty trust you?

Yes I can cope I have been through it so many times before with you but never again.

I have learned not everything goes the way I want.

You don't loved me the way you said you do, you just want to play with my mind.

That long love for you now has turned into hate and anger because of the way you hurt me and I put with it for so long, I loved you so much.

Now there's no going back you have to let go just like I had to when you didn't want me.

You haven't only blown it in the realtionship but our friendship, it was hard to be friends after been lovers so long.

Your loss, you let me go to start now it's too late for you because I don't love you anymore and I don't miss you anymore. 18.4.2014 - 14.8.2015

Writing comes from the mind.

So little time to write and so little time to type on my website.

Not easy to put down words in the way readers can read and understand.

Can't but think my work isn't clear, I just write that goes through my mind.

How strange is that mind of mine.

I'm no one special, I just write what I'm thinking with my pen.

Mostly my mind thinks to fast for my pen, I don't always have time to see if it makes sense. 18.4.2014 - 14.8.2015

Life in is bits and pieces.

Nothing is straight forward.

Everything is all over the place.

Nothing seems to stay where it should be.

Good in one way bad in another.

It would be a boring world if everything and everybody was the same.

We are all born to die whether we are human or an animal.

We think, we live our lives and we change.

We are our own people. 18.4.2014 - 14.8.2015

Over powered.

Over powered by government, how dare they control us.

Rules are needed but they go too far.

Yes life is what we make it but it's not true in all cases.

The rights to balance life not to be too easy or too hard.

Britain can be too tight and greedy with money.

Money doesn't buy love and happiness. 18.4.2014 - 14.8.2015

Writing travelling.

Not easy to write when traveling.

However' it is easy to write on the plane.

There's so much to see and do when writing on the plane.

It can be so hard to remember what happened on the holiday.

Even today's IT with pictures can remember where you have been.

I need to recognize planes and study maps.

I have done so much, I have a writer's block. 14.4.2014 - 18.8.2015

Passion for writing.

It takes me a while to think what to write.

Once I get a thought to write goodness knows when I will stop.

I have no talent just words, mostly words that don't mean a lot  that just come out somehow.

My mind can go blank before I write again.

My mind can work faster than my pen, which doesn't seem to make sense. 

Many people think because I am Dyslexic that I can't read and write.

My work is not necessary clear compared to non Dyslexic people.

Things seem to be written, read and said the wrong way round in order to make sense. 18.4.2014 - 14.8.2015

On the road.

On the road to Woodstock New York and the sun is shining.

Woodstock's history of 60s American bands.

It's hard to write while travelling in the car as the car moves with my mind.

It doesn't seem as if there are anymore poems to come. 18.4.2014 - 14.8.2015

You've gone out my mind.

Now it's time I'd got you off my mind.

Time to move on.

I need to move on.

I have to move on.

It's far too late for you to love me again, I can't let you break my heart again.

I have no more love for you to go back to anymore.

So much time has past to a point my mind is getting too stronger and stronger for you.

Now I have realized us parting has been the best thing to happen. 

All these years your love for me was all but one big lie.

I loved you so much now I hate you so much.

One day I will find myself stopping writing poetry about you.

Poetry is more like lines I need to sink into my head.

I have got over feeling in love with you now I need to get over the anger I feel towards you and forget you altogether until I feel nothing at all. 19.4.2014 - 15.8.2015

View

Mountains of Woodstock everywhere full of forests, trees and departments.

Old winter trees and new spring trees.

Green leaves all over the trees in the summer.

The deep blue sky without the clouds.

The long bumpy roads. 19.4.2014 - 15. 8 . 2015

It was warm.

Beautiful lakes, hills and forests.

People fishing on lakes.

The lakes seem to go forever.

The sky might be deep blue but not always warm. 19.4.2014 -  

Today.

Today will be a good day.

Today will be a warm day.

Whatever the weather there's ways of enjoying the day.

Think about the villages and shops of Woodstock.

The year of my birth when the American pop stars went into rock.

Jimi Hendricks playing in Woodstock over forty years ago.

Brain Jones lost his life in a swimming pool in England yet Jim Morrison lost his life same day different year in Paris.  

Neil Armstrong landed on the moon at the same time Brain Jones was sacked from the Rolling Stones. 19.4.2014 - 15.8.2015

Let's say it how it is.

Let's face the truth even though it will hurt.

There's no reason for us to keep going on and off in our realtionship so let's stop friends!

Your lucky your still in my life, I'm still your friend. 29.8.2015

Please tell me why?

Despite of not seeing a lot of each other we still have our ups and downs.

Nothing is straight forward or perfect, it would be a boring life if it was.

As we both love one another we should be number one to each other.

Things weren't easy for us before tell me why you finished with me twice?

