Autism poems

 

It's easy to understand why you may think we may be rather strange.

Unaware of your thoughts, feelings, and the world around us but you may be thinking are they unaware.

Unless you know us really well, it is hard to believe in what we are and who we are.

 However, we are all human just like you. 

We don't see ourselves as special people even though we are classed as special needs, we don't see ourselves as the only people that matter or a center of attention, although it may seem like that to you.

We just struggle to think before we react and we are very sorry about that.

We don't mean be here and there's no way we would have planned our problems to affect our lives to affect you too, life made us this way, whether we were this way or not.

It makes sense why you may think all this is intended even though it's not because our problems are all hidden.

Sorry for being here, sorry for being hard at work and costing too much but then no, wanting to and not wanting to is a choice, we were born whether we like it or not, we have Autism whether we like it or not, which wasn't a choice either. 

We don't expect the whole world to live their lives around us but we have positives in us as well as negatives like everyone else but in different ways to one and different ways to you, we just need the right support to be independent and achieve what we want and what needs to be. 

Hear our voice! 

Yes, okay we show our positive not to be anyone special or even to be liked, important, etc but to show not every part of us is negative, we can achieve in something as much as you it, it just may take a little longer.

If we are going to be seen otherwise don't show our work when we have gone, show it while we are here!

Most of us when we were in school learned nothing and left with nothing to show for ourselves but somehow positives because of us, we don't need to be famous for this to happen.

However' before I say this the last thing we want and what we don't want is to be felt sorry for as if we are the only ones in life that matter and we don't want to be the only ones classed as special or the best either, we just want you to know we do have positives. 

Getting to the point most of us through school years faced bullying etc, we fear that we are hard work for society and we cost too much, which society tends to make us feel like that at times and most of us can feel as if life is not worth living but despite of that we don't want to be felt sorry for and be considered as if only our matter, we are not trying to be those we are not, we don't intend to be. 

We don't ask for a lot in life other than the right support we need when we need it.  http://www.asperger-syndrome.me.uk/people.htm

https://blog.ongig.com/diversity-and-inclusion/famous-people-with-autism/

Don't tell me!

Don't tell me I am not real because I am.

You don't need to do anything just hear my voice, which is real but you don't need to respond unless you want. 

I once thought I was crazy,  mad, thick, stupid but not anymore.

I thought I was nothing and no one but yes I am someone but no one other than I am me. 

Don't tell me any difficulty, if you like my words tell me while I am here not when I have gone! 

I have not forgotten what it was like to be a child with Autism even though at the time I didn't know I was.

Someone calling my name was like someone waking me up to the world.

I felt a little a button that one could turn on and off, amount as if I didn't expect anyone to speak to me as weird as it may sound now.

However' I never understood why I was like I was, I still don't understand why I was how I was then or how I am today if I am completely honest, it's like a feeling I cannot explain.

Sorry, I cannot speak for others the same or similar like me, I can only speak for me.

Yes, I know that sounds you completely selfish, it's hard to be any other only when you have you inside you, unless someone says yes, I feel that too. 

As a child, I used to meltdown because I couldn't express myself, these days I get mildly Anxious. 

Struggling to say things without been misunderstood, which didn't happen all the time but most of the time which no more different these days. 

This can be a struggle for those who don't know me or should I say even those who don't know me well. 

However' I know now as I am not alone whereas before, although it wasn't the case but it seemed as if I was the only one living in this world, which I didn't know then was the Autism world.  

I didn't start writing poetry till Adulthood.

As a child, I couldn't comprehend information to research.

I even struggled to use my own mind to a point most teachers even asked me if I was in this world or not. 

Like I could read what words said but never understood what they were about.

Strange to think I was amazed to discover reading and writing poetry in my late twenties not only due to a mental breakdown but to be inspired by an old poet John Keats who was facing similar.