Even though I love you I can't take no more of us been on and off, which is why I thought about us stopping the contacts to learn to accepted that we are not to be as a couple as much as I don't want us to stop the contacts. 30.8.2015

I don't want to hurt you or disappoint you.

This realtionship either stays on or stays off otherwise it's not good for either of us.

All human beings deservice to be loved and respected.

I know you didn't want to finish with me and hurt me but I understand your reasons behind this. 

Let's just keep it as friends now before you drive me to stop the contacts.

Some things we don't like to hear can sometimes be the truth. 30.8.2015

I don't know why I feel the way I do about you.

Sorry if I have been childish.

If I knew the reason why I feel the way I do about you, I would tell you the reason.

There's no easy way of saying it or writing it in the right words to the way you would read and understand due to my Dyslexia.

So sorry to give you the unexpected last night.

Just to let you know everything I said last night wasn't the drink, I mean't what I said I say what I mean and I wouldn't have led you on if the answer would have been yes but I'm not forcing what can't happen either. 

Everything you said I accept and sorry I told you the unexpected but then it wouldn't have been said if I didn't feel that way.

All the same I will do my best not to spoil a great friendship. May 2016. 

Let's just be mates!

Now is the time to be cruel to be kind.
No matter how we both feel we need to draw the line.
We live too far and between one another.
I know it's hard to accept but being just friends from now on is the right thing to do.
I don't want to blank you out my life but we need to be cruel to be kind and if don't accept you, you will drive me out your life altogether. 13. 6.2016


I will get you out of my mind.

Trying to get out of my mind is like writing lines when you are been naughty as a child in school.
You write it again and again to get the information in your mind what you must and mustn't do.
I have got you out of my life but I need to get you out of my head.
You didn't want me in your life when I was there then when I was out you wanted me back, I can't be doing with your games like that.
Your just not real your just poison to my head.
You are just made up, your just a nightmare and I didn't know you really.
You are all in my head.
I have walked away from you or at least I dreamt I did, I never really knew you.
I believe if I think like I do one day I will completely get over you.
You thought could break me so did I not anymore.
You thought you could poison, it felt like it to me but no.
You thought you could scar me, I felt scared by you but not anymore.
You don't kill me because all you are is just words and talk, You never always did what you said anyway.
You act hard as if you can break the whole world but as your Mum used to say, you bark is bigger than your bite.

How sad it must be to think your hard, your not happy unless someone is your emotional victim, surely I'm not the only one whose been there with you.
If only those who don't know you knew like I do, the reason they don't is because you go around as if your Mr Nice Guy as if butter won't melt in your month, you seem very charming but underneath you are a mind player mainly when it comes to relationships, I pity whoever you are with now if you are with anyone.
You are just a bully whose not happy unless your upsetting someone emotionally.
What goes around comes around, like when you finished with me I had to accept it, it was hard but I got through, when I left your life total different story. 6.7.2016

May be I am not the best. 

I never try to be better compared to anyone for anyone.
I don't except anyone to see me as the best.
In me is what you see is what you get but if you don't like that just walk away!
I'm not loaded with money, which is not important. 
I am what I am and I don't try to be someone I am not.
I am no one but me, take me as I am or don't take me at all.
Like everyone I can be in the wrong and the right, I will admit that.
I am not perfect no one is and I am human like everyone.
If don't want me in your life, just say and I will walk away.  9.7.2016


What it must be like to be you.

You thought you could keep me as a victim of your love forever but you thought wrong and I walked away.
You throw me away twice and picked me back up, throw me away so I was taking no more of your childish mind games. 
I will keep writing poetry until I get you out of my mind, if I can leave your life, I can get you out of my mind.
You may have left me a mess but you haven't, you don't have to pick up the piece I can do that myself like I have been doing so for the past nine years.
I am not letting you mess me around no more.
I bet your life has been nothing without me, why should I care because you cared nothing about me you only pretended to be.
I cared more about you than you did about me, I can't believe I did for so long, I wasted so much over you. 
I have gone out of it for good because you were never grateful when I was there.
No one could never know what you were like.
It must be so sad to not be happy with whatever your life is like.
If I would have accepted you back a third time you would have messed me round again and again, I'm not putting up with that for the rest of my life 13 and a half years was more than enough to put with someone like you.

No one could ever know what's it's like to be, to not know what you want and not to be happy however your life is, that shows just how ungrateful and what a loser you really are. 9.7.2016 

Love is truly blind.

I deeply loved you and trusted you but not anymore.
I believed you loved me long time ago but now I believed that was just a lie, I can't believe you led me on for 13 and a half years on and off.
I was so blind it took me all that time to realize.
For years after we slip you made it so hard for me to have trust in other but slowly I am building that trust back up again.
One way or the other, I will not let you anymore spoil my life 10.7.2016 - 11.7.2